Sunday, July 19, 2009
do you remember?
it's like entering a new phase in life:
new people, new environment, new challenges.
excited? maybe a lil.
nervous? worried? quite alot.
ahh yes, i can be all crazy, hyper, retarded and totally unglam in front of my close friends.
i'm sure my dearest volleyballers experience it alot.
but to strangers, i beg to differ the same thing will occur.
and this is where the problem lies.
cos i dun like being not me with people. (in other words, i feel
gao wei)
which is big time boo.
it's really depressing to know everyone is everywhere. :(
the boys are all off to army.
i have zero volleyballers going the same school as me. (that is to say keli, lisi, evelyn, yinlam, mel, xuyuan are all not going to ntu)
cliques are all off to the different school other than vivien. (jiaying, hoiting, cynthia, yanling, keli, rachel)
nobody i know is going into my course other than this 1st three months friend that i havent talk to since then.
slight regrets not appealing into nus biz.
becos i might have a chance since i've been to the interview.
only positive things i can say is:
1. i'm glad vivien is taking half my courses
2. my roomie; yingjie
3. at least i have my 1st 3mths friend in the same course
but still it takes alot of adaptations.
which i'm sooo afraid of. :(
nobody plays volleyball with me anymore.
this is really ultimate depressing.
i mean, i spent my past 6 years playing that very sport and now i'm stopping becos nobody i know is in the team and this is &#^%($!
i think i'm starting to feel so pessimistic abt school. :(
probably 5 years/ 10 years down the road, we are no longer in contact,
but i want to to let all my dearest friends know that i'm glad we crossed path,
and knowing you people is one of the greatest joys in my life.
i wish all of you the best in whatever you do.
but just remember this my dearests:
don't forget; because we once fought hard to come thus far.
the friends we made, the choices we thought through, the obstacles we
conquered, the many more endless mindless details/happenings/events.
just don't forget.
this entry is not sufficient for me to express all i've had to say/express.
but a big thank you to all of you my dearest friends. (:
xoxo,
ang.
