I still can not believe I'm here. In Motherhood. It is a beautiful place. The pictures and stories I had seen from those that journeyed here before me didn't do it justice. I'm amazed at the view. Far more beautiful than I had expected. More breathtaking. I am afraid I won't remember everything so vividly, but I try to enjoy every step along the way. And take lots of pictures, of course. I try to hang on to every moment because I know it is all fleeting. You know how it is, you have this great lovely vacation planned and on the first day you feel like you have so many days to enjoy and then suddenly it's the night before you have to return. You wonder where the time went. It's already happening. I don't ever want to leave.
It reminds me of the time I convinced S to join me in Glacier National Park. He had never seen big mountains before and I really wanted to share that experience with him. I picked him up at the train station and off we went. The first place we set up camp he loved. He couldn't believe the beauty. Every moment he was awestruck, then it was time to pack up and go to the next part of the park. He didn't want to go. I would tell him, "Just wait. It gets better. I promise." But he was sure it couldn't get any better than THIS! I insisted that we press on. So, he sulked and moped as we packed up and left our site, until we arrived at the next spot. "THIS," he said,"is the most beautiful spot. We have to stay here the rest of the trip." "Oh, no," I said, "It gets better." Again, he reluctantly packed up and onward went. Then, to his amazement, the next spot was even more majestic than the last. He couldn't believe it. Each leg of the journey went just that way.
Here in Motherhood, it feels the same to me. I can only hope as I leave each of these magical places the next one will be just as, if not more, beautiful. I can't help but want to linger at each spot along the way, though. Savor all of it, remember everything, I don't want to forget a single thing. I'm reluctant to move on.
Like right now, this spot I'm visiting, it's beautiful. I could stay right here forever.
