Shore Mission

I’m officially a farm girl. Well, maybe not quite. Do others believe I am? It is quite apparent they do not because today, two days after arrival, seeing that I have no jet lag they put this city girl in a car to visit the coast. We are on our way to Forster (pronounced foster in Aussie-speak), a coastal town in the Mid North Coast region of New South Wales, on country of the Worimi People, Australia. 

But first, we shall stop in Gloucester (pronounced gloster in Aussie-speak) which is the town closest to the farm to do some op shopping (op shop = thrift store). I once had a collectible booth in an antique mall and got great satisfaction from treasure hunting for things at estate sales and thrift shops. Some items I repurposed and refurbished, some remained as is; all gave me joy. So I’m excited. This nation country opens itself to discovery. 

The first op shop we hit is Reviva which is also a recycling center. It’s airy and clean and it immediately becomes a favorite of mine when it presents me with things that remind me of my mom. I find and buy a French press that is dusty but new and jump up and down (in my head) for good coffee is something I don’t want to go without. I also love their tagline “we turn second-hand into second chances”. I think I may apply this to people. 

The French press. Many a good cup of coffee in my future to start my mornings right.

My mom always had a little container, exactly like this one, handy (hers was red) for her lipstick, which was the only make-up my dad ever allowed her to wear.

Next we go into Lifeline. Already I like them due to the name and when I find out that they help to financially support local centers, counseling services, telephone crisis support training and suicide prevention programs, I add them to my “immediately like” and will support list. 

On to Forster after our thrift shop morning. There are “rock pools” all over the coast. Some are natural pools of seawater that form on the rocky intertidal shore and others, often referred as ocean baths, are man-made seawater pools. The one pictured is being repaired. It’s drizzling so I wouldn’t go in even if it wasn’t fenced.

As we go further on we stop at the at a lookout in Pebbly Beach and are greeted by what I am sure is a turkey. It comes as a reminder that Thanksgiving in the U.S. is soon and that this one is probably counting its blessing that he/she does not reside there, where probably it would not see another day. But no, though it resembles one, this one is not even closely related to the American turkey. Its an Australian brushturkey or gweela, a species native to Australia. It’s a clumsy flyer that flies only when threatened or when it roosts in trees at night. 

Before I realize that this is actually a tomb (or not?) I read something that could easily apply to my home town: “Have you ever seen the untamed beauty each time a wave breaks in the ocean. Have you ever felt the coolness of the water as the sun breaks crystallizing the entire ocean. The lip crashes on your shoulder forcing you deeper into the hollow tube. The beauty of life is the personal sensation. This area here is one of nature’s great beauties”. Good for you Robyn Anne Hughes who, born on a familiar year, died at the young age of 24 for eliciting this dedication: “It’s not the quantity of life but the quality. This lady had quality. A beauty as natural as this area, her resting place.” 

Don’t quite know what these locks are for or symbolize since there is no engraving on them. 

I’m still awake and definitely enjoying the view. 

To bid us goodbye, magpies come around. They make me smile. I once was called that. The Australian Magpie is well known for its beautiful vocalizations, and its species name derives from the Latin for “flute player”. My voice is loud but not beautiful. I wonder why I was nicknamed that. 

It’s a mystery to me where I will be next. Chilling at the farm or discovering new land?

Come along; let’s find out together!

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Bucca Wauka?

And off we go! To what or where I still am not fully cognizant of. Neither am I fully aware that I am in Australia. What I am feeling is the warmth of a friend’s welcoming embrace… and of the outside. It’s almost summer here though the sun and the temperature are screaming that the “almost” does not apply. It is “only” about 90° F (about 32° Celsius for the rest of the world). Desert hot, if it weren’t for the humidity being 89%. I don’t mind. After an almost 19-hour journey I have arrived. I left on the 17th and arrive on the 19th, losing a day of my life. Does that make me a day younger? Oops, no, it makes me a day older. Oh well. 

