this year's new year eve is something different from the previous new year eves..
i'm home alone this new year eve.
ahhh, something really that i pretty much dread.
anyway, new year eve is just another ordinary day where people celebrate the change of a new calendar.
for me, new year certainly means a new beginning.
new beginning as in reminiscing the events that occurred in the year, study it and learn from it and move on.
it's basically learning from the past and carrying the joys with me, ushering the new year.

2007 may have or have not been a very good year for me.
the year started off dreamy for me.
i wasn't very much accustomed to the teachers calling us 'JC2s'.
as soon as i regained my composure, it's already almost the end of the term alrdy.
A levels soon became a word ringing in my mind every now and then.
thereafter, tests and exams began to overwhelm me mentally.
as for the physical aspect, it have always been tiring since 2006.
so preparations for a levels soon started with me giving myself unnecessary stress almost all the time, not to mention the paranoia of not being able to do well.
close friends soon drifted and became estranged for a bit.
then, tuition and consultations became part and parcel of my daily routine.
mid year exams past, which i thought i've improved.
grades remained stagnant and i procrastinated.
prelims ended in a blink of an eye and my grades plunged.
it was then when i began to be determined to study and try to salvage the situation.
going to the school library from morning till it closes didn't seem so enticing to me before.
as much as i wanted a levels to be all over, i'm now here leading a carefree and autonomous lifestyle.
what it seems like eternity 2 years ago have now come to an end.

2007 have made me realised how fortunate i am.
it was very much like a revelation whereby i was able to tell who would be and is there for me when i'm at my lowest.
not to mention my family members as well.
the little words and actions which seemed so insignificant in the past have now became something which i'm thankful for almost every single moment.

somehow, amidst the joy of ushering the new year, i still can't stop thinking of the unhappiness within me rather than the euphoric moments.
who ever wants to live in misery instead of a peaceful and an enjoyable life?
it's true that the ups and downs makes life interesting, but this year has been to tiring and hectic for me and the unhappiness seemed insurmountable.

anyway, with the new year approaching in about 20mins, i want to make a few new year resolutions which i hope to accomplish in this coming year!

1. i wanna embark on MANY MANY learning journeys which interest me.
i have been dying to learn many things since young and age is really catching up in a few years time.
i can't afford to procrastinate any longer!
self-improvements never ends eh?

2. i wanna widen my social circle and engage in activities with like-minded people, not at
the expense of any of my close friends noww.
and for friends whom i haven't kept in touch with, feel free to email me, call me and meet me before i enlist in april.

3. i hope to kick start anything which will aid me in my career in the future!
i want MORE opportunities to cross my path and that i won't let it slip through my fingers.

4. i wanna have a GOOD a levels results which can get me to the course i want! SMU ECONOMICS!

5. i wanna be a nicer person to my family (especially) and to my friends! i can feel that i'm closer to my family members closer than before and i hope that it can still improve!

6. enter NS safely and come out of it safe too.

7. to be able to spend wisely and be more frugal. don't think i can accomplish this though.

well, the rest shall remain personal i guess and i'm going to peek out of my windows already since the fireworks are going to light up the singapore skies in 1min!

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

hi people, i'm finally back.
this week's been pretty LOVELY for me and i'm really lovin' it.
okay, here goes...

22nd-23rd dec: Xtreme Challenge
finally, i got to do my first ever adventure race and i think it was a total blast!
okay, maybe not for the challenges but more from the company.
i believe the team (xinrui, koksin, sengloong, cherlynn and andre) had fun too.
the first day was incredible cause we were in the 2nd position at the end of the day.
but we ended up in the 4th or the 5th place overall which many of us were pretty disappointed.
at least i was.
kudos to CHERLYNN for taking part in the race despite some problems. really.
oh, and serping too, for helping us when we needed. thanks.
anyway, i believe there's many more such chances and i'm really going to look forward to it.

kayaking. (:

24th dec: Christmas eve celebration with layleng, ivan and xinhui
this is prolly one of the best times i've had cause it's always nice to sit down in a cosy and quiet area and catch up with friends which you haven't seen in what it seems like 10years.
so, we were supposed to have dinner at dempsey road but we ended up in The Wine Company, enjoying finger food and wine.
the place is really nice and it's a MUST GO.
so, we (party people) decided to head over to holland v for another round of fun while waiting for vanessa and dongyan to arrive.
everyone were like flushed and high by the bottle of chardonnay. hahaha.
and the funny cab driver who drove us to holland v joined in the fun.
he so wanted to buy wine with the $2 xinhui dropped in the cab.
headed over to the playground at holland v after having fun in NYDC.
then, all of us except for xinhui had a pretty sophisticated and personal conversation which lasted to 2+am.

i'm one step away from quitting my current job.
i hope it's a blessing in disguise. i seriously do.
so much for obeying the senior stuffs and the managers.
screwed up management, senior stuffs, managers and all the dumb politics.
it's just isn't what i need and it is certainly isn't what i'm looking for.
school term is going to start soooon and there comes another job opportunity.
it's not like there's only one job that i can take up in the whole of singapore.
seriously, i don't owe the company anything at all and i don't owe anybody any explanations whatsoever.
i've got $29 dollars tips on the 7th day of work (not including the change people left behind) and i'm proud of it, but, i don't even get a single penny out of it.
what kind of policy is this?
why do i have to be responsible for all the stuffs the fucked up manager missed out?
i handed up my schedules on time and he chose not to allocate the timeslots for me and i have to be reprimanded for not coming to work for SO many days.
WTF is this?
in the first place, this job doesn't offer me what i want, not in terms of pay but in terms of social interactions.
secondly, $6/hr isn't anything great. don't make me laugh my pants off by saying that the company pays us MORE than what we deserve.
thirdly, the managers can just go lick some asses. period.
fourthly, it was the manager who said that the staffs give the days they WANT to work for the coming holidays. i gave 2 days out of the 4. and now, some fucker demands people to work for all the public holidays and the eves. yeah, you can go announce yourself having a pussy instead of a dick to the hospital. tell them you have severe dementia.
i'm now an angsty, unsatisfied and irritated man.
i've more or less decided to fight for myself before quitting tml.

i'm going to embark on those activities i've desire whilst doing relief teaching in january.
i believe it's going to be a much better environment and i believe the teachers are going to offer me a whole new plethora of knowledge, wisdom and skills.

a revolutionised andre.

wooohooo, i must say that life's pretty enjoyable now.
it's less than two weeks to christmas and yes, i'm already soaking in the festive mood.
and it is especially so given the fact that christmas is soooo commercialised now.
hahaha, you know what i meant - SALES.
was over at JB yesterday for a one-day-shopping-and-eating trip and it was a total blast.
spent like SGD100 for like 6 tees/polos.
cheap thrill to the max and beyond. hahahahaa.
shopping trip again this friday to get christmas presents.
wooo. i love shopping. period.

work's been making me lethargic almost everyday.
maybe i should just get a new job and do something more enjoyable.
i've always hear people saying that one should enjoy every single day of their life cause life is short and unpredictable.
i just have this urge to just go on and do the things i really wanna do now.
recently, this nice guy returned to work but he was reprimanded for his hairstyle.
and guess what, he quitted on the day itself.
if i were in the shoes of that guy, i'd quit too.
reason being that there's so many employers looking for part-timers out there and they're paying better than what i am receiving now.
and i don't have to deal with the nonsense from the manager.
and certainly, f&b isn't what i'm going to pursue in my life.
anyway, the grass is always greener on the other side of the pasture.

sorry for neglecting this space.
haven't been blogging for quite a while cause i was really busy this week.
work's getting more tiring as the days progress simply because the environment only seem to leave the darker side in my mind.
this feeling of being exploited keeps flashing across mind.
i just feel like my pride's being trampled on, seriously.
okay, the fact is that i need people to give me some time cause i'm new to the whole environment and i need that little bit more patience.
i tried to follow instructions but i ended up getting reprimanded for no fucking reason.
the devil or the deep blue sea?
guys like girls but sometimes the line doesn't have to be drawn so clearly.
i'm not trying to say that i'm having any problems with guys liking girls (duh!), but in a workplace, both guys and girls should be treated equally, isn't it?
it seems like it's only me who have problems.
maybe i'm just lethargic and starting to sprout angsty comments.
i hope i'll be able to survive this week or i'll have to go along with my plan B which is to find a position in some boutiques along orchard.
you get to dress up and there's more interactions with people.
it's way better.
okay, time's up and my inner clock's ringing already.
anyway, i'm going to study economics and i certainly need not have to know how to carry trays and serve ice waters.
i need more interactions to get out of my comfort zone, completely.

