Thoughts of a wee Lass

The news has been told to families today...that its a girl and she'll arrive sometime mid May...or whenever she pleases as girls are finicky and tend to do their own thing.

Its hard to spill a secret after we've kept it for so long. I've tried thinking of a cute artsy fartsy way of spilling. Even the oddball or funny way & I've got nothing.

Its too hard.

You'll have to believe me either way until I can prove it. And no, I'm not copying my cousin, they've just shared before I do.

See I can't even outright say it. But here goes...

Yes, we are

Have you ever had to keep a secret and couldn't tell anyone?  We'll I have and sometimes it is mighty hard not to tell things.  I know some people know what I'm referring to but I still can't spill the beans.

Maybe, someday, some year I'll be able to spill.

Random enough?  How about confusing enough?

I love days when I'm told not to come into the office, but to work at home.

So tomorrow I'll be working at home, slaving away getting part of my potato's done so its an easy cooking job Thursday morning. Who knows, I might even clean house some!!

So Thank you Boss Guys at work for taking Wednesday off, or at least for not coming into the office...this lets me stay home as well.

This morning I had a very cool dream!!

In my dream I saw my cousins from Cali who it feels like I never see or talk with. Granted I’m partially to blame for that aspect of life, but eventually I’ll get out of my hermit ways.

BUT, in my dream my Auntie C had her own restaurant, and it was beautiful!! Granted I don’t remember much of it now as I’ve been awake for a couple of hours, and its amazing that I remember any of it at all. But she had a small place, about 6-8 round tables that seat between 2 and 4 people. You could squish 6 around a table but it’d be elbow to elbow. It had an older feel to it but still had plenty of personality for a building. The kitchen was very neat, at least the soda portion of it. Instead of the regular pop station you see all around, it was old style. You had your soda water that you combined with the syrup manually! I had to have Mister C (my cousin’s eldest) show me where the glasses were and which one to use for the soda pop as it was for his Bompa. Who was also there!!

Bompa gave Auntie C a beautiful sparkly bracelet too, I think in my dream it was Bompa’s birthday or their anniversary or something, because almost their whole family was there! My folks to and Auntie B and her masseur hubby!

I was so excited this morning to have seen them, it makes me miss my Cali cousins quite a bit and have wishful thinking that hubby and I might someday just surprise them on their doorsteps with visitors!! But I know that isn’t always nice, especially if they travel to see their island kids the same time we go to visit!
Anywho, I’ve rambled enough and I’ve lost what I was writing about and can’t recall much more of my happy dream. Oh, aside from the sparkly bracelet was delicate and seemed to have lace filigree throughout, but it was gold, and lots and lots of sparklies. Auntie C I hope you and yours are doing well, and who knows, maybe my dream is a premonition of gifts to come?!?

Sometimes I wonder if our parents talk one with another.

Recently I've been having a hard time coping with a few things in my life and yesterday I kinda had a small meltdown in front of my Da, whilst I was waiting for hubby to be off work so we could go home.

Then today while at work...mind you its a quiet week as the 3 stooges are in Arizona so I can work at home more this week...I get flowers delivered to me with simple message of "we love you" and I break down in tears.

How is it that when you try to be strong for everyone else they end up helping you more than they realize?

To both sets of my wonderful parents I want to say THANK YOU, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being here.

The flowers are beautiful and they even have butterflies on them...so precious!!

This week has been a long one for me. I've been trying to figure out what I'll be doing with YW and finally tonight at Midnight I finished somewhat organizing the binders for the new presidency. I still have a few things to add to them in the morning, I'm just hoping I can make it to the church early to get into the closet, grab the cd player, crap I still need for the binders and make it to the room to be set up before the girls arrive by 9. Oh, and I'm still trying to come up with an agenda for my first meeting tomorrow during sunday school.

Aside from YW not much else is new, we helped our lovely sis today who has the most gorgeous curly hair in!! WOW can I say I'm jealous!! We helped harvest her grapes, and we both learned how to make jelly!! Hopefully it will set up as I've heard jelly can be temperamental to make. Hubs and I even trimmed one of her bushes and I'm a tad nervous she'll hate me for it as some would say I butchered it. BUT I really didn't!! I just followed the grass outline and cut it back...but hey, it'll grow back too.

