双人KTV房，唱着双人的梦。两个麦克风，唱这情歌。

First we have the Samsung Omnia 2... the phone has function i want but also comes with its hefty price tag... recontract with M1 will still need me to part with ard $498... but the phone is cool though... running using WM6.5, got 5mp camera, 3.7" AMOLED screen...


haiz... which to buy? where to get the money...?

否极泰来
　　 否极泰来 ( pǐ jí tài lái )

　　解 释 ：否、泰：《周易》中的两个卦名。否：卦不顺利；泰：卦顺利；极：尽头。逆境达到极点，就会向顺境转化。指坏运到了尽头好运就来了。
　　出 处 ：《全唐诗》卷434_42【遣怀】白居易
　　乐往必悲生，泰来由否极。谁言此数然，吾道何终塞。
　　尝求詹尹卜，拂龟竟默默。亦曾仰问天，天但苍苍色。
　　自兹唯委命，名利心双息。近日转安闲，乡园亦休忆。
　　回看世间苦，苦在求不得。我今无所求，庶离忧悲域。
　　《周易·否》：“否之匪人，不利君子贞，大往小来。”《周易·泰》：“泰，小往大来，吉亨。”汉·赵晔《吴越春秋·勾践入臣外传》：“时过于期，否终则泰。”
　　《周易·泰》：“象曰：天地交，泰。”
　　《周易·否》：“象曰：天地不交，否。”
　　用 法 紧缩式；作谓语、宾语；含褒义
　　示 例 老舍《四世同堂》五四：“莫非～，要转好运幺？”
　　近义词 ：物极必反、时来运转、苦尽甘来
　　反义词 ： 乐极生悲

its finally over... so now i can sit back, relax, sing song play mahjong...! hmm... not quite... i'm going to go job hunting soon.. if anyone(who still views my blog) has any nice 'office environment' offer do intro to me... though i think i need to get my stock up on my office wears as i have NONE!

the exam came and gone in a breeze.... it lasted only 8 days and the amount of days i studied for this exam wasn't even proportional... haiz... i'm getting lazy on studying life...

POA was studied but not practised, so the paper was not well do.. cui!

PSOC wasn't well prepared as well... just browsing thru my notes without any practise... forgotton one point of an example

MM wasn't practised much as well... didn't cover enough topics to work on the paper... think i commited a careless mistake

PBF was ok but made another careless mistake between asset and liability... this year's calculation question accounted for less than 20% of the paper! killer!

MSM i only had a quick read for 2 hrs at most... so... dead.... all those easy questions eluded me... where are they when i need them to appear in the paper? but still i managed to rework the markov question after getting a non-sensible answer... so tat's 25marks in the bag... need another 10 from 50marks worth of crap i written to pass... was hoping to score well for this, but since its more unpredicted than prelim, i can only ask for a pass...

ECONs was not well prepared either... i tried my best to use all those economic knowledge i know to answer the question partly... but still, my non-existant of practise showed by the helplessness in trying to answer the questions...

I really really dunno what to do... i'm totally unmotivated to study... and its no one but my own fault... i'm so sorry to all those supporting all the way and disappointing them all over again after make promises to work harder... maybe i'm more a hands-on person than studying type...

well... now i just wanna relax... earn some money. save up for next years course fees and maybe go on a short holiday trip...

I WANNA FLY~

Been wasting my days away... though there's still 4 papers in 4 days... with the 1st coming this tues afternoon... was really demoralised after thurs paper... POA... the one tat i self studied was the root of my disappointment once again... i said i will study hard this year... but i've become even more lazier... becoming less and less incline to study...

but watever happens... i'm still going to try my best for the rest of the papers even though time is not on my side... my brain also blanks on me without sufficient practises... just like PSOC paper... i forgotten one of Appadurai's scape... mediascape...

doomed for 4th Uni year??? wait and see...

in life, there are many goals to pursue...

some have a lot to chase after, while some will focus their efforts on only a few...

there are also others who will only set a new goal after fulfill one, thereby step by step moving forward...

'its the things you really want, that are precious.
that's why we persist and chase our dream, our goal.'

