thanks everyone for their well wishes!
thanks a million trillion guys.
will return the day before school reopens.
in the mean time, HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL.
won't be able to countdown with you guys but enjoy yourselves too!
hahaha.
i bet you people gonna miss my pesterings/smses/nudges/nonsense and not to mention, my cuteness!
HAHAHA.
i'll be off in like an hour or so to the airport.
so guys, play hard and ROCK ON!
Tuesday, December 26
Monday, December 25
MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!
cant imagine its CHRISTMAS all again.
and obviously, the new year's approaching.
the year overall wasn't really a good one for me.
filled with bumps and MORE bumps which made me felt something similar to a bad roller coaster ride.
first up was of course, the JAE exercise.
sometimes i still ponder over these questions, 'what if im in cjc now? would my social network/academic grades be much better?'
but to think much maturely, i've grown very much from it.
to be complacent is indeed pure stupidity.
but, when thing does not end up the way you expected, its best to start diverting the course of your direction.
i mean, shouldn't i just look on the bright side and just accept what's given?
simply put, it's not that i cannot adapt to the change, but its just that i stubbornly refuse to.
its like my life's been covered by a large piece of dark clouds and it never seem to disappear.
even to this day.
second up is of course, every student's major worry - grades.
the cause and effect cycle sortta brought me to a kindda sluggish attitude towards things in jjc.
its like im stuck in a abyss which i could not escape from, and its like i can never find anything simple, minute thing acceptable in my eyes.
whats there are just simply junks and more rubbish, yes, including the people there.
take me as someone who is stubborn and possessive.
i'm just someone who turns sour when things just ain't what i at least, expected.
obviously, its something regarding my social circle next.
things has just emerged to this point and theres nothing much to talk about.
like what others told me, when friends get to know each other too well, misunderstanding tends to happen.
its just about forgiving and forgetting.
but when 2 stubborn people are involved, things just won't get any better.
like the quote which says 'theres always light at the end of the tunnel'.
yes, of course, this year have had wonderful events which brought vortexes of light into the gloomy weather.
i was satisfied, but not very contented with what i've achieve for my 'O' levels.
sometimes i just get complacent over this award thing which my secondary gave out.
and yes, its like the greatest achievement for me in my secondary school, not to mention the star pupil award.
HAHA.
i studied hard and my efforts paid off.
nothing much to complain about other than the sheer possibility of mugging harder.
cjc has opened things up for me for the first three months.
i've never been to a catholic school and i must say that the sense of security and the lessons it taught me can be compared to nothing.
NOTHING.
not to mention the group of friends i've made, they're just great as well.
this year been great with the support my parents gave me!
been to HONG KONG and next to KOREA.
and they've satisfied my material needs as well.
ahh, wonderful.
its not the money which matters, its the TIME which they attempted to spend with me which really matters.
im stubborn and i disappoint them, but i know they'll understand.
with the new year coming, everyone prays for a better year ahead, including me.
2007 will be a VERY important year for me!
yes i do have my new year resolutions as well.
1. be focused over my studies and good grades for my 'A' levels.
2. good health for my family members and friends.
3. start maturing and continue maturing, mentally NOT physically though.
i won't be in sg on new year's day so im making these in advance.
but i hope it still works. (:
regarding the perspective of life, i simply don't enjoy thrill rides in any single way.
it just carries me to the peak and to the rock bottom, unexpectedly.
i really hope that life would be and could be smooth sailing for me.
but, if life's perfect, then what's the meaning to it?
cant imagine its CHRISTMAS all again.
and obviously, the new year's approaching.
the year overall wasn't really a good one for me.
filled with bumps and MORE bumps which made me felt something similar to a bad roller coaster ride.
first up was of course, the JAE exercise.
sometimes i still ponder over these questions, 'what if im in cjc now? would my social network/academic grades be much better?'
but to think much maturely, i've grown very much from it.
to be complacent is indeed pure stupidity.
but, when thing does not end up the way you expected, its best to start diverting the course of your direction.
i mean, shouldn't i just look on the bright side and just accept what's given?