Oh the grapes we harvested today, there are still TONS left and the grape juice we were able to do tasted so sweet and marvelous, I'm curious how it will taste once its cooled completely. Maybe one day...

Its finally official and I'm still scared to death.

Yesterday during sacrament the Young Womens was reorganized. I thought that I would have been warned or something, but nope. Suddenly it was being changed.

So I'm officially the YW President, and I've called 3 somewhat strangers to be in the presidency with me. I'm hoping things will go smoothly but I still have no idea what I'm doing and just hope that things will work out.

For one, its been decided between myself and the old 1st counsellor to have a farewell party this wednesday for mutual for the 2 ladies that are changing. I want to get them something but I don't know what, can't really do food as 1 gal has major allergies to EVERYTHING!! So hopefully I'll be figuring it out today or tomorrow...seeing as this thing will be at my house.

Then Sunday, instead of a lesson I've decided on a question and answer period. Kinda a getting to know who's who and hopefully we'll have a good portion of the girls show up. Seeing as we only have 4 maybe 5 active Sunday girls and 7 active on Wednesday...that is if we pick them up.

Oh well, back to work I go!

I'm running out of steam for particular callings I have with the ward, but I don't know how to kindly yet gently tell people how disappointed I am in them that they didn't fulfill their calling which in turn is making me work harder with one of the two callings I have.

Very frustrating...but oh well. I just won't plan on trusting that individual to do their part anymore.

My honey must really love me, he bought me 3 new fishies for our wee pond AND 4 trees for our backyard!!!

Maybe Monday we'll plant the trees and make them sturdy. We have a maple, 2 black alders and 1 wierd named one. Its supposed to grow tall and skinny and turn orange in the fall.

Maybe next weekend we'll get one more tree and have our backyard planting all done!!

Yay for the long weekend!!

Saturday was a fun day...we went tubing with the youth of our ward & the 1st Ward. It was so much fun, I have been pestering hubby for years to do this & we finally went!!!

Now we have our own tubes & can go as often as we like!! Just need to find a way to pump them up without hassling too many people!

Best part is we've been invited to go floating/ tubing again over Labor Day. Water might be chilly but I think it'd be so worth it, plus it reminds me of Jamaica & Mamacita & her friend...such lovely ladies!

Since I've been back from Canada it seems like I've been drowning. Don't get me wrong its lovely! I thoroughly enjoy being busy at work all the time. It just seems like lately I can't catch up or get ahead. I so like getting ahead of things.

So yesterday I stayed quite late for me at the office but I am able to breath again at work. Still able to stay busy yet give me a chance to step back and breath.

It is lovely!!

I'm a horrible traveler when I'm on my own. This last week while I was in Canada I ventured maybe 1 mile on my own. That was so I can get a toothbrush that I forgot to pack. I didn't even bring my camera as it was a working trip.

The time there was LONG. It seemed like Thursday couldn't come fast enough. The weather was quite nice while I was there. It sprinkled a wee bit, but overall it was probably in the low 70's where you kinda needed a jacket but not really. I didn't even use the heater in the car I finally got on Monday morning.

Overall, a good trip. There are always the few mishaps to get over, which for me was mainly getting a truck. I think it was a ford Ranger, but when I did get the car it ended up being a chrysler of some sort. Very nice inside too. It came with heated bum warmers!!!

Now that I've been home the last few days it still seems like I'm playing catch-up with work and trying to get adjusted to the additional duties. Eventually I'll feel at ease with it and not fret so much. Give me a month or so which will mean I've done 2 payrolls on my own and then we'll see how I feel.

laters

Well, I'm glad to say I've arrived and landed at my hotel in Calgary. I even drove myself to the hotel. Thankfully the rental company had a gps thingy so I've got that for the week. Sadly though I have a small truck that barely fits 2 people which I may need to fit 3 depending on what we do for lunch this week.

The flights were okay, I sat next to a cute guy that reminded me of a heavier version of my Da. Chatted some with me at the beginning of the flight and as we were landing. In between he was working on his Sudoku book, which had me intrigued. Very nice chap, even offered to give me a ride to my hotel as he was passing it on his way home. Sad to say I had to decline as its just scary, plus I had a rental car oops, Truck.

