Sunday, June 24, 2007

HEYO DARLINGS!!!


I'VE GOT 2 BLOG ADDY NOW:


PRIVATE: HTTP://ITISTHATSIMPLE.BLOGSPOT.COM (STILL THE SAME PASSWORD)
PUBLIC: HTTP://UNSPOKENMEMOIRS.BLOGSPOT.COM



I'LL BE BLOGGING AT THE PUBLIC ONE MOST OF THE TIME BUT THEN I'LL BLOG HERE WHENEVER I DONT KNOW... FEEL DOWN OR WHAT... BUT I'LL LEAVE A NOTE LAH AT THE PUBLIC BLOG SO YOU GUYS WILL KNOW WHEN I NEED HELP HERE... HEHEEEE.




ANYWAYS, I LOVE YA ALL!!!!!



GO NOW... LINK ME TO HTTP://UNSPOKENMEMOIRS.BLOGSPOT.COM K!!!! HAHAHAHA. K I THINK I'M GOING NUTTTTY.


LOVE YA PPLE.

MEDDY

hahaha. okay i have no idea why i'm feeling hyper, chirpy or whatever these 2 days. and i slept damnnnnnn well last night. tired myself out by playing the dumb snake game on my hp, slept around 4am and woke up at 2pm!!! hahaha. best thing was i didnt like wake up in the middle or the night or anything!!! whoa.. super shiok!! hahah. i seriously havent had a good night's sleep for a long time already. i would always wake up at like 8am... 5am... or 10am that kinda thing. ohhh. so maybe my good mood owes it to a good night's rest. hahha. dont know.


anyways, had a lot of things done today. although it wasnt like anything big or what. i...

`helped suresh with his pian/guitar thingy. i think i traumatised his dog. hahaha. oops. i feel so bad.
`bought the harmonica for tim (but dammit i left the instrument at MC after paying for it =((
`collected the grad gowns for jiajia and myself
`saw many pple in sch. hahaha. weida (the guy whom i see everything in SG), the wushu guy and the NRA guy. oops. i forgot their names. OOPS.
`went for tkd. considered rather slack lah cause i think they are capable of worse trainings. went for a run with terence, weiliang, bruce lee (its just a nickname) and some others i cant rem. it was dark at the stadium and with my myopic eyes i couldnt see well. suresh re-taught the 3 of us brown belts the chiu jang pattern again. like oops. i do hope i can rem it next week. my arms and thighs are aching from the buddha clap and squats. faints. then went for supper with the usual gang =))

i have like nothing to do tomorrow. anybody wanna go shopping in town?? but then on second thought the crowd is crazy on weekends. i dont feel like going already. maybe i'll just kpo around MC play some piano and talk rubbish with jean =)) sighs. i am so thristy. haha.


alrighty. last important thing on my mind to ask all of you!!!! SHOULD I TAKE AWAY THE PASSWORD???? seriously i considering to take it away.



BUT THEN LET ME TELL YOU WHY I DONT WANNA TAKE IT AWAY....

cause.... sometimes there are just pple you DONT LIKE who are just ULTRA KPO about your life.. and once they get hold of the blog they just know all about you.. know what you do everyday and you dont know a single thing about them. the purpose of the blog is to let your friends read, let them know what you're doing daily, leave a message, say hi and stuffs and catch up. its not for those who just wanna KPO and stalk you. dont say i bhb.. but because there were some idoits THAT I DONT LIKE stalking my old blog tts y i changed and had this blog protected.



LET ME TELL YOU WHY I WANNA TAKE IT AWAY....

cause... its just too mafan. hahahahah. and some pple cant rem the blog's password. and sometimes there are pple whom i dont mind reading my blog but cant because of the password and they dont tell me cause maybe we're not that close and its paiseh for them to ask. hahahaha. basically... its just MAFAN!!!



so complicated hor? hahahaha. headache. LOL.

okay lah. i'm just gonna chat a while more with my friends on msn before i go n sleep and hopefully wake up at 2pm again tomorrow!! hehehe.



love ya darlings..
med

met ms SSH at yew tee for lunch and we had mac!! oh gosh. so sinful. its no wonder i feel fat this week cause i've been eating a lot those fattening stuffs like dumplings and fried food!!! anyways, had mac... then dilly dally... chatted for a while and we left yew tee mac at 3pm. my initial plan was to collect the gowns from school but then i had makeup classes in mc at 4.15pm so i didnt collect the gowns in the end. then ssh brought me to trim my eyebrows instead. hahaha. and oh boyyyy. it was painful.. my brows were like feeling so raw after that. the first time i had it done wasnt that painful. but i'm happy with the way it turned out =))


anyways, went to ssh's house after that. uploaded some pics from my phone to her laptop and showed her some friendster pics. hahaha. and we went around kpo-ing pple. we waited for like almost 10 mins before i finally managed to hail a cab from ssh's place to westmall.