simply put, it's not that i cannot adapt to the change, but its just that i stubbornly refuse to.
its like my life's been covered by a large piece of dark clouds and it never seem to disappear.
even to this day.
second up is of course, every student's major worry - grades.
the cause and effect cycle sortta brought me to a kindda sluggish attitude towards things in jjc.
its like im stuck in a abyss which i could not escape from, and its like i can never find anything simple, minute thing acceptable in my eyes.
whats there are just simply junks and more rubbish, yes, including the people there.
take me as someone who is stubborn and possessive.
i'm just someone who turns sour when things just ain't what i at least, expected.
obviously, its something regarding my social circle next.
things has just emerged to this point and theres nothing much to talk about.
like what others told me, when friends get to know each other too well, misunderstanding tends to happen.
its just about forgiving and forgetting.
but when 2 stubborn people are involved, things just won't get any better.
like the quote which says 'theres always light at the end of the tunnel'.
yes, of course, this year have had wonderful events which brought vortexes of light into the gloomy weather.
i was satisfied, but not very contented with what i've achieve for my 'O' levels.
sometimes i just get complacent over this award thing which my secondary gave out.
and yes, its like the greatest achievement for me in my secondary school, not to mention the star pupil award.
HAHA.
i studied hard and my efforts paid off.
nothing much to complain about other than the sheer possibility of mugging harder.
cjc has opened things up for me for the first three months.
i've never been to a catholic school and i must say that the sense of security and the lessons it taught me can be compared to nothing.
NOTHING.
not to mention the group of friends i've made, they're just great as well.
this year been great with the support my parents gave me!
been to HONG KONG and next to KOREA.
and they've satisfied my material needs as well.
ahh, wonderful.
its not the money which matters, its the TIME which they attempted to spend with me which really matters.
im stubborn and i disappoint them, but i know they'll understand.
with the new year coming, everyone prays for a better year ahead, including me.
2007 will be a VERY important year for me!
yes i do have my new year resolutions as well.
1. be focused over my studies and good grades for my 'A' levels.
2. good health for my family members and friends.
3. start maturing and continue maturing, mentally NOT physically though.
i won't be in sg on new year's day so im making these in advance.
but i hope it still works. (:
regarding the perspective of life, i simply don't enjoy thrill rides in any single way.
it just carries me to the peak and to the rock bottom, unexpectedly.
i really hope that life would be and could be smooth sailing for me.
but, if life's perfect, then what's the meaning to it?
Sunday, December 24
Wednesday, December 20
Tuesday, December 19
WOOHOO.
life is good.
febby's back from america!
had an outing yesterday to SIJORI resort for dinner.
had haagen dazs after that.
TOTAL enjoyment.
and we entertained ourselves by drawing on the mist formed on the glass panel of some restaurant and started cam-whoring.
am going to be out with DAHZZ and febby and others tml.
just felt random this evening while i was in the bus.
seriously, i sortta afraid and scared upon pondering over the subject of RELATIONSHIP.
after all that has gone through in the past, rejection seems to be a MAJOR psychological barrier.
i guess its good too isn't it?
'a' levels' next year and i cant afford to let time slip through my fingers.
RANDOMNESS.
2006 so coming to an end like so soon!
and i'll be away from SINGAPORE.
sorry guys who wanna go countdown with me. ):
PLEASURE TO THE EYES:
I LOVE THIS PIC TO BITS.
life is good.
febby's back from america!
had an outing yesterday to SIJORI resort for dinner.
had haagen dazs after that.
TOTAL enjoyment.
and we entertained ourselves by drawing on the mist formed on the glass panel of some restaurant and started cam-whoring.
am going to be out with DAHZZ and febby and others tml.
just felt random this evening while i was in the bus.
seriously, i sortta afraid and scared upon pondering over the subject of RELATIONSHIP.
after all that has gone through in the past, rejection seems to be a MAJOR psychological barrier.
i guess its good too isn't it?
'a' levels' next year and i cant afford to let time slip through my fingers.
RANDOMNESS.
2006 so coming to an end like so soon!
and i'll be away from SINGAPORE.
sorry guys who wanna go countdown with me. ):
PLEASURE TO THE EYES:
I LOVE THIS.