Tomorrow I head back to the airport around noon to trade in the truck for a car and pick up Todd from Corporate as he is joining me in our "Business Meetings" with Candice.

Guess I'd better get some sleep, if I don't think about it too much I think I'll be able to sleep without crying. But I miss my hubby...

I know, I'm a dork. I should be reveling in this time away, enjoying this freedom and instead I realize how much I rely on him and miss him for the out of town ventures. Not to mention its a new and scary place for me. And its out of the country!! Well...kinda.

laters

Our water heater is dying!!! Anyone know of a good plumber who does tankless heaters?

I know, I Know.  I'm lame, all I post about is our pond.  But to me it is so exciting!!  We've had flowers on our lilies (and iris's I think) start blooming.  In all honestly I don't remember the different kind of plants we bought.  Especially one kind that has been blooming like mad, but its pretty, I think the plant is an iris but I have no idea.  I do know we have water lily's, water hyacinth, and water lettuce.  Along with another plant that I don't recall what it is.

Things have been a little hectic for me lately. It seems like no matter what I do my days are always busy with this or that.

Lately its been me freaking out about camp, young womens, our pond and new fishies, our remaining fish (Lefty who Todd likes to swat at).

Stupid Lefty, if he wouldn't tease Todd, the neighborhood cat then he wouldn't be swatted at on a daily basis, but the darn fish likes to swim at the top of the wee pond.

So here's to my day, in hopes that the weather will continue to be nice (no rain please) for the next two days at least. That will enable us to get rocks for the large pond, have good weather for the ward bbq and maybe just maybe try to straighten out our tree.

We're eating inside the Mandarin, its a first for me!!

So I've been trying to find a way to post the movie hubby & friends created a couple of weeks ago, but sadly it is too big to go on the blog or You tube. Granted I'm a beginner at you tube, but the file is over 1.5 meg so its a bit too big. I'll see if hubby can set it up on his website, its at http://thenightink.com/. Until then, so sorry!!

I still will attempt to find a way to add it here though.

I just love Lost Creek! Hubby was kind enough to let us go camping this last weekend instead of trying to fly somewhere or drive somewhere. When you haven't decided still were you're going on a vacation until you're already supposed to be on vacation I say go camping!!

We got up there Friday afternoon, cut some wood and decided to set up camp. Not even 5 minutes after tent is set up does it start raining. An hour later we emerged to a wet landscape, but the beaver dam was just lovely when it was still sprinkling. Too bad I didn't bring my camera out into the rain, maybe next time.

Saturday was a more eventful day! Our family was coming up to join us and hang out! Sadly the rain had another thought for us and decided to start raining around 3pm. We still had lovely dutch oven lunch under out canopy then decided to call it a day around 6 when it was still raining and didn't look like it was stopping anytime soon.

So maybe we'll do another adventure of camping over the weekend at Lost Creek seeing as it is a new month!

Eventually I'll get some pictures posted, but it was very cool, the beaver dam had like 20 fish in it! I promise, hubby even caught one! He was a good guy and threw the fish back into the creek though. Said it wasn't big enough for dinner and maybe next weekend he'll catch the big one we saw.

This last weekend was crazy busy with very little sleep, if any. But I did get to have a sleepover at my house, which hasn't happened since High School...or for a REALLY REALLY LONG TIME!

The boys, my hubby & his friend D, entered into a 48hour film competition that started on the 15th of May. At that time they received what their Genre was, a line that had to be included, and a prop that also had to be in the film and the film was supposed to be 4 - 7 minutes long.

Friday night was spent writing the script and getting filming ideas, Saturday was the start of filming. Mind you after we found people to be actors for it and arranging schedules so people would be available. We had our friend N help with the filming, but he also had prior arrangements so he wasn't able to be there all day. Luckily for us we were completed with filming that afternoon, then the fun part came in...the editing and putting the pieces together, adding sound, voice overs, etc.

Oh, and only one computer that is capable of doing all of that. So sadly the rest was up to hubby. Which I think he did a wonderful job of putting the pieces together with what he had. So Saturday night became Sunday and we attempted to complete all our obligations between completing project, church, home teaching, meetings, family parties, and getting this turned in; it was a very long weekend.

