rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
-4:03 PM
i love sleeping with my sisters, with all the late night talking and stuff.
i love cooking with my group.
i love family like feeling to be together though we had our own life outside.
kaien like her hairstyle.
rebec got sth out from the camp.
Vegetable(copyright reserve) finally open up to share out his thoughts.
Actually i think the last night is pretty funny.
Ok, nothing much to say, there are unhappy times too, but all resolve by the love of Jesus=)and the work of Jesus!!!
Anyway, i am going for the operation on 18th July. gotta go for lots checks-up and stuff. and i realise it was not tt ex after all. but still quite ex
Thursday, May 24, 2007
-8:41 AM
Yeah... i think this has been my earlier day reaching office before 830 for weeks... or months... haha... That stupid 970 lor... Next time i have to pay more in order not to be late eh... got to take 61 then change bus.
Camp is just tml. so fast. My heart is so not prepared. It is going to last till tuesday but i guess i will leave on monday morning. I had dental appt. Really hope that this time round my doctor will be around. Suppose to be consultation stage where the doctor is going to tell me if i am ready for the operation.
just hope tt it will be a sunny day!!
today i am not going to meet anyone again. but hope that i will be good and settle all the household chores... the clothes... man.. didnt know how long i have not been doing all these. The floor is soooo dusty and i have run out of clothes to wear cause all my clothes are ot iron...
Anyway, on tues, went for the ACCA talk with yu, and he signed up, so my future husband is going to be an accountant provided he pass, which i believe he will eh. Hmm.. high income but no time... Guess i have to learn not to be everytime Wu Li Qu Nao..hee, which is the rights of a gf bah.. gee. But the main point i wanna bring out is that he got a mickey mouse shirt and black t-shirt at a cheap price and i like it a lot=) cheers!!!
Monday, May 21, 2007
-10:04 AM
I must post this picture eh, copied from Kaien's blog. hahaha. Though that day i was quite tired but i am so attracted to the unity of the fellowship and also to the pretty birthday girl=) haha!!
That was tues, monday i went to SBC to payy Liu Wei some ppt we made before, then wed we had YF meeting. (Somehow i like those gatherings in the middle of the week, though at first i will normally be lazy to go)
Yep, then on thurs we had praise and worship prac,after tat buddy sent me home...so sweet of her to sent me back. then on friday, rest day(stay at home with yu to watch HK show-Qian Huang Bai Ji)
On sat, praise and worship, kaien came to fetch me in the morning, and sinliang. haha.. we went to buy breakfast and head for the tradehub. we start our practise officially at 1130. Winson, sarah and me are trying so hard to contain our voices. hee~ i thought the unity within the team is not bad. somehow, i see love, from everybody.
Then it was the actually thing, I thank God so much for answering my prayer of giving me a good voice, i thank God for allowing the drum to work well. Although a true worship focus is not in the instrument and stuff, we tried our best to give the best we can give. The best environment we can provide for ppl to come into the house of worship.
WenGuang also provide useful pointers for me how to lead in the worship. the technical side, but my heart is personally encouraged by God when i tried to memorise the following verses with Yuhang.
It was in Psalm 119, the last 8 verses:
May my cry come before You O'Lord;GIve me understanding according to Your word.
May my supplication come before You;
Deliver me according to Your promise.
May my lips overflow with praise;
for you teach me your decrees.
May my tongue sing of Your Word;
for all Your commands are righteous.
May Your Hands be ready to help me;
for i have chosen Your precepts.
How I long for your salvation, O Lord,
For Your law is my delight
I have strayed like a lost sheep,
seek your servant;
for i have not forgotten your commands
Isnt that so sweet of this prayer to God just at this time when i am going to lead a worship. This is my prayer to God as well. I respect the psalmist for knowing where he is (lost) and his heart to seek God.
The whole week, i was not or did not really and properly sit down and have tea with God but still He grace is sufficient. He tell me how his servant pray to Him, how i should lead a worship, what kind of attitude i should bring.
Well, i think we can have talented ppl all around, but to really seek God, seek to worship Him is our own heart. It is not abt anything, of course the environment might affects but when we began to see human, we won't see God. God has been teaching me how to see Him and only him though many times i have strayed away like a sheep. I am still learning. It is hard especially when worshipping, every little things can draw my attention.
I curse my own selfish, judgemental heart that forbid me to see God. I thank God for showing His love thru the cross. I lead the song ' When i survey the wondrous cross' though it kidna bring down the mood but i really love that song. how the writer see himselves when he pondered upon the death of God.