THIS TOO.
OBSSESSED WITH KISSING.
I LOVE THIS PIC TO BITS.
Saturday, December 16
1star kayaking course has came to an end today.
am really going to miss the fun we all had during these two days.
yes, i'm burnt and particularly worst on my nose.
haha. just like what i've been telling the other XAC-ians, i'm trying to soak in the festive season being RULDOLPH the RED NOSE REINDEER.
2star kayaking would be fun.
but i doubt it will be subsidised by the school due to the closing down of the outdoor activities part.
oh well.
1 week left for me to finish up my holiday assignments before i leave for my trip!
get cracking, andre!
am really going to miss the fun we all had during these two days.
yes, i'm burnt and particularly worst on my nose.
haha. just like what i've been telling the other XAC-ians, i'm trying to soak in the festive season being RULDOLPH the RED NOSE REINDEER.
2star kayaking would be fun.
but i doubt it will be subsidised by the school due to the closing down of the outdoor activities part.
oh well.
1 week left for me to finish up my holiday assignments before i leave for my trip!
get cracking, andre!
Thursday, December 14
1star kayaking later. WOOTS.
if anyone think that i cant live without any person, you're god damn wrong.
i'm one who stands firm in my ideology, beliefs and philosophies.
being able to have filtered out the dirt from the gold isn't easy this time round.
but, at least, i've got to know who deserves to be trusted and which JACKASSES shoudn't.
its time to put an end to this chapter of my life.
something's interesting awaiting.
and if i don't move on, do i deserve to be here?
afterall, those people should just learn to FUCK their way off.
im not someone who TWIT to attract attention, not someone who is childish enough to think that things can just happen all of a sudden without effort/hardwork.
i'm imperfect, but that doesn't mean others are.
but please, do welcome comments/remarks and stop being over-sensitive.
its just pure DUMBNESS.
if anyone think that i cant live without any person, you're god damn wrong.
i'm one who stands firm in my ideology, beliefs and philosophies.
being able to have filtered out the dirt from the gold isn't easy this time round.
but, at least, i've got to know who deserves to be trusted and which JACKASSES shoudn't.
its time to put an end to this chapter of my life.
something's interesting awaiting.
and if i don't move on, do i deserve to be here?
afterall, those people should just learn to FUCK their way off.
im not someone who TWIT to attract attention, not someone who is childish enough to think that things can just happen all of a sudden without effort/hardwork.
i'm imperfect, but that doesn't mean others are.
but please, do welcome comments/remarks and stop being over-sensitive.
its just pure DUMBNESS.
Friday, December 8
Tuesday, December 5
with the days in the last month darting away, it just starts blending all my emotions together.
there's so many things to look forward to in the remaining days of the year.
first up would most likely be the KAYAKING COURSE and the UBIN CAMP.
next would be a gathering and then CHRISTMAS CELEBRATIONS.
yeah. next would of course be my holiday to KOREA.
seems like i'm so going to be enjoying myself over the next few weeks.
why mixed feelings?
cause it brings me closer and CLOSER to my 'A' levels next year.
and i haven't been doing well either.
so next year would very much be a tough year for me.
and it brings me closer to enlisting in NS as well.
argh.
there's so many things to look forward to in the remaining days of the year.
first up would most likely be the KAYAKING COURSE and the UBIN CAMP.
next would be a gathering and then CHRISTMAS CELEBRATIONS.
yeah. next would of course be my holiday to KOREA.
seems like i'm so going to be enjoying myself over the next few weeks.
why mixed feelings?
cause it brings me closer and CLOSER to my 'A' levels next year.
and i haven't been doing well either.
so next year would very much be a tough year for me.
and it brings me closer to enlisting in NS as well.
argh.
