rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Monday, April 23, 2007
-4:05 PM
i have no idea why but i do became more cheerful after i read psalm. somehow on seeing that the writer loves the WOG so much yet he faces fear of dishonouring His laws, makes me felt that i learn more abt His ppl and throughout ages, ppl faces challenges from God. But how many will face all those things with God's guidance?
Psalm 119: 17 - 24, u will see how the author crave for the laws of God, the commands of God and knowing if God do good to him, he will live. He acknowledge that the laws, commands of God are the only way to guide his survival on human world as he calls himself a stranger.
He saw the disgusting side of the arrogant and how they were cursed ppl who did not follow the commands of God. However he had his own struggle, he face struggles of scorn and contempt which he asked God to remove them from his life as he obey the statutes of God.
God's Word is his delight and his counsel. I have been thinking. In my life, what is the important thing that i hold on so closely to? What are the things I will do when i am down? Do i scorn the WOG in some sense. Is God's word my delight and my guide to living on earth?
I realise i have been living life deem my own. I love God but i doubt i will be like peter jumping into the water once he knew the one on the shore is Jesus. Sat's sermon is kinda touching to me. I felt that peter wearing the clothes before jumping into the water is to show his respect for God as he didnt want to appear naked before the almighty one, at least it is proper and by his jumping into the water i can see how much he love the Lord. But his love was described only as fillial love. In that case, what about me?
If God ask me if i have love him, i dun dare to answer, cause he knew me the best and by asking i fear what is coming. but in any case. I knew i want to and love the ppl ard me as that is the commands of Jesus=) to feed his sheep. Be it the lovable or the unlovable as i was such an unlovable and yet he saved me.
Well, i played with the bros and my buddy and cherry lan on sat. haha... thanks the bros for playing cs eh though i know you all will very much want to play other games=>
Friday, April 20, 2007
-10:52 AM
Ume is the flower for the Song Sheng ming zhi hua... Lets see what wikipedia says abt it:
Chinese see the blossoms as mote of a symbol for winter rather than a harbinger of spring.
It is precisely for this reason that the blossoms are so beloved, because they bloom most vibrantly amidst the winter snow...
And if i am not wrong, you see this flower on my blog.. yes, it is the flower on top...
How beautiful it is that the Lord protects this flower allowing it to withstand all the hardship. This is why Ume is so beautiful and it is also why christians are so strong and different in that song.
Beautiful isnt it=)
Thursday, April 19, 2007
-11:01 AM
I am a little depressed today...didnt know why, i wonder if it is because ystd ceo thingy or what... but seeing all the shooting cases happening in the world, the preacher's wife shot her husband after being physical and sexually abused by him... with the virginia campus shooting.
This world is sick. Too sick!!! Jesus please come and heal this world. I see my parents working so hard for nothing, living day to day, going to temples in order to get their needs answered, and when their gods did not reply them, my dad would like scold them. So god to them is to satisfied an inner hope and desire that they want.
I used to be trapped by this thought, is god only to satisfied my desire, then coming to christianity is it only for me to satisfy that hole in my heart. But somehow, when i realise tt how great, majestic and powerful my God is, i destroy this thought. my heavenly Father is so much different than the normal religion, because it is NEVER ABOUT US!!! ALL ABT HIM=)
You see the different?
So before i actually read up the Bible itself, which i intended to read the blue psalms 119 book; i read up on news, i blog and if afternoon i am free, i shall do my BS on psalms119. Been thinking, Our God is the God of love, joy peace, how come i felt so down? perhaps i didnt reach my own expectation and i didnt expect the system to hang causing me to look like a noop/b at work.
I wanna learn driving, but i am broke. My operation in pending, hope to get it this year, if possible, the next time i went for dental, i will be able to go for booking of the op.
Yuhang's poly thing left only today and tml, if God permits, someone will quits that course and he will be able to get in. Indeed, i am gan chong for him, however, i think God is going to provides the best way for him, maybe he got into stuctural and civil engineering which he wanted else EEE, which had more possibility due to the spaces. Or perhaps God will allow him to work a while before he got back to study. Watever it is, Caicai, dun ever doubt that God don't love you, cause He does it more than you expect, and he would rather u blame him now and appreciate Him later. Just put your faith in Him.
2 happy thing, Yu's mom is back and we are going to be 1 yr old. well, instead of buying present for each other, we decides to do a puzzle together, then in future hang it on our house=) Nicey rite. I remember vince asking me, whats my dream, i told him to marry yu, but looking at that i hope more that we could be found serving, involving in God's ministry=)
The CEO is good, with many songs stuck in my head=) Let me cont to love O'Lord...
