its the first day of the holidays!
=D
beautiful!
well.
ytd my mum came for that meet-the-parent's session.
shes like so totally weird.
in class while waiting, she nagged at me like never before.
kept repeating the same thing over and over again and made me repeat it to her.
-.-
then in front of mr hareesh,
she goes " i understand her frustrations and i try to compromise with her. "
LIKE BLAH-
who in this world can be more of a better actress than her.
my sis and i were staring at each other with blank faces during the whole conversation.
and mr hareesh kept giggling.
WHO WOULDNT.
my mum sounded so fake.
and she kept pretending to be one of those caring mums she will never be able to become.
lol.
anyway after the whole session she went back to normal.
=)
so i guess its alright.
but i think i really need to re-prioritise my life all over again.
i can't possibly be spending my time brooding over things that does not concern my future anymore.
heck all those little misfortunes and crazy disasters.
its time i really took a step forward.
i suppose my was right even when she was pretending.
in the end its me who lose out.
AND NOW-
i'm gonna win this.
x)
i can't possibly let my mum look down on me-
bloody.
whatever the case.
this june holidays is going to be eventful ;
and i'm sure of it.
;)

i'm just pissed.
a little upset.
whatever-
i guess i'll just preach what i teach.
hmm-.
i just learnt not to expect too much from life.

you hurt me more than you ever imagine.
=(

i'm positively opinionated against my mum buying icecream from those school boys who come knocking on our door every night telling her that their POOR KIDS making a living and that we SHOULD help them.
LIKE HI-
everyone else needs to make a living.
and i seem to be more of a poor kiddo than them.
how come my mum seem to be more taken to their story than MINE.
i sound SO MUCH MORE pitiful than them can.
argh-
they charged my mum $ 10 for ONE block when the usual price was 12.90-
IM NOT AN IDIOT FOOLS.
my mum got cheated of $30 lahs.
wth.
CHEATING IN BROAD MIDNIGHT-
but who cares?
i get to eat the icecream.
xD
but they are EXTREMELY bad salespeople.
apart from the average aunties who normally get cheated by them ;
we normal people of this society knows what kind of icecream there is in the market.
so the usual good quality icecreams should Haagen Dazz, Ben and Jerry's, Walls and Kings.
exclude the NTUC FAIRPRICE ones ok.
CHEAPSKATE.
and the one he sold us is RAINBOW-
have YOU heard of it?
WAHAHAHA.
xDDD
and he said it was SPECIAL.
how special was it?
poor quality?
bad taste?
hahahas.
i wont say much abt it yet till i try it tml.
WAHAHAS.
and now.
i'm off to bed.
those fools are making a hell of a noise in the lift lobby.
xDD
goodnight-
=)

i'm just killing time now.
i'm like - so darn hungry.
my mum was so busy folding those weird hell notes and she didnt cook.
and now we starve.
=(
i wonder what special occasion it is on the chinese calendar.
my mum don't usually put effort into such things.
i wonder-
but she looked really serious when folding those hell notes into shapes of ancient ingots.
she used up 5 BIG plastic bags to hold it all.
and i really mean big.
heheh.
whatever the case.
im quite occupied during the june holidays.
apart from those hectic band schedules due to the upcoming performance at VCH,
i've got holidays!
=D
ok.
even though im going for those band practices, im NOT performing.
i'm out of town!
yay-
jia you! - xD
*evil grin*
just one more week now.
one more week and we can all say GOODBYE PANDA EYES!
i bet everyone has it lahs.
apart from those freaks who manage to fall asleep at 8.
hahahas.
i've had it all planned out!
i'm gonna sleep at my usual bedtime ; which is 12.
and wake up at 11!
cook lunch and eat.
nono.
BRUNCH.
then start working out what i should do for the rest of the day!
11 hours of sleep a day should be enough to get rid of those nasty pandas huh.
and there goes.
blahblahs-
i'm like so darn bored kaes.
=s
OK.
my bro is chasing me out of the room.
ciaos`