Once I figure out how to post video's on here it'll be up.

Sometimes I really frustrate myself.

Recently I was called to be a Young Womans advisor, along with relief society teacher, oh and don't forget half of the ward activities chairman. Lovely hubby is the other half.

SO with the addition of yw I have the constant desire, urgh, have to moments, whatever you want to call it. But I just HAVE to reorganize my binder that has all my crap in it for church. In doing so I just HAVE to relabel the tabs.

Yet after relabeling, reorganizing, I feel so much better. Its only taken me a couple of weeks to do things, but I didn't have any information for yw until this week. So really its only been a few days since I've been able to reorganize.

Oh well...I admit it, I have an addiction to organization. Do they have a program for that? Please sign me up!

I tend to forget that we're just visiting here on Earth, this past Sunday was a reminder to me of that fact.

We had an announcement in Sacrament that a member of our prior ward had passed away this last Saturday. The hardest part for me is realizing truly how little time we have here on earth. Granted I know that we will be together again and the time we do spend here is such a short visit for us.

The truly sad part is this gal is the sweetest soul I had a chance to visit briefly with when we were in our old ward. She is leaving behind her husband and precious 2 yr old daughter, and she is younger than I am. Yet she stayed positive through the whole ordeal. She is truly a lady to be inspired from. I just pray that her hubby and daughter will be okay and know that she is with her father again.

Sorry I'm blue, but it helps me to write my thoughts down. Even if I don't make sense to some, it makes sense in my head.

Please live your days to the fullest as we truly don't know when we'll be needed back home. We truly don't know how much time we have here.

Find web cams for work is horrid!! Have 2 so far and have been to 4 different stores. Still need to locate 2 more, so sad I know

What do you do when you eat a croissant in the morning and by 11 you're a chatterbox...yet you only have yourself to chatter with?

Oh, and other cars

I just don't get it. I've had a couple of my friends, old coworkers ask that I join facebook. Why, I'm not entirely sure, to see pictures they've posted online....I have no idea!!

So I finally did it yesterday. But, because I hate having my own thing hubby and I share one! I truly don't see a point in having to facebook things when we can share. So its a combination of our two names and I thought I'd go the old fashioned route and have the "man of the house" name first, then mine, ended with our last name.

Anywho, I have more to ramble about, but I'll start a new one as it doesn't necessarily deal with facebook

I'm very smart today. Gathered all my stuff for work, locked the house, even set the timer on the washer, walked out the door to my car. THEN noticed I forgot mykeys in the just locked up house. So here I sit waiting to be rescued.

And yes, my coworker just laughed when I called to inform him I'd be late cause I'm a smart one with TWO cell phones today.

We've decided Houdini has a death wish. Whenever we wander to the pond to "check" on our tenants. Houdini is always missing. Half the time he's under a rock which is only half covered with water or living with the plantlife again. I think he secretly wants to be a plant!

Its just strange, but sadly I don't think he'll last much longer, as I think he also has a death wish. Always trying to be where there is no water!! Whats wrong with him, he's not an air breather...stupid fish. Aside from that he has a sorts of white fuzziness to him and decided since we thought he was missing for 2-3 weeks it may be kinder to let him go. So we aren't treating him, but I can't get the exectioner thought in me enough to drag him out of his wet environment and truly let him die...or squish him with a rock or plant he so loves. Instead I'll let the fuzziness get him. Which I think it already has as of this morning...he was floating inside a plant base all covered in fuzz not moving at all.

Its a good thing goldfish are so cheap! But I grow fond of the winter survivors. The nice side of all the fish going to fish heaven is one is a lot easier to catch than 15 or how ever many we had.

Last night we were driving along main street by the bishops storehouse and 5 deer crossed the road right in front of us!! I wished I had my camera with me, but at least we'll have the picture in our heads...it was a sight, they were following each other like they were playing follow the leader.

Oh, also we've decided to change a few things with our ponds...currently we're working on the wee pond. I'll grab some pics and try to post them tonight or tomorrow.

Does anyone know how to build a cave out of sandstone? What kind of mortar we should use?