Friday, April 13, 2007
-9:28 AM
its friday the 13th and though i have took 3 bus to work today and was late, i have to admit, somehow it is not a bad thing...
okie, i miss 970 by 10 steps away, then despite waiting, being patient and submitting to the fact that i will be late, i took 77 in order to chase the 970 in front.
In side my heart been telling and asking God, what He wants me to learn? haha... to be patient? or because He love me, He will stop time for me... then again, too selfish...
Was suppose to alight at Holland V but i miss 2 bus stop, somehow, my legs are reluctant to move.. from that current bus stop, i need to cross the road, and then walk under highways to the other side of the road and i took 106 in thinking that at least i will go to somewhere familiar where i could change a bus. Perhaps ppl will feel irritated but i didnt...perhaps i have been thinking, the most i am just late...
oh ya, ard Holland V there, the song on my mp3 was playing sth relating to God's grace every morn... then i thought... hmm.. Lord, how to see it at my point.. but i realise, it is easy, I just have to look outside the window, that is His grace, His Love, isn't it=)
Then i saw 970 behind the traffic, i alighted and took 970 again... and when i sat down, my mp3 was playing the song " The Solid Rock" .. Hahah... then i smiled. Well, God i know Your are the Solid rock and you are the Almight God, because of all this little thing ain't worth me doubting You=) Somehow, what i feel is not so much of God teaching me sth, or He trying to show sth, but i sense a closeness, like somehow He is playing with me.. (That's the feeling) Haha...
When I reached my workplace, this thought, hmm... do i know God more? then the verse i had been mediating this week pop out...
"Before I was afflicted, I went astray, But now i obey your commands" Psalms 119:67
Well, wow... I understand... Be Patient? haha
Anyway... Ystd i had been very tired, though suppose to support Charles in a way but i have been looking lerthagic... sorry charles and those bros and sis who are ard... I took a plastic bag by mistakes and was so shocked but thanks CaiCai put it back for me... hahah... ARH... so paisay...
Then the worse thing is the taxis driver that took me yu mike and vince... He was so rude can... i had a hard time forgiving him but guess God wants us to love, and my theme for tml worship is Love, so i really struggle a bit before i could get to sleep. But thanks Yijie for praying for me, God answers=)
And also, I really see a change after i decide with ling that this week we are going to pray for the same thing, our heart's concern... i felt the Love...
Yu message me this verse sometime earlier this week "Hatred formed dissension but Loves covers all " or sth like that, well , i think it is very true(how can i say the Bible's not true anyway) but i realise to obey the word. we got to constantly pray=)
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
-4:25 PM
The signs are obvious, they are everywhere
All that we hear about is the gloom and despair
Too many would be prophets saying"It’s the end of it all"
‘Cause mother earth can’t take much more
The hammer’s gonna fall
So nature has its needs, that’s a lesson learned
But it appears to me there are greater concerns
‘Cause we can save the planetThinkin’ we will somehow survive
But father time is calling us
To save somebody’s life
Chorus:
So I won’t bend and I won’t break
I won’t water down my faith
I won’t compromise in a world of desperation
What has been I cannot change
But for tomorrow and today
I must be a light for future generations
If we could find a way to preserve our faith
So those who follow us
See the price that was paid
Then maybe when they question
What it’s gonna take to survive
They’ll find the strength to carry on
In what we leave behind
So I won’t bend and I won’t break
I won’t water down my faith
I won’t compromise in a world of desperation
What has been I cannot change
But for tomorrow and today
I must be a light for future generations
Lookin’ in the eyes of the children
Knowing that tomorrow is at stake
When the choice is up to them
Will they have the strength to say
We won’t bend and we won’t break
we won’t water down our faith
We won’t compromise in a world of desperation
What has been we cannot change
But for tomorrow and today
We must be a light for future generations
We won’t bend and we won’t break
we won’t water down our faith
We won’t compromise in a world of desperation
What has been we cannot change
But for tomorrow and today
We must be a light for future generations
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
-4:33 PM
This is one fun day I had with my YF... thanks GenX i must say, as this programme is interesting and lively...
Thanks Yijie for being my guinee pig, I am quite proud of my art piece though in army, it will be like make-up classes or the sir will be saying that is a watermelon or what... but i still love it=) hahaha