We take a  bus to where the car is. And now we really are on our way. I stopped wondering to where, just happy to be in Australia. Just in case I didn’t know where I was I see the famed and iconic Sydney Harbour Bridge. To the side is the Opera House which I barely got a glance of. Excited to know we are crossing it. Hope to do it on foot as well (like the Brooklyn Bridge walk). 

We have a 4-hour drive home so to break it up a bit we stop at a supermarket where I stock up on items I eat and get disgusted by the sight of Vegemite jars and tubes all over. The spread is made of leftover brewer’s yeast extract, blended with salt, malt extract, and vegetable extracts like celery and onion. It is also fortified with B vitamins, including niacin, thiamin, riboflavin, and folic acid. No amount of fortification will make this thing palatable though. My apologies to Australians but Vegemite is utterly disgusting. 

I also get a reminder of my friend Kitty. This mug, at $13 USD is quite expensive though. Perhaps an indication of what’s to come.

When we arrive at the farm it is pitch black. We go over to Dean’s sister’s house to say hello to her, her boyfriend Mark, and their dad, Dennis. It is a brief visit because I think I am definitely ready to close my tired eyes in spite of my brief adrenaline surge. I made it awake to 11 pm. It is said that to avoid jet lag you must adjust to the time zone immediately. Hopefully I won’t feel jet lagged tomorrow. 

I wake up at my usual time of 7:00 am to the sight of trees and a look of my closest new neighbor, a horse that I later find out was outcast into his own paddock near the cabin because he bullies the other horses on the farm. There are 7 horses on the property. Simone competes on an obstacle course on Belle a white horse. Mark competes wrangling cows on Jeffrey.

I am to be formerly introduced to them later on. I first go to get acquainted with the dogs. There’s Sally, a feisty lovable little girl (a miniature fox terrier). She’s the queen of the castle. Definitely the boss. She puts Starsky and Hutch in their place. They are kelpies, working herding dogs. The work part is not their thing though. We fetch them to go walk around the farm since today will be my day to adjust to the time change and get familiar with my surroundings. The dogs are certainly in their element. Hutch diving into a pool of water that makes him quite wet. I try to stay away but fail as he kindly showers me with a good shake. There’s also a black kelpie that goes to work with Mark every day. They are all so lovable.

Flowers in full bloom brighten my day. Olive trees remind me of travel to Israel and where I saw fields of them. When Simone bought this lot it was full of them I hear. There are trees everywhere each beautiful in its own way. Like us humans I would guess. Doesn’t everybody have at least one redeeming quality?

It’s been such a relaxing, calming, day. Surprisingly I, the city girl, am absolutely comfortable and in my element. The day has been sunny but all of a sudden the wind picks up and the rain falls. Did I bring the rain with me or is this Bucca Wauka’s way of complaining of having one more inhabitant? (I can’t stop giggling even when I write the name).

And as the rain falls -softly at first, quite brutally next- with the winds picking up, I hear Mark on the tractor spreading fertilizer pellets so the horses can have more healthy grass to feed on. Yep, I’m on a farm alright.

Come with me next for a day in town and on the shore.

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Where to Now?

My life has been shaped by goodbyes. Though I don’t like parting, it opens the door to discovery and the sweetness of hellos. I am trying hard to not let myself feel the ache of the one I am about to face, for it is only temporary. I am leaving the town that has been home to many triumphs, a good amount of disappointments, of myself and others, but one of the few cities I have really felt as home. One that I have marveled at and been frustrated by.

So how do I bid farewell to Los Angeles? The first thing that comes to mind when mentioning La La Land (the affectionate nickname of my city) is Hollywood. It is where I forged my career and it is where I am headed to say au revoir. I have surfed the tides of the entertainment business for a while, so I find it apropos to walk Hollywood Boulevard for that purpose.

Grauman’s Chinese Theater
where stars had their shoes and hands embedded.
1958 is a year I’m kind of fond of…
and this is where the first stars were set.

Since I am a bit hesitant of this 3-month trip, I have been stress eating non-stop; until I get on the plane I do not foresee an end to it (I initially hoped to curtail insatiable appetite by stopping at my bank and having a cup of coffee) but go on to eating a pizza and fried cheese and to top it off, dive into an overpriced sundae.

