another month gone.
went to lunch today with an old neighbor. was good to see her, tho I am so overwhelmed and over stimulated from our conversation. somewhat angered that she is right, I need to quit the Larmore family. cards facebook attachments etc... so hard on me and I do not know why ?
time is flying by at a snails pace.... probably makes no sense but it is how I feel. I know many wonderful people. I am so very blessed
I am going to come back from this devastation, I AM.
maybe just not here. I am at risk and my being here brings greater risk to those I care about. when he finally gets his way he will go away trouble is there is no way to give him what he wants cuz as soon as he gets what he wants, he wants something else and on and on and on.....till I was out of money. then he was out of love for me too.
looking back at the relationship has been a horror movie for me, not getting any better the closer we get to court date. he once told me that if any one ever "displeased him" he would kill them and drop the body in some very remote places. then we went camping in remote places, some times gives me chills thinking of walks we took and times he "jokingly" pushed me towards the edge of what ever we were over looking..... Yellowstone canyon comes to mind first because a grand child saw him do it........... and my with my brain & balance issues, it tis a wonder he did not get rid of me somewhere along the line, he would have claimed accidental and no one would have been the wiser.....
" so you see Johnnie, I must have every bit as good ( if not better) Angels than you, they kept me alive through you." and they are getting thru after you and after we are finished legally I will finish healing I WILL FINISH HEALING. just when you realize what you have lost. poor you. but then you never really had an attachment so I could be totally wrong and you will happily skip off into the wilds that are the rest of your days. Hopefully our paths NEVER cross again. I do not trust you. I consider you a threat to my very existence, I will keep the restraining order in effect and add it to any in the 50 that I can even if it means I have to approach a judge in each and every one, I will not be left unprotected from you, nor will I rely on any one else for my safety. I will defend myself with deadly force.
I am going back east. just not sure how yet.
need to call attorney tomorrow. seems to me that there are really no answers for me.
I need ?
seriously wonder about the mental health of women from generations of MEN shit
saw something on Facebook that keeps me laughing I will leave you with it:
"I was fucking stupid..........................................................
........................................then we broke up.
went to lunch today with an old neighbor. was good to see her, tho I am so overwhelmed and over stimulated from our conversation. somewhat angered that she is right, I need to quit the Larmore family. cards facebook attachments etc... so hard on me and I do not know why ?
time is flying by at a snails pace.... probably makes no sense but it is how I feel. I know many wonderful people. I am so very blessed
I am going to come back from this devastation, I AM.
maybe just not here. I am at risk and my being here brings greater risk to those I care about. when he finally gets his way he will go away trouble is there is no way to give him what he wants cuz as soon as he gets what he wants, he wants something else and on and on and on.....till I was out of money. then he was out of love for me too.
looking back at the relationship has been a horror movie for me, not getting any better the closer we get to court date. he once told me that if any one ever "displeased him" he would kill them and drop the body in some very remote places. then we went camping in remote places, some times gives me chills thinking of walks we took and times he "jokingly" pushed me towards the edge of what ever we were over looking..... Yellowstone canyon comes to mind first because a grand child saw him do it........... and my with my brain & balance issues, it tis a wonder he did not get rid of me somewhere along the line, he would have claimed accidental and no one would have been the wiser.....
" so you see Johnnie, I must have every bit as good ( if not better) Angels than you, they kept me alive through you." and they are getting thru after you and after we are finished legally I will finish healing I WILL FINISH HEALING. just when you realize what you have lost. poor you. but then you never really had an attachment so I could be totally wrong and you will happily skip off into the wilds that are the rest of your days. Hopefully our paths NEVER cross again. I do not trust you. I consider you a threat to my very existence, I will keep the restraining order in effect and add it to any in the 50 that I can even if it means I have to approach a judge in each and every one, I will not be left unprotected from you, nor will I rely on any one else for my safety. I will defend myself with deadly force.
I am going back east. just not sure how yet.
need to call attorney tomorrow. seems to me that there are really no answers for me.
I need ?
these are recent heritage pages I have done. I look at the woman in some of these photos and good God there is rampant unhappiness
"I was fucking stupid..........................................................
........................................then we broke up.
