training for sundown marathon is pushed back for 3 weeks; i am effing demoralised.

on a brighter note, i'm feeling for biathlon.
oh wells.

it has been 5months since i've moved in to my new house, my new room...

my little cosy area's still not up yet cause i just can't get my perfect single seater couch and a nice standing lamp and also, a nice carpet to go along.

i could so see myself lazing in that little corner, a book in hand and caramel latte in the other.

oh well, i guess nothing have been done yet, or rather, too many things have come and go, just not this.

i think i need some time for myself.

the d-day that i'm heading back to tekong on one of the PENGUIN ferries is imminent.

i have to embrace the luxury of booking in and out everyday now, before it seems too late, before it seems too far away.

PES review is set on 17th feb and i hope things will go smoothly.
i used the word 'things' cause i haven't made up my mind whether i should revert back to the way of a soldier or just live under the shelter of the almighty branch that i'm currently in.

both chances seem fairly equal, i think. i hope i don't make any wrong choices.

to think of it, one year to ORD.
ROD would be how awesome.

please, please, please.

please do not let me sink into my depressed state again.

BYE BYE BITCH 2008!

Hello fellow earthlings, 2008 has finally ended and the earth has finally embark on another journey of the solar cycle. Hoooray! As I've mentioned above, 2008 had really been a bitch, and so have I.

I was just sitting down in front of the television, watching ChannelNewsAsia broadcasting the various New Year celebrations around the world. Immediately, I thought, 'What's really there to celebrate?' Seriously, on a personal note and on a global perspective, what is there to celebrate? The downfall of the rich or the lost of lives as a natural form of population control? Whatever the case is, 2008 wasn't really a good year.

Now, here's my review of 2008 and some of the lessons that i've learnt:

1. I WAS ACCEPTED INTO SMU! School of Social Science though. And yes, I turned it down and accepted NUS FASS instead. Primary reason being that Economics is still the subject I really want to study. Nonetheless, I'm uber proud to have made past the SMU interview, given that the conditions were all against me. Nothing's going to stop me from reapplying again this year and the year after.

2. Japan '08, Bangkok '08 and KL '08! Nuff' said.

3. Although I've only decided to start take up running in the later part of the year, I am proud to have accomplished the races and marathon that I had signed up for - One Vertical Marahon, two 10km races, one 15km race and one full marathon.

4. I almost died from Pneumonia in May.

5. 2008 was a year filled with emotional rollcoaster rides, be it with regards to my family or friends. What was in contrast was the longing for more time from my family before enlistment and the impatience that I am showing every other day. Well, speaking of friends, I've lost some and at the same point, gained some. To be exact, I've lost one really close friend and gained another four close friends. It looks reasonable, i know, but the lost was what affected me the most.

And to the people who are reading this: I'm sorry if we are beginning to drift. I have been busy with army and I am in no difference to prisoners. I wanna apologise and please take the first step out and arrange a meet-up with me soon!

6. I've learnt that fruitful alone times is way better than those superficial time spent with friends just for the sake of hanging out.

7. I am learning to face up with my fears and insecurity and I am really glad to have friends by my side all these while. I know it irks these people sometimes, but I am really thankful.

8. Relationship wise, there's nothing interesting. Other than that, it's just fooling around and the cliched puppy-love kind of stuff.

As far as I can remember, these are the few events that have contributed significantly to how my 2008 turn out to be. Now, resolutions for 2009:

1. Start reading up more on Economics related books and more novels.

2. Less emotional rollercoaster rides cause I have grown really sick of it, seriously.

3. Class 3 driving license! Anyone needs a ride?

4. Get into SMU Economics, hopefully.

5. More races and marathons.

6. Japan '09 with Chick, Layleng and Zoe.

7. Save up for overseas trip to Japan and my 2 month stay in UK in 2010!

For those of you who knows me well enough, my wants-list is never short. So, I shall save the readers the agony of reading and ultimately, and save myself the agony of typing them out.

So, as you were counting down to the New Year yesterday, were you celebrating the end of 2008 or the start of 2009?

For me, bye bye 2008, you bitch!

from what i know or from what i can tell, andre has definitely bounced back from the abyss that he was trammeled in.
maybe it was the unfaltering secretion of endorphins from the marathon that's making me feel like this.
anyway, whatever it is, it feels so much better like this.

with regards to my maiden marathon, i've enjoyed every bit of it.
though i could have done better, i think completing it is good enough for my first marathon already.
i've been having post-marathon body aches and abrasions at the wrong places. argh.
04:25:50 is the time to beat for adidas sundown marathon next year, baby.

my to-do list is piling up and there's heaps of stuffs on my agenda.
i'm leaving for KL in less than 20hours' time and i'm going to complete my shopping there, i hope.
i've suffered too many unfruitful and failed shopping trips over here.
i'm in need of clothes, more clothes.

i'm getting lazy and tired of blogging already.
i'll come back with some pictures the next time.

i think i've lost my zest to blog at this point of my life.
i just can't tell what's in my heart.
the little soul in me seemed a little confused and perplexed.
i hope i'll sort it all out soon.

how much does perfection mean to you?
to me, it spells out: 'andre'.