Tuesday, 6 November 2018

Der Erste.

Hallo, ich bin Lynice und heute ist mein erste blogpost auf Deutsch schreiben.
Ich habe die Idee vor Monaten schon, aber ich war sehr faul. Endlich ich bin hier jetzt, schreiben.

Es ist schon Sechs Monaten seit ich zurück aus Deutschland bin. Das letzte mal, dass ich meinen Deutschkurs besucht habe, war vor fast anderthalb Jahren. Ich vermisse diese Zeit so sehr. Meine Lehrerin, meine Freundinen und der Kurs. Alles war ziemlich perfekt.

Die Zeit vergeht und Menschen verändern sich. Nichts ist gleich. Ich lasse einige Leute aus meinem Leben raus, und lasse andere hineingehen.

Ich hoffe alles gut bei meiner Lehrerin und Freundin von MGS. Ich weiß nicht, dass wann ich sie kann wieder treffen. Vielleicht nicht so bald?

Die deutsche Sprache ist sehr interessant und auch eine sehr schwierige Sprache.

😊

Mach es einfach.

Endlich habe ich es gemacht! Heute morgen hatte ich Metadonschicht. Danach traf ich mich mit meinen Freunden und wir frühstückten zusammen in einem Cafe.

Später ist es Zeit zum Einkaufen! Ich ging mit einer Freundin zum Queensbay Mall. Der erste Halt war Regius Tea! Das milktea ist sehr toll!!! Ich mag es so sehr! Nach dem befriedigenden Getränk, unsere einkaufszeit beginnt.

Nach einigen Stunden, ich habe drei paar Kontaktlinsen, ein Kleid und etwas Lebensmittel gekauft. >.<

Dann gingen wir vor dem späten Mittagessen zum Schneider.

Ich sollte Yoga machen, aber ich habe es in letzter Minute fallen gelassen. Ich folgte meine Schwester zum Tattoo machen, und dort habe ich mein Bauchnabelpiercing gemacht! Ich war sehr aufgeregt im Moment! Ich kann nicht glauben, dass ich es endlich geschafft habe. Ich bin so stolz  auf meine Spontanetät!

Hier ist der Beweis , das Foto von mir.

Das Bauchnabelpiercing!

Ich kann es kaum erwarten, meinen Bikini und Urlaub! 
Natürlich die wichtigste Person... mein Freund!! 

Ich vermisse Dich so sehr! 

Ich habe Dich ganz doll lieb! 


Wednesday, 26 September 2018

An unpleasant short escape xxx

I am always a healthy baby (other than my sinusitis and vomiting syndrome), never really thought I will have this experience on my birthday month. Sign of getting older? T.T

Saturday night after a long day of work, as usual my weekend finally begin! We planned to watch 'The Nun' so Gurney Plaza was our place of choice. Although the mall is full with various types of cuisines, overwhelming choices don't help me to make a decision. After touring through a few restaurants, we ended up ourselves in front of 'liu ding xuan'. Before that, I knew my tummy was complaining with a the noise made and taste of jealousy all over my tummy. However, it faded after some time. So I didn't really pay attention on that and still eyeing on some super spicy and oily ramen. Everything was just good and we enjoyed the movie as well. (Prefer 'the conjuring' though) We even planned to go for shopping for the next day before we call it a night.

The next morning at 5am, I woke up with discomforting feeling in my tummy. Something doesn't feel right. After spending half day only sleeping on bed, my body aching worsen, anything I ingested got expelled from tummy right after, even plain water. The feeling of bloating and nauseating caught me off guard and I just couldn't take it anymore. It's unlike the usual ritual, where after I vomited everything is good again.

Went to the hospital that night. Doctor from the emergency dept. asked me to admit right after examined me, as I was pretty dried up. Dehydrated. This was the first time I got admitted in hospital as I walked down my memory lane. New stage unlocked. Experience gained. ✅

My short escape in the hospital began. Blood pressure checked, systolic below 100 and diastolic below 70, with pulse rate more than 100. Never have that before. Low grade fever but I didn't feel feverish. My sister had to remind the nurse that doctor from emergency ordered the injections to be done in ward. Couldn't believe they were not aware.

Inj. Nexium, Maxolon, Scopan were given. Drip on. Smecta as well. As I didn't prepare for admission, I didn't bring all the cups and clothes with me. When I asked how should I take the medication as the granules has to be mixed with water, the nurse told they can give me jug and cup, but they are chargeable. (So that's mean if I not willing to pay for that, I don't get to take medicine as I don't own a cup? Ridiculous!) The nurse asked me to calculate my fluid intake as well. If I get my normal cup with me, how on the earth am I able to calculate the water I drank? By my naked eyes? Luckily another young nurse said she will borrow me a measuring cup, and that's it I used it till I discharged from the ward.

