Read My Mind

I need to wash my hair.

But then...

I want to sleep until next week.
I want to be able to relax.
I want to eat and never get fatter.
I want to let go of everything.
I want to laugh 24/7.
I want to use the computer.
I want to live a fun filled life.

However...

I also want to be successful.
I also want to be rich.
I also want to be able to study in UK.
I also want to be a psychologist.
I also want to be seen as beautiful, inside and out.
I also want to be living the good life later on.

In order for me to get what I want, I need to ... ( paragraph 1 )

And so, I'm going to ... ( paragraph 1 )

So that I can be ... ( paragraph 3 )

And also be able to ... (paragraph 2 )


So, I am getting my ass offline now.

Scene : Nadia goes outside to get pizza from pizza delivery guy.

N : Berapa kena bayar?
PDG : Ni, 32.85
N : Nah, ada 53 sini. Bagi 20 balik cukup ah.
PDG : Ok, baki 20.
N : Ok, thanks.
PDG : Sorry lewat sikit eh.
N : Ha, takpe lah
PDG : Ok, terima kasih dik.

*bow*

Yes, the pizza delivery guy bowed to me because he was late. How polite. Haha.

I wonder what things would be like to have Alex Turner as my boyfriend. Ok fine, I'll be more realistic.
I wonder what things would be like to have someone like Alex Turner as my boyfriend.

I'd stare into his sleepy, liquid brown eyes and he'd sing me songs like Fake Tales Of San Francisco and Cigarette Smoke. And I'd sing along and he'll teach me how to play the guitar as good as he does. And when we go out, he'd dress really nicely and I'd look like Alexa Chung next to him. And he'd speak Cockney or whatever accent he has and I'd pretend to understand what he says even though he's speaking too fast. Hmm.

As long as I'm fantasizing, I might as well imagine I'm Torres's girl and all 186 cm of him belonged to me. I'd stare into HIS sleepy liquid brown eyes and have the authority to play with his fluffy blond hair. And when he'd introduce me to people, he'd go (with his ohsosexy spanish accent) "This is mi corazon, Nadia". Wargghhhhhhhh!
But then how would I introduce him? "Ni ha, pakwe aku. Name dia Torreh". -_____________________-
BM sucks.

Let's just settle with Andy, the drummer from Estranged. He's tall : big big big plus. Handsome: a must. Malay: Convenient, seeing what happens if I'm with Torres. And I'd have no problems with that English accent, because we can always speak trashy BM or trashy English. Rich : He's in an award winning band. Drummer : Rawr.

I pick Andy lah.

* I'm a girl. I'm allowed to have shameless fantasies.

All in a week :-

Monday - late for school, got yelled at by le discipline master not for being late but for walking too slowly to assembly. Huh =.= Got a "kad sakit" for my failure to pass worlds-worst-subject AddMaths but still managed to scrape my way into the top 54 of my form. Codename : GROUP OF 54. Exclusive. Harharhar. Came home to find mother all stiff and in a neckbrace due to her airplane crash in Bintulu. Couldn't help but laugh at the way she turns her head. Not cruelty, but kindness because I do everything for her now.

Tuesday - Memory is strangely blank about tuesday. Maybe I got abducted by aliens? O.o

Wednesday - Found out the Chew Yee was leaving SMART. Felt sorrow, sadness, misery dan yang seangkatan dengannya. I mean how would YOU feel when your Prime Minister (debate joke) suddenly says she's leaving the cabinet? Its heartbreaking, I'm telling you.

Thursday - English speaking day. Went through the whole day saying stuff like "Dey! Finish physics dy ar?" and "Fakla fakla". That's perfect english. Some bald old man came to school to see whether we deserve money. And to get money, school had to spend money buy building some Galeri Kebitaraan and putting "words of wisdom" all over the school. St John had an unofficial board meeting and man, did THAT go "well". Politics suck. A piece of advice Honey dear, please get an attitude adjustment or get yourself psychoanalysed before you even dare jump into that dirty world of politics again. Be like your best friends, keep out of what doesn't involve you alright?

Friday - Skipped BM tuition because I overslept :)

Saturday - Addmaths tuition in the morning. Skipped BM tuition again because my mother told me to and went shopping instead. Hehe. But missed out on beach date with buddies Dayah and Mer because mommy wouldn't send me. Ups and downs. Hmm

Sunday - On its way.

Since my previous updates were so depressing and emo, I'm gonna do as Abhi says and write about her. Yay :D

1) Abhi gila
2) Abhi mental
3) Abhi crazy
4) Abhi psycho
5) Nadia rocks.

Hehe.

Strawberry yogurt cheesecake with a good dose of Whose Line is it Anyway with little furry pals purring at my side.
Ah, the little joys in life :)

I realized I have been getting this kind of shit since I was in primary school. Meddling mothers, unfair decisions, biased results.
When you're old enough to understand and realize, there's only one word suited for the feeling.
Hate.

I really am up to here with sensitive, sentimental, touchy people.
I wish people were just born without feelings so that they won't be so goddamn emotional all the time. Menyusahkan la, tau tak? And another thing, MENYAMPAH.