张信哲 - 长途旅行

专辑:逃生

一直有个小小的坚持
最想要的才最有价值
所以我对你那么痴
别的可能试都不肯试

面对感情我只想证实
没有什么华丽的说辞
而你转过脸的样子
却让我的心情有点湿

相信在一节摇晃的车子
在雨中向远方奔驰
望着身旁空了的位置
陷入一种孤独的沉思

爱是曲折的长途旅行
几分期待几分倦意
给你的心 给你的情
仿佛是被托寄丢了的行李

爱是未知的长途旅行
也会迷路也会惊喜
能否不要太早确定
我的地图没有你要的风景

people whom you think they are, strangely, are gone... have disappeared...

gone are the days when your friends are all gossiping/chatting in groups in class... you hop ard and join in randomly...

gone are the days when the sch bell rings for us to sweat it out playing sports...

gone are the days when we can hang out week in week out, have fun and laugh to our hearts' content...

where have they gone to?

you all shaped who i am, now its left to survive on its own...


The morning Sun, warms my heart
The afternoon Tea, warms my body
The evening You, warms my soul

pls proceed to the torture chamber...

"To be someone's best friend requires a minimum investment of time. More than that, though, it takes emotional energy. Caring about someone deeply is exhausting. At a certain point, at somewhere between 10 and 15 people, we begin to overload, ..."

who are u caring for? r u overloaded? or still have much love to distribute around? lolz...

Happy ORD week to all my BMT mates... though i doubt any of them visit my blog... haha... even though we didn't go through much shit together... at least i went out half way... but i still regard you guys as the only buddies that went thru some fun + bitter together... anyway... its our week... and friday is our day... so lets rejoice... its been a long two years... much things have happened...

2 significant events i've gotten over with...
2 mths of fun and sweat with frens from bmt...
22 mths of sweat and crap at my current job place
2 more days to collect my IC...
22 years old this year...
2 days past from this week...

what 2moro comes, i'll face it... be it by myself... i've been thru much, maybe not as bad as anyone out there...

i've seen enough... but i shall close my eyes now... shut my mind out... and let it drift away in the nothingness...

10 more days to getting older... haha... i wanna sing k 10 days later... who wanna join mi? like anyone cares rite? haha...

dun think i'll be blogging in the next few days ba... should be nursing my shoulder after the ops...

juz some thoughts...
i think for some guys, including mi(hehe), we juz wanna be loved and love someone devotedly... although on appearance, we may look playful, cocky? or quiet(for mi)... when it comes to love, we becomes another person... we try to put in 100%, if not more to play our part in maintaining the relationship... though the road may not be smooth... and time can change a person... its never easy to predict the future or even anticipate it... we just hope for the best and may it last our whole life...

well... i dunno whether u agree or not... its juz some thoughts...

the guys were saying gary cao's new album doesn't have any gd impact as pervious album... has he lost it? there's also one saying that maybe its his 'jia ying'(high pitch vocal) that's making his song more girl-ly... waahaha... or maybe he's singing the songs he wrote for cyndi wang, but the song was rejected, so he took it back to sing them... haha...

there seem to be lots of songs/albums coming out lately... currently i'm listening there's Twins, Rene, Fie Lun Hai, Aska Yang...

there also seems to be alot of new shows premier-ing in 10days time... movies and tv series...

soccer today as usual... but maybe my last piece of action for a while ba... seems to be quite off form initially... my shots weren't up to my standard... but still managed to drill one in in one of the games... was also doing some tanning...

so tat's all folks...

oh ya... juz asking... who wanna go bintan for holiday in june after exams???

the year 2007 is coming to an end in juz abt 24hrs... what has happen throughout the year? what's there to expect in the year 2008? all these and more if u are motivated to scoll down and read... haha...

the year 2007 was filled with pretty much 21st birthday for my batch of frens... mainly from JC... my sec sch frens didn't send out any invites... sob.. haha... here it goes...

Jan

1. welcomed the year 2007 at marina with my sec sch guy frens...
2. went for a war memorial tour by my camp
3. Li Ling's 21st birthday, lots of pics...
4. organising, preparing and carryout my 21st birthday...

Feb

1. Dave, Amanda, Max's 21st birthday
2. cycling at east coast with a few gals before amanda's birthday
3. Max's hell in the cell at the CAGE in kallang

Mar

1. my nose operation
2. a small s25 gathering
3. 2/5's gathering
4. Poh wai's and layping's 21st birthday chalet
5. attempted a near 1000 piece jigsaw in less than 2 days...

