Janellybellys World

I take a licking and keep on ticking. At least this time. I got over the tummy bug (Ewww!) now it is being methodically passed through the family. 4 down, 2 to go, 1 in process (Cade at the moment). I got my house cleaned and sanitized. Every time we all get sick like that I get that uncontrollable urge to disinfect every surface, toilet, bath/shower, remote, phone and doorknob. So it commenced today. I actually finished in one day, which is pretty good. I can really turn on the burners and get it done when I get going.

I actually ate clean, I just didn't eat much. I had protein oatmeal about 11 and then a arby sandwich with just beef and bun, plain. Mabye tommorw I will try to lift some weights. I can't get down too much or it will be too hard to get back on track. I have developed a nice little head cold since yesterday, so the sudafed has me a little wired I think. It think that what I took! lol That and aunt Flo arriving right now I am quite a piece of work. I'm in a decent mood, surprisingly enough. lol I managed to be cheerful as Mark left for a softball game(Cade's game was cancelled, good thing, not like he could have played anyway!) I don't know why i would have minded him going anyway, I get to enjoy my clean house, kids are eating a meager dinner and going straight to bed, I can watch whatever the heck I want to on TV and mabye even take an ininterrupted bath. I just automatically bristle when he says he's gonna play. Why shouldn't he? he hasn't done anything like that in months. Alright, rambling rambling. Well, never mind on the peaceful night, since i started typing this I've cleaned out 3 bowls of stomach bile so I think thats what my night will consist mostly of. Oh well, at least its not me. :)

Heres one: You know your doing BFL when you are GLAD that you got a stomach bug and it fell the 2 days before your period so it wiped out the cravings. So you didn't have to deal with wanting chocolate. That is WACK!!!!

Yeah, that Spam I ate must have started it off but within a half hour I was a goner. No wonder I couldn't function yesterday. My body hurts, and I fought it but I finally gave it to the porcalin God about 10 pm. I am still NOT feeling well but I think that I can pull it around by late tonight. But for now I'm sitting here like a slug watching TV all day and the kids have eaten cold cereal all day. Oh well, its fortified, right? Poor little Sadie has it much worse, she has continued vomiting ALL DAY and Mark brought her pedialyte and 7 up. I hope I can get her to drink it. She needs every ounce on her body that she has, I hope she stops soon, Plus, theres nothing worse when your sick than having to continually wash out someone ELSE's puke!! I feel so bad for her I hate it when the kiddos are sick! Shes' so good though, she just has her bowl there on her bed and dosn't make a mess. Awwwww, poor little gal. Mark says, 'well, look at the bright side, at least you can drop a couple pounds' I'm like, yeah, great hon, huh? One funny thing(though not at the time)last night I asked him to bring me some more comfy underwear while I was on my deathbed and he brings these lacy crappy ones- I'm like "what are you thinking, ya NUT!" ahh, I think NOT! Crazy Man!

I have no clue what to make for dinner, mabye we'll have pancakes and scrambled eggs. I won't be eating whatever it is so I don't really care. I'd really love to jsut go back to bed, beleive me, if I could hire Merry Maids they'd be here by now. I have been known (while big & preggo) to send out the laundry and have it done. It was WELL worth it. For now, though, I AM the maid, sick or not. I think it bothers Mark a little, he wishes I could have a full time helper, he really does. Well, like my Dad used to say-"How does it feel to want?" Hehe. yeah.

I have entered loserville today. I hate it here. I can't figure out how to leave though. I havn't done a darn thing today and i don't think I will be able to anytime soon. I realized that my house is a direct reflection of how I feel inside. If things are OK I can get things done, get it together. Sometimes, not so much. I hate this place!!! I had to post the pics of the house so you can get an idea of how I feel today. I realize its nothing a long late night can't cure(keep in mind lots of laundry and messy bedrooms..) but I just can't get there.