I have made my farewell. In response, my city cries. Rain is unusual here but we had been warned that a storm was coming and surprisingly it has been raining softly for 3 days and when I head to the airport it is coming down hard.

I love airports and when I approach The Bradley International Terminal B, my little heart is pumping hard with excitement. I haven’t left the country in a year and a half which is an inordinately long time for me. I am ready.

I am in a full on international mode so when I approach my gate and see a Spanish tapas bar/restaurant I am drawn towards it knowing full well it will not be the best or satisfy my palate. I order a vermouth and buñuelos. The vermouth is listed as an Aperol and the buñuelos were ham and cheese. $31 USD later, I fail to be reminded of my time in Spain. This has provided me, nonetheless, with two wonderful conversations with fellow travelers.

I’m flying an airline I have never flown before, Fiji Airways to Sydney. Stopping in Nadi, Fiji. I have warned my friend Dean, who is coming to pick me up, that should I not show up he could find me lazing on the beach in Fiji, an island that I have wanted to visit for quite a while now. But of course I will not. Or will I?

I am advised at the counter that the flight to Nadi (11 hours) is 97% booked. In plain English, “Ma’am, there is no way you will be able to relax/sleep on this flight.” But the gods (or/and my Orisha, Yemayá) are in my corner. As I go up the narrow aisle to my seat, the passenger in the aisle seat in my row, swoops my carry-on up and blocks everyone entering so I can go to my window seat calmly.

They close the aircraft door and there is no one between us! They look at me and say that they’ll be back to bring my carry on back down but they are going to sit next to their cousin. They are part of 25 people on this plane headed to a Samoan family reunion. They are so joyful. What a good vibe it is. Better yet, my row has just turned into a first class bed!

I’m also loving that Fiji Airways is replacing items like plastic cutlery and cups with sustainable options and has started a program to recycle plastic water bottles that are brought back to Fiji for recycling, rather than being incinerated. 

We are served a snack (it’s about midnight by now) the pizza being even less appetizing than how it looks in this very bad photo. Surprise… Fiji water is actually from Fiji!

The pilot wakes me up 9 hours later, announcing that we are only 2 hours away from landing in Nadi. I get breakfast with horrible pancakes. Only the fruit is tolerable. And before I know it we are in Nadi!

The sky mesmerizes me. It is so very spectacular I can’t keep my eyes off of it. Unfortunately these photos don’t do it justice. I have seen many sunsets and sundowns from planes but this, this one leaves me breathless.

I go through security to go into the airport even when in transit. The Nadi airport is as small and clean as I expected though not as quaint as I would have wanted. Everyone in it, however, is so incredibly nice and helpful. Even at Burger King where I wolf down an $8 USD hamburger and a Coke. Don’t judge, I didn’t eat much on the plane. There’s definitely island vibes all around. What do you think… should I stay?

Before going onto my next flight I go through Australian security. This time I am not so lucky and sit on the aisle seat in the middle row. There’s a young couple, a Canadian and a Colombian, sitting next to me. They are adorable and we become travel pals.

Five hours later (which frankly, felt longer than my 11-hour initial flight) I am picking up my suitcase which was the first one to come out, going through Australian customs in about 10-minutes flat, getting some coffee at the café, chatting with an Aussie guy that had just come back from 5 months in Vietnam, all while I wait for my friend to pick me up. And only a bit later, Tutu, my koala local guide, is staring at me and ready to give me the welcoming tour!

There is so much to come. Bucca Wauka awaits. Come with me!

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Horror and Friendship: An Interview

I had seen all the movies at my local AMC except one in the horror genre: Talk to Me. It’s a genre that I had learned to appreciate through a friend that was a dire-hard fan. Then, thanks to another friend, I was selected (partially due to my knowledge -or assumed knowledge- of most aspects of film, to form part of the panel of judges of Montevideo Fantástico the first Uruguayan film festival dedicated to promoting national and international film productions related to horror, fantasy and science fiction genres. For these reasons, as far as I am concerned, horror and friendship are interconnected.