Apr

1. Cindy's 21st birthday
2. trip to Zoo... in maybe 10yrs? haha
3. Rui xin, then verlin's departure for oversea studies...

May

1. K-box trip with evan, wanni and jing jing
2. Kevin and Yiing jye's 21st birthday
3. toh guan united 1st field match
4. Linkin park releases new album

Jun

1. Steph, Jean's 21st birthday
2. bought a PDA?
3. MOS

Jul

1. Trip to KL with s25 guys
2. Yew wei's 21st birthday
3. another field match for the TGU
4. SIM sch term starts for PT

Aug

1. amy and hou quan's 21st birthday at K-box
2. problems with left shoulder, proposed operation by specialist

Sep

1. decorated my plain looking shoe bag
2. evan's 21st birthday

Oct

1. 1st wisdom tooth extraction
2. ming wei's 21st birthday
3. new hp pouch made
4. started craze over heroes, tv show
5. sang K with jean and szeling, then movie, neoprints? introduce k singing to sl
6. pub outing with s25

Nov

1. bought a LFC jacket

Dec

1. x'mas card rushing, i mean writing... together with some handmade gifts...
2. more handicrafts making
3. gift searching(tough time)
4. started a new blog to hold my thoughts
5. Kang jie's 21st birthdaY today!

tat's all for 2007,hello 2008...
wat's there to look out for???

going for my operation soon in mid Jan on my left shoulder
growing older at 22yrs old
ORD in march
1st exam for may
...

well then... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE... hope u have a great 2008 ahead...

一次两次我还可原谅，因为你们不了解我。
但不要把你们所想的当成事实。

我不是生气，也不是乱发脾气。
但你们可不可以不要把所看到的表面，乱下定论?

我也知道人生苦短，要活得开开心心。
一山还有一山高，一人还有一人苦。

你以为我每天都是以臭脸面对人生吗?
我没天都有在笑啊！你们看不到的并不表示不可能吧?

被人批评，谁会高兴? 给你们这样一直说，那里还会开心下去?
若是事实，当然可以去改。要是不属实，沉默能维持多久?

一心一意只想能和朋友们多在一起，但这好像是自己一厢情愿吧?
得不到半封回复，感到一点失落，不正常吗?

他人这么想我已疲倦，不在乎了。
你们也有自己的人生，自己的生活，我也不在勉强奢求什么。

这些话，你们看看就罢了。没任何恶意，意义。
看不爽? 笑着带过吧。又不说你。哈哈哈。。。
反正，我也不会在写这种东西在部落各了。
做多，写多，想多，都是大错特错(不要来，侮辱我的美) lolz... not funny... hehe...
倒不如全部放在心里，谁都不会受伤。

as the title suggest... i'm really bad at shopping... i can't seem to make up my mind on things especially if time is putting pressure on mi... same applies to deciding wat to eat ba... if u ask u abt electronics i'm still fine with it... but it comes to clothes and gifts... its a real headache...my fashion sense is zero ba... if i can't even buy my other clothes easily... pls dun try to ask mi for suggestion or opinion ba... hehe... i think many of my frens can be witness ba... when most of them are loaded with rewards on both hands... i'm often empty handed... more so when they are more 'loaded' than mi financially to get things of more class(branded goods)...

(for the full article, pls proceed to my other blog, if u can find it tat is... waahaha...)
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罗志祥-做得到

试着让身边很吵闹
好好想念你的怀抱
某一秒我竟微笑
体会你扬起的嘴角
悲伤的呼唤

也许在跟自己比较
让你哭过是我不好
太自责话都变少
然而你还是最美好
要让你知道

做得到
不管相爱总会有一些低潮
我爱你就应该对你越来越好
现在只想忽然把你抱得高高
看着你笑我也笑
别自寻烦恼

做得到
你说再苦也要跟我直到老
我说的每一个承诺会说到做到
感谢你坚强勇敢让我很骄傲
你所想要的爱我能做得

也许在跟自己比较
让你哭过是我不好
太自责话都变少
然而你还是最美好
要让你知道

做得到
不管相爱总会有一些低潮
我爱你就应该对你越来越好
现在只想忽然把你抱得高高
看着你笑我也笑
别自寻烦恼

做得到
你说再苦也要跟我直到老
我说的每一个承诺会说到做到
感谢你坚强勇敢
让我很骄傲你所想要的爱我能做得到
原谅我内心交战
让你好难过原谅
我内心交战
让你好难过
我能给你的爱没有做不到

complain less... praise more....
less of worrying thoughts... more of happy singing...
less of pulling long face... more of grinning and smiling...


anyone got any plans for X'mas Eve, X'mas day and New Year Eve...? getting bore... officially on LEAVE...!