Monday, December 4
Saturday, December 2
with so many things revolving and straying around me, its kindda sad.
let me put things through CLEARLY.
to my 'somehow' good friend, i know its kindda hard on you that you have already come up with something for everyone.
you know, sometimes people just feel obliged over something which is planned and just can't take the courage to turn it down.
yes, we might be over- reacting but it did it cause we treat everyone in the clique the same amongst one another.
the ties we have forged, the love which sparkled and the bonds which strengthened.
they're just priceless, unbreakable and undeniable.
to have come thus far, its alrdy hard for us now to accept something new for we have already gotten things so settled.
sometimes, when things don't go our way, we stand up for ourselves, knowing the consequences behind every act(s) which is/are done.
now that things have been put so clearly in front of us, i'm already wordless.
and if things aren't the way it is as you put it, its just BAD and just STUPID to have arrowed a single person.
next, i wanna address another issue regarding what i've read over at some BULLSHIT diary.
firstly, WHY are the others getting so involved over a classmate whom they don't seem to care in class for 2years (or maybe 4years)?
and now, WHY the hell are they over-showering care and concern?
i'm sorry for you to have said that we are not solving the problem.
now that the things are almost solved, i have to see what you people have to say.
its not that we are being selfish, but on our side, we have to see that things really go well for her.
its neither surprising nor sad to see such messages posted up.
in any case, i think that we just doesn't click, be it character or whatever.
i simply don't give a damn.
should you wanna say anything against someone, think about how he/she thinks about you.
i'm seriously not someone who walks home from esplanade, sit at CJ for 3hours.
and I'M NOT SOMEONE WHO BRAINWASHES OTHERS SO AS TO WITNESS FRIENDSHIP GOING ROCK BOTTOM.
and i'm not someone who just tries to get everybody on his side, unlike someone.
finally, to all.
now that things have emerged thus far, i can only ponder and reflect over the acts that what others have shown so that i do not and never become like them.
its unlike the past now - everyone CHANGED but in our perspectives - from bad to worst.
i can say that i'm the only one who have the cheek to get these messages through to everyone.
however, that doesn't make me the devil of all.
i speak up for my friends and if your ears can't accept it, i have no choice.
and if anybody mistaken me for my courage to speak up, i have TOTALLY nothing to say.
i'm not trying to proof that i can or could do a better job, i'm just getting my concerns through and if you can't accept that, would you want me to see my friend suffer? or would you want me to be a wuss and keep my mouth shut over it?
yes, i did it all.
i did it all, for my friends.
let me put things through CLEARLY.
to my 'somehow' good friend, i know its kindda hard on you that you have already come up with something for everyone.
you know, sometimes people just feel obliged over something which is planned and just can't take the courage to turn it down.
yes, we might be over- reacting but it did it cause we treat everyone in the clique the same amongst one another.
the ties we have forged, the love which sparkled and the bonds which strengthened.
they're just priceless, unbreakable and undeniable.
to have come thus far, its alrdy hard for us now to accept something new for we have already gotten things so settled.
sometimes, when things don't go our way, we stand up for ourselves, knowing the consequences behind every act(s) which is/are done.
now that things have been put so clearly in front of us, i'm already wordless.
and if things aren't the way it is as you put it, its just BAD and just STUPID to have arrowed a single person.
next, i wanna address another issue regarding what i've read over at some BULLSHIT diary.
firstly, WHY are the others getting so involved over a classmate whom they don't seem to care in class for 2years (or maybe 4years)?
and now, WHY the hell are they over-showering care and concern?
i'm sorry for you to have said that we are not solving the problem.
now that the things are almost solved, i have to see what you people have to say.
its not that we are being selfish, but on our side, we have to see that things really go well for her.
its neither surprising nor sad to see such messages posted up.
in any case, i think that we just doesn't click, be it character or whatever.
i simply don't give a damn.
should you wanna say anything against someone, think about how he/she thinks about you.
i'm seriously not someone who walks home from esplanade, sit at CJ for 3hours.
and I'M NOT SOMEONE WHO BRAINWASHES OTHERS SO AS TO WITNESS FRIENDSHIP GOING ROCK BOTTOM.
and i'm not someone who just tries to get everybody on his side, unlike someone.
finally, to all.
now that things have emerged thus far, i can only ponder and reflect over the acts that what others have shown so that i do not and never become like them.
its unlike the past now - everyone CHANGED but in our perspectives - from bad to worst.
i can say that i'm the only one who have the cheek to get these messages through to everyone.
however, that doesn't make me the devil of all.
i speak up for my friends and if your ears can't accept it, i have no choice.
and if anybody mistaken me for my courage to speak up, i have TOTALLY nothing to say.
i'm not trying to proof that i can or could do a better job, i'm just getting my concerns through and if you can't accept that, would you want me to see my friend suffer? or would you want me to be a wuss and keep my mouth shut over it?
yes, i did it all.
i did it all, for my friends.
