rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Sunday, June 27, 2010
-11:15 PM
Wanted to post my conversion story, but couldnt paste the copied item.
Hence, next time...
I am pretty tired and lost now actually.
I actually just bought a bed and mattress for my new home.
I am already in debt of $4088. Things to be paid in the near future.
Bank acc: S$26
Driving acc: S$472++
I am dead... how to survive till payday??? Hmm.. nvm, i will find a way ba...
personal informations huh!!! but no money, it doesnt matter.
Risky my job as well. So scary.
More responsibilties. So stressful
Tml parents meeting day (Chua's & Ng's) - Stress also.
Monday, June 21, 2010
-11:40 AM
18 June 2010
YF CAMP 2010 - CAMP 2 Plan
17-19 June 2010
I still remember that while we gathered at Bedok food centre, Siyuan was still suggesting that yuhang could actually post in Newspaper Obituary : Our Photo, then state: Siu ran Bu Neng Tong nian tong yue tong ri sheng, dan yuan neng tong nian tong yue tong ri si... Wenjun, will you marry me!!!
I was still saying quite romantic eh.. hahaha, then the rest of the sisters were saying that it was so morbit. But obviously I was kidding, Yuhang was saying he was waiting for his bonus this month before anything could happen. I totally believe. Financial is a big issue to us.
Then the last part of the camp: Special Programme
We were lighting the tealight candles and sharing what our 3 pledges are after this camp.
For mine:
1) Make it my piority list to go for sister's gathering once a month
2) Go for prayer meeting everyweek
3) Quality QT session everyday.
Then after that, perhaps not in the right scequence, I went to take a pic at the tealight candles which Sinliang has positioned it to be a cross and Ellery approach and tell me that Priscilla (Our new friend) felt rather uncomfortable with him and as me go back and talk to her. Then he took over my camera.
After which, Pr Chua conclude and pray, or maybe it happens before I went to take the picture, Shihao shine the torch light on me. I was a bit??? Am I suppose to say anything or conclude anything? But Pr Chua already conclude le eh... though it suddenly seems that the ppl ard disappear, but i totally didnt think of why.
Then Kaien & Liying walked out with a rose on their hands, Genxian playing the guitar. My thought," this doesnt sound like a Christian song, so familiar but a bit off at this moment"
I didnt know when the thoughts that this might be Yuhang PROPOSAL came, but i know when I realise it, I started tearing. Felt so touched (also dunno why, that the sisters are singing or hmm.. just felt really touched and loved).
then when I saw Rebecca and Jieying, my doubts were being confirmed almost to a 70 % cause they didnt come for the camp and why are they appearing after the special programme...
They were singing as well, and then Yijie & Justin Leow and Mike and CCD, my whole vision a bit blurred and too shocked by then.
Then I saw yuhang in a suit.. hahaha erm... then he walked thru the bros and sisters and took the flowers from the 8 who were singing and came in front of me pass me the flowers and knelt down :
"Will you marry me?"
Seriously, I am like crying and laughing... It was so nice to be surrounded by ppl I love and ppl who love me and they witness this impt part of my life but yet it is so funny he is so gan chong... then I just give him my hand and told him..
"In this situation, I wanna say no also cannot eh" But in my mind, no was never an answer to that, but I am hoping he could say sth more personal and special but seeing his freak out look, hahah it enough.
I was still thinking which hand he should put the ring and decided it should be my left hand, and after that he slot in the 5-holding star like ring on my hand, he stood and genxian came and sabo him: Yuhang, like that where got enough, must sing the whole song again.
Oh by the way, the song is Tong Hua.
(It happen in the year of 2005 that i find this song really nice and share it with him, that time we are not together yet. On 12 March'05, the day he entered army, i sms him the chorus of the song.=))
Then Yuhang (the always shy, even leading worship also dun really sing guy whom the whole yf knows that this guy is super shy and most of them doesnt ever hear his voice before [beside those that goes ktv with us] sang... haha..
He was so nervous the paper he was holding was shaking... hahah... I sang with him the chorus though and we hugged.
Thank you YF!!!
Friday, June 11, 2010
-10:41 AM
A Tribute to Winnie Chua
Died on 11 Jun 2010
Always loved and remembered by the Chua's Family
Monday, June 07, 2010
-11:37 AM
There are 23 new emails I have in my mailbox. Not counting those I have not yet cleared.
But somehow, today is just a super blue day for me and I just feel like complaining a bit.
Rest can never be enough. I have wasted too much times on my UN-organised life.
Since the Netherlands-TUe-UTwente-A*STAR workshop on thurs & fri, I seems to grow a lot more white hairs and I grew so burn out.
Perhaps I really need some solitude session with God.
Somehow, the wedding, house, banquet thing have been shifted aside. Together with my driving which i doubt I'll remember those things that I've learnt.
Work's neverending and with Val and SL gone, I wonder how am i going to survive here.
Oh Ya and YF Camp. Basically I know I just need to sit by my super lagged computer at home and just do the things I am suppose to do and it will move on. But somehow, a long day being demoralize at work facing the computer makes me really dont feel like doing anymore computer things at home.
I should stop my complaining. Doing no help to this monday. One good thing: I am going to have chuan chuan with Vege later... yep yep!!! Food makes me happier.