ghost stories are actually freakish.
especially the one sam told us.
it still gives me the creeps.
=x
anyway.
i'm can't believe its going to be the end of the semester already.
fast huh.
like why can't school just function non-stop and give us 3 months of holidays all at one shot.
then students wouldnt commit suicide from too much stress because of the tremendously large amount of holidays.
or teachers would have plenty of time to date and find their perfect match rather than remain single and come to school and nag at us all day.
dont you think singletons seem to be more naggy than those already attached or married?
=D
and perhaps the principal and vice principal would get to take a break from problem students like us.
=x
or perhaps if you compare the education system in the western countries to ours.
theirs seem to be more efficient.
they study lesser hours than us, get more freedom, and attain better results.
thats exactly what we want dont we?
better results!
but we seem to be studying longer hours, get NO freedom and do not obtain ideal results.
wth.
but i dont think the older generations are keen on adopting the western education system-
so i think singapore would just remain like this till the older generations are wiped out and WE! take over!
=D
whatever the case.
we're still part of the batch under the control of the older generations.
awww- sad.
=(
heheh.
honestly.
i still can't imagine singapore without the present government ;;
AH- until that day comes.
=)
whatever the case.
i pray and pray so hard for my tiny wish to come true.
******
OK .
its not exactly a tiny wish.
BUT HEY.
its just ONE wish.
;)
and now.
i'm gonna chiz off.
ciaos`

i'm a little affected by what my dreams foretell-
heck if its true or not.
im gonna interpret it anyway.
so here it is.
according to the website in my previous post,
my previous dreams meant :
-i'm hidding a truth and a secret
-i have an abnormal appetite and desire
-it indicates much success ahead for me
-it represents the consequences of the decisions i have made
-i was learning a important lesson in life
-it represents my connection with someone
-it reflects my anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that we are drifting apart
-it signifies my desperation in trying to escape a repetitive situation or behavior patters

well.
most of it is true.
i AM hiding a secret.
i DO have a abnormal desire.
i DONT see much sucess ahead for me.
i DO regret the decisions i have made.
i DONT think i learnt any lesson.
i DONT see a connection between me and that person.
i cant really define this confusing relationship. =)
i'm NOT SURE if i do feel anxiety about losing touch with this person or not.
and yes.
i AM trying to escape from a present situation im in.
=)
i don't think its right for me to talk about what i dreamt of in actual.
these interpretations are based on two most recent dreams i can recall most vividly which coincidentally involves the same person.
and i see mo need to tell you who that person is. =x
well well.
i just hope this isnt a bad omen.
=)
oh .
what the heck ;

well.
i know i've just posted minutes ago.
but i just found a website that helps one interpret dreams.
i'm browsing through it now.
and it seems my sweet dream wasnt that sweet afterall.
=/
you could try it too.
=)

http://www.dreammoods.com

have fun.

i've got company today.
my mum took leave specially 'to company me'.
but she made me wait at the clinic with her to get a medical certificate in the end.
she woke me up extremely early at 9.
LIKE HELLO.
I PLANNED TO SLEEP TILL 11.
sweet dreams i had.
sweet dreams. =)
anyway.
my cousin organised another holiday during the june holidays.
my mum agreed too!
=)
yay`

i'm addicted to korean dramas again.
so i've decided to finish my serials before starting on my study schedule.
hahahs.
and i've been eating loads of paddlepops lately.
i just can't get enough of that toffee and caramel sweetness.
=D
and finally-
my dinner is done ;;
ciaos`

