LaVenDeR's gaRdEN

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~Never build your own world within other's world. You will be just a little part in his world, and your whole world is just about him.

~We all live in the world full of betrayal, and yet we need to learn how to trust, and to build trust.

~To worry something that you can't change, you're just wasting your own time doing something stupid.

~A guy that loves you will do things that you wish and makes you feel love, even you're not spend time to teach; a guy that doesn't love you will not do anything as you wish, or makes you feel love, even you spent up whole lots of time to teach him!

~When you making a plan for your future, just plan it about yourself and do not include others. As people walks in and out from our life, and the current one may not stay, the future one still yet to show up!

~Fear not to love, and fear not to lose. We learned while love, and gained while lose.

~Feeling nothing not only mean that you can't feel hurt, sad, pain, hate, but you also can't feel love, happiness, and satisfaction. It's a fair trade.

Sick of myself. For being to weak, vulnerable, and fragile. Depending too much on others. And when I said others, it mean that could be anyone. Need to get myself off the trap before I getting too deep till I can't save myself, and start with the hurting and suffering part. It's me I'm saving. Before I literally sink myself into the endless agony.

多看看自己的优点，不要自怨自艾，人也会漂亮些。=)

今日不知明日事，我们都不懂自己有多长的寿命，何时是期限。那为何要让自己难过，折磨自己？折腾自己，难道也不是一种罪恶吗？

女生，女人，要活得漂亮，就得靠自己。依赖别人，就会被他人控制。若你的喜怒哀乐都跟着他走，有些人或许觉得这是浪漫，但从另一个角度看，这就是可悲。自己的人生，为何要受束缚？为何要让别人去操控？

把那胡思乱想的时间，做些有意义的事，学一些艺术，读多写书，让自己增值，这岂不是更有价值？机会从来都是给有准备的人。时时刻刻都让自己活在最好的状态，过自己想过的生活，不用去期待别人。" Without expectation, there will not be disappointment ". 只要我们没有去要求别人、期待别人为我们带来什么，那就不会有失望，只会有惊喜。这样的生活，无忧无虑，把伤害减到最低。

想告诉自己，不要期待，别再等待。我要的生活，我自己给得了自己。不必靠别人，尤其是男人。

My final study week. Final's final exam. Four years just past in a glimpse of an eye. I going to graduate soon. Very soon.
It's just yesterday, I first stepped in the Uni full with strangers, with my mind full of uncertainty, and fears; and now, I'm leaving the place. What I've gained in these four years? Knowledge, ethics, profession, joys, sweet moments, happy memories, sadness, fear, anger, friendship, love, experience, confidence, and of course insights of my future.

Sometimes I tends to focus at the wrong place, put too much attention on wrong things, wrong person, ended up suffering and lost my way. It's 520 today, which in mandarin means "I Love You". Ugh.. Not going to touch this sensitive topic, as it will easily gone wrong, makes me think 'deeply' and quite a lots of stuffs which end up being emotional and gonna cost me my study week. Will not let it happen now. =)

I don't know deep within me, whether there is someone there, hiding inside. Even it does, I will keep on ignore it, and pretend like it never been there. Can't make myself suffer because of my irrational thinking again.

This time, I will not fail myself again. Work hard. I can do this. =)