The Dillier's

First I do not write this post to make others feel bad. I do not want to offend anyone with what I say. I don't need anymore advise about what to do (already have an overload). And last I don't want people to tell me I need to not stress so much or go on a vacation. That being said, I write this post because this blog is about me and JP (plus our pets!) and what is going on in our lives. This post will expose me a little more then I would like but if I could help someone else and have them realize they are not alone then this post worked!

JP and I have been trying to get pregnant for a year and a half now. (There you go I have now told the whole Internet. Hope JP is OK with that!?) I know to some that does not seem like a lot of time but let me tell you it feels like an eternity! I have been pocked, prodded and violated more then women should! All tests we have done come back negative for anything wrong. This is fantastic but I don't always see it that way. I know many think I am over reacting and children will come when they do, and blah blah but it is VERY hard for me to see others get pregnant no problems. I have always kind of had issues with an "oops" baby anyways.
For the most part people have stopped asking me when we will have kids. I think this is a very inappropriate question to ask anyone. You have no idea what people are going through! At first I would get mad at people for asking this, sometimes I still do get mad. But for the most part I try to brush it off like no big deal. It was like I should have gotten pregnant the day I graduated. (Believe me, I was trying. I would have been over joyed if I was!) I have shed many tears over silly things but it is a VERY touchy subject with me.
JP and I met with a fertility doctor two months ago and he put me on clomed. I knew I wouldn't get pregnant the first month, but tears were still shed when JP made me take a pregnancy test just to make sure before I started another round of clomed. He now needs to purchase me another one because one day I will need it and those things are not cheap!! Going on clomed was a hard decision for JP because he does not like drugs. If he was not for it then I would have respected him and not done it. But after the appointment he admitted that he was getting frustrated too. FINALLY! He is so good at keeping things inside. He talks to the guys he works with about it and of course they all give their advise too. I like the fact that he is willing to talk about it I just wish he would talk to me more often. He probably avoids the subject with me because I tend to over react to things (I am pretty sure I got this trait from my mom!)
Anyways, I have mellowed out a lot the past couple of months. I still get upset when I find out others are pregnant, but I get over it. There is not much I can do about it except be happy for them.
So we trek on and am thankful we have the technology we have now! Maybe my body just thinks we still live in bible times and I have to be A LOT older to have children!?

I know when you hear those words you get excited but then when I tag on to a jewelry party at the end some of you are not so excited anymore. It is not Lia Sophia, or Cookie Lee (which both have cute stuff), it is a girl I use to work with and she makes all her own jewelry. It is really cute and you may get in trouble for coming but it will be worth it! She has really cute matching necklace and bracelet sets, plus tons of fun earrings.


I don't care if you just come and eat and don't buy anything! You will be tempted to buy something though I am almost 100% certain! You can check out her wed site and see some of her stuff. She said she has not updated the web site for awhile though and has a lot of new stuff. The web address is http://www.strungstone.com/ Check it out and then come and hang out!

Just so you know for the next nine weeks every Tuesday will be a bowling league update. I know you think I am a dork, and you would be correct in thinking that, but bowling league is a lot of fun! Last night John and Jamie were unable to make it due to their house being quarantined. If you didn't know they are all sick. :( Our friend Cory and his brother Chris filled in. My first game score was 118, second 136 and last 83. Yup, I pretty much crapped it up the last game. We did win two games though. We also missed having the most pins by one pin. Oh well, better luck next time right!? Our team is currently in second place! We should make sure to remember this feeling because we will soon be booted down. I really don't care if we win or loose, it is just fun to hang-out. Everyone pretty much knows everyone else on the league so they all cheer for you when you do good. They cheer even if you are bad, but it is more just a courtesy cheer! GO TEAM BOWLS GONE WILD. (About our team name, we are in the process, well actually I should say I am in the process of coming up with a new name. If you have any suggestions I would love them!)

JP and I hung out with Joseph and Jamie last night. We played some games. We first played UNO Spin. It is fun but requires more thinking then UNO should! We then played Family Feud. The teams the first game were JP and me against Joseph, my brother, and Joe, Jamies cousin. Joseph and Joe won. The next game was Jamie and me against Joe and Joe again. Jamie and I won! We did really well actually. Here are some of the highlight answers that were given....
Name something women take on a date? JP yelled out Pants. Of course that was not what they were looking for. The correct answer would be make-up.
Name an event were proud parents would be found? Joseph yelled Fashion Show. He must have been watching TLC that afternoon! The correct answer would be Graduation.
And last, Besides toothpaste name something else that comes in a tube? I yell crackers. No, that was not one of the answers and why crackers was the first thing I thought of I have no clue.

We had a lot of fun and laughed a lot. I want to play that game again sometime. They also had the newlywed game but it was too late to play.

