Dear Dad,
It has been 12 years ago today since you have left us from this earthly life... There isn't a day go by that we don't think of you and speak of your name. We are however grateful for the lessons and knowledge that you gave me, so that I am able to be a better mom and wife. I am so thankful that you taught me to work hard, to reach for my dreams, to not worry about what others thinks of me, to serve those around me, to love everything and everyone and so so so much more. I am thankful for the memories that I have to share with my boys. I am so thankful that you taught me honesty in all I do and say.. I am also thankful that you taught me to speak my mind and stand up for what is true (as mom says I got this trait from you) Sometimes it is hard to speak up for what you know is the truth, it is also hard to know that it is worse to not say anything. So there fore I speak... Some don't like to hear what I have to say but I know after I have said what is needed to be said that it is no longer in my hands. Thank you!! Thank you for all you did for me.
I know that you are here close a lot as we feel you... But... I just want you to know that I miss you.. I miss being called bubble butt... I miss your hugs... I miss that love you gave me.. I miss our phone calls so I could ask you your advise. I miss that you never got to know my boys.. As they are wonderful!!!! I miss going to Disneyland with you and laughing so so hard... (the best was when you walked out of the tunnel at the entrance and the bird pooped on your shoulder) Yes, the boys have heard that story a lot... As they love Disneyland.. You would love it, they have added California Adventure and in June of this year Cars Land is opening up... (One of my Sid's favorite movies)
You would be proud... I have gained 20 lbs. and I don't think the gaining is going to be stopping anytime soon. Since my thyroid surgery it has decided that it likes my thighs, belly and butt area.. :)
We still homeschool the boys, loving every minute of it.. I wouldn't trade it for the world as I get to spend every waking moment with the 2 boys that call me mom. They ask questions all the time and I try to answer to the best I can.. If I can't answer, thankfully we have internet we can research. I love being a wife, thank you for telling me that I needed to get back together with Kennen (even though I did it kicking and screaming) He is amazing!!! He reminds me a lot of you...
Now for the boys... Robbie is 12 and has been ordained a Deacon in the church.. He is also 2nd counselor in the Deacons class.. He loves passing the sacrament. He is amazing with little kids.. My once quiet reserved child is finally starting to blossom and open up. He has grown so very much since we started homeschooling him. He is a very smart young man.. Robbie will be going into the 7th grade this year... How time flies when your kiddos are growing up. I wonder if you ever felt that way when we were growing up. He asks about you often and things we used to do. He is a GREAT big brother and usually a good helper although he does like to play video games so we have to restrict that and tv time. :)
Sid will be 8 years old in 9 days... He is so excited for his birthday and baptism. Sid is a little spitfire.. He is just like you.. His name fits him very well... :) He is smart.. he remembers everything.. He could recap every story we have told about you. Just the other day he said "I wish grandpa Sid was still alive... He sounds like he would be a fun grandpa" I have to agree with him.. He wonders often about how you were and what you talked like and everything else.. Asking questions about you ALL the time.. Sid will be going into the 2nd grade this coming school year and how he has grown this year.
We are doing well... We love being together as a family and I thank you for this.. I thank you for taking the time to be there for me.. I thank you for taking me to different places to learn different things... I thank you for taking me on trips so that we could spend time together. I thank you for taking me fishing just me and you. I thank you for loving me unconditionally no matter what.. I thank you for standing up for me when things went sour.. I thank you for you.. I thank you for listening without judgment and anger.. (I miss our talks) I thank you for making me, me...
Dad, I love you so very much and miss you more than words can say... I hope that you know I am the proudest daughter ever.. I had the BEST dad... I hope you know I am proud to call you my dad and to call you grandpa to my 2 boys. Thank you!!!!! Here is a butterfly kiss from me to you... I love you!!!!!
Love you forever,
Hol. (bubble butt)
Ps. If anyone else is reading this.. please leave me a message (as it is set for anyone to comment) of your memories and thoughts and feelings of my dad.. My boys love knowing about their grandpa... Thank you!!