rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Monday, May 24, 2010
-8:18 PM
22 May: The first time Yuhang never send me down to take a taxi. The day we give in $1000 deposit for our house.
I really thank those who have been praying for us.
For those that have been in this road alongside with us.
Thank You!!!
Today, we are going to pay the other $4000 to seal the deal.
Been so busy lately that I didnt have time to blog, to do things of my own.
Meetings packed all the way for the last few days, other then that is going out.
And somehow I realise I may have neglected my family.
And did I mentioned that my 2 immediate supervisor at work quit which makes the total no. of ppl who quit the job increase to 17 and 3 transfer out to other department ever since I arrive in this company.
Today is also another day where I am so packed at work. I didnt manage to finish my work by 7.30 but I decide i shouldnt make my parents wait so long plus i am really kinda cannot work le.
My mum called at 6.30 to my work place to see if I was still there cause they wanted to fetch me to the meeting which was suppose to be at 7.30 at lot one.
However the meeting was cancelled and change to teleconference at 10pm which i will sign the house contract before that. As I assume that my parents had dinner and so i told yu i go his house eat...and the heartaching thing was when I was on the ride home, my mum cried knowing that I am getting married soon.
Haiz!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
-11:35 AM
Totally no mood to work today.
First is because the things at work is so urgent and I am getting stress everywhere, yet nothing could be done which makes me irritated and didnt feel like proceeding.
Second, the flat that we once again decide that we wanted to get it got problems again and most likely we will not get it. It is at Blk 150 Jalan Teck Whye, Value 337k and asking for 35k. One couple offered 30k and we offered 31k.
Yesterday we are supposed to go down to negogiate with the owner, however she mentioned that she couldnt decide if she wants to sell it or rent it out. And hence, after dinner, we went back home. I was feeling rather uncomfortable since yesterday noon. Felt super lerthargic and the fever feeling.
Today I felt a little better, maybe because my mom helped me massage a bit or maybe because I slept at 9 plus yesterday. So today is the day where I am going to get the flat?? actually i doubt so eh... since she hesistated for so long, no reason why she wanted to sell it though.
But one thing abt the flat is that once we walk out of the lift, we can see that there are painting on the walls. Maybe the neighbour or someone living ard owes LS, but i dun care le ba..hahah...
Lvl 13 also have it. But lvl 13 more obvious, the paints are on the floor.
Monday, May 03, 2010
-10:50 PM
I am on 2 day MC but i guess i am going back to work tml.
Been a little depress over the housing issue.
Worried that we wont get a flat that we like
The flat that we like was taken up right after we view it.
I felt that everything felt pretty uncertain.
Govt controls housing value and it is definetely not anyway near the pricing 1 year ago.
The COV amt is not anyway we could afford without a loan.
The urgency kicks in worrying that the prices will not go down.
The BTO is not anywhere near our parents.
Blar Blar Blar....
Perhaps it is me being too negative.
Cant really help it.
Even the one that we saw days ago which we thought is possible to be purchase decide not to sell the house. Wanted to wait for the prices to go up.
God, pls help me to trust that you are a God that provides, you are a God that gives a purpose and a hope... Plans to prosper us!!!
Seriously, I didnt go to work I must admit is me being a little upset and didnt want to face anything.
However, just went viewing again for 2 more flats.
One is right next to MRT. But they are asking for 45k, 370k valued, level 5.
The other is too far... Beside Sunshine. The place stinks with the dog and we could wear shoe in. The area of the flat was so weird, CCD says "chui" the moment she stepped in. The living was small and... arh... it is just off, value 330k. We dont even bother to check the asking.
Tml, we will look into Blk 200++ of CCK.
Pls cont to uphold us in prayer.
Thanks to all who message and comfort us.
Thanks.
Saturday, May 01, 2010
-10:46 PM
OK.... I am pretty stress right now.
Wenjun method of dealing with stress:
1) Eat
2) Housework
I am choosing the first one now. Just cooked a myojo Ramen char mee and now I am eating Nissin Chilli Crab Noodle. Hee... I totally know that Gluttony is a sin and I realise the weird feeling in my stomach may not be hunger, but I just feel like eating sth.
Just seen another 2 flats today... both are expensive and nice.
1) Blk 767, Choa Chu Kang, to be exact, it is at Yew Tee there already. 15 storey. corner, 4-room, unblock view. Nicely renovated, clean. Value: $370k and COV: S40k. Walk to Yew Tee MRT, owner mentioned ard 7 min, but i think is more than that. CCK stadium is just beside.
2) Blk 162, Jalan Teck Whye, 5-rm, level 12. Not much renovation, windy, unblock view, near his parents, Value: $372k, COV: $30k. And the thing is that both me and yu like it. Even when I am typing this, i am afraid that someone might come and chopp it. ARH... but i think yu gotta communicate with his dad who went viewing with us and who is going to lent us the money.
He is pretty worried that we don't have the capability to pay for it for 30 years eh. and that every month we gotta fork out this amt is sth. And if the govt suddenly change policy and such, we might be in big trouble. That would means we gotta be hardworking and we cant quit our jobs.
We could get BTO and stay in his house first, that an idea and we might be able to travel every year and dont worry abt finance for a moment. However BTO means that the flat will be smaller, the location is far from his parents home and we might not get the flat that we desired due to the limitation. Somemore, after the deduction and everything, for 2nd hand flat which is bigger, which is near to his place and which we viewed and like it, it is ard 50k more.
Worth it???