We've officially renamed our living fish....we have two!! For the last two weeks we thought we only had 1 fish left as the other escaped from the cookie jar I had them in.

Long story short, we were going to redo the big pond when the weather was lovely, found only 2 living fish left, stuck them in a cookie jar to keep them contained and safe in the smaller pond...with all the plants too. One day came home to find only 1 fish in the cookie jar and couldn't find the other fish. I thought a cat got it, hubby thought it was under bridge or in pipe or cat got it too...but why not both fish??? After losing the 1 fish we moved the remaining fish back into big pond thinking it would be "safer"...

So this last Saturday,
We went to a movie and when we come home I have a habit of checking on our fish & plants...I know quirky...when I spotted orange in the small pond by Mertle. He's our pet turtle keeping the plants company...and no he's only real to me...but I don't have to feed him. Its GREAT!! What did we find...the missing fish!! Granted we have no idea where he's been the last two weeks but hubby caught him and he is now residing in bigger pond with Lefty.

We renamed our fish too...we have Lefty and Houdini. If you couldn't guess Houdini is our escape artist.

Have you ever heard of a pillow thief? Well I live with one. Last night in the wee hours of this morning he stole my fluffy pillow!!! Mind you, earlier in the night I relinquished my flat pillow, apparently it wasn't enough.

This is my fortune from dinner tonight

An enjoyable vacation is awaiting you near the mountains.

Think its a coincidence?

Can't tell today is a slow day at work can you? Oh, or this week is kinda slow either huh?

I tried different shots with the microwave in focus but decided I kinda like this one better with the figurines in the cabinet in focus instead of the reflection.

This one is of our tv downstairs, I've had the gents at work comment about it over and over again, so I finally brought in camera to show them the pic I took...yes it is massive, and yes its the whole wall. One day I'll get someone to pose in the right corner while I take a picture.

The rest hubby took, I still think they're neat!



Its our kitchen light!




Again, our kitchen light, but instead it looks really really creepy! Like floating heads maybe?

Some may have not heard, but my awesome sis is painting her house...going through recently announced camera I decided to post some pictures of the first coat of paint done at the house...

As you step in her front door you'd looking at this view

I've been incredibly shy about my new camera...I got a new camera for Valentines/bday/anniversary/xmas gift this year. At least that is what I'm claiming it is for because with the camera wonderful hubby gave it has options for new lenses...which can turn into more presents each year, quarter...who knows!!

As I attempt to learn my camera some of the pictures may actually appear on here...there are a couple recent ones I'd love to show, but give me time as I haven't learned if I need any software for it or not.

Eventually the pictures will show, and if I appear with a camera in my hand, just ignore it. Pretend its my deformed hand seeing as how I'm a wanna be photographer, when in reality I'm a HUGE amateur.

To fly or drive...that is the question. Let alone where to go. I can give hubby all sorts of options and possibilities but picking a place, now thats hard for me. Too many options I want to do.

Currently I've rattled off: Zions, Yellowstone, California somewhere, St. George, Hawaii, Paris (but its a dang long flight), New York, stay home hiding. So far no decision made yet, any suggestions?

We really need a break and gents at work say this is the perfect time with them traveling the next few weeks along with head honcho bossman. Just getting hubby to decide on time off...

Waiting I'm not always good at...

At work we are in the progress of getting Video Conferencing purchased and set up.

Last week one of the gents ordered big 47" tv's for the screens since we are technically a "corporate office" he wanted them for us. They arrived today and oh my gosh!! Was it like Christmas for the two gents here today. Luckily head honcho bossman is traveling in Africa this week and part of next. So who knows what his thought will be. But Mr. T who bought them got a great deal...only $699 each. Of course he is BIG on refurbished items, but the warranty is the same as a new item and its half the cost...so thats his justification for when honcho bossman Mr. E arrives back in town.

The other gent here is Mr. G, I can listen to him talk all day as he has an accent I think from Brazil area...kinda like Canadian but not quite. I don't think south africa but possibly, I should know since he takes family vacations back home and I've only worked with these 3 gents for 9 months or so...oh well. One day I'll remember.

Tuesday I went to the relief society birthday event thinking I need to talk to people about Friday anyways, its as good a time as any.