anyways, i left around 4.15pm cause i supposedly had a lesson at 4.15pm. but then i've already guessed that the student wouldnt turn up. and the next student didnt turn up either, but he did sms me saying he has some band rehersal thingy. sighs. i'm so frustrated with such pple. waste my time. but then its okay... they're the ones paying the bucks, in other words i'm paid to wait for them. if they're not gonna turn up for the classes i'm not gonna make it up another day for them. so there goes their moolah. time = money. hahaaa. sighs. i hate it when students dont pay their school fees on time. if they dont pay, i'll just have to wait till they pay before i get paid. ARGH. so horrible. nevermind. i'll be doing admin at 1pm tomorrow so i'll call them to remind them to pay up again. sadded.


met jia after my supposed 'makeup classes' at mc. had dinner at v8, our usual 'dating' place in bugis. hahaa. chatted about the usual topic. hahaha. but no matter how many times the topic is being chatted about.. there will still be many questions left unanswered and us feeling that we'll never know the answer till we experience it. lol.


then it was shopping after that. ms wjj was like so picky today... she took such a long time to choose a file and a pouch for her hp. we went bag hunting as well and i've got my eyes set on this mphosis heels and a bag from bugis. i'm wondering if i shd get the heels not. sighs.


anyways i've fixed the alignment problem for this skin!! hahaha. it was out of alignment cause the blogthings pics were too huge. so i resized them. hahaaaa. it should look normal now. hahaa.


i'm not sleepy or what. i think i'm just gonna kpo around friendster and blogs and hopefully get to sleep cause i've been having insomia again! arggggh.

专属天使 -TANK

我不会怪你 对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会 像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为 生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的 专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个 专属天使
我哪里还需要 别的愿望


its a very very nice chinese song. copied the lyrics off some forum. i dont feel very much for the lyrics, in fact i find it rather cheesy. anyways, i loveeeeee the tune very much. heheee. maybe i could add in my own lyrics instead?? hahaha. i could try... but then i'm not in the mood right now.


anyways, its a boring day. i have a private class later at 8pm. was supposed to be tomorrow but then i changed it to today cause tmr would be a busy day collecting gowns, having makeup classes at mc and then finally meeting jia for our lonesome dinner. hahahah.


mannn.. i cant wait for this month to end so i can collect my long waited pay!!! hahaha. and the whole of next week is mc's holiday!!!! which means i dont have to work the whole of next week!!! hehehee. after which, the 2nd of july will come and soon it'll be time to say byebye to holidays and hello to lectures and projects... and hopefully see some handsomes in school.


anyways, should i just remove the password thingy??? i'm very tempted to take it away, but then on second thoughts, occasionally i do blog about some issues that i dont want strangers to know. and if i take the password thingy away, i'll probably not be able to blog as freely as i'm doing now cause i think there will be a lot of kpos. mainly from tkd. hahahahaha. oops. no offence.. hahaha. its just certain pple that i want to keep away from my blog. but anyways, should i remove it or not?? arggggh. i really dont knowwww.


i find life pretty exciting despite that the world we live in is full of regrets and sorrows. anyways, i'm just glad to be happy right now with pple i love living healthily (is there a spelling mistake somewhere??).



ok anyways, happy dumplings day. is it even supposed to be a day for celebrations?? hehe i'm not sure. i dont think so. ok... byee.. gonna go mc to kpo for a while first.

ciaos.

haha yay!! i finally changed my template!!!


i'm in a rather grouchy mood currently. i dont know why either.


probably it'll get better tomorrow!!!


seriously, besides getting lied to, i think i would rate disappointment as one of the top 5 things that i hate. but then again... like duh, who likes disappointment right?? i hate it in a sense that i always end up feeling moody. and i know what disappointed me today. hehehe. but then i'll get over it!! its part and parcel of life eh??


anyways, nites. i'm gonna have a long week ahead!!


2 more weeks before SIM starts!!! wooohoo!!!