i still have no time to do what i really want to do.
please people, tag on my tagboard.

hehe, some overdued pictures here.
and oh, since i'm so free now, i shall finish up my the left side of my blog page soon.
it's haven't been completed since eons.
if you haven't know, procrastinators are the leaders of tommorowww.
well, that's probably me. self-flattering works alll the time. xD

i would love to delete the prom pictures cause of my orgasmic faces in the pictures.
i'm more or less done packing with my 'A' levels stuffs which have been gathering dust.
i looked through the prelims papers which i've done and didn't want to throw them, initially.
it's like my hardwork for the 2months which i reallly devoted myself into studying.
i ended up throwing everything except for econs stuffs cause i'm pretty sure i'm going to take up econs in uni if nothing goes wrong.

boring stuffs aside, i have like 7237631813 things which i wanna do right now at this very moment.

1. I WANNA RETURN TO THE VOLLEYBALL COURT.
i think playing volleyball is the happiest and the saddest thing in my life.
stupid late blooming genes in my blood which deprived me of the height when i was in secondary school.
i was freaking 1.45m in sec1.
okay, i was wanna play volleyball now.

2. I WANNA GO TO THE BITCH BEACH.
i'm haven't been to the beach for eons, frivolling and soaking myself in the fun and being sunkissed.
hahaha.

3. i wanna learn to roller blade.
i don't have to be like a pro but i'll love to roller blade with my partner and our dog in the future.
hahahaa. nonsense.
roller blading's just fun la.

4. wakeboardinggggg.
don't have to be those out in the sea, those in east coast park will do.
oh, i forgot to mention i love water sports, this bring me to the next thing.

5. diving!
am having plans with xinrui to take up diving course in feb alrdy.
i'm eagerly anticipating for it. (:

6. join an adventure race.
being pretty deprived of it in jj cause of the darn funding problem, etc.
SIM's having an adventure race coming up soon.
anyone interested?

7. go overseas - splurge and eat non-stop.
i'm only going overseas next year. but i wanna step into the plane and take off right now.
japan, australia and hongkong trip so far.
but i wanna go bangkok for cheapo thrills.

8. get out of this seat and start preparing to leave the house for training for my stupid work.
it says it all.

anyway, i've regretted not to go for the standard charter marathon a few days back.
everyone who went are still relishing their euphoric mood.
):
till next time, loves.

edit: i've still got tonnes for things in my shopping list but i'm almost broke can't bear to spend anymore money.
i've spent like 4digit amount ever since exams ended 2 weeks ago.
please start raining money on me.
):

long awaited prom pictures are now here.
okay. prom's pretty boring in my opinion but heck, it's my first time.
was feeling really hyped up for prom and i did tonnes of crazy stuffs.
writing 'i'm your secret admirer' while rooting for someone to win the prom queen and going around taking pictures with girls who were oh-so-gorgeous.
i wanna end by saying this: make-up really does wonders.
disclaimer: sorry for my orgasmic face in some pictures. i swear it's the lighting. xD

the storm cloud blew over after an impromptu sms from phyllis.
and pfft. there i was hurrying off to change and do the necessary stuffs.
sengloong, phyllis and sebastian was a pretty enjoyable bunch of people (considering that 2 of them were first timers).
don't know why, but i did enjoy myself despite the oh-so-lame-shaking moves.
getting drunk for drinking with empty stomachhhh?
not anymore.
had macs for breakfast and drop dead at 530, totally cui.

found something interesting while blog surfing and it's 85% true in my opinion.
hahaha. not only i feel flattered but i'm like pretty amazed.

i know my prom pictures are pretty overdued but hang on i'll post in awhile's time.

my highly anticipated zouk/french connection fashion showcase just vanished right into the fucking thin air.
so much so for not working today and getting all hyped up for the showcase.
fuck off, i just hate this kind of ending when people just decided not to go the last minute.
anyone that pisses me off the next moment is going to get a wrath from me.
no pay, nothing to do, no showcase.
how great is that.
now i have 6 tickets rotting in front of me.
fuck fuck fuck.
this is a very heavy stormy cloud.