well, havent updated in awhile. and havent been writing for a long time.
so here's a little something that i coined out a few days ago,
only blogger was being a bitch and didnt let me update, SO ANYWAY .
HERE'S THE STORY!
ENJOY!
((:
--x
the wind blows onto her face, she enjoys every minute of just this. with him beside her.
his presence was enough to just comfort her, just to assure her that he was really with her, all the way. if not a lifetime, atleast for a very long time.
jokes, fun, laughter were exchanged. the usually tensed atmosphere was relaxed and peaceful for once that day, making up for the unhappiness caused the night before, one whereby her parents were being just,
impossible, as usual. and to makeup for all the quarrels they've been having. the smaller ones.
a small smooth breeze drifts past as they sat on the bench, her head placed on his chest, his arm around her. a smile appears on her face unknowingly, as she closed her eyes. enjoying every single second that ticked, wishing time would stop, and she could lay in his arms like this forever.
feeling loved, protected, secured. comfort, affection, and tenderness. yes. it was the kind of feeling she always wanted and dreamt of.
" i wish we can be like that everyday. we should make it a point to come to the beach every week. " she said, lifting her head slightly to face him.
he looked at her, gave her a smile and replied : " what makes you think i dont want it to be like this everyday? "
she gave him a wistful smile in reply as he started browsing through the songs in her phone.
"sing for me? that song. " she asked. with a tinge in her voice. remembering that its been a very long time since he last sang for her. " i cant sing . i dont have a voice anymore. " he replied.
"please? " she looked at him, with those pleading eyes. as he began to sing to the song, Belaian Jiwa.
as his voice drifted and he continued singing, she laid her head on his chest once more, a blissful smile formed across her face. and fat drops of tears rolled down her cheeks. but no. they weren't tears of sadness like those that has been dropping for the past month. the tears dropped of happiness. it has been so long since she last heard him sing. and she definitely was touched that he sang for her again. Reminded of the promise he made her, to sing all her favourite songs till he dies.
Yes. the past few months weren't exactly happily spent. but we will never count our blessings without unhappiness. we will never enjoy happy moments without sad times. we will not learn how to be more positive if negative things do not happen. She knew that very well. the countless thoughts going on in her head, she knew that this moment was one to remember. where time passed slowly, in his arms, head laid on his chest as she listened to the rhythmic beating of his heart.
Giving a sigh of relief from all that she has been facing for the past months, she finally felt like a huge load rolled off her shoulders. finally, all the arguments are coming to an end. yes, a day ago, she thought that they were screwed because of her parents. but in the end, it turned out to be less negative than they expected. many things have happened, some that she was shock at the way it happened and ended. and all to her favour. Life can not get any better.
As the sky slowly merged with the setting sun, a pink salmon draped across the horizon, as he brought out a picture, a sketch that was drawn by a close friend weeks ago. a sketch of their backview, seated side by side, and writer's note, wishing them all the best in their relationship.
the both of them laughed as they remembered the setting at that time when their friend drew that picture.
As she gazed into his eyes, she can't help but feel like the luckiest girl to have found such a wonderful person, to feel like she's glad that she decided against the odds to continue on this journey with him, alongside him even at times when she felt like walking alone. That all the tears she cried for him was worth it. that all the arguments just made them held on to each other tighter, that all the misunderstandings helped them to understand each other better.
She can't help but think, how the whole journey started.
" I love you darling. And I will never let you go. " He told her. with a voice of determination, a tone of protection, and affirmation, as he hugged her and kissed her cheeks and held her tight...
x-
i love YOU more and more each day ;
11:22 PM
everyday, of our lives. wanna find you there wanna hold on tightwell , trying out a new way of blogging. i decided to update this blog more often to all the darlings who are reading! (:
life has been a bed of roses. and when i mean to say : bed of roses,
no i dont mean its been the best.
i wonder why people always say that a bed of roses means something good. it actually really isnt true. probably because when you look beyond the beautiful petals, there's thorns underneath it that'll prick you.
which is why i always disagree when they say life isnt a bed of roses. because it really is.