JP is a very kind person, sometimes too kind! Case in point, I have started putting snacks in my church bag. Nine o-clock you think would be late but it comes very early! Anyways, I filled the baggies and off I went. JP goes into sacrament meeting before me so as I was coming in to sit down I see him pull out the baggies and give them to the person sitting next to him. I, of course, intercede and state if JP doesn't want a ornery wife then he better not give my treats away. The lady sitting behind us thought this was VERY funny and started laughing. I told her I was being serious. The person JP was giving the treats too still asked if he could have them, NO! I am all for sharing but I am starving and you are not about to take my treats away. I did share with him after all and JP ended up eating just about everything in my bag. One day I will learn to wake up earlier so I can eat a real breakfast. Or I will just always make sure something is in my bag!

I love Wednesdays! I always have. In high school they were half days at school so I was home by one o-clock. It is the middle of the week, meaning only two (or one for me) work days left until the weekend!
This week was a short week with Monday being a holiday. I enjoyed my day off by sleeping in a little. Then I went to a movie with my sisters and mom. We saw Confessions of a Shopaholic. It was a good chick flick. The family went out to dinner after at Johnny Corino's. What I got was good but Courtney and Kim were not too impressed with what they got. It was salmon with this glaze that tasted a little weird. After dinner JP and I headed off to bowling league!
I LOVE bowling league. I didn't do well this week but we still won! My first score was 111, the second score will not be printed as it was NOT good! My last score was 124, so I was able to come back. John and Jamie were sick so we used their handicaps.
Hope you had a great Wednesday!

As part of my birthday gift from JP he gave me bowling shoes! They are pink and silver colored and really cute. I will take a picture later and post it. They came at the perfect time because bowling league started up again on Monday. There are not as many teams this time but it will still be fun! Our team is me, JP, and his brother John and wife Jamie. They are both pretty good bowlers. It really doesn't matter if you are good though because I just play for fun! Next week I will remember to take my camera and post pictures. I know I am a geek but bowling league is a lot of fun! We are playing for 10 weeks and I will post my scores along the way. This week was 124, 117, and 130 (I think). Our teams name is Bowls gone wild. JP came up with it. We bowl at this retro bowling alley. They did just re-due the bathroom though, which is a HUGE plus as I would not go to the bathroom while there unless it was really necessary!

Yesterday JP and I went and ran errands together. We washed the cars, which look really good, picked up rent (yes our renters payed rent one time, well close to on time), then went to the mall. I had a pair of pants I needed to exchange and I convinced JP to go with me. I don't like shopping by myself. I guess it has to do with growing up with a big family and not ever being alone. Anyways we walk into the mall and JP had to use the bathroom. I told him I know where one is and we walked into Dillards. I head downstairs and turn the corner and no bathroom. I really thought that was where it was. JP keeps looking and I go and look at bras. They were having a really good sale on some of them. JP found the bathroom and came back to find me. He then exclaims I just brought him downstairs so I could look at the bras. I told him I really thought there was a bathroom down hear. I make my purchase and we head out. I go into the next store and exchange the pants. I was really fast. We then keep walking the mall. JP sees a sunglasses store and heads in. Thirty minutes later we walk out with no glasses. I was totally bored in the sunglasses store and JP insisted on trying on all the glasses. We then head out to Walmart to purchase the new Madagascar movie. Then we run to the pet store and finally down east. Next time we have errands to run we better start earlier because we didn't get home until around nine.

On Sunday I went up to my parents house and discovered the cupboard was bare. Due to everyone being out of town for the past week groceries were not purchased. I found what I could in the freezer and we had dinner. On Monday night I took Courtney and Tanner grocery shopping. It was eventful! We started out in the produce isle. We found some carrots, yogurt. Then moved on to get string cheese, frozen pizza, and other things. As we were walking Tanner looked at the cart and commented on how empty it was. We find things and head to check out. We check-out and Tanner checks to see how much we saved. Not that much because I was not checking prices closely. Then as we are pushing the cart to the car Courtney informs me that the kid bagging the groceries was checking me out. I just smile and laugh. Tanner then tells Courtney that usually once guys see a ring they stop checking a girl out. Again I just laugh. Who knew that grocery shopping could be so entertaining?!

I know I should not be wishing myself a happy birthday but why not right!? I do always buy myself a birthday gift, which will be purchased later this week. I am not sure what to get myself yet. In JP's and my family birthdays are a big thing and they always call and say happy birthday. I think it is very nice of them to remember and call. I am not so good at calling them on their birthdays, sorry! (I did put them on my phone calender though so hopefully this will help me remember to call) When I left work my phone kept ringing with new text messages and voice mails. Isn't technology nice!? (That subject is a whole new blog for another day!) Well I am now one year older and I hope wiser too so Happy Birthday to ME!