This _____ day
Today is a day with double meaning. Two very opposite effect on me. Two extremes that is.
First of all, it is my dog's first year on earth! It has brought much joy to my family. Imagine right after a tiring day at work, the first thing you see when you step into the house is the cute furry monster welcoming u home, jumping up and down till you give it the attention it wants. Yeap, that is our good-o-doggy.
Next, it is the complete opposite. The departure of a good friend of mine. It has been 9 years since she left us.
Depression is a very scary illness. It hits anyone. Even those closes to you. I hate myself for not being able to identify the signs earlier.
People told me that I was too young and shouldn't blame myself for such unfortunate event. But seriously... How can I not? I was one of her very few friends she had. I hate myself for not being observant, not showing a little more care or concern.
It is a life changing day for both events. Ok... Not really for doggy's birthday. I don't remember when it came to my house and I shall just treat it as 18th feb (or I will have to celebrate it's birthday and the first day being in our home... Spare me the hassle).
Be it losing a friend or having a pet, it is life changing. I have changed and grown alot through the 2 events.
I have got mixed feelings for the arrival of this day. Lets just smile and enjoy the day...
- posted by Kirsten at 2/18/2014 12:06:00 AM
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction oh a beautiful release memory seeps from my veins let me be empty oh and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight life and everywhere you turn there's vultures and thieves at your back the storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lies that you make up for all that you lack it don't make no difference escaping one last time it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of the angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here
Felt the familiar feeling haunting me once again... I guess... Listening to songs whole night would be great... I think I need a glass of red wine again... Hopefully Macau will make me feel better... God... Please make it go away...
- posted by Kirsten at 12/15/2011 12:22:00 AM
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Better Days
And you ask me what I want this year And I try to make this kind and clear Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings And desire and love and empty things Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words And sing out loud Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live And something only you can give And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive And the one poor child that saved this world And there's 10 million more who probably could If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words And sing out loud Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight And somehow stop this endless fight Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words And sing out loud Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
- posted by Kirsten at 12/14/2011 11:45:00 PM
Friday, November 18, 2011
When the lights go out the pain will stop all the things you dream about will turn to lemon drops and i don't know what I will be but come fly with me today
When the lights go out I see you there dancing incessantly, light catches on your hair and I don't know what we'll become but come fly with us today.
Chorus Because you're blossom on the wind sunscreen on the air you are the bleached bits in my hair and the sunflowers in the snow that covered everybody there. So tell me how it's right that I'm the one to carry on When all they want is you.
When the lights go out you'll see us there all dressed in uniform tears punctuate the air and you will smile at who arrives to say their last goodbyes
- posted by Kirsten at 11/18/2011 11:29:00 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2011
A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar They're worth so much more after I'm a goner And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin' Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
I heard this song in Mcdonalds and used soundhound to find out what song it is. Hahaha... The wonder of iPhone... Their album was released on the 12th Oct 2010!
I don't even wish my 21st birthday to come anytime soon. Why on a Wed... Gosh... No plan as of yet. Even after I am 21, I can't do what I wanna do yet.
I know my wish won't come true...? Hahaha... Think if anyone were to ask me what's my wish, I will just say world peace. Let's just keep the wish as a wish that only I know. Hehe...
- posted by Kirsten at 9/25/2011 10:58:00 PM