I often ponder on the “whys” of things. I became an actor lured by the possibility of escaping to inhabit other lives, becoming someone else, and revealing them to others, but it was my first and main land at the time only ove. Others work parallelly, sometimes in unison, on diametrically opposite endeavors, loves, or careers. This led me to my friend Marcelo Fabani, who is a recognized and successful architect, yet has delved into the horror genre as as a producer, writer, director -and more- with a passion worthy of note.

Do you find a connection between Architecture and the Horror genre in cinema? His answer surprised me and made me want to know more about his journey into horror.

“I consider the German expressionist film The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari as the most tangible example of the relationship between an artistic movement and cinema. The distorted interpretation of reality as a premise, had its materialization in architectural spaces as well.
One can also find numerous spaces designed for everyday use such as housing, exploited in their claustrophobic facet or power over the person, such as the Overlook Hotel in the film “The Shining”

Did your love for the genre come before or after you becoming an architect?

“Horror is the genre that I have seen first in my life because when I was 4 or 5 years old, the series “Dark Shadows” was shown in Uruguay and despite the fear that Barnabas Collins transmitted to me, I was fascinated by all its gothic environment and climate.”

How did you get involved in films?

“My only academic background in film is in Screenwriting. I graduated from the Uruguayan Film School. I decided to go from a story I had written, to filming the script I had turned into a story called “Omnibus 48″. That was the first story I filmed.”

Film in any genre is not an easy field to tackle or to stand out in. What obstacles did you find along the way and how did you overcome them?

“The main obstacle was, and still is, learning and mastering the technique in all its aspects. I had to apply myself to my own cinematography course, which is both fascinating and eternal. There are always aspects to learn, study, understand, master and apply. But at my own pace and that is why I use my own productions as test elements.”

How did the “internationalization” of your efforts come about?

“Mainly through internet platforms for film festivals. Additionally, I had the honor of being invited to participate in exhibitions and to be part of short story anthologies in the United States of America and Argentina.”

What was the reasoning you used to choose the festivals to enter?

“Although I have paid to enter some of them, the idea is to submit to free entry festivals. The reason is that in that state of participation, there is no bond or favoritism when it comes to being selected. It is your production that speaks for you and not your money. Additional criteria, was to visualize the previous editions and to understand whether the spirit of the festival favored form or content. I preferred to submit to those that privileged the story over the production budget.”

Marcelo Fabani, the filmmaker, has the goal that by 2025 he will produce a feature film. His main goal, he says, is to express himself with greater strength and give his point of view on the times that we have been given to live in. Based on his past efforts (his short films have won numerous awards worldwide), I have no doubt that whatever goal he has, he will see it to fruition.

Lastly, the film industry is one that erodes relationships. Yet your wife, Silvia Bruno, has been an intrinsic part of your participation and evolution in film. Was it at your request or by mutual decision?

My wife has always supported me when it was necessary to fulfill a commitment. And she did it in such a wonderful way, that she surprised herself when the story she starred in won awards and prizes in Spain and the United States. Her participation was a product of her greatness, of what she considers should be an unrestricted support in a couple, a concept that we share and have fully practiced in our 20 years together.

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Feijão Dreams

The first definition of food in Merriam-Webster’s online dictionary is: “a: material consisting essentially of protein, carbohydrate, and fat used in the body of an organism to sustain growth, repair, and vital processes and to furnish energy” Can it be even more than that? I believe that it makes life, which it essentially provides, worthwhile. It is a conduit to bonding with people and understanding their culture. I’m Latina, and in my culture, it is also an expression of love. Sharing a meal with people makes me feel at home wherever I am. Food is one of the essential elements in and a reason for my travels. So, it’s no surprise that I also dream of it, and it is what wakes me one morning with a sudden pang of saudade, a Portuguese word whose definition includes longing, melancholy, and nostalgia.

The origin of the feijoada, Brazil’s national dish, and the comfort food I have been dreaming of is debated. Some believe that it was the slaves that created this stew-like concoction with the leftover, unwanted cuts of meat from their masters, adding what I assume was readily available beans. Others that it originated with the colonizers from Portugal.