12:38 AM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

today is one of those rainy afternoons. hhhhmmmm. like finally i'm speaking to my dad again because a few days ago he anyhow scold me and i was sooooooo mad with him i tell you.. until he spoke to me nicely today. hehee.


anyways, had that 'welcome session' in SIM yesterday. met shihui at BB. and that girl was VERY LATE!! so angry! hahaha. and then we had lunch at foodcourt.. then we took cab down to SIM and met jia there. saw min her sweetie too. hehehe. anyways, the session was damn boring lah. i browsed through the lecture notes that was included in the file they gave us and mannn... i could foresee those poly days again. reports, assignments, case studies, projects. argh.


but its okk. all we have to do is to work hard for the next 1.5 years. DARLINGS WE CAN DO IT YA??? i hope?? lol. and erm... i saw that we are supposed to work in groups of 5 to 6 for group projects... so how?? i dont wanna work with *ahem you know who, i know who, we all know who* so how??? find some handsome to work with us ah?? hahahaah. kidding.


anyways, talking about handsomes. we didnt managed to find any handsomes in our lecture, but there were quite a handful of mei nus there. so hais. there goes our hope of finding love in uni. hahahaha. ok i'm just kidding!!! that was like so desperate. dots. anyways, love or no love, i'm gonna have to grit my teeth and get through this uni thing within this 1.5 years of study. no more than 1.5 years, or i tell you my dad will just kill me. and screw the lecturers lah. keep saying we'll fail. CHOY LOR. hais. sounded scary though.


anyways, shihui and jia came to my house after everything ended cause we scooted off at 4pm during the refreshments. hahaha.


went for tkd after that... and janson and me spent most of the time learning how to do a turning kick from weisoon. sadded. totally sadded. i just dont get it!! hahahaa. and my arms and shoulders are aching from holding the target for weisoon. kns. i cant imagine getting whacked by him in tornaments (sp??)

anyway i gtg.

take care peeps.

love,
med

3:40 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

spent the entire day in MC. first for the performance and then admin and then teaching. *faints*


anyways today was the last day of performance!!! hehehehe. so happy!! lijia came to support but didnt managed to say hi.. thanks for coming!!! =))


anyways, i'm like so bored. theres this SIM orientation thingy tmr at 2pm.


anyways, blogthings for now... hehe.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is in a very different place (both physically and mentally) from where you are right now. For you, falling in love has never been easy. You can only fall for someone who is very patient and persistent.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

pretty true

Your Brain is Green

Of all the brain types, yours has the most balance. You are able to see all sides to most problems and are a good problem solver. You need time to work out your thoughts, but you don't get stuck in bad thinking patterns. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about the future, philosophy, and relationships (both personal and intellectual).

What Color Is Your Brain?

damn sian. ciaos.



its a busy week

12:12 AM

Sunday, June 10, 2007

hahahaha. i love ee gongs!!!


oh before i start blogging.. i've been crowned princess of 'peace' today by karkit. princess of 'peace' meaning 'tai ping gong zhu'... and its not supposed to be a very glamourous thing.. but then since i liked the way 'tai ping gong zhu' sounds... it actually meant princess of peace in english, but then it takes on a totally different meaning if translated directly. hahahahaha. aiyah so much crap... i think only ee gongs will understand. hahahaa.




ok anyways, the main point is.... ee gongs met up today!!!! full attendence and ee gongs only!!! no boyfriends/girlfriends or whatsoever. and it was just good fun to be hanging around, chatting, eating, playing and doing all those nonsense stuffs that we've never stopped doing since year 1... and i hope we wont stop our nonsense till... i dont know.. FOREVER!!! hahahaha.


basically we....
`were supposed to meet 5.30pm at cityhall, but then yeahh. as usual the guys were the earliest and the rest of us were... hehehe... anyways, we all reached by 6pm.
`went changing appetites for dinner
`took lotsa pics and had lotsa fun.. lotsa laughter.. and karkit was trying to be scandalous with me
`after that it was shopping time... as usual the guys waited while we shopped
`i think almost all of us bought something except for ah ying who wasnt into the shopping mood
`went starbucks to have our chats which involved more serious and personal topics... like... *secret* hahaha
`jia left a short while later to meet her other friends... =(( hehehe. but i still love you.. hahaha
`took cab home with shihui



anyways, i love the way we have so much to chat abt... i love the way we have so much fun together.. i love the way how much laughters were generated... i love the way we bitch about others (OOPS)... i love the way we discuss about everything... i love the fact that you guys give the most honest and rational opinions... i love the fact that we are comfortable with each other over even the most sensitive issues...


ee gongs.. please stay this way... please stay the way we are... =))


I LOVE EE GONGS!! thank you for all the memories =))


lovelove...

nitey darlings =))




p.s: pics with shihui!! scandalous ones with... EVERYONE!! hahahaha

1:09 AM

Friday, June 08, 2007

i am watching something unfold itself. just watching how fate play and taunt the life of 4 people. i'm like just watching this movie that would teach me more about these 4 people and the way they are. their characters and stuffs. and meanwhile i'll try to stay away from it all although as much as i want to do something, say something and occasionally add some spice to it, i wont because i'm not stupid to get involved. i wanna see how this will end. how cruel and life can get when reality slaps them in the face, or maybe its true it'll end like how stories end in a fairy tale. i dont know. personally i dont see it as a fairy tale. life is life. life is reality. reality is always harsh. but then life is always so amusing and so unpredictable... i'm just gonna wait. i bet there will be regrets and shame. but then again, life is unpredictable. so i'm just gonna sit back and watch and keep my mouth shut, and i'll try to apply the "keep opinions to myself" thing to curb the urge to do something or i'll probably mess things up.