But I know I can't live like this either. Plus, the slice of Spam I ate(I know, yikes) is not sitting too well. I think I may have to chuck it up. I just want to climb in my unmade bed and crash, but thats not going to happen. Waaaaaah!

Where did this month go?? This is not good. Its crunch time now. This week blows already and its only tuesday. School will be out for 2.5 weeks after this week, we go year-round. Thats so fun for all the families that go on vacations and do fun things, but when your broke, its just a big hassle. Plus its gonna ruin my schedule. Dealing with alll 5 all day is not too fun. Am I a bad person for saying that? I love the shorties to death but its just constant chaos and complaining of boredom, so they tease. I will have to hang on to my BFL program for dear life. Lets see, I get 2 hours at the gym, hmmm, mabye have to start using the sauna more or something. Good thing I have a season pass to the zoo and some free dollar movie tickets. Oh well, I gotta get thru it just like every year. Chuggga chuggga just keep going and going. I'll get there someday, right?

I have been so busy!!! Last night was Mark and my 11th wedding anniversary. 11 years????? Holy crap!!! It has been better than I could have ever asked for. I love him so much and he is definetly my soulmate!!! I love being married to my best friend. Lucky me!!! We went to Texas road house steak place and had a very delicious meal. Then we went and saw Flightplan. We had a great time.

Luckily I made a date to go running with my neighbor. I would have totally bailed on myself, since the anniversary "festivites" went into the wee morning hours. :D But I dragged my big booty out of bed at 6 am and we went. Kate had mapped out a 4.7 mile course with a 6 mile option, to which I laughed and laughed!!! Ya- we just stuck with the shorter course. hehe. As it was I had to stop and walk 3 times(oh, the humility!) and she ran ahead and then doubled back to me. I think part of the problem was that she was talking to me and I really need to turn my MP3 up to 50 and focus. If I hear myself breathing or my feet pounding I get tired. I can tune it out to the music. But still, it was my first time in a loooong time to even attempt that distance so I feel good about it. I have 2 months to get ready for the 10K(6.2 miles)so If I do a long run every saturday till then I can be ready. I just want to run the whole thing and finish in 1 hour and 10 minutes. I think I can do it. I was hurtin today though. AAAAACK!

Now tonight is my MIL b-day so we are taking her out to some fancy chinese food. It should be nice. I plan on indulging tonight and then a light day tomorrow, then NO FREE DAY till halloween. I am in a good zone right now and I feel like I need to make up some ground. so I will do it. I know it sounds a little crazy but I need to try this. This challenge is still alive and well!!! Size 6 by Thanksgiving!!!

Here are my new plans for this challenge. I started Betagen today, I'm pretty excited about it. I think technically this is my week 8 of this challenge, which is so funny to me because I have gone nowhere with it. Sheesh! Sooooooooo...I am going to extend it to Thanksgiving. That is when I am running in the Turkey Trot 10K, thanksgiving A.M. I am hosting dinner this year but it will be alright since my mom and them will be here to cover the prep for me. It'll get me out of a bunch of the work, at least! Hahaha. Mark will be in Panama with his cousin and a friend(his dad and brothers' family live there)and won't get home till the morning of.

I really lost my mind last night and ate pizza for dinner. What???!! Why do I have these mental lapses? Well, I punished myself for it this morning at the gym. I did a Killer UBWO and then ran at 5.5 for 30 minutes with a 5 min. speedwalk cooldown. I was dripping! It felt great though. Now tomorrow I have to do HIIT and I may do some plyo too. I am thinking I need to focus on this 10K a little more and I am gonna go for a 4-5 miler run on saturday. My neighbor Kate did a half marathon recently and I might see if she wants to go with me. I need to add in some more cardio on a more regular basis(and not use it as an excuse to skip my HIIT!!!!) to get this fat fat butt shrunken!I amhoping the Bteagen will keep me on track. In fact, I put it out on my kitchen counter as a reminder to eat clean!! We'll see if it works.