When I arrive, Lo & Behold!! it wasn't my ward's event this week it was the 1st ward...known as my old ward.

As I'm walking to the gym thinking...maybe we're sharing the gym today...I see the Food Storage Lady whom I needed to talk to anyway about the Granola I was purchasing and also own. Sadly I have no idea what to do with the granola, let alone how long it lasts.

So I stayed, and stayed, and visited, and participated. I ended up back home around 9.

It was an enjoyable evening, getting to see the friends in my old ward and sad at the same time. I realized that wards are a good social network and when it changes its like those friends are lost. It takes an effort now to visit them and see how they're doing instead of the weekly meeting on Sunday.

I realize I really suck at that! I have a hard time checking up on people let alone remembering names when I truly want to. Oh, the names are in my head all right, they just play hide and seek with me ALL THE TIME! Only when I'm readying myself for night night will they pop out and go "found me!!" Highly annoying...but very true with my mind.

So next week is when my wards activity is, and I hear it will be as much fun as the other activity. Who knows, maybe one of these days I'll break out of the shell I live in and actually talk with people! On a consistent basis too!

Thought I'd test the mobile blogging while I walk & hubby plays. If I get really good & it works maybe I'll figure how to post a picture too!

Sunday was a harsh day for me, and it was completely because I had to teach. At least I know why today was harsh. Most days I have no clue!!

As the morning progressed and I tried to get one last look through the tears started coming. So I said "screw this" and went back to my room waiting for hubby to come. Which hubby noticed something was amiss and inevitably I cracked and proclaimed "I'm scared! Can I be sick!" Of course hubby does the sensitive approach...encouragement, its supposed to make things better right?

Yet with every movement closer to our church the more I wanted to cry. Seriously!! The tears would pool up and I'd attempt at blinking them back but to no avail.

Hubby once again, reassures me when we reach the inner doors and I just cry.

Can you picture it, a little redheaded adult crying in the church, begging in her heart for hubby to go to RS with her for to hold her hand, begging for His support to keep her calm and comforted. Knowing full well that what she's about to do is for the better otherwise she'd never have been called to do this...

After attempting to compose myself, I make it to the Room...normally its a beautiful room with a bay window to the west and in the north east corner is a lovely fireplace; a room inviting calmness in, but its the people that make it scary...So I make it to the Room and hide in the back of it as I know I'll have to make it up front and why kid myself that I'm just part of the crowd when I have to get up in front of the crowd.

As the time gets turned over to me I feel the tears coming already so I sneakily grab the box of kleenex's and through a muddy ugly cry (I think it was an ugly cry) I apologize for my mess. That crowds truly do frighten me and I'll need all the help I can get. After I try to take the deep breaths that usually help calm me fail I received such a warmth of calmness go over me, the ladies are joking with me to help and the tears stop. I shouldn't be shocked by ALL the help that I received but the tears, they just stopped!

I am truly thankful for the help HF gave me (previously mentioned as Him) and the kindness the ladies gave me. Granted it wasn't such a large group, but when you're used to a group of 5 being large, a group of 20 or 25 seems massive!!

And truth be told, I ran out of time to go over everything I planned to do. But I tend to over plan things for the just in case I run short.

I was told it was a good lesson and I hope it was. That the Ladies aren't just being nice, but that it was decent. Eventually I hope to stop having the panic attacks with getting in front of large groups, but it all comes with time.

I know that I was given this calling because it would help me grow, and I truly know that its to help me break out of my shell and interact with larger groups of people, possibly to even talk louder...gasp heaven forbid I talk above a whisper!!

But now I'll be off to prepare for my next lesson which is aptly titled: Come what may, and Love it!

Sorry, sometimes I don't know how to write short things.

So I am enjoying Skype. Had to download it for work and now I think its okay.

The cool part about it is yes, you can have video calls if you have a video camera attached to your computer. If you don't you can chat to them like instant messaging. It also has games that you can play for free!!

The downside...I play a lot of Majjong. This is a fun and VERY addictive game for me.

But the best part is...are you excited yet...its FREE!! Absolutely positively free!!

Granted there are options on it that you can pay for. Like you can call from Skype to a landline phone...but that costs! Or you can have your chat messages continue onto your cell phone...yet it costs again.

