I am over not having my own wheels, and about over living with a grown child. got any idea what it is to ask to borrow the kids car ? and to wait for the day you wanted it to arrive before realizing it is a no..... I really hate the things my brain does not understand. I have been trying to be supportive since he broke his arm playing softball, may take more than support.
I am tired of pain. just so that gets said, I have been doing a great job of hiding my levels I think anyway.
some how I still cause trouble.
I think Mr Mr is leaving sooner rather than later and somehow I get the vibe, I no longer have a seat ! oh well seems I may not go to NY after all this year! with the hot flashes I am having I am in no hurry to get to their 95 plus degree stormy weather...tho a grand lightning storm is always thrilling.
xxxx has left town. still owes me 25,000 dollars adding 500 a month to the debt at 12% interest, per court order.....wonder if I will ever see a dime of it. imagine what a difference that could make in my life. all the while knowing the veterans and social security income he had, there was NEVER not enough money in our checking account to pay our bills, it was his CHOICE not to, putting us through bankruptcy, foreclosure, and had my car reposition, after he put shit in the radiator sugar and urine in the gas and I did not pay to find out what substance was in the oil... the garage I took it too let him see the report before me even tho I told them the evidence was going to be used in court, good ole boy network.... turned out to be a mute point seeings they repoed it .....he got away with it, just like he is getting away without paying what the court ordered.
21 years ago today I was with great friends. and I fell in love with a little girl who would become a daughter of my heart....
loss is hard for all of us, family friends beloved pets.....sucks the fun right out of me
It was a Thursday night when you left us, quietly slipping off to the trumpeting angels, you were welcomed into Heaven oh good and faithful servant. I miss you. I did not let myself believe for an instant you would not survive, and yet you yourself texted me on June 3rd. 401 pm "well now we Pray and say ok." and June 7th "Luv U" the 12th you were gone, your way, I am told it was a peaceful passing I sure hope so, you fought an amazing fight, you were a beacon to God. you gave him all the glory for every forward step and you took all the blame for being ill. I was glad to see so many at your service. it made me not want one tho. I feel for the pastor, that was his bad, the food and fellowship fantastic. how hard for me this time tho, I am happy for you no longer in pain....I am okay with my heart and God, just seems you should be here, not me.
I am tired of pain. just so that gets said, I have been doing a great job of hiding my levels I think anyway.
some how I still cause trouble.
I think Mr Mr is leaving sooner rather than later and somehow I get the vibe, I no longer have a seat ! oh well seems I may not go to NY after all this year! with the hot flashes I am having I am in no hurry to get to their 95 plus degree stormy weather...tho a grand lightning storm is always thrilling.
xxxx has left town. still owes me 25,000 dollars adding 500 a month to the debt at 12% interest, per court order.....wonder if I will ever see a dime of it. imagine what a difference that could make in my life. all the while knowing the veterans and social security income he had, there was NEVER not enough money in our checking account to pay our bills, it was his CHOICE not to, putting us through bankruptcy, foreclosure, and had my car reposition, after he put shit in the radiator sugar and urine in the gas and I did not pay to find out what substance was in the oil... the garage I took it too let him see the report before me even tho I told them the evidence was going to be used in court, good ole boy network.... turned out to be a mute point seeings they repoed it .....he got away with it, just like he is getting away without paying what the court ordered.
21 years ago today I was with great friends. and I fell in love with a little girl who would become a daughter of my heart....
loss is hard for all of us, family friends beloved pets.....sucks the fun right out of me
It was a Thursday night when you left us, quietly slipping off to the trumpeting angels, you were welcomed into Heaven oh good and faithful servant. I miss you. I did not let myself believe for an instant you would not survive, and yet you yourself texted me on June 3rd. 401 pm "well now we Pray and say ok." and June 7th "Luv U" the 12th you were gone, your way, I am told it was a peaceful passing I sure hope so, you fought an amazing fight, you were a beacon to God. you gave him all the glory for every forward step and you took all the blame for being ill. I was glad to see so many at your service. it made me not want one tho. I feel for the pastor, that was his bad, the food and fellowship fantastic. how hard for me this time tho, I am happy for you no longer in pain....I am okay with my heart and God, just seems you should be here, not me.