Ok Mark calls it crapbooking but I love it!!! My mom and my aunt have every doo dad and supply you can imagine, so I took advantage friday night and finished a paperbag book of our family and I will give it to my MIL for her b-day next week. These things are sooooo cute and fun to make. They are madeout of paper lunch bags,ribbon and cool paper and then you use real metal embelllishments. isn't that cool??I LOVE scrapbooking!!!! My mom made me one of these paperbag ones plus a really cute halloween one of my kids. My mom and aunt were here in PHX for the big convention and I got tons of cute ideas. I wish I had more time to dedicate to it!! Well, mabye someday I will.

What an awesome fun birthday I had. Everyone spoiled me rotten and it was great. My MIL took me clothes shopping, I got cash, My hubby babysat all weekend for me to just go play and do whatever the heck I wanted. My AZ BFL friends took me out last night for an awesome time. I didn't even really pig out which I feel good about, although I may make brownies for myself later. Heres a recap:

Friday: I took off for Phoenix at 1, Stopped at an awesome new scrapbook store and blew my birthday $$. Went to Charlotte Russse in the mall and got some pants, Drove to downtown and met my mom at the hotel for dinner(mexican-yummy) then stayed up all night scrapbooking and made a cute book(I'll post pics of it). Drove home sat. at 7 am. FUN!!!!

Saturday: Hung around with my kids, went and had an awesome workout at the gym, then went to Cade's basball game. Got home hurried and got ready to go out with Dana and Maricar. We went to this great club and ate shrimp and calamari, and another BFL friend met us there, Jody (jodybranch). We hit the dance floor and partied like it was 1999!! Just kidding but it was really fun the band and the DJ played a lot of great songs and I got hit on like 5 times(ok, so mabye the old lady/mom still has it??? LOL) Maricar and I spent a lot of the time dodging creeps! LOL Dana and Jody held down the bar and dodged bar creeps!!! LOL. I rolled in the door at about 2 am and crashed. I am still so tired but the kids got me up :(

It was all so fun and I sure love my tracker friends. I was so shocked to see all of the nice birthday wishes! Dana you silly thread starter! I wish Mary could have come she would have loved that club!!! Darn, mabye next time after we head to Tucson!!!

It was all so fun, I can't wait to do it again!!!

You know how eveyone has one or 2 days of the week that seem like they are just super duper busy?? Well this week I realized that my thursdys for the next couple months are going to be awful. Here was tonights schedule.....Cooper basball practice, 5 pm.(9 miles away in rush hour) Mark took him and Cade, so that I could get the house picked up and finish homework with Cooper and Sadie before I shoot out to pick up Cooper, and Mark could leave straight from there to Cades practice.(6:30-8, 10 miles away on the freeway in rush hour) I got back with 15 minutes to spare before my scout boys showed up at 6:30 so the kids had spegettios and rootbeer on the picnic table outside. Yeah, real nice dinner mom. Then scouts till 7:15, get kids in tub, of course Sadie the helper gets massive soap in the 2 little guys eyes, oh, trauma! I had everyone in bed in 10 miutes!!! Mamas done for the day, peeps!!! Survivor is recording so Mark and I can watch it is peace later when everything settles down.


NOTE TO SELF: Could have done MUCH better in the preparation categoy. Changes for next thursday: 1) crockpot dinner (so they might get a vitamin or 2)

2)prepare for scouts even earlier(I have to bring fry bread and fixins to the pack nite and decorate a cowboy theme~YIKES)

3) have house cleaned and ready to go by noon so I can get ready

4)be willing to bag Coopers practice if it is going to be too hard to get him there

I have to pull it together!!! I feel like I got very little accomplished today, I had some important phone calls to make that I slacked on, LOTS of housework to do.....and I am planning to have a fancy-free birthday weekend so it would help myself to have the house clean and laundry done....Hello! Mcfly!!!!