today was a little heart-wrenching ;;
i failed every paper except chemistry.
but hey.
i passed my overall for every subject except geog and physics kaes.
x((
oh goodness.
and whats worse is that i failed most of my papers by either half a mark or ONE mark.
effing asses.
i needa get better grades mann.
lol.
FINE.
i'm gonna hit the books.
=))
BUT.
before that.
i still wanna get the rest all students deserve.
like HEY.
the june holidays was meant for students to get MORE SLEEP-
xD
huuuray-
well-
honestly speaking.
i can't really sulk over my results.
and i dont think i need to either.
i probably expected it all along!
=))
perhaps i didnt put in much effort.
=x
wahahahas.
anyway.
i think i better sulk if i fail my common test 2.
IF i fail.
lol.
so i better not.
well people.
i'm in a holiday mood now.
plus- tml IS a holiday!
WAHAHAHAHAS.
yepp.
and the june holidays are coming RIGHT UP!
i've got exactly one month to catch up with all that i've missed out this half of the year!
=DDD

anyway this holiday ,
my mum actually organised a holiday to genting in the middle of the month.
partly because its to CELEBRATE (take note: CELEBRATE) the leaving of my brother for National Service.
and also to relax.
heheh.
and my mum even invited my bro's girlfriend along!
=DD
but she cancelled it in the end.
she decided to save up the money to go on a taiwan trip at the end of the year with my aunt.
=((
i was so anxious lahs.
yet so disappointed in the end.
well-
i guess the june holidays i'll be stuck at home.
lol.
=)

its already half a year-
and nothing has really changed.
really.
nothing has.

boring day-
nothing much to blog about.
=D
cya guys soon!

changed blogskin. :)
huuray`
xD
and i so so love the veronicas.
hahahas.
they rock!
anyway.
its like VESAK DAY today.
and theres going to be the weekends to endure.
and then another tuesday ;
hahahas.

nothing much to post today.
just another boring day with tv tv and more tv-
CATCH LOTUS LANTERN EVERY WEEKDAY !
7-8 pm CHANNEL 8!
wahahahahs.
xD
im done!
ciaos`

today was rather pleasant.
=)
THANK YOU SHARMAINE!!!
the pizza were GREAT!
and so were the sparkling juices.
=)
i not stupid too was rather exotic.
you seldom see directors and producers producing such movies-
worth a watch.
o.k.
im laid back kaes.
it has been out of theatres for so long.
xDD
then i won one game of taiti.
just one.
and thats good enough.
I WON YANTING!
hoorayy`
=D
then we watched the video that sharmaine made out of the many many pictures we took last year.
brought back a couple of memories i suppose.
really miss those days back in 2e.
nothing more than fun, laughter peace and joy.
teeny bits of troubles dont really outweigh the many joyous memories.
but honestly ;
when you look back-
do you regret not having done enough or something?
i do.
probably because of how stupid i was and still am.
all the same.
whats the use-
=x
life isn't unfair.
it gives opportunities.
and the rest is up to us.
i guess i'm really getting the hang of my life.
the pace and the momentum.
it just happens like this all the time.
not any faster.
not any slower.
just like this.
whether i like it or not.
i havent really learnt how to be caught up in the moment.
i'm still brooding over choices i dont wish to make.
=(
can someone murder me or something like that.
paralyse me or something.
i just want to stay at home.
away from gruesome creatures i dont wish to face.
='(

i thought it would be memorable to write an entry today-
especially because its THE END OF THE MYE.
=D
this could be the start of everything else.
where efforts pays off ;
talents stand out -
perhaps this is when dreams take flight and goals are attained.
stuff like that.
ahhhhhh-
ITS OVER ALL THE SAME.
heheh.
and tomorrow...
i'll be eating so much!
HOORAY!
im in SUCH a holiday mood now~~
=DDDD
lalalas~
and i realised how dumb my bro is ok.
HE IS SO DARN NAIVE-
i just commented that he WOULD develop a double chin.
and he asks my mum if he REALLY DID develop a double chin.
lol.
hes really really funny ;
ahhhh~
its been such a long time since i really had such fun.
=))
amanda and i dyed our hair today!
though there doesnt seem to be a change in hair colour.
all we can assure ourselves is that :
we wont get caught on monday.
AND . we won't find a single strand of white hair for the next few months.
thats delightful news to hear.
xDDDDD
hahahahhas.
and we watched a chinese tall story!!
but the characters are so lan.
hahahhas.
like watching sun wukong being attacked???
HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE!!!
SUNWUKONG IS POWERFUL!!!!!
lol.
and monks arent supposed to fall in love and kill-
but that tang sang zhang FELL IN LOVE and KILLED.
hahahahhas.
creating pseudo culture.
xDDD
wth.
anyway.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH INDONESIAN BAMBOO CAKES!
yumm~
try them!

