so, in case you do not know, i'm going for my smu interview a few hours time.

wish me good luck and i shall update on my japan trip soon.

something to start off with...
4 more days to my japan trip.
19 more days to the end of university application
27 more days to enlistment.
my days are numbered, like seriously. haha.

alright, i've been quite busy this few days, for no good reasons, i think.
still have been exercising as usual.
and i've also been pondering, mulling over which courses in university to pick, how to arrange my choices so as to be in an advantageous position for the application.
i've actually decided on what courses to pick since eons ago.
but, i'm just hesitating a little cause of my mediocre grades. haha.
and now, i'm thinking if i should take SAT test which is on 3rd of May.
i have BMT during that time and the SAT test may not be advantageous to me for my application.
oh wells.

academic issues aside, i think the jc education is really.. impeccable.
i'm not praising the government for whatsoever reason, but i think that implementing it as a two year course is nothing more i could ask for.
although two years may be a little tough to challenge the cirriculum but i feel that the two years really developed me holistically.
other people may graduate with straight 'A's, many 'A's, and many more 'A's, but they may not be the one who graduate with 'A's in their character, and not to mention any improvement in it at all.

i think the two years really sucked me dry.
with such a bad start, i wouldn't thought i would pull through at the end of the route i chose for myself.
i'm like a grape tree being forced to grow in local conditions.
but, in the midst of all the struggles, i've changed.
though i may not bear the usual grape that people loved, i believe that i'm the one who brings pleasant surprises and a sense of awe to many.
and of course, being well-loved by many.

looking at the sudden increase in visits of my blog, i guess many are curious over how i've done for my 'A' levels, be it for good intentions or ill intensions..

i did okay. not tooo bad and not too good either.
at least, i still can enter university.

alright, that's for this post.

after two years of education, tomorrow will certainly be one of the most important days in my life.
after so many speculations, the results are confirmed to be out tomorrow.
somehow, i just feel a little ironic.
it's like, i want the day to come so soon, before the official notification was released.
but now i'm feeling jittery, uncertain and anxious.
as i'm typing this, i could feel the many many many bouts of nervousness crawling up my spine.

my mind now is..
30% nervous.
20% picturing how my grades will turn out.
20% thinking about my future.
10% confidence that i will do well.
10% comforted.
10% thinking about the plans tomorrow.

though i've planned my routes already, there's only this one road which i'm certain that i want to go - SMU ECONOMICS.
speaking about economics, i hope that my economics result tomorrow will be an 'A' please.
i've always have high expectations for my economics grade.
though i'm a little uncertain, i hope that things will turn out great for me, not only for economics but for everything.

now people, start wishing me.
thank you!

i hate LOUSY sweet-talker.
i hate LOUSY people-pleaser.
'nuff said.
it ends tonight.