The image of steam rising from a bowl of black beans in a clay casserole with bobbing beef ribs, pork belly, pork feet, and linguiça (Brazilian sausage) entwined in a unique dance as the serving ladle digs in, was engraved in my mind as I slept, and it remained there even when my eyes were wide open. When saudade invades, I usually jump on the next plane, destination to anywhere where I can squash the feeling and satisfy my palate as well as nurture my soul. But doing so is not always feasible and my schedule does not presently allow it, so I try to brush the image aside. Yet it becomes more vivid, now infused with a distinct herbal aroma -predominantly of bay leaves, cumin, onions, and garlic.

Feijoada (name coming from feijão -beans in Portuguese) is usually served on Wednesdays or Saturdays in Brazil. Restaurants in the States usually serve it on the weekend. It’s Tuesday in New York but I trust I will find, in this city that has it all, somewhere to satisfy my ever-pressing desire to travel even if in a metaphorical sense and taste the flavors of my youth. The first restaurant that comes up in my search has the name of a beach –Ipanema– the one that I would walk to with a family friend (click here if you want more info on the beach) while my mother stayed at home continuing the making of the feijoada which she started prepping for the day before. The dish would provide us with the energy that the sun and sea would drain us of and would be the reason for the gathering around my parent’s dining table, of any person that did not have family to be with on the weekend. I call the restaurant and ask if they serve feijoada today. They do. That’s all I need to hear and off I go.

Ipanema, the restaurant, has soft, welcoming lighting. Brazilian bossa nova plays soothingly on speakers. It’s cozy but all I truly care about is the feijoada that I dreamt of and came for.

I sit and order a guaraná, what I consider the original energy drink. And the journey back in time starts. At the first sweet sip I remember how my mom allowed me to have a soda only once a week before the Saturday feeding feast. No sodas at any other time. The waitress talks to me in Portuguese which I am fluent in, and it further transports me back to the days that I could count my age on the fingers of my hand.

My order arrives. The main part of it comes in a clay pot just like my mom served it. I place a large spoonful of white rice on my plate to be topped by a spoonful of the black beans. As I submerge my serving spoon in, up come pieces of beef, meat on bone, and pork. Next on my plate go the collard greens and the farofa (made of toasted cassava/yuca flour). And what may seem odd to many, a slice of orange that is meant to be eaten to aid in the digestion of this very heavy meal. I stare at my plate and put a little bit of it all in my mouth. The finale comes in an artful shape and incredible taste.

The place is on the dark side, so I close my eyes to fully identify the individual flavors. I continue being transported to where no plane can take me. I can hear the adults discussing current events which I don’t fully understand yet, the sound of utensils against the plates, music in the background, the sound of crashing waves a bit further off, and my mother’s soft voice offering a second serving as she manages to fill my plate while surrounding me with her arms at the same time.

I open my eyes to serve myself again and I see a man in a white coat, the chef, standing by my table asking if I am enjoying my meal. He’s Brazilian, I think he said from Rio, French-trained. As much as I love French food, I thank him for not altering the original recipe, making the feijoada the way I remember my mom made it (though there are variations depending on the region). I refrain from thanking him for this trip back in time he aided me in taking, though I do tell him my belief that food unites as well as delight. He believes it so as well.

As promised a while back, I am ending this blog with a video/song that either I love or find fits the theme well. This one does both…

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Studio 54 Doors Bring Pictures From Home

The only connection of Studio 54, the disco nightclub that opened in the late seventies, and the Broadway theater it now houses are the doors, and the building of course, and a disco ball which I managed not to spot. And my brain which now regresses to my disco dancing days in New York City (Manhattan).

But I’m thrust into present time when my purse is searched and I pass through a metal detector to enter the theater. I’m already entertained with the architectural details.

I’m here to see Pictures From Home by Sharr White with Nathan Lane. I know nothing about the play, nothing about the photographer, Larry Sultan, whose project of photographing and exploring his parents’ life the play is based on. But I am a fan of Nathan Lane, and this is his 25th Broadway play.

