rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Saturday, November 27, 2010
-1:45 AM
It felt so scary when i am suppose to lead ECS worship this sunday and i've only manage to get the songs out.
But still... Thank God.
I even dreamt yesterday that I didnt manage to get the songs out till like 10 mins before the actual thing or sth. then my relative came but too bad they couldnt see me lead... but in the end ccd let me lead or sth.. then galang gabo and find the songs sheets and stuff...
Tell u, it is scary... super..
Today my new house just finish the painting, choosing of toilet door.
Bought the air-con which comes with ntuc vouchure and a 42" plasma tv which we are likely to sell.
I felt quite excited over the new house=) new life..
but when yu told me his colleagues will doubt if he is ready to get married makes me felt uncomfortable.
They seen how he treated michelle, thats why they asked him not to bully me and such.
I didnt really like that.. i like positive... i like to know that ppl are happy for us, are glad for us, are excited to see our tying the knots instead.
But i also know i cant control what others think.
Sometimes, i will be really afraid, whats marriage life.
Will we really move closer to God, making this as a part of our life settled and therfore we can shift the focus back to God?
Job 22: 24-26
"and assign your nuggets to the dust, your gold of Ophir to the rocks in the ravines, then the Almight will be your gold, the choicest silver for you. Surely then you will find delight in the ALmighty and will lift up your face to God."
This verse CCD ask me record it down and state what God wants to talk to me about.
Well... I would think that this verse was say that gold = wordly needs, and thus if we really are able to put away oou worldly needs, then we will find joy, we will be able to come back to God. We will be able to come back to the purpose he set for us.
OF COURSE it is not easy. But when God says so to me, i will wonder, to do that, I shouldnt affect the other parts of my life right? especially when with yuhang
it felt hard to pursue spiritual things with him, prob i use him as an excuse to get to my wordly need and thus, the easy being pull down yu, was being pulled down by me even more not to get close with God.
Haiz.. sometimes the other way round... but that is so not benficial.
Next year being yf evangelism team and seretary... i felt like i wanna do a lot but i felt tired.. come back from work v late or simply, theres seems to be so many things to do. wedding, house.. blar blar blar...
but whatever it is, i want to put down what belongs to this earth, and treat God as the most impt part of my life.
"God, please let yuhang do the same. That we both will be leading each other towards you instead of the other way round. We're going to get married, but Lord, may you use this marriage to bless others, for your purpose. And please Yuhang to lead the family, to steer the family to you. Thank you for providing all we need. THank you for your grace which is suffiecient...
- In Jesus Name, Amen"
Monday, November 22, 2010
-9:56 AM
Yuhang's old house Table...
My candelight is up
a clearer version
To be honest, the crystal are supported by a tiny wiring
hence i would mean that a light pull will make it drop.
and also.. cleaning will be a prob...
Thursday, November 18, 2010
-11:15 PM
ARHHHH....
I cant find a cheap restuarant this saturday and there is no where we can book a bbq pit or sth... Tried and fail. sian.
This sat we are celebrating the november birthday.
Just had worship prac.
English worship.
Actually there are a lot of things going through my mind which I really want to blog but somehow, many times, i just felt lazy to logged in and pen down those thoughts.
It more positive lately. I am more positive. My relationship.
relationship with God = Bad...
haiz....
