LaVenDeR's gaRdEN: August 2013

Tuesday, 13 August 2013

All Time Low

I'm not in the good mood recently, I guess. Kinda bad-tempered (or hot-tempered??). Easy got angry because of some little things, feel like scolding or cursing when found something undesirable, or out of my plan. Trying to use my free time wisely, on things that are useful, plan on doing changes, but I just don't know where to start, or is it too lazy?

Not in the mood for blogging. Blank in mind, losing my way, live aimlessly... Feel so. A lots in mind, but I can't voice it out, or express it in words.

I know if I still being the same old me, same old habits, then it will take me nowhere. I never success in anything I wish for. Yet, I just blaming on things, people around me. Responsibilities, that's what I need to learn. Self-dependent, perseverance, never give up, work hard, and strike. It's easy to say than carry it out. That's why I always using my mouth instead of my body.

He must be so disappointed, because I'm not like him. He is my role model, he is my idol, but I'm nothing like him. Not even close. Feel sad for myself.

We Don't Want To Tell Our Dreams.

We Want To Show Them.

by Cristiano Ronaldo

Friday, 2 August 2013

August

It's such a long time since my last update. A month ago.

Finally, I'd done with my hospital training. Done my Uni life.
Just working as part timer in pharmacy, part timer insurance agent, and preparing myself for hospital. After the training, I knew how challenging the PRP life will be, the workload, the assessment, and so on. It's not going to be easy, but it's good to go through the difficult part first.

Heard that HPP is a 'Hell' for pharmacist, yet I wish to get there. It might be tough, but also will be a good chance for me to learn. Grow up using the hard way!

What is the feeling? The feeling of love? In love? Being love? Can't recognize it, and can't differentiate it anymore. Or is it I never learn of them before? Hah! I just confusing myself. Always misunderstand what others' trying to convey, and misinterpret others' action.

Sleepy. It had been a long day. I hope I'll get good return from the effort I put today. =D

“Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore.”
― Lady Gaga

I don't know how true is this. But, I will hold on to this. To keep myself as whole, to live my life with aim.