歌曲：相信
歌手：苏打绿
专辑：无与伦比的美丽

我会永远相信 最後一片落叶
无论什麽世界 东风藏在眉心
我会永远相信 扎入心的水滴
在另一个世界 晴空布幔拉起

总是得到很多 多到麻木自我
竟然差一点就忘记
手掌里要有更多呼吸

曾经失去很多 多到放弃自我
黄昏最後一盏灯亮起
来得及撑开眼睛
地球偶尔太大去练习
沙滩上海浪留下痕迹
剩下心和自己有时太安静
自己都不敢看自己

我会永远相信 最後一片落叶
无论什麽世界 东风藏在眉心
我会永远相信 扎入心的水滴
在另一个世界 晴空布幔拉起

只带着皮箱流浪
装着自己的灵魂
背对着那个人怎麽想
张开翅膀飞翔
我会永远相信 开始掉下的泪
你和我的世界 痛褪去更清晰
我会永远相信 不完美的完美
不管什麽世界 距离不是距离
我会永远相信 最後一片落叶
无论什麽世界 东风藏在眉心
我会永远相信 扎入心的水滴
在另一个世界 晴空布幔拉起
我会永远相信 开始掉下的泪
你和我的世界 痛褪去更清晰
我会永远相信 不完美的完美
不管什麽世界 距离不是距离

I trust what i teared for... i believe what i dream abt...

for the past few days... the monsoon rains are starting to terrorised our little island... alot of activities are being put on hold or pushed back but for some... its juz as enjoying...

today, the guys are back at toh guan for fun packed action... well... not initially though... as the attendance at 9am was not great, we were beginning to think that not many ppl will be coming... but time past and the guys came and the strength was at a healthy 15... but rain disrupted our play after only 2 matches... which my team was still unbeaten... after tat we went to the void deck to regroup... we decided to go to the coffee shop to lim teh and eat breakfast... ahaha... after a that we head back to the court to continue our action in the rain, less one man...

all i can say is we had fun and laughter in the rain... well... the strange thing was tat when my team plays... the rain lighten and stop... but when the other 2 plays... the rain gets heavier each time... haha... the weather sure knows how to make our day...

pushing back a few days... i wanted to do something... to make it better... but end up almost destroying the thing i'm supposed to treasure... that made my day... so i ended up being a technician and ripped apart the machine to retrieve my 'precious'... hehe... but the time i get it... it was most or so destroyed... in pieces... literally... obviously i was damn sad... was it a thing of things to come...? i haven been riding on any luck lately... and this event sure doesnt make things better...

i'm getting more motivated to either change my blog address or even set up a separate blog to hold more of my thoughts... i feel so restricted in blogging abt my feelings more so that i dun have anyone to talk abt such stuffs... i know i know... emo... haiz... but wat can i do...? makes wishes? set new yr resolutions? smile more? speak up more? wat's tat going to help if... you know la... no need to say out de... every time i visit my frens blog... i always see those pics of them going out and hanging out with their frens... i makes mi wonder... where are my hang out frens? how come my frens get to go out ever so often and most of the time i'm being stuck at home... trying to make myself happier by watching jacky wu's variety shows... why can't it be going out with frens and make myself happy? why huh? can anyone answer? well... of course u can't... u are not living my life or in my shoe... how possible can u provide an answer or even a solution... but of course most of you have those 'official' solution to all these questions(guan fang da an), juz to (an wei) calm a poor soul like mi.. hehe...

right now i'm back in camp doing duty... the taxi driver didn't bring his IC, so had to walk all the way up to my building... which took 10-20 min... lolz... ard there la... haha... anyway.. that's not the main point... the sky is... it was clear once again... as with the many few other nights that i see before i go to bed... it was clear... with minimum clouds... and the stars came out to play again... ah.... that's the sight i like to see every night...dark skies, a few clouds maybe... but with lots of stars... bright and shiny... as beautiful as it looks to me... but see it makes my more feel... there's only 2 scenerio... 1) looking at the skies... thinking of someone and missing him/her 2) looking at the skies, enjoying the sight with that someone beside u... as much as i want to change the situation but i always end up messing things up as i told my fren... the situation was always quiet and nvr ending... that's wat i cannot handle... answerless...