and now.
its time to CHIZZ OFF.
=D
ciaos`

im dehydrated ;
i have been wandering around for the past 1 and a half hours.
WALKING.
nonstop ok.
i'm pratically insane.
i was so darn fascinated with those tall cranes at the construction site on the way down from sengkang to buangkok station.
then i went down to the station to take a look.
i walked round it twice.
looking at pictures at eye level when you take the escalator up and down.
so i took the escalator up and down and up and down.
and the pictures look darn weird.
the artist even covered some faces with bright blue and green spots.
and he destroyed the painting of a beautiful fish with dots too.
and they call it 'the artist's own style.'
ughhhh-
like where is art coming to ?
polka dots are so last last last last last last season.
unless you're really that sort of vintage freak.
xD
anyway.
the station was fairly empty.
other than the operator at the passenger service center and the cleaner.
its just me.
=)
cool ok.
then i got out of the station and proceeded down to hougang.
and i decided to walk to my primary school using the route that passes by hihs.
and when i reached hihs,
i turned back and decided to walk to the coffeeshop opposite punggol park.
so i did.
i traced back those times when i used to play with my friends after school.
running about in the neighbourhood doing silly things.
rollerblading about in the small park beside the school compound and attempting the 'steep' slope ;
it is rather steep actually.
=x
i almost fell and landed on my butt.
hahahas.
then i walked to and fro and round and round and to and fro and round and round.
and i finally gave up standing.
so i sat down on the bench at the bus stop in front of the school.
and when i just sat down,
the school bus zoomed past.
o.k.
she was back.
and i met my aunt with her little dog ebi.
SHES SO CUTE!
she just had a hair cut and she looks soooooooo precious~
wahahahahas.
and my sis came out and i nagged at her and stuff.
then we returned her library books blah blah blah.
and here i am typing crap.
xDDDD
ok fine.
it is crap.
i spent the last 16 minutes talking about how i spent the last 2 hours.
=)
its interesting huh.
today was quite fun actually.
because im relieved of the stress from taking a additional mathematics examination paper.
and a biology examination paper.
o.k....
im SO gonna fail my a maths paper.
I COULDNT DO LOGARITHMS.
shyt ;
and i spent so much time on a STUPID GRAPH that NEED NOT be drawn on GRAPH PAPER-
What. An. Idiot.
so i had no time to complete the 10 mark qns at the back.
W. T. H.
ughhhhhh-
ahhh, anyway.
the only reason why i'm venting my frustration on this blog entry ,
is to make me feel better if i fail the exam.
even though i know i already failed the exam.
so.
who cares.
-
for the biology paper.
i'm not sure about it too.
but what i'm sure of is,
i'm never gonna make it.
=)
i wrote crap for every question that touched on Nutrition for Plants.
i skipped that whole chapter and went to sleep this morning.
and i missed out certain key points to some answers for the Mammalian Digestive System.
oh my ohmy.
whatever the case.
its OVER.
and i'm feeling much better after venting on the keyboard.
honestly,
its the keyboard that suffers more than the blog entry.
oh well-
xDD

i'm rather disappointed in you.
you're such a hypocrite.
get a life ;
=(

today was pretty much alright-
just that i had this bloody cramp during the first paper.
i couldnt even concentrate.
x(((((
but i managed to complete the paper.
i'm not feeling that good now.
probably because of some mood swing or something.
and i feel that this world is crashing down or something.
im not sure either.
i just feel horrid.
really horrid.
i felt worst just now.
so perhaps the 2 packets of smoo milk i drank helped.
maybe i should drink more.
hmmmm-
what a day.
what. a day.
its gonna be a brand new start on monday i guess.
=)
because im working on my attitude adjustment ; starting monday.
bear with me.