life wont be beautifu if you dont have a few pricks to help you treasure more,
a few JABS to wake you up sometimes.
anyway , whats life without a good time to unwind and relax once in awhile ?
finally smiled like never before on thursday. went to eastcoast beach and literally slacked and hang out. went into the waters and even Eric kor noticed i was smiling alot that day.
going for my job briefing next wednesday , starting work soon . really cannot wait to start! (:
working with two familiar faces, jiejie and mouse (:
alright. i promised a story in the prev few posts, i'll get one out tmr alrights! (:
do takecare people, with love! (:
i love YOU more and more each day ;
1:14 PM
ah .
its been two months since i last blogged :X
deepest apologies people!
the past two months had been pretty interesting
hung out with interesting people,
did things i never thought i could do.
life's been interesting.
the good, the bad, the humourous, the sadness.
but put things this way.
i've learnt alot of things,
i've been dealing with tons of things as well .
whatever that is meant to be recorded down, has been recorded down.
blogging it out to all dem haters' out there isnt worth it.
and people who i decided to trouble them with my problems know what has been going on.
life still goes on.
thick or thin .
so no matter what .
things are doing okay .
will be updating my blogsong.
and when my blogskin is custom-done. then i shall post it up
SO.
do take care,
tata.
will be abandoning it cus i find no reason to blog till some other day .
i love YOU more and more each day ;
4:58 PM
abandoning my blog until i improve my grades.
and yes, i've updated all the links already.
and changed a new song too (:
Heavily Broken by the Veronicas ((:
will be coming back to check on my tagboard though
but anything important, add me up on my msn : sabrina9567@hotmail.com
takecare people!
i love YOU more and more each day ;
9:53 PM
OKAY. i was suppose to do this few days ago, BUT. due to some emo-ishly things that happen , i got simply NO MOOD to update any nice stuff. ANYWAY
here , i. am (:
Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG BACKS.
1) I love writing lyrics and stories that i keep in my laptop and refuse to let anyone see it. and well. nobody really knows about it :X
2) I am the world's biggest bitch if you offend me. and no. i dont mean it physically. i mean emotionally and psychologically. if you make me burst, i assure that my words wont be french, but the most insulting things you'll ever hear.
3) I psycho-ed the school counsellor, the MOE counsellor, and a psychiatrist before X:
4) I am a very defensive person by nature when its about things that aren't true. which provokes people even more to tease me to think i'm feeling guilty when in actual fact, i LOATHE and HIGHLY DISLIKE people who assume wrong things about me. by the time i'm pissed, i'm already in either one of the extremes
5) people'll get pissed with my mp3 if they borrow it. i listen to a wide range of music. one minute you're listening to instrumental, the next'll be techno. right after might be an oldie/country and then you get rock. and the list goes on and on.
6) when i need to listen to music to concerntrate and focus, i'll listen to spanish songs or songs with languages i dont understand but with an upbeat rhythm. good examples are songs by Daddy Yankee, Don Omar and a few songs from Sean Paul
7) when i'm utterly stressed/pissed to the extent whereby drinking, dancing or walking in the rain cant help, i go for training. which only happened in the span of less than five times in two years.
8) i keep to myself most of the time. i dont open up that easily. but when i do, its to people that i treat like my really good brother and sister. the kind that i'll shed blood for you if i have to.
9) i can smile and laugh but i can be fuming mad inside. its like i get angry but i smile really easily, making people think i'm not upset anymore.
10) when i'm really depressed but refuse to let anyone see, nobody can tell i'm depressed. HOWEVER. when i'm upset or not that depressed YET, i dont bother hiding it and just show that black face which is easily cheered up. (:
That’s about it. I was actually tagged by Kaiwen BROTHER! (:
I’m now tagging Natalie, BeeQi, Zhenying , Jaslyn, Rachel, and whoever else X: LOL
i love YOU more and more each day ;
8:01 PM
i should make this post historical or something. in order to stop myself from whining about how nobody likes me in school. because i know well off that i'm loved. very very loved and cared for by people around me in school and all when i was in the hospital .