Friday, December 1
BOOHOO!
been TOOO slack recently to the point that i feel that i'm somehow getting an inability-to-think syndrome.
anyway, with regards to some other thing which i DON'T feel like blogging at ALL.
i've always believe that SYMPATHY and EMPATHY plays a significant role in the building block of peoples' character.
yes, i do not deny that there are - of course - exceptions.
now back to what i've to say.
seriously, i know its hard to get everyone together like we used to be.
on the other side, we HAVE to consider what's suitable or unsuitable.
the fact that we have to see an arrival from a close friend back from somewhere past the atlantic ocean, NOT the south china sea.
its a gathering for her and why is it that its now a gathering BY her?
from the fact that she just arrived and the venue has to be her house at the end of the day.
sometimes, people are just reluctant to say a word of 'no' for they are just too ACCOMODATING even deep inside their veins.
and should we even take advantage of it? the answer is simple, a FIRM no.
to have surface after a long year is of course, tough for everyone.
and basic virtues of COURTESY should at least be present at any circumstances, not to even mention, an even closer friend.
to have seen an ugly side of someone close is pretty disappointing.
if you were to get so upset over negative comments, its just too unnecessary and to put it, UGLY.
if a comment is to defeat your concious mind, i'm wordless.
and if a passing conversation is to get ingrained into you, your're WEAK.
words are sweet to hear, and evil intentions are just oblivious to one blinded.
if your definition of a gathering is some going to be CHEAP, factually, just have some gathering at a hawker or whatever.
its something worth and does that happen so FREQUENTLY?
NONSENSE!
i don't need to anyone to tell me off to GROW UP, etc.
i'm as youthful as can be and i'm as matured as you.
i don't and i'll never feel inferior towards you, for i'm someone who stands firm on my own ground, clear-headed.
coercion takes you nowhere.
been TOOO slack recently to the point that i feel that i'm somehow getting an inability-to-think syndrome.
anyway, with regards to some other thing which i DON'T feel like blogging at ALL.
i've always believe that SYMPATHY and EMPATHY plays a significant role in the building block of peoples' character.
yes, i do not deny that there are - of course - exceptions.
now back to what i've to say.
seriously, i know its hard to get everyone together like we used to be.
on the other side, we HAVE to consider what's suitable or unsuitable.
the fact that we have to see an arrival from a close friend back from somewhere past the atlantic ocean, NOT the south china sea.
its a gathering for her and why is it that its now a gathering BY her?
from the fact that she just arrived and the venue has to be her house at the end of the day.
sometimes, people are just reluctant to say a word of 'no' for they are just too ACCOMODATING even deep inside their veins.
and should we even take advantage of it? the answer is simple, a FIRM no.
to have surface after a long year is of course, tough for everyone.
and basic virtues of COURTESY should at least be present at any circumstances, not to even mention, an even closer friend.
to have seen an ugly side of someone close is pretty disappointing.
if you were to get so upset over negative comments, its just too unnecessary and to put it, UGLY.
if a comment is to defeat your concious mind, i'm wordless.
and if a passing conversation is to get ingrained into you, your're WEAK.
words are sweet to hear, and evil intentions are just oblivious to one blinded.
if your definition of a gathering is some going to be CHEAP, factually, just have some gathering at a hawker or whatever.
its something worth and does that happen so FREQUENTLY?
NONSENSE!
i don't need to anyone to tell me off to GROW UP, etc.
i'm as youthful as can be and i'm as matured as you.
i don't and i'll never feel inferior towards you, for i'm someone who stands firm on my own ground, clear-headed.
coercion takes you nowhere.
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