Kroy's Blog

近來的日子真係就快忙掛我。。。每日返工十粒鐘無停過，仲係两个星期無休過。。。但又無辦法，鬼叫我揾间暂时唔够人手既餐厅度做野咩。。。但都好嘅, 至少唔駛日日胡思亂想，但又日日困係Hawthorn困都就快巅啦！


唔知会有几多個人会睇得明依个post，因为最近被个香港人捉我的廣東話，就连whatsapp都用晒广东字，我唔明佢講麼，我就用普通話回應，但佢又睇唔明，真係激鬼死我~！所以依家就試一試睇有幾困難，正發覺真係“頂心頂肺”！因为習慣咗用普通語来打中文字，再加上好多字都揾唔到咯~ ish ish~


還挺依個blog都應該無麼人關注，所以就試玩玩下~


最后咧。。。玩玩下又好似幾好玩喔~！呵呵。。。

把我们的事隐藏着，直到一段时间后才慢慢的让一个个朋友知道。。。

理所当然的，自然很多人问了许多，而我都不多说。。。因为我认为故事只需一个。。。

而且我就是改不了一个性格，就是从不把自己的事说出来，只会吞，不懂得吐。。。


也许从小就养成了吧！家人从不完全知道我的事，也习惯了不多告诉别人自己的一切。。。


也不懂是否因为这点，所以很少真正的好友。。。曾经有位朋友告诉过我，我就是因为什么都隐藏，所以才这么少朋友。。。也许他说对了吧~！


呵呵。。。还好最近找了份打杂工，虽然薪水不大，但至少可以过日子，不许多想。。。

然而，对不起，我就是学不了把自己的一切说出来的习惯，也许这辈子都学不了。。。

就算有时觉得吞得很辛苦，就算有千千万万的话好想说，但就是无法做到。。。但就算做到，也不懂能告诉谁吧！

但还好就是爱听歌，所以就常听一些适合自己心情的歌。。。

也还好最近搬回了较方便的地方，在宁静的夜晚时，可以出外走走。。。

而放了一旁的blog也被我挖回出来写一下自己的心情吧。。。

而除了这事，近来都很乱吧！ 毕业了，感觉迷失了自己式的，过一日，算一日。。。

也担心家里人不懂过得怎么样。。。

偶尔接到家里电话，未必是好事。。。

但不管怎样，Life Goes On,还得继续活着吧！

又得和身边人说再见了~是的，也就是照片里的朋友/搭档~还记得在古晋未相识的我们，因为得来Melbourne念书，所以一起通过朋友认识，也彼此有了个伴出国~也就因为这样，我们也不必烦Research Project没搭档~

虽说我们并没有很brother的分享我们的事情，但不懂怎么的觉得遗憾因为没多和你沟通或去外玩~但也没机会了吧！或许等我回古晋时吧！

但愿你的将来一切良好，前途一切顺利，一片光芒~或许有天我们会在工作上碰面吧！加油！

"Layuk", a new word which Im not sure whether I spelled it correctly...jz knew dis word jz now when I met my friends...They aaid I looked "layuk" when they saw me...so, wat does it means?? It means looks terrible or messy or old something like that... When I came back home, looked at the mirror, suddenly felt like wanna ask myself... "What am I doing?" and "Ho Weng Kwen...what the hell happened to you? Come on...This isnt you..." Yea...everyday saying the same thing "It's time to refresh myself", "It's time to stand up again", "It's time to get back on track". But then bla bla bla...it's all bullshit... Hmm...perhaps I still need time?? Or...perhaps force myself to do what I should be doing again?? Arg....dont know...and I've no idea....I don't even hv any idea of what the hell am I saying now too... Yea...we mentioned a very little bit about you too... How are you?? Well...I know it's all my fault...you don't have to search for the answer as there are no answer for our problems...or...the only answer is...MY FAULT... So...pleawe take good care of yourself yea...

最近一人走走或待在学校过夜时狂听的歌。。。





而这首若把“相逢恨晚”改成“相逢恨早”就中到切底吧~呵呵。。。

Due to laziness, today I don't feel like doing anything so kind of like give myself another break tonight...Then, saw a friend online FB and went to say "Hi" to her/him.

We had some chat and mostly was about what he/she experienced recently, especially about he/she chasing a target...Although we had a nice chat I would say, what he/she said makes me reminisce the time we had before...which makes me feel heart broken...Well of cause I didn't blame him/her, just that it...aiks~I don't know how to express that kind of feeling~

Anyway, found a song today and like the music so much~ It was produced by a Malaysian singer named Nick Davis.

As I'm not a guy who is alway open to everyone and do not like to tell people my problems and my personal stuff like a crying baby asking for help, I tend to learn...or should I say, force myself to be tough to swallow anything that comes to me.

I know this can be hard but I just can't do it to keep on telling people the same things and I do not want to troubling people and make them worry about me or talk about my stuff. That just not me.

Ever since I was born, I never share any personal stuff with people no matter what happened to me unless that person owned my trust. However, I still wouldnt share every single things of me.

So, I usualy express it by hinting and refer my matters as a third person matters. So I'm so thankful to have a bunch of friends who willing are to listen and realy discuss abt it or talk about it although it doesnt help much. But at least it is a way for me express my stuff.

Sadly, there are so much things that happened and complicated stuff just doesnt stopped happening even until today. How am I going to cope with it? All I can do is just concentrate on my works and try to get myself. But this doesnt works all the time. So lately, I have actively join friends to go "Sing K" hope that I can release myself by doing something silly like yelling and sing crazily. Yes it helps....only for a moment perhaps? Slowly, I am addicted  to "Sing K" and would like to be able to sing songs with lyrics that suits my mood. Sadly, I have a poor singing skill and capability...

Well well welll....or maybe blogging is also another way for me to release?? Although most of the posts that I posted recently were meaningless and like bull shitting...

Anyway, life goes on and I'm still alive...

Tell myself to smile so no one would know what happened... and also to give my group the confident that their leader is fit to work on the tasks and leading them to work on the assignments...although he is actually in a mess...

So this is just a lame post with no picture or attractive content...

Goood nite kuchingnites and evryone in this world.

Btw, sorry for my bad english too...