we should be sitting in the airport right now. waiting to fly home. but we aren't.
and that isn't the plan anymore.
we were hoping to get news of a court date today. but we didn't.
clearly, god has other plans and we are thankful that he is the author of this story.
i will be honest. it has been a hard day...hard without any news...the kids had a hard day too {almost as if they knew we weren't going home}
yesterday, i was talking to o-boy and asking him if he missed home. you know what he said??
"don't talk about it momma." i pushed a little more and he said it again, "MOMma, don't TALK about it!" i then asked him if it made him sad....he answered the way any little boy would after being away from home for over 6 weeks. with the sadest look on his face, he just nodded and i knew we were done talking about it. my eyes welled up and we were on to something else.
the past 6 weeks have probably been the hardest weeks of my life. seriously. we are tired. worn out. our kids are tired and even more worn out than we are {if that is possible:)}.
but this is not the end. there is one verse that keeps running through my head. day after day. after day after day. and it is this ::
The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still. [ex 14:14]
the lord is fighting and we WILL {continue} to be still. because this is where HE has us. THIS is where he wants us RIGHT now. i posted a quote last september that encouraged me then and it still does now. especially now...read on {note what i wrote after the quote.....}
**remember this: God may not do what you want, but He will do what is right ... and best. He's the Father of forward motion. trust Him. He will get you home. and the trials of the trip will be lost in the joys of the feast.** {max lucado}
oh and can someone please remind me of these truths when i am in country. and as we are waiting to travel. and when i am home. and. ... and .... and ... for the rest of my life.............thanks:)
a few days ago, a dear friend sent a note of encouragement and in it, were my own words from that september day...
god knew that i needed that sweet word then and now. as for tonight, we are praising Him because HE IS the father of forward motion. AND HE will get us home {sometime;)}
so for now...we will be "still" in africa and wait expectantly for what is to come...even if it isn't on our own time.