I'm BACK baby!!!! Today was great! I got in a great LBWO, and a 15 minute run/walk and 15 minutes on the big stairs!!! While I was there I ran into a woman I know and alked to her about BFL. It was her first time back in the gym in a while and was VERY interested in starting. The friend she was with had done BFL and was going to give her the book. One of my C2 goals was to inspire 2 women to start and finish a challenge. I showed her my pics and I think she was shocked. She'd been seeing me all the time but never realized, and was surprised how little actual time she'd have to put in at the gym. Then one of the trainers I know (did my assessment waaaay back in march) Was just stitting around and so I got brave enough to finally showhim my C1 pics. Well, he was VERY impressed. It really made we want to do even better. Then I went to IKEA and got a bunk bed for the boys (my babys been sleeping in a portacrib for 2.5 years for crying out loud!!) I resisted the cinnamon rolls!!!!Put that together then Mark went out and got pizza of which I had NONE, so feeling good about that too. Now getting ready to watch my FAVE show, so you think you can dance...YAY! Good day, good night, still on plan and lovin it. 3 days in a row! Mark is gone but he was able to take Cade to scouts so I can get these kids to bed. Hopefully theyll go down easy with the excitement of the new bed. TOmmorw I have a date to go running and do sprints and plyo at 6. Should be fun!

Well I finally came to the conclusion that at some point most of us do....Go back to the very beginning and do what works!!! Here is what I was TRYING to do....I was thinking that my 8-10 am workouts were cutting into my day too much (which they do) but for C1 I was on project status so it was OK because I was making myself a priority and everything else could be arranged. I didn't miss a workout in 11 weeks, and the one I did I was able to make up. So I get the brilliant idea that I should get up early and go to the gym at 5:30-6:30 instead and carve myself a couple more hours into my morning. What ended up happening is if I did manage to get up and go, I was so bonked by 9 am I was pretty useless anyway, even with a nice dose of caffeine. Most of the time I didn't make it, didn't go later because I technically "failed" to get going early, and 2 months later blah blah blah I was off altogether. If I don't get the workout in by noon, forget it. then out goes the eating, and now here I am. SOOOOOOO, I have decided after tweaking my goals according to the 6 weeks I wasted, I am back on project status and will be returning to my tried and true gym time, mid-morning. Thats it. I feel so much more comfortable, like I just came back home from being away or something. Everybody better just take a back seat, cuz mama is not through with her transformation yet, and I still have goals to reach and booty to kick! Even my little boys were glad to go back, they had been missing it! Strap yourselves in, folks, because this roller coaster is going for another BIG ride!!! I am so relieved to actually be expecting results at the end of each week, instead of knowing by wednsday of every week that this will be yet another week of stagnation. I am ready to LOSE fat, instead of just be happy I didn't GAIN too much! It is an exciting feeling!

I had this experience once before toward the end of my first challenge. Last time I was doing squats. This time I had just finished my triceps. I'd done more than I ever had doing extensions(where you are on your back and extending over your head) and I was using 35 lbs. thats a LOT for me(the 30's were being used) but I pushed through and did it. THen I immediatly flipped over and did my 12 dips with my feet on another bench straight in fromt of me. I had great form and dipped LOW. I don't know what happened but I sat back and put my head down a little and I just began tearing up. It was almost orgasmic!! It was like the tears were coming from behind my eyeballs. Thats the best way I can explain it. It felt so relieving. I was just a big rush of endorphins. I hope I have found "IT" again and can push myself back into full on BFL hardcore. I looked at my Oxygen magazine and it helped me focus on what I really want. The women in there can do it and so can I!! And hello, Averismommy!!!!! That really inspired me, and so do all of you guys who give me encouragement and support. I have to get below 130 during this challenge. I have till october 15th. I can do it. I can!!! Heaven help me!!!!

