It was an ordinary Monday morning...
I woke up around 10am to get ready for my 12.30pm class.
Usually the first thing i do after i opened my eyes, ill check my phone for missed calls or messages.
A few messages and one of them are from Joyin its said ;
"Bobby so pitiful. Yesterday i feed him 1 of the ubat then whole nite he ps in the room, urinate. Vomit so many times. Mummy said that ubat must eat with another one. If not will vomit. Really vomit so much. So kau lat. Haih. He no energy d. So kesian. I tot feed him med, mana tau cause him like that."
Then i replied ;
"Haha bobby so cutie ar??" ( the rest i forgotten what i replied d)
Then Joyin replied ;
"I know. Yesterday i feed him the small one. Coz the big bottle says b4 meal. small bottle after meal. That time 12 plus... Eat d.. so i feed small bottle. Mummy said must mix. if not will vomit. true enough, at night so kau lat where got cute. so sickly."
I was like normal la...cause vomiting for Bobby is normal and I TOT its nothing serious
Talked to Joanne after my class then we were busy planning what to do when we reach home. Because it was our plan to go home on 9th because my mom's birthday was 10th Jan and plus im shifting soon so i was planned to go back and pack my stuffs so that they can shift my things over there when im in UNI.
I told Joanne that Im going to bring Bobby to see the new house so that he can adapt to the new environment before we move it. Even Sharon's dog, Brownie had prob adapting to the new environment.
Well, Bobby was much softer than Brownie. Not saying he's a bapuk or whatever. But if we were to put Bobby on a stool, we know that he wont jump down.
4pm
Called mummy to confirm my flight time with her again. She didnt mention anything about Bobby to me.
6pm....
I went Dinner with my friends then came back to my room watch Wizards of Waverly Place (Stupid show). Eventually i forgot about Bobby vomiting.
Around 6.30pm to 7pm
Still half way watching that stupid movie, Joyin called me and she was sobbing on the phone. I tot something bad happened to her again then out of the sudden i heard ;
"Jacinth, Doc said Bobby cannot last until tonight."
Seriously i took me few second to tafsir, i was so freaking SHOCK!!! Then she told me She's going to the doc now , then i told her dont panic first. Go to the doc and see how....
In the first place no one told me Bobby was hospitalized and i tot Bobby was vomiting only, which is kinda common for cats and dogs. I sat in front of my table, stunned before i started crying......
Then i walked in and out of the room, Worried, and i cant sit still and knowing that i cant be there with him, sayang his head and look at him really breaks my heart.. I feel so helpless, but to pray so that God will keep him safe through the night. Im so far away from him and all i can at that moment is listen on the phone to keep myself updated. All i know about him is he lying there with his eyes closed.
And then i called Mummy and she was talking to the doc. I was listening their conversation through the phone. Then suddenly i heard barking..(4times) then i asked mummy, which stupid puddle barking so loud??(really sounds like a puddle's bark)
Then she said it was bobby....!
I was like so impo, because i can recognise his bark and that bark dont sound like his bark and then that moment i knew that he was in pain...
Then i hung up and Joanne called me and she started crying on the other line. I went out of the room because i dont want to scare my roommate.
I told her that i wanna go home and be there with Bobby.
It was 7something and I was planning to take the 10something bus to get home. I told Joanne and she said it is dam dangerous. And by that time i reached home, its morning already....
I couldnt describe the feeling of being stucked here so so so far away from home..sigh
Its horrible
I quickly rushed to my friend's room (my bd couldnt connect) and logged on to the Internet, finding for air tickets. Airasia is has the earliest flight, but i couldnt book online because it is less than 24hr and i have to get to the nearest airaisa sales counter to buy the ticket. I called so many people to confirm with them whether i can buy on the spot onot and is there counter in Alor Setar airport.
Then i called Mummy back while walking out of my friend's room and I heard the Bark again...
Then, suddenly I heard Joyin telling Mummy that BOBBY opened his eyes
and then few moments later i heard she saying "Mummy, Bobby si liau".
Tears from my eyes was flowing like waterfall.... I was crying so loud and i dont even care if anyone hears me.. On the phone, I heard everyone was crying..... Joanne was on the other line on Edwin's phone.
THEN,
AhMa called me and told me nonit to go back... I insisted going back because i wanna see Bobby for the last time, i know if i didnt go back, ill regret for the rest of my life. Then my dad called and he said you wanna come back mer?? CAN mer? Then i said I dont care, i wanna come back... Im flying back first thing in the morning... He nodded and hung up.
I know Joanne drove back from Singapore and I stuck in kedah, so so so far away. She reached home around 12.30am. I asked them to wait for me, i wanna see Bobby for the last time.
I couldnt believed Bobby left us. The whole night, i kept recalling Joyin saying "Mummy, Bobby si liau". I couldnt wait for 5am so that i couldnt get up and get ready to leave. The whole night i was lying down and looking at Bobby's picture. I didnt realised that i set Bobby picture as my wallpaper until that night. It is so long ago until im too biasa with it.
I cried in the waiting room, i cried on the plane.... Still, i couldnt accept the fact that Bobby is gone. My mom came and fetch me from the airport... I saw mummy's eyes was red and watery when i entered the car. The whole journey from airport to GC, Mummy was telling me what happened at the clinic and how he bid them goodbye. The whole freaking story, i didnt really wanna hear, i just kept quiet hoping to reach GC FAST!
Mummy said he only barked twice the whole day. She also said that he must have barked for the last time for me and Joanne who couldn't be there. And opened his eyes widely to see his Joyin, Edwin, Mummy and Ahma before he left.
When i reached GC, they already digged the hole just next to Edwin's room, just in front of the third pillar. Everyone is already in the house including Daddy, Ahma, Edwin, Joyin, Joanne, Alvin, Ber Chek, Sharon and AhFun.
We cried non-stop when we opened the box seeing him lying there, not breathing and moving.
He was cold and hard. Joanne held him for the last time and placed him on his favourite bed. We buried along his bowl, water bottle and his blue hoodie shirt and 23 grey Jacket. On top of the sand, we wrote "In loving memory Bobby Lee Ksken Yuki, We Love You". Suddenly, a yellow butterfly was seen in the garden, it must be Bobby. The butterfly first flew to Edwin and then to Mummy. We went to the butterfly, thinking it must be Bobby. He is now guarding our new house in GC and he has shifted in the first.
After the ceremony, we went back home to TP... Usually when we reach home, will honk to let Bobby know that we're back. Then he'll be at the gate wagging and barking. But it is so different now that he's not there to greet us when we reach home. sigh
Every little thing i do at home reminds me of him. It is so difficult for me to be at home without him.. It will never be the same anymore without Bobby.....
I left my Uni with only three friends knowing the main reason i went back. Only three of them and one of them was like speechless when i told her it was my dog. Feels like slapping her, obviously she dont understand the bond i have with Bobby. I told them if anyone ask about me just tell them i went back to shift house. This is because i didnt want any of them thinking Im crazy, do so many things just for a dog. YA, like how many of you can actually understand about losing a dog?? Ya none! Unless you really love you dog as much as we loved our Bobby
9 freaking years with Bobby, its like losing a child who is 9years old.
He's not merely a dog,
He is one of our family member, my best friend