2:05 AM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

hahahahaha.



look at my title above. hahahaha. i'm like irritating the hell out of huimin by repeating it to her. LOL. and i think lijia is just eng-siuing me by saying this:

Lijia - Need place for donuts tea party! says:
-.-"
Lijia - Need place for donuts tea party! says:
awwww~
Lijia - Need place for donuts tea party! says:
how sweet
Lijia - Need place for donuts tea party! says:
must be for the gf/bf one


but then he denies that he isnt just eng-siuing me. LOL.

sighs. anyways, i'm just so afraid that i'll go into one of those silly depressing mood again. i cant help it you know. not even when i try to talk sense into myself.. its like having a war with myself. i just cant control my mood. its because suddenly there is all the deaths and whatnots and old memories sneaking back into my mind and whatnots and whatnots with pple breaking up and all the unhappy stuffs. everything was just mashed together and i was so damn bloody confused over what really upset me.



OK. NOW I AM IRRITATING THE HELL OUT OF LIJIA. hahahaha.


i am in my cranky mood. definitely. so i am irritating the hell out of everyone who tries to talk to me. hhahaha. and he does have some witty answers to counter me. hahahaha. this what i call friends!!!! hahahaha. friends who knows your pattern and wont be unfazed by nonsensical attacks. hahahahah.



NOW ITS BACK TO HUIMIN. i blurted out: "ah bu i love you" and she like dont wanna accept my love. hahahaahaha.


i wonder if shihui will be coming online??? hahahha. awwww man i love that girl cause we both can read each other's mind simple just by looking at each other. yucks how erxin it sounds. but then its true!!! its tested and proven!!! and its true!! how amazing!!! hahahah. lame. and the funniest part is that most of the time i know when she's having mean thoughts about ah-nehs. OOPS. i am not racist pls. its her. hahahaahah.



anyways, heres from me to you for today:

You can fall from the sky,
You can fall from a tree,
The best way to fall... is in love with me!




hahahaha. pls dont puke.

*wink wink* hahahahaha.

11:49 PM

life hasnt been exactly great recently, but then erm.. i'm feeling less irritable and depressed. hahaa.


but nevermind, i have many many kakis to share my troubles with... =))

darlings.. you know who you are. dont be shy to say you're one of them ok. hhahaahaha. ok lah. crappy enough.



i'm going off soon.


tadaa.

6:18 PM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

ok. so i am feeling better now. thanks to a lot of pple for making it better. oh maybe because i'm not that confused now.


yeah. thats it. confusion was the cause of my unhappiness.


man. life can be so interesting. its amazing how emotions can affect a person. like what the hell man.



there are things that i can help and do something about it to make it better and there are also things that i can help nuts about.



now its CLEAR.





but nevermind. i'm picking up now... and it feels good.


and i'm babbling. babbling cause i just realised i have work tomorrow at 10.30am with this i dont know.. 5 yr old or 6 or 7yr old girl tomorrow. first lesson with me. how i 'look forward' to it. sigh.


anyways. ee gongs, next fri meet up ok. i've yet to msg lishi. hais.



nitey my loves.

12:48 AM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

everything. the music. the songs. the melody. every single note, pauses, dynamics and tune.


its affecting me so so so so so badly. hell. i cant even play piano in peace. cause i'm feeling so unsettled. i cant even express it correctly because i dont even know what the hell is wrong with me. what the hell is wrong man.

hell. i think i seriously need to take my mind off things. i think i'm going crazy with all that's happening. me being weak, others not doing well in life and whats not.



and the worse thing is i dont even know how to let it out.




FOCUS MEDDIE.


1. SIM
2. PIANO
3. FAMILY
4. FMSS PEEPS
5. MUSIC CONCERTO



THATS IT. NO MORE. JUST THESE. ITS ENOUGH. FOCUSSSSS.

5:12 PM

argggh.


i feel so unhappy today.


basically because i looked back and some memories sneaked into my mind while i was in bugis today. and 4 other non-related stuffs just.... i dunno... made me so upset.


seriously i feel so upset right now at this moment i just wanna CRY.


so dumb.


only lijia who is my my dearest confidant knows everything. so secret yaaa??? only you know why. hehehe. thankssss budddy. you always make me feel better after talking to you. but seems like i can hardly help you with anything =(( i'm sorrrry.


hais.




sianed.




i need a hug... anyone???

2:02 AM