the cramps that i had the day before, which i ended up staying in the sickbay for two or more hours until school ended, came back! worse than before! aching throughout the AMath period until Mrs Lim sent me down to the sickbay , and i msged dad to take me home.
initially supposed to go home . but i had problems even standing and walking due to the unbearable pain, ENCI mama acced. me down to sickbay to wait for my dad. Mrs lim told him to bring me to the doctor because by that time, i couldnt walk and tears were streaming down already.
went to the clinic at admiralty's, and damn. that doctor PANICKED like CRAP!
i went in and right after he got a total shock and without asking what i'm suffering from , he went : i'll give you a jab !
crap. this crazy panicked fella poked a huge hole into my arm!
and a plaster had to be used to stop the blood -.-
after the jab that was SUPPOSE to make me feel better, it ended up making things worse and i was given the choice of going to the hospital or getting another jab from that crazy doctor.
obviously, i chose the hospital. no way was i gonna risk getting jabbed again, if not i'll end up getting holes instead of getting better! rawrs!
got stuck at TTSH for the day, all the way from morning till four or five plus. and i was either on the wheelchair or lying on the bed . bleah!
EnCi Yang MaMa, KaiXin, Xingjuan Mei, and
Sheliza wanted to try to come visit me, and my dad tried to sneak them in thru another walkway, but ended up the place was blocked by wheelchairs -.-
Darling wanted to come aswell, but something cropped up, so yeah. in the end he couldnt come, and i didnt want him to either. i know he'll be superbly worried.
Cher called as well as
Jamille, and a few others too, all concerned and worried.
Got another jab from the doc, this one really hurt till i cried. the medicine injected it was horrifying. ): terribleeeeeeeee!
went under observation for the rest of the day, kindda lied a little by saying it didnt hurt anymore, and doc decided to discharge me, but apparently i'm suspected of hepetitis and i have an infection.
didnt wanna stay in the hospital. thats why i lied. i hated that place. the last time i went in was during primary school. that ONE time. and i told myself i must never go back in there. but there i was again yesterday. sighs.
Natalie came over to my place right after, darling wanted to come over but he wasnt allowed to come out so its okay! (:
special shoutouts to :Zalbiah, Aisyah, Stella, Twins - Beeqi, Beeyi, and the other lovelies who asked after me,Lots of love to Enci, Kaixin, Xingjuan, Aliff , Natalie, Jamillie, Cher, and ofcourse, last but not least, my darling dearest ! (:
THE EYES. THEY SEE.
as the taste of thy forbidden fruit lingers
the skulls and crossbones dance
to the tune of youre death
i love YOU more and more each day ;
1:24 PM
i find myself worry-less even though stupid things happen.
haas. adorable . i conclude that the people in my school are simply ADORABLE,
even sleeping is a crime these days. i wonder.... if someone commit suicide, would i be blamed for pulling the trigger? with people like them, who needs enemies!
bring it onnnnnn~ i'm not scared. i've got a huuuuuuuuuge gang of people behind me. and yes, i AM talking about the angels of God, the army of God fighting for me. my spiritual welfare is definitely higher. and i've got a God who can go to war with just a hundred people against ten thousand people. so why should i worry?
i dont need a relationship in order to fight back. the only thing i wonder is this.
getting into so much shit all the time, FUN MEH? oh puh-lease. i'm sure the rumours are gonna spread on tuesday. but what the shit.
yesyes, i dont need vulgarities in my dictionary. neither do i need youre amount of depression or amount of trouble you cook everyday. what for do i need so many 'friends' ? most important is that i have my close friends who love me. and i'm sure that even though my friends might be smaller in numbers, they're the friends who will be there nomatter what .
there is no need for me to bother, or even be bothered by you. and youre whatever 'crazy' friends. i have my life to live. unlike you. thats why you go around ruining other people's life. my 1o1% sympathies.
there is no need for me to mention whatever has been going on lately. i'll just take life as it comes. trusting God with all i have. i'm sure that is more than enough. my God is my backup. my protector. my Alpha&Omega.
you come with people behind you. i come to you with the power of my God.
i can do nothing but pray for you. that God will be merciful ((:
i love YOU more and more each day ;
1:08 AM