Boy I'm tired!!! I stayed up WAY too late on friday night on the tracker chat til 2 am(but it was soooooooooo fun!) but I had made plans with a friend to meet at 6 to go running. I can't believe I was able to get up for that! We ran a couple miles and did plyometrics. Then I had a crazy day with the baseball thing saturday all day, then stayed up too late again with my hubby, then had a 6 am wake up again to get the family to church by 8 am sharp. add to that my body hurting soooo bad from a couple killer workouts this week (and the plyo on sat) I came home from church, ate and CRASHED for 3+ hours. Mark wasn't too thrilled with me being out of commission for so long but I am still so beat! I really worked myself over! I don't think he understands that. Oh well. I worked so hard to get my house all cleaned and beautiful yesterday, now its all messed up again so I amgoing to try to spend the evening getting it back again.


My heart is breaking for all of the people, especially kids who have been separated from their families in the hurricane. LITTLE kids, 3,4 years old. I can't even comprehend how horrible this must be for them. I really can't dwell on it, its too upsetting, but then again I have that luxury. Oh, I hope they are all alright.


My body for life program is sucking wind big-time. Help!!!! I need to revisit the goals and just keep rededcating myself. One thing I decided to do is get out my most current goal(which now need to be re-evaluated :( and type out my goals on i big font and put them in a page protector and put them up somewhere. I hope it will help!!! The good food is sitting in my fridge.. why do I choose the cookies??????????

My 8 year old son is on a new baseball team this year, and he has a practrice tonight (Saturday night!) at 5:45 till 8:30 PM. Thats the kind of team this is....DIE HARD!!! I talked to one of the other moms this week and she told me about a fight she had with the coach's wife,the ast. coach(almost came to blows!!!!!!!!!!) and has since been "removed"from the team. Hmmmm, well the words the asst.coach used this morning were something like"The troublemakers have been kicked out" So I am a little alarmed. Hello!!! These kids are 8!!!!! SO on the paper they sent home last practice they apparently have been keeping tabs and gave us a list(of newbies to the team) of tardies and absences. WHAT??? This is not high school!!! Then along with that a little newsletter that tells us that it is our job to figure out when practice is (3-5 a week!!!!) and if the kid misses its an automatic bench for the whole next game. Am I ready for this?? Its like Hitler is in charge of the team!!! I'm seriously a little afraid!!! So far Cade is liking it but I am on pins and needles. I have to take him by myself to practice and I am actually a little nervous. The coach's wife is tough! She's a softball chick and I think she could beat the crap out of me. I am afraid that if I am there alone she's gonna say something(we missed a practice a couple weeks ago) and Mark won't be there to back me up and it will get ugly. I know, I am so chicken.



Update to the baseball team:

We missed a message that practice had been changed to a different locale and moved and hour early, so when I'm at the field and no one was there I panicked! I managed to track everyone down by this time I am a basket case! But luckily they were fine, and were reasonable and he will be able to play next game. Whew! It bugs me that I am stressing and jumping through hoops for these people but, you know, anything for the kiddos!

Today has been a fun day! The BFL tracker was hilarious. My eating started off great but I've kind of tanked as the day wore on. I made a plan to run in the morning with a friend so I will at least get some cardio in. I have a VERY busy day tomorrow since my 2 oldest boys have opening day of baseball season and I have to do a haircut in the middle of it all. The boys have team pictures tomorrow too, and of course none of these things are in any sensical order. I will be at the ball field all day and it is HOT! Luckily Mark will be around to help out. Tomorrow is one of those days I wish was over already. I think I need to recharge and get my rear in gear and get my house all spic and span, at least I won't have a mess to contend with on top of it. I need to recommit to myself (again) this weekend and try to do better next week with BFL. What is wrong with me????Mark bringing home Del Taco leftovers isn't helping (why I would want to eat fast food leftovers anyway is beyond me) But there I am snarfing down fries and a watery coke. YUCK!!! Oh well, tomorrow is a new day!

Well I am trying to blog, lets see if the computer dummy can get this together!