anyway... hope you are one that also enjoy the sight of stars in the sky... i do alot... as my bed is right beside the window... i always take a moment to look at it before i go to dreamland... nightz

heard this story/news a while back while i was on my way to camp and listening to radio... then juz now saw this gal on bus... and it had nothing to do with her... juz tat i saw that she use a rubber band to tie her hair... and the focus is on the rubber band...

the news was abt someone was trying her hair(or something like tat, using that rubber band) and was 'holding' the rubber band with her mouth... which i think most gals does that since both their hands will be used to pull up their hair for tying... so after taking the rubber band out from her mouth... she found a strand of hair(not a straight one, but a curly one) within the rubber band...! apparently she freaked out...

well... the point being that most rubber bands are 'recycled' using discarded/old rubber products... INCLUDING CONDOMS...! and so u should know what tat hair is rite? hehe... scary rite?

well... its sort of lesson learning ba... so next time when u got ur hands full and got no where to place ur 'rubber band', think twice before placing it in ur mouth..! waahaha... but i think most of the rubber band's raw product are being cleaned and selected properly ba... hehe...

passion... some maybe experiencing temporary, but for some it will last a life time... so wat's ur's?

my one and true passion lies in badminton... its something i've been doing since young and i'm still in love with it... but sadly... all sorts of injuries has prevented mi from moving further... guess it will remain as a leisure sports for life...

next up is handicraft... ever since coming into contact in lower sec... its been fun making and doing stuffs for urself and ever more for ur frens... though its worth nothing much to some, it means alot to myself... the time and effort are worth it for my frens...(rite now doing my own project for the x-mas...)

also, not forgetting... singing... though my voice is so-so... i juz love singing... hitting that high pitch and singing those sad touching songs are so fulfilling to the heart and soul... wat's more is i do encourage those who haven been to sing k before... its not tat scary once u start and dun worry abt not sounding gd... no one is perfect to start with... as long as u dare to try, no one will laugh at u, not mi at least... hehe...

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我的心没有防盗锁，所以我的爱被偷了七七八八。

is it the end again
nvr seems to be doing it right
if that's the way it always will be
there nothing more ever again

sometimes ppl always gave the promise of a ideal outcome, or hope for it
thinking of it and trying to achieve what's best
unfortunately it will never be the same as before
ever though we all know that should have been the case

what's your ideal life-style like...?
dun need to work? dun need to study? party all day and night long...?

for mi...? i just wan it to be simple... hmmm... maybe not as simple as it seems la... coz its not happening to mi yet... at least not all...

1) monthly K singing session(or every 2 mths) - but no ones free nowadays
2) fortnightly(if not every weekend) of good food tasting with frens... - sort of carrying out now
3) weekend soccer with the guys - TGU guys having exams
4) occasional movie trips with frens... - every now and then...
5) going out with different grp of frens every week... - not really...
6) bi-annual gathering with classmates - so far the attendance is not really ideal, maybe im juz not gd at organising or gathering doesn't mean anything to them anymore coz they rather be in small clique of their own...
7) yearly holiday trip, near or far... - for the 1st time this yr i went with my frens to KL, now i wan more... hahaa...

juz being with frens is all i asked for la... well... someone who u go out will... enjoy and relax but not giving u headaches and keep arguing with u... i think some of u out there are already doing wat i wished for... every alternate day u are out with u frens... even though u may think its really costing u wallet alot, but u got to admit that u are enjoying the company...

yesterday juz went for my second wisdom tooth extraction... well... its quicker than the 1st... less painful when the dentist pull out the upper teeth... now my left side is still waiting for the extracted location to heal up... meaning food still get stuck in that place and i need to raise my mouth after every meal...

juz got my x-mas cards... will start writing soon...
juz ordered a box of contact lens... going to look cool soon... lolz.. kidding la...
juz baked cookies today...
juz washed my adidas sport shoe today...

i've noticed i've changed quite a bit recently... circumstances make u different and makes u wanna be different... the world maybe ever changing... u can makes changes to yourself... but that doesn't necessary make ppl change their opinion on u...