Back to the injections part. When the injection was given, I could feel something flowing in my blood, with it came the uneasiness. I couldn't get a good position for me to lie or sleep, everything just not right. At the moment I almost regret why I came to hospital, I asked for it myself. 😭

Everything seemed better next day, no more vomiting. Doctor came and I told recently the bloating problem concerned me quite frequent. An OG scope and Ultrasound were ordered. The procedures will be carried out in the morning next day. Fasting for at least 8 hours before. I was in the dilemma of having that checked as I worried about that so much all the while, but I'm afraid of the procedures as well. Typical coward. However, the doctor made a decision and I just get to play along.

Boring day in the ward. Don't really know what to do, and don't feel comfortable of doing anything with the branula and drips. Blood pressure, temperature and pulse back to normal. I can't wait for this short vacation to end.

Early in the morning, I was woke by the nurse and prep me for the procedure. Another level of loner checked! ✅Signed for the procedure myself, prep myself, go for it alone with no one around waiting. Proud of myself on this. XD First timer for anesthesia experience. The surrounding became blur when the injection flowing into my blood, and total blacked out after just at most 3 seconds. The next thing when I opened up my eyes and back to consciousness, I was lying on my bed in the ward, doctor and nurses standing in front of my bed and explaining to me the result of the scope done. Impressive. It's a total blackout that I don't have the memory for that short period.

Result from the scope : Esophagitis, retained food after 12 hours fasting ( not suppose to be)
Advice from the doctor: Eat less more frequent, Eat slowly and steadily, chew before swallow. No stimulating food allowed, which will trigger my gastric region again.

Although the bloating sensation somehow hasn't disappeared wholly, but I decided to checked out from the hotel.

The conclusion from my short escape,
= the service in this hotel is not really great, a bit disappointing indeed.
= take care of your health, it's important, you wouldn't like to have all the needles and medications.
= learn to rest your body. Do just enough, don't overdo it.
= body system getting slow and rust when you get older. That's real life.
= it's better to not waste food. But never compromise your health and finish whatever you couldn't.
= listen to your body, not only the brain. The brain always tell us when we have to eat, but the decision is with the stomach. Let it tells, instead of the brain.

After this valuable and short escape in hospital, I've learnt to eat healthy and right way to eat. Don't based on culture and society but on needs. Exercise is another important part as well. If we don't burn, it going to stay!

Sunday, 19 August 2018

A reminder for [ME].

Stop thinking, start doing.

Make sure your capability is able to catch up with your ambitiousness.
Always want to be the unique one yet didn't put in effort to become one, you will end up disappoints yourself and live in sorrow. Blaming others are not the solution, same as envy at others.

Make yourself proud and make your loved one proud of you.
You are what you want.
You can do it.

Complaining will never makes thing better. It only may create temporary self satisfaction when you start to complain. Problem never solves and time still going on.

At the end of the day, you get nothing. Nothing is done and nothing is undone.

Live for yourself. Stop looking at others.
Stop the over-thinking and worrying. Focus on doing even it is just a small step now.
We make things happen with our strength, belief and effort.

We fight for our future.

NEVER LET YOUR FEAR DECIDE YOUR FUTURE.
YOUR FUTURE IS AS BRIGHT AS YOUR FAITH.

Together.

Tuesday, 10 April 2018

Dream dream dream

Deep within, you know you are not good enough.
However, it is still feels so hurt when someone else told you so. You are such a loser.

I don't know how i should improve. My living aim, my busy life, the time i spent, the money i earned, what are the meaning behind all these?

Always remind myself to focus, yet I keep failing to do so. Am I that bad? Probably yes.

A dream will stay as a dream. If you are incompetent, why are you keep on dreaming?

Sunday, 1 April 2018

Being ... for quite some time.

Being inactive here for quite some time. Finally I'm back, on today, April Fool day!

Being in this state for quite some time. Stagnant phase. Looking for a chance yet too afraid to take the first step. I was a coward. Am I still the same coward?

Being puzzled after have been asked for the same question for quite some time. Are you leaving? I know exactly I want to leave. Yet, I have to make sure everything work out. However, rumors spread like wildfire. In a glimpse, everyone know about it. I regretted that I told someone. Or I gave a hint. Now, I have to bear the consequences.

Being worried since I am overwhelmed with uncertainties for quite some time. Whether able to leave, whether able to get a place in University, whether able to settle everything on time, whether I am brave enough to execute plan B and etc. I am not an adventurous person, yet I don't want to give up this chance to explore rather than remain.

Being comfortable in my comfort zone for quite some time. Till I am reluctant to walk out from it, though I have many plans to do. Staying in my small little comfort zone while watching others carried out their plans successfully, exploring the world, did what I want to do. Envied of others, yet still too afraid to leave. It's same as holding on a man that doesn't love you, because you're too afraid of the world without him, and worried you won't meet anyone after him. One main thing you might overlook, thing always has two faces. You too focus on the bad till you forgot about the good side. Someone better probably waiting for you just behind the door but you're too afraid to walk out from the room. Uncertainties aren't always bad. Instead, uncertainties always bring good. Probably you'll only recognize the good side after some time.

Being alone for quite some time. I hope I still remember how to love and able to bring love for the one. Sincerely wish I am capable to love and feel love after all the drama and bad experiences and testimonials as well. Do you feel my love?