the map of my world gets smaller as i sit here

I’ve been waiting so long for that moment to arrive. That sudden pang in my stomach that it’s real and that i really am about to leave.

Im thinking about how to write those dreaded letters to my closest friends-sam may Xuan belle.. My poly mates..My 3 Indian idiots lol..

They’re a small bunch of friends but take up a huge part of my life.. very dear to me and I haven’t started to feel like I’m actually going to miss them yet. 😦

And then there’s my boyfriend whose already feeling it.

Ugh come on hit me already. I need to feel prepared. So PLEASE let it hit me.

If you’re reading this within the next 3 weeks congrats! You must have had some faith that my blog wouldnt die. 🙂 if you haven’t then.. Congratulations are also in order! It means you have a social life. One with me I hope 🙂

for a few people i know..because ive had enough.

1. stop being a snob. you know you’re not all that lucky. seriously how did you manage to lose so many friends and gain so many enemies?

2. stop being so rude. i’m trying my best to look out for you and do something awesome for you so stop treating me like shit.

3. you’re just as immature as you say that person is. you guys are terrible people and are terrible friends. i would have never DREAMT of putting any of you in such a position.  bitches be fucking crazy..

4. i know times are rough but all i want is to give you a hug.

you may think i lack balls to mention names but well..you’re right. in any case your names arent worth mentioning. only the last one. the last one is for bala.

the day you left:

it was windy and stormy as i waited at the bus stop for 74. (no seriously, the wind was blowing the rain left right centre and there was a branch hitting violently against the roof near cheers) When the bus came i went to the top deck and sat in the front seat. so i could see the view, like to help me get my mind off other things.

unfortunately i couldnt..and before i knew it i was already tearing. i wanted to take 74 all the way to hougang to see you waiting for me at the interchange or sth..

but halfway through the ride, i started to think about all the dates we had. our private drinking session..our touristy dates..our museum dates..our movie and dinner dates..our shopping dates! and then the rain started to clear and beautiful sun rays begun to set in through the leaves of the trees along bukit timah road.

it was the most beautiful sunshine after the rain i had ever seen.

remember the halo around the moon that night? it felt almost the same, except that you weren’t there holding my hand. but it’s okay. and i’m okay.

we’re okay. we’re gonna be okay.

i dont want to be serious too soon. i dont want the reality to set in yet.

you’re on holiday. you’re on a freaking holiday.

i love you bala. you’ll be touching down in calif anytime soon.

hahha i have a red checked shirt (like the guy in the picture)

and you have your zara black and white checked shirt! (like the girl!)

you neglect

and she starts to regret.