It is written in the stars above

My application for my teacher certification from the state has finally been assigned to someone!! It's only been there since May. Dude they move slower than molasses uphill on a summer's afternoon.

We talked a little bit about the future. I put in alot of applications for a teaching job but I didn't get so much as an interview. I'm going to put out new letters of interest stating that I would like to substitute teach. I have to get my foot in the door somewhere. It is so political in this area--it's who you know not what you know.
I'm tired of being in limbo. I finally finished school and I'm ready for a real job. The OG is great and helps out but it's not my life. I'm ready to make steady money, have weekends and holidays off. I'm ready to spend time with my family. I also want to get a teaching job so we can do i.vf.
If anyone has any ideas or advice on how to get a teaching job I'm all ears.

The endo was minor. I asked where the two polyps were and was told they were growing in my endometrium lining in my uterus. The biopsy from one of the polyps showed nothing. My fallopian tubes looked great--a healthy pink and clear. In fact everything looked good. My doctor said to keep trying. We will because i.vf will only happen if I get a teaching job.

I made some changes to my blog. I thought it was time for a change. I liked the black--it made pictures pop but I want to lighten things up a bit. I would love to have one of those cookies in the title header--yum!

A good friend of mine came up yesterday for a visit. We were talking about people we graduated with and she showed me some of their pictures on f.acebook. I'm not on that or m.yspace. I have my blog and that's good enough for me. It was nice to see pictures of my classmates, especially those I went to kindergarten with. It's different to see some with children. I don't know why. Not that I thought they would make bad parents--just different I guess. I still can't believe that I have E (she turned 6 on 7/22). I don't feel old enough to have a six year old.
It bothered me with the way I've changed. I am once again out of shape and could stand to lose a few pounds. I do wish I could be consistent with my weight loss and exercise. I did 50 minutes of tae bo today courtesy of you.tube. I started eating salad with spinach and romaine lettuce. Little changes. They say if you do something everyday for 26 days it becomes a habit. I can vouch for that because I did that with flossing. So I started tracking my diet via weigh.t watchers on line and have signed the b.ob green'es total body makeover contract (again). I fell off the wagon with that when I had my lap done.
I go today for my post lap check up. I will update you later.

If you would have asked me at the start of my journey for a second child if I thought I would be still trying for another baby fours years later I would have answered no.
I will be 34 in November. One more year until I'm 35. That's the age when your egg quality decreases. I feel like I'm playing beat the clock, but not with my best ability because all fertility treatments in Pa are out of pocket. I.vf is put off to the side until I get a teaching job. How long do you try for? When do you start to explore other options? I know we each have our own breaking point. I get frustrated because I know what I want. And there is no way of knowing whether my dream will come true for one more baby.

My belly is getting better. It is now slightly sore. I slept better last night (I'm a side sleeper and I couldn't sleep on my side because doing so would pull my stitches).

Here is our girl Mel giving her first book reading.

Reading & Discussion of "Navigating the Land of IF" by Melissa Ford from StirrupQueens on Vimeo.

Being an infertile comes with a lot of questions and I think Mel does an excellent job of helping us out. Please click here for another video of Mel.

My surgery went alright. There was endometriosis on by bladder and two polyps--a piece was taken for biopsy. I see my gyno on July 24 for a follow up. I have questions of course about the endo and polyps--how does this affect me getting pregnant, will it come back again, where were the polyps, etc.
I am feeling a little better today. I slept on Wednesday and yesterday. I forgot how much it takes out of you. I keep comparing this surgery to my gallbladder but I shouldn't because I stayed in the hospital for that.
I encountered something new: B.air Paws inflatable gowns. They attach a hose to your gown and you control the temperature. I was warm and toasty!! Keeping you warm before surgery is supposed to help reduce infections.
We got home around 7 pm or so. I couldn't figure out why it took us so long to get home. I remember being in recovery at 4 pm. When they wheeled me back to my pre-op room where M was the nurse told me to rest and I took an hour long nap! M said you could really mess with someone when they're medicated. I agree.

Me in my inflatable gown.

Today is my surgery. It will be at 2:30 p. m. M asked if I'm nervous. A little. I know I will be very nervous right before I go in. That's how I was with my gall bladder surgery.
It's very important to me to get pregnant on so many levels. With E I was abused and after I left I was dealing with the divorce and seeing a therapist ( I have been meaning to write about that. I'm getting up the gumption). It should have been the best time of my life to be pregnant with my first child and I was robbed of that. I want to have a child with M. I believe it would be one of the best experiences to create life with the person you love.
I am holding on to hope that today will go okay.

I drank all 10 oz of magnesium citrate. Eh gad--that stuff is nasty! It tastes like really sour lemon soda. I have to laugh. My orders for today are to eat and drink clear fluids/food. But it all goes right through you so why eat anyway? Ironically I did eat wild strawberry j.ello and vanilla tea (no milk of course).
The hospital called to confirm the surgery for tomorrow and to give me a rundown of things I will be continuing to do. All I want to do is eat food you can't see through.

This morning I went for blood work for my lap on Wednesday. I have donated blood and had to have blood work done many, many times but I still do not like the pick and feel of the needle in my arm. I guess it's just one of those things that I will never get used to. My phlebotomist had this on her cork board:






I got out my j.ello to make for tomorrow. Although I'm not sure how much I will be eating because I have to drink a liquid that will flush out my system. The directions state to drink it in the morning to make sure it has enough time to work completely.
I do hope to get some anwers from the surgery. I also hope it's not anything too bad. My Mom mentioned endometriosis. It is hard to toss another item into the ring that hinders me getting pregnant.
I'm going to the library today to get some light reading. I figured since I will be stuck in the house and in the bathroom I should have some good stuff to entertain me. Do you have any suggestions?
My holiday weekend ended well. I went with my family to see fireworks in the neighboring town. I enjoyed the show and spending time with my husband and daughter. I did catch fireworks at work Saturday night. The finale anyway. We really have a great view from the OG patio. We also have really great sunsets in our neck of the woods.
Thank you to Mel for wishing me well on my lap and for posting it on LCFA! She takes such good care of us all ;-)

Happy 4th of July!! I wish all of you a safe and happy holiday! If any of you are in my area feel free to drop by the OG and watch the fireworks with me on the patio ;-)

I saw my other gyno yesterday. My blood tests were normal (I so thought my progesterone would be out of whack) so I'm having a lap done on Wednesday. A lot of prep goes into getting ready for a lap. I did not know that. On the down low, he's going to shoot dye and comb my ovaries, to see how things are from a fertility stand point. Maybe it's just what we need to make this baby happen.
M and myself have off today and I'm not sure how we are going to spend it. We talked about taking the puppies for a walk and going to the drive-in. We can also visit Chachi out at the campground. Maybe not-she's supposed to be studying for her comps on Monday.
I started to do the T.otal Bod.y Mak.eover by Op.rah's trainer Bob Gr.eene. I am good with doing my stretches and weights. I do have a hard time getting motivated in the morning to do my cardio. Also, breaking my eating in front of the tv at night. There are five simple rules: eat breakfast, no alcohol, eat consciously, have cut off time from eating 2-3 hours before bed and drink 6 8oz. glasses of water. Exercise isn't too bad either. Stretching and aerobics 6x a week for 30 mins. I am not a morning person so that doesn't help. Any advice?
I'm off to get ready for the day. If I don't get to post tomorrow, please have a happy and safe 4th of July!


Kissing puppies