Living My Fairytale

Pam, you inspired me! I am returning to blogging. But, here's your warning...my blogs aren't going to be uplifiting or joyful! I am going though a lot right now and this is my way to vent.

My parents...ugh. I am so fed up with this divorce and it's making me have panic attacks again. My mom is having a mid life crisis, I guess. She is now engaged to who knows who and is acting like a total phyco! I won't go into all the details, because...well, I don't want to. But, it's REDICULOUS! She's losing her family and doesn't even realize what she's doing! The divorce still isn't final and she's lying and causing all kinds of legal drama! Please please pray for my family, this is getting out of control and I can't handle it anymore!

At the same time, I am SO thankful for my support and best friend Mattie! My girls are wonderful and God loves me! I'm blessed!

Saylor Jae

Saylor was born on May 20th, 2009. She weighed 5 lbs and 15 oz and was 19 inches! Our tiny little thing! I pushed one and a half times and she was here! No episiotomy or tears! I'm lucky, I know! She is such a joy and is SO easy! People have been telling me how hard it is to go from one to two kids, but I don't know what they're talking about! It's been a breeze! Saylor is precious and everyone says she just looks like a baby doll! Payten is doing pretty well. She acts out occasionally but loves her sister! I know they're going to be best friends!

So as it seems that facebook as replaced blogger in all of our lives, I too don't have much to write about.

We are supposed to move into the new house on Friday!!! The rain is finally stopping, so now they can pour the driveway and porches. We will move in Friday and go in to have Saylor on Tuesday! Wow, it's going to be very busy from here on out. I still have so much to pack and no motovation to do it. Matt was at the house until midnight last night and is there again this morning. We are finally getting to finish the floors! I know it's going to look beautiful!

My 25th birthday is on Monday. I know, I'm just a baby! :) All I want for my birthday is to get to move in!

I got all of my Uppercase Living in yesterday! I'm so excited to get it up, but realized yesterday that since I ordered such big stuff, I'm not going to be able to do it alone. That will atleast keep me from putting it up before I get everything else in the house!

Payten is getting very excited about Saylor! This morning when she and daddy were leaving for their Sat. morning donut date, she gave me a hug and a kiss, walked off and then ran back and said, "I give Saylor kiss too"! So sweet! I can't wait to see them together!

So anyway, I know this is a boring post, but it's all I got! Hopefully my next post will consist of pictures of our finished house!!! :)

Here is a blog mostly of pictures. The house is completely bricked and the floor is done! They are just about done with the cabinetry and it's looking sooo great! Here are some pictures from Easter.

The house is coming along great! They just finished texturing the walls and are working on the brick. The garage door is being put in tomorrow, and Matt's starting the staining of the floors tomorrow night! Here's the latest pictures!

I'm still not ready to do this, but I guess it might help.

After 28 years of marriage, my parents are getting a divorce. I can hardly type right now due to the grief. I found out on Friday night and my world has been upside down since. My parents- they're amazing. They are both wonderful Christian people and I am so proud to be their daughter. My brother and I have always known this day would come. We have never seen our parents, 'in love'. It's always been as if they were just 'getting through it'. They are nothing alike. I mean really. They don't have anything in common and I sometimes think they don't even speak the same language.

As I can't help but think of the days that lie ahead for my family, I cry and cry over things that haven't even happened yet. We all go to the same church, and all sit together. Now what? We go to Mazzios every Sunday after church. Now what? We have family night with my father in law every week. Now what? My nephew Colt hasn't even been out with the family yet! Saylor will be born in two and a half months! What about birthdays, holidays, family camping trips that we've already planned!? What in the world are we going to do!? I went through Matt's parents divorce about a year after we got married. I honestly thought that my life could never get that hard and bad again. But, here I am. I have always taken so much pride in the fact that my parents were still married after so long. I never wanted my brother and I to be one of 'those kids'. The children of a broken family.

My mom and dad have tried to make it work for so long. They've gone to counseling more times than I can count. I am worried over what they're going to do without each other. Where will they live? What will they do all the time, alone?

I HATE DIVORCE!!!!!! I have seen what it did to Matt's family and so many families around me.

My parents and I have said for a long time now, "Aren't we blessed?! We are all together, all healthy, all go to church together, live close to each other, and have so much happiness!" Now it's gone.

Please pray for my family. What a difficult road lies before us.