I bought my tickets on Today Tix, an app that allows you to get Rush (day of) Tickets at a deeply discounted price. I expect a really crappy (excuse the highly technical adjective) seat, yet it ends up being in the Loge with an unobstructed, wonderful view. I’m lucky enough that the next three seats adjacent to mine are empty so I can maintain a distance from fellow seat neighbor and cross my legs. When handed my Playbill I am told that the play is 1 hour and 50 minutes long with no intermission. I’m already impressed. Only three actors, mostly on stage at the same time… that’s a heck of a lot of memorizing to do.

As I read Sharr White’s words: “This play is my exploration of Larry’s exploration. But take one further step with me: it also represents these extraordinary actors, along with our director, interpreting that exploration: Larry’s pictures, his parents’ images, this play, all further interpreted by you.” I, the analyzer, the one that delves deep into what seems simple things and actions, am already hooked.

And the lights dim and people are silenced and it all begins. I’m unprepared to give a truly educated review of what happened on stage even when this is my world, or was. Yet I will do so, in the same manner as I “rate” wine. Did my palate enjoy it? Does it have any undertones? Do I want another sip? And the answer to all is yes. Oh yes.

The actors were absolutely superb. Aside from Nathan Lane, Danny Burstein was perfect in his portrayal of his father, simple in his way, more complex than the character would ever think of himself, Zoë Wanamaker, so perfect in her role that even a small glitch in the lines suited the character. I was drawn in, immersed in the life of a grown, successful man digging through his lens and his actions into his parents’ day to day life and past. I was going through my dad’s 8mm films once and they revealed so much. Wish I had my parents alive then to further confirm what I sensed. How lucky for this photographer that he had the opportunity to talk, even quarrel with them, and just delve into their beings when they were still alive. Perhaps finding himself along the way. Creating with his staged photos a reality. Truth or fiction. The photos are masterful either way. His angst is noticeable in the pursuit of his never ending project. I left the theater having been a part of that family. I was moved. I also laughed, maybe a bit awkwardly, because some things hit a bit close to home. And thankful, grateful that witnessing it impulsed me to write again, an activity that I love almost as much as acting.

I leave my happy place, the theater (second only to when I am on a film set doing my thing) and am reminded of another life when, as I cross the street, the SAG/AFTRA Foundation building is lit up. Robin Williams’ name is spotted as well on a building. His name always brings a second of sadness to me. I’m on 54th Street and need to get back to Penn Station on 33rd Street to take the LIRR (Long Island Railroad) back to where I live. I was going to grab an Uber but I decide to walk back experiencing this city that never sleeps. All lights are on. Eighth Ave. is crowded at 10 pm, New Yorkers walking fast and purposely and tourists of all nationalities slowly absorbing the vibe Manhattan gives off. I pass many bars and only then do I regret not being with someone to share a drink and thoughts. Then I pass a hotel and the feeling passes for it reminds me that in the anonymity of a hotel and the solitude a room provides when traveling I do not feel alone. I pass crazies, and homeless people (one giving a dollar to another), cops, and dogs being walked and I bask in memories of my life here. New York, Manhattan in particular, energizes me, yet it also crushes me, steps on me, leaves me with no breath and resuscitates me. I don’t believe any other city can elicit so much in such a brief span of time.

I’ve reached my destination just in time to jump into my train and depart. It’s been a good day.

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Hank: Play Time in NYC

When I moved permanently to New York (Manhattan in particular) many a years ago, my soon-to-be-husband warned me that I would love it for a bit and hate it for all time there in… he was wrong. I loved every year of the 13 or 14 I lived in it. But the weather and a new love separated us. I learned to love and consider home another city on the other side of the country. However, NYC was forever in my heart.

Where I lived long time ago.

Now, some 25 years later friendship and other circumstances have brought me back. Yet, NYC can be isolating, cruelly so. Making you feel more alone than you really are. I’m not in Manhattan but the city has a magnetic appeal that I have to be part of. I must satisfy my fix as often as possible. So I joined a newly formed community of 55+ vibrant people to explore the city with: www.gethank.com

My second experience with them would be to visit the Museum at Eldridge Street housed in the Eldridge Street Synagogue. I’m not Jewish but I am an admirer of architecture and love discovering new things so how can I not visit a synagogue that was built in 1887 and now registered as a National Historic Landmark?

