Study...
I broke my promise.
At the beginning of this semester, I told myself, I must work hard.
And now, I know myself struggling to squeeze all the notes into my brain,
and the exam just few days to go. I didn't work hard as I promised.
I don't know why, I started to feel sleepy whenever my note is in front of me.
Just like they hypnotize me, which I can't manage to fight over them.
So I give away myself. I'm a loser.
Maybe I'm just too afraid to be alone,
I keep live in my own world, with my negatively thinking,
for this study week.
For me, it really become a sleeping week,
like what my mum say.
I want to make it right.
But whenever I put my effort to change it, I sensed difficulty.
Just like I had Angina Pectoris, I sense the pain.
Just like there are something there suppressed my lung or bronchioles,
I can't breathe.
I love what I study now very much.
But this doesn't mean that I can insert all of them into my brain in this short time.
I need time to digest it, n lock it inside my memory.
And I know I'm the one that make it fail, as I waste my time in the past few weeks.
No matter what I say and do now, I can't save what had already past.
What I need now, is the strength, to make me strong enough to get through this.
Its not hard, just I'm not that extraordinary, to make all the knowledges mine.