Sunday was another day i learnt from another persective to look to the Bible. Shall share more when i have the chance.
"Jesus, how worthy u are for us to praise and adore You. Your Name is beyond all names! So sorry that many times Your name be down graded by us, and Your grace became cheap grace. May all ppl whom You have chosen live a life worthy of the gospel of You. " Tuesday, May 15, 2007
-10:44 AM
Praise & Worship this sat.
Camp Next Sat
E-Day next next Sat...
Stress man.., couldnt really think of anything for E-day and when i think abt it, got ideas, i find it a drag to carry it out.. haiz
Just so sad my heart grew lazier each day...
I was mean to yuhang on the phone just now, i know. I am feeling just so irritated inside, and yet i took it out in the person closest to me.
Haix... Guess it is tuesday blue...
Sorry Caicai..
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
-5:46 PM
i intended to go for dental but my doc was on mc
and since i had taken leave from work, i decide to spend the day sun tanning
yeah...
It was fun. so many days the sun had been too hot but ystd, it was just alrite
Thank God for the wonderful weather,
Seems like God knows that i am going to the beach, hence He provided
a mild yet hot weather.
And after that went to Jiahao house for IBS...
I thought i speak lots of logical rubbish. hee~ wats that
Abt the Trinity and before God create the creation and such: Deut 29:29...Solve all Questions...
haha
Friday, May 04, 2007
-10:12 AM
Oh man... i really feel that i am old already...
Tonight there is night cycling and the idea of not sleeping bothers me...
Okie... Guess I am old after all, not as in the physically cause i know kaien older(hahaha)
But my mentality eh
After all, I have been in working environment for more than a year...
I still love my school!!!
I know that once i reach there tonight, everything will be fun.
I love fellowship, the bros + sis!!! lovable people.
Anyway, I just ate a slice of papaya, bee hoon with fish cake and i am now eating yogurt for breafast.
That is a lot i must admit...
eat until i am super tired already...
Had a little miscom with Rebec... haha... wanted to know how much i appreciate her
but i think my english is getting worse(haha)
anyway, things cleared, love you babe.
Gotta say i must thank my dear buddy also.
Wondering how work will be like without her..
Can say every morning is our talking time... thru message
then when i am bored at work she will msn with me...
Can say She will never be absent.
Thanks babe!!!
Yuhang has decided he want to take ACCA le.
and he should be going down to register with his sis tml.
Jiayoh my beloved boyfriend.
Study well, then can earn a living, then can support me mah... hahaha
But watever the watever, God made a way for you, hasnt He?
Praise be the almighty Father forever and ever
I got to get the songs for P & W out by sun, kaien said...
" Lord, what sort of worship u like? "
Thursday, May 03, 2007
-3:21 PM
The Church
The Body Of Christ
I hereby wanna declare my praise to the Almighty Lord that i am part of this family
With Jesus as the lead.
He who is the fortress, the comfortor, the LOVER of all
Without him, what is a church but people
I came to S-Word thru Peihwa, then Glory then now...
All the way, i have seen my heart.
To Stay; To leave
Stay because of all the goodness i taste from God,
Leave because the wood in my eyes cover me from seeing the goodness and grace from God
Humility is something i am still learning as it is of too much important
to survive in this deprave world
Seen a phrase on a car during my studies at Ngee Ann: "Christians are not perfect"
It does not mean harm, but i realise it is true, my eyes been too proud to acknowledge that
Christians are not perfect, that is why we sooo much need the grace from God and from His ppl
God's grace been sufficient for all of us.
I have to acknowledge that I just wanna follow God's law.
Many times i failed but i thank the God for continue to accept me.
Many times i see ppl fail and i blame them for making me fall.
Wenjun, wenjun, who are u to even judge or comment about my ppl.
Don't because u are far from me, let judgement come to you.
Hence, I prayed, keep praying, and praying
Not for just for myself but for those i have issue about
Thank the soveriegn Master for granting me love for them.
Love spurs me to go on=)
-1:27 PM
I cant think of a title for my blog entry.
Anyway, things are getting better in my office, Thank God.
Have watched:
I like the 200 pound beauty more as compared to spiderman=) Didnt like the stupid spidey kissing that girl in his gf precence... For the 200 pound, the girl is pretty and the boy is handsome... For spiderman, the whole show is a highlight and it lasts for 2.5hr... can say i am very entertained but the plot is kinda ... hmm...