I take the LIRR (Long Island Railroad) to Penn Station in Manhattan and from there I venture into the subway. Take the B train to Grand St. and as I emerge I am in the middle of a thriving and chaotic Lower East Side, Chinatown. I am early as usual so I walk around.

Still early for the private tour with the Hank people but it is terribly hot so I head back to where I passed a Buddhist temple with chanting going on and a place for me to sit.

I sit at the entrance enchanted and mesmerized by the cadence of the chant but the heat is even less bearable than outside so I head over -only a few steps away- to the synagogue. Outside, a man with a t-shirt with a saying that I believe was there just as a reminder for me. 🙂 I may be doing the Camino de Santiago de Compostela so it was quite fitting. “Life is a journey, enjoy the stride.”

Life is a journey. Enjoy the stride.

The Eldridge Street Synagogue, is really beautiful from the outside. Completely out of place in the middle of Chinatown. Back when it was built at the cost of 1 Million dollars (about the equivalent of $25 million now) it was a way for Jewish immigrants to say that they had arrived, proud to be Jewish and American. Other plaques outside tell you more of its heritage.

I believe our docent said the congregation is of only 14 Orthodox Jewish families.

Our Hank leader, is stuck in the subway. I am the first one going inside so I become the welcoming and gathering committee by the facto. It gives me the opportunity to know the ladies and our fantastic docent, private tour guide Seth. He’s an American History professor at a university. He’s super knowledgeable and personal and has a close bond with the synagogue. We start in what is the basement of the synagogue. Our lovely Hank leader, Barbara, has joined us.

We gawk at an ancient Torah and are surprised by one of the prettiest spittoons I’ve ever seen.

We then head up into the synagogue. The temple was built by tenement architects so there are many elements of what they had incorporated in their previous buildings like the tiles used as flooring that I absolute would love to have in any house.

And what comes next is gasp-inducing as one of the brochures says. The interior of the synagogue has been restored. We go in and all of us just fall silent. These pictures do not do it justice.

We head upstairs to the women’s balcony. Better place to be but the climb must not have been fun.

From here we get a better view of a striking stained glass window that was not originally there. The original was damaged and replaced by this work of art in, I believe, 2010. A collaboration between artist Kiki Smith and architect Deborah Gans. More on it here.

As we leave the synagogue I read a poem that I had never heard of before. “We Remember Them”. It touched me and so I mention it.

We say goodbye to the docent that we were lucky to have as our guide and engage in conversation with the guard that recommends various places for us to go eat. The “Pickle Guys” comes up more than once and we all agree that we must visit this NYC legend and buy some pickles.

Our numbers are dwindling. 3 women are left, our Hank tour leader, and me and another. We are a block from Essex Market which I am quite impressed with. I opt for a ceviche at a Peruvian stall, Don Ceviche, which was quite authentic and delish.

I join the ladies at Top Hop, a bar where I have lots of seltzer to subdue in part the spiciness of the fish and continue a super interesting conversation on future plans and on Hank which I am quite happy to have joined for free.

Another set of goodbyes and I continue to Penn Station on foot. New York reminds me of my past. I pass a park with a gigantic sculpture of a frog, an animal my mother was deathly afraid of. I inherited her aversion if not her fear. And it reminds me of a friend that loves her White Russians (the drink, not the guys) and of another who has a son bartending at La Pecora Bianca and of my Los Angeles which, as New York has, remains in my heart, as I pass The Ace Hotel which I didn’t know was in Manhattan as well as in LA and of a time when The Village Voice was a newspaper I read weekly in Washington Square Park as I walked my dog and again of Los Angeles with the Standard Hotel.

And it reminds me that beauty can grow anywhere in the most unlikely places.

And as I continue my walk it reminds me how creative and with a cause New Yorkers can be.

And best of all, it reminds me that a child still lives in this old body of mine and its okay to be childish at times.

I love you New York! Until next time.

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A Walk in The Woods

It started with me weighing myself