Otherwise, its pretty darn cool! And really if you have a camera, very fun to talk to people on the other side of the world! I've already chatted with Paulo in the Brazil office. Nice guy too!

Lately I have been thinking about one of my childhood friends, and whats more odd is I've been dreaming about this friend. For some who don't know it is a very RARE thing for me to remember my dreams. But over a couple of weeks this friend has been stuck in my head.

I finally broke down and started searching for him online. Round-a-bout way I found his blog. From reading his blog I can determine the he is fine and no worries. But do I really take the leap and find a way to talk to him. Tell him thanks for being my friend in elementary school when I needed one and that he's been on my mind? In order for me to do that I was going to contact his folks who may or may not remember me but they'll remember my Da so they might give me his information. But still the debate within my head, do I contact or be a silent visitor?

This last Sunday we had a meeting with the Bishop. Little did I know the callings he had were for the both of us. The whole time I thought this was a meeting specifically for hubby and I was along just for moral support.

Little did I know!!

To my horror I am now a relief society teacher, hubby is a young men assistant and the both of us are the Activities Chairmen.

My dismay was mainly being a teacher to "gasp" adults!! I can handle children and youg women but adults are an entirely different mattter. Then Bishop tried to console me by telling me what they originally had in mind...a cub scout leader...but it wasn't able to fit my schedule they decided. I'd much rather have had that!!! I would have made it work, I know I could!!

The largest scare factor for me is being in front of people trying to teach things that I feel inept at. Hence teaching adults is very scary because I'm still a child in my minds eye. Those of you snickering just stop...I still feel and sometimes act like a child. Besides you can come teach me!!

The activities is no problem. Sadly I revert to childish activities, like sledding and behold we have grandparents I need to think of!! Bishop would like to have 4 activities a year for the adults. So he says, part of me thinks that at least 2 of them will be for the whole ward but who knows. We may only do one activity and decide its too much for us, but I doubt it.

Besides, enough about me, what callings do you fear? Is it teaching like me?

Today I had lunch with Ron & his wife along with the 3 gents from my office. We..by we I mean me..have been trying to schedule a time when all of us could meet together and have lunch as a way to say Thank You Ron for all the many years you served Work. Which has been 37, a long time in these days as people tend to not have that much patience with companies.

After lunch I realized that this is probably the last day that I'll ever see Ron because I am horrible at keeping in touch with people. And I really did like him. I have a habit of adopting people into my wee family and I did this with Ron. No he wasn't a father figure, but more of a grandda figure.

He was always willing to look at my car when it was making funny noises or give me advice about not work related things, along with work related things. Honestly I'll miss this man and hope that I'll be strong enough to break my horrible habit of not calling people.

To which I say to all my friends, or people who call me a friend...I'm sorry!! I am horrible I know, but I do miss all of you, I just always think I'm being a nuisance when I call people. But do know, that I care about you and am missing you. This goes to those I call my family as well. Which I also don't keep in touch with very well. It is a habit I am trying to break, just not trying with all my might. I know I know, bad! But habits are hard to break.

Warning...Pictures below are disgusting yet very real & very true...this is what I dealt with yesterday while checking on our fish.



This is...correction, was my beloved "angel" sadly she is no more...sniffle sniffle.




This is one angle of our second large pump...angel was stuck on our small pump.



Here is another angle of our larger pump that kinda shows all the mangled fish...just wait...there's one more!!



Mind you there were two fish stuck like this. Sniffle sniffle, both of them were my precious koi.

I guess the good side is we still have 6 alive! We still have 5 goldfish and Blackeye...our one living koi still.

I've only spent all day today and yesterday thinking of what to do for the poor deceased fish...this is all I've come up with.

Sorry for the gross-out blog today.

I've always wanted to learn gaelic if possible, but as it might be a wee hard to find an instructor I've also thought about learning Irish first...Oh well.

One day maybe...

So my boss asked me just recently...

"You know its snowing?"

Which I take as, its snowing you should leave now. But I'm so close to being done with his portion of the presentation I've been working on today...I just want to finish it!!

Sadly I should probably leave since yesterday was a horrible commute home, but normally its worse here in Draper than up north!!