OK FINE.
i just typed one darn long passage about how i spent the last thirty minutes of my life and then it shuts itself down.
LIKE WTH-
urgghhhhhh-
oh - nvm.
like HOORAY.
geography is OVER.
finally.
i spent the whole time scribbling nonsense into my answer script.
i so totally screwed up.
I DIDNT STUDY MNCS.
NEITHER DID I STUDY R&D.
i didnt read in detail the case study of PENISULAR MALAYSIA and its successful ecotourism development.
PLUS.
I FORGOT EVERY DAMN THING ABOUT THE LEAKAGE OF REVENUE.
forget it lahs.
i'm gonna fail my humanes this year.
xD
lol ;
and when everyone was mugging for physics tml.
i was staring into blank space and doing nothing.
i don't even get anything they were discussing about.
apart from the little discussion about the upcoming election.
xDD
so funny kaes.
hmmmm-
and i realised something really weird.
i tend to take deep breaths out of no where and let it out in a long sigh.
maybe i'm bothered by something-
i dunno ;
honestly.
i'm not really in the best of moods these days.
i have no idea whats affecting it.
neither do i know whats up with me.
perhaps time would be the best cure.
=)
jiayouu for mid years!!
we can play after that!
woohooo~

well-
i just checked my inbox to find loads of junk mail ;
and SOME sensible mail.
o.k.
to this 'horrid' who sent me that email,
i just wish to tell you that,
life isnt just about regrets and sadness.
and just because i sound happy on my blog doesnt mean i have no regrets in my life.
just let go little friend.
=)
perhaps time will wash away all those horrid memories.
cheer up!
thank you for reading my blog anyway.
******

i just got back home yar.
and yue an was SO funny just now.
shes amusing ok.
she freaked me out when she just wanted to top up her ezlink card by screaming.
and do you want to know how she top up her card???
xDDDD
first, she confidently inserts her card into the ATM card slot and presses add value.
then she realises her mistake-
so she takes out her card from the ATM card slot and inserts it into the card reader.
then she presses the add value button.
then she inserts the note.
AND SHE HAPPILY PRESSES THE CANCEL BUTTON.
so the machine rejected the note and her card.
and she says , " HUH?!??"
LOL.
she took thrice the amount of time needed to top up ONE damn card lahs.
hahahhas.
ROFLMAO
its even funniereler if you see the real thing.
xDDDDDD
lalalas~
i went home after yuean got up her bus-
and on the way,
i started recalling all sorts of things that i regret.
even now i do.
like the time i ran away when i could have caught hold of the chance.
or the time i shut up when i could have said something.
or the time i just had to screw the whole thing up by spouting nonsense.
so many regrets in life i can't seem to forget.
if only time could turn back.
maybe what is present now wouldnt be happening yar?
then when i got home i read the email.
and i was a little touched.
many of times ;
its not that you can't let go.
its just that you can't face it.
like knowing its never gonna happen again but you carry on believing it would again.
or knowing something will never be yours but you wish it would.
or thinking that even though you lost it once it'll come back to you again.
yes- i can honestly tell myself such events will never take place.
yet time and again,
i can never supress that little desire that it might belong to me once again.
i guess this is what human nature is about.
greed and selfishness.
i can never overcome this barrier-
till i learn to let go.
well..
i''m not sure about it either.
but what i'm sure about is that i can live with regrets all my life without regretting that i did.
through regrets i learn to cherish.
=)
try again.
you might get back what you lost.
if you don't try, you'll never know.
besides, you might regret if you dont.
its worth a shot.
just do it.
good luck.
x))

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.