rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
-3:18 PM
Had flu the past whole week...
not the ah choo ah choo type but the whole body whobbly kind.
mc yesterday, rest at home.
but still very tired. practically didnt attend any of what i am suppose to do for the past weekend.
suppose to go for camp trial run then the camp meeting yesterday, suppose to attend the song leader training and then lead the gospel worship for china fellowship this sun. All these i skipped.
this illness wasnt making me very responsible either...
just the feel of taking everything off my mind and rest. which i did for a while yesterday.
I really miss the sun light shinning into my room.
the smell of sun light.
lying on my bed on an afternoon, just doing nothing. appreciating the surrounding.
the quietness.
It was used to be a norm, until i started working and all these became a luxury, a privilage.
When i am sick or take leave, that was when i could enjoy all these.
It makes no much different some would say but i really really miss and treasure it .
The time to rest. The sunlight shinning into my house.
Friday, November 21, 2008
-3:15 PM
been doing nothing except surfing the net, cleaning my nose on tissue, watch stupid emails.
I didnt wanna watch show eh, cause i think that is my relax time at home and didnt want to be sooooo engrossed into a show.
Anyway i realise since the first cd i watched, Corner with love, i have been v into taiwan show and total watched over 10++ drama in this year. or may reach 20.
Anyway, yesterday watch to the center of the earth with korkor, quite funny the show and quite nice i think. Then kor tell me, his friend was mailed a lawyer letter from a company from downloading an animation 2 years ago.... 2 YEARS AGO...
Maybe the company is going bankrupt, hence decided that should ask those who watched the show illegally to pay some charges.. He was fined for 3k plus i think. that is scary...
Huiying told me once about loving = showing support for the orignal, but at the same time, sam also let me know that actually the real artist did not take the much money as they deserve, cause the record company took majority of it.
Anyway, i think i should help to think of the path ba, though i think it is a little stupid to think of it now, not knowing about what it is going to happen there and the things available there. i am just pretty in a mess about the church camp. or actually not lah, i just like to be very organised in the things i am suppose to do and not.
Just like the fire safety thing, i should have do it as a part time. But.... the fear of meeting up with ppl. arh... wenjun is becoming more "girlish" i remember that time i was still telling rebec, i wanna be a buddy buddy gf, and she the girly kind, then in the end, i am the super girly kind. worse than her she was telling me. haha.. cause i like softoys, and i like romantic, urm... that sounded normal bah.. haha.. watever
listing the shows i've watched (if i remember) ever since my op 2007 July:
1) brown sugar macchiato
2) bull fighting
3) corner with love
4) Devil Beside you
5) fated to love you
6) hei Tang Qun Xia Chuan
7) hot shot
8) Hana Kimi (Taiwan version)
9) Hana Kimi (Jap Version)
10) Hana Yori Dango (Jap Version)
11) Hana Yori Dango 2 (Jap Version)
12) They Kiss again
13) KO One
14) The X Family
15) Mr Lucky Star
16) Summer X Summer
17) Prince turn to frog
18) Rolling Love
19) Smiling Pasta
20) The Magician of Love
21) Why Why Love
22) Coffee Prince (Korean)
23) Ying Ye 3+1
24) A game about love
Cannot finish shows:
1) Love Contract
2) Tyoko Juliet
Still Watching:
1) Miss no good
2) Woody Sambo
3) Pi Li MIT
4) 18 Jin bu Jin
5) love or bread (considering if i wanna watch it)
that is pretty scary i realise... i shall control but anyway, the shows i am currently watching are aired once a week, hence i couldnt really rush and didnt have the mood to rush for this kinda show le... haha...
Thursday, November 20, 2008
-1:33 PM
I lunched in today.
Cindy and Maggie went to orchard but i dun really feel like going.
Very tired today... must be because of the wu di san bao mei and 18 jin bu jin. Oh, not forgetting the vacumn of floor.
Was thinking of not eating the medicine cause it will make me drowsy but in the end i still eat it cause i wasnt really feeling well. Now, i have finished my stuff, work stuff...
This sun suppose to have another Song leading at china fellowship gospel service and also got the church camp trial run. oh no... i need to come out with the "path" one of the station thing.
Just popped two panadol extras as the drowsy monster creeped into my brain. ok, i think i shall be able to last throughout the day ba.
Though nothing to do, still a bit stress with all that is coming up though it seems nothing much as well....
-11:26 AM
Been on medical leave for mon and tues,
Today is thurs, yesterday busy with the bidding of coe and many would say i sure didnt really do much cause coe for cat a is $2/-. well there are a lot of last min entries but mostly i couldnt enter the bids, too laggy already the whole system.
Still felt quite tired and sick... the dreamy dreamy feeling is back.
I remember there was once i felt so, and rebec was like keep calling me, and then i am ok. like soul difting ard.. haha.. but of course not lah. maybe it is just the flu that is making me feel that way.
Kor kor is sick too, he had fever for a few days maxi goes up to 39++ degree. Now he is resting at home and i am here at work. Must be yesterday i slept too late. i slept at 11.30. perhaps i need to sleep at 8.30 then i will feel genki today.
hmm, maybe someone will be asking, what did i give yuhang for birthday present. urm... sorry to say, no iphone (the contract thing is a little mafan); no true religion or energie jeans as we both agree that it was too ex. and so when we walk around town on friday and mon, i just got him a panguein t-shirt from slurp and also a mushroom on sun when yf celebrated his bd.
arh... felt so bad, sorry dear, cause i wasnt feeling well and hence didnt really spent this bd with him in a special way. just a simple dinner on friday night at spagetties with his loved carbonara (but apparently didnt taste so nice that day) and some shopping in town.
And also, on sunday, I finish teaching Jinyan BCL, ops... told pr chua i taught 2 lesson and got scolding. was not supposed to cause it was not about teaching finish the prospect but to really mentor her life in this 8 session.
This is WenJia, Huilin BCL prospect. well, this picture was not taken during sunday but last last week. she went back to China this few weeks le.
And this is my dear man man with the new big red mushroom.
And me and my dear on the bus on his birthday. we watched 2 shows 1) constantine 2)Prince Caspian before heading to see the doctor which need to wait for almost 2 hours then i finally see the doc.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
-1:45 PM
I am getting used to my new hairstyle which cost only $4...
Hmm... i think it gives me a fresher look and younger. haha~
ystd met up with ying, saw this 3/4 which cost $59...At first we thought it was really nice and that's it but i realise i have been thinking about it since ystd.
Hmm, maybe i'll get it cause it is unique. the bottom is kinda connected giving the skirt pants feel. Anyway i just like it. thinking if i should wait after i went shopping with yu in town then design
Hmm... sun is yu bd, didnt really have any idea what to do yet... any suggestions for nice nice place?
Oh ya, my appraisal is coming up soon. i have filled my part,now is my sup filling the others and grading me. It is like in school, there is exams and tests and i guess in work that is appraisal. A higher pay, a higher position or what depends on this end year appraisal.
And ya, i wanna go oversea... didnt really know where to go due to my financial boundaries but i will really love to have a break to see the world. Maybe that could be my retirement plan. Provided that the Lord has yet to come.
Suddenly, all that i am suppose to do became so limited.
Blogger still dont allow me to post pictures...
the rubber bands that are suppose to adjust my teeth is hurting but i really wanna do with this whole month and thats it... next year before new year i should be able to be done with it.
Thank God...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
-2:40 PM
my company com cannot post pictures i didnt know why.
There are so much things that i will like to post about my life but been rather busy lately
Church Camp PPT and IT stuff, YF weekly updates (not neccesary means the blog), and 2 weeks of song leading, 2 BCL students and one more, my dear dear bd this sun (though i haven really been busy about that).
lately been rather packed with ministry and i enjoyed it but sometimes i am thinking did i treasure the ministry more then God. pls pray for me now if you are reading my blog. Will be very very appreciated. Leave a tag if you want me to pray for you back. haha...
Anyway watched 007 on mon after maggie's husband commented that it was the worst show he has ever seen. However, i thought it was not that bad.
Yesterday went for the trial run for church special program. well, i must say that though i am only an IT support which doesnt really get in contact with the planning of the pro, but i am glad i was able to be involved. It really makes me realise, this ministry that i am in is not a one-man show but teamwork is highly involved. Working with ppl older than you makes you learn basically.
Well, last sun really had fun participating in the song leading of china fellowship. at first there was some prob with the ppt, hence i lead halfway, justin leow took over the crowd as he was my support singer then i fix it and run back. THen i was panting, so i basically requested him to sing and lead the crowd in the next song while i catch my breath back. And perhaps you were like thinking, that is such a short distance. and yes, my body is failing me... no exercise at all makes a little running seems like km away.. haha.. not so kua zhang lah...
then rebec, kaien, yile, justin leow and me was down at silver studying for our BCL, while weiyang and justin ng was teaching guitar. It has been so long since i really got a chance to be "studying" with my fellows bros and sis.
Then the song leading by justin, me and rebec and support was fun as well. we were so hype up... and we were thinking actions for the songs sang. and the china bros and sis they were v cooperative and supportive. very encouraging to be worshipping with them.
However, the BCl i taught, the 2 BCL i thought for sun wasnt so good. the students are rather distracted. maybe because i seems a be messy in my teaching to them. i didnt go word by word but tried to capture the main points. hmm... this coming week i am teaching jinyan the last lesson already. and for xueman, is lesson 4. think i really need to buck up as well. to really do as what i am teaching and asking them to do. i am just like a drunk teacher that is teaching the students not to drink. of course i am not drunk now.. but if u know what i mean.
anyway... yf stamp chop is going to be done with the help of my colleague, she manage to ask my company stationary supplier to help with it, but of course the money comes from me, but i am really thankful for her help and thanks to kaiwei for designing it.
ok... seems like i like doing a lot of things? so far i am enjoying every bits of it. just that the cab fare is a little ex. haha... hmm... maybe next year we should state clearly more of what we have to do so we wun cross into other ppl boundary... hahaa...
Thursday, November 06, 2008
-9:52 AM
Today it rain in the bright sunlight...
i was sleeping in the bus and the moment i open my eyes i could see raindrop falling from the sky.
The sunlight makes it even more obvious then usual.
I was late. And the moment i reached, my colleague didnt really talk to me but call me asking me if i wanna go for lunch in town...i haven really quite settle down yet actually.
so when she started by saying, i thought i are not coming to work today i replied harshly, it was raining outside.
Actually i was just awe by the sunshine rain. Hoever, i felt that i am pretty rude and i apologise over msn. by the way, her seat is just ard 3m away from my seat.
Ok... and then back to work...
I felt that i keep packing myself with things... i need to see the author of creation so that my black dots will drop off... if only we could do it.
Monday, November 03, 2008
-2:49 PM
My last week happier days...
Last week actually pretty challenging... faces lots of different emotion.
Always feel like blogging about a lot of stuff but many times i will be lazy to blog abt them.
And yep... i went bowling with yile, mike, xiang, yu and ying.... on friday
Wanted to go K actually but chinatown one is fully booked and chevron is too...
hence we went bowling.
le took the 8kg, i took the 9kg...
The two brothers acting cool
er... this is mike the coach teach yuhang how to get a good score
ermmm... the couple trying to act pro?.. hahahaha
Erm, my bf took picture that day a bit weird...
either he look at the camera and be stiff or he does weird weird pose
Oh ya, other ppl are having company event, which had cather food, and they simple join in the fun.
Don't doubt what my bf is doing cause i dun understand as well.. hahaha
gay buddy...ops!
me and ying, arh..i realise i lost the teenage face.. so sad... i now look old... as in... arh.. u should understand.. thinking if i should start using products... haha
le and ying
The first game... just a start off...
then we all improved.. haha... ying left halfway, hence mike took over.
Saturday.... We celebrated Sarah's birthday...
me and bestie...
Sunday i wasnt feeling the best cause yuhang is trying to ignore me... hence i was actually feeling quite sad... and thank God there was her...
hmm... actually the whole thing is v stupid.. cause sat i wanted time alone hence i told yuhang to go home earlier, and he was not quite in the mood too and hope that i will be there for him, but from the start till the end, i am trying to get him to go home, hence he felt worse.
And when he like keep didnt wanna go off i am like thinking he doesn understand me, i am just trying to be honest in saying what i felt.
but all in all, sunday i see him he still like ignore me ignore me like that, then we resolve by messaging each other. i was angry that he dun understand and he was angry thinking that i always take him for granted.
before the BCL session at night, we sort of resolve it. we just state our point. hmm... guess it is nobody fault, just that at that point of moment we wanted our own ways.
And me with the birthday girl...
Then i was telling kaien and her, remember the bedrooms girls... haha.. now all is attached except the chairman. of course not to stress her, maybe the time is not ripe yet.
Will keep u in prayer=)
Everything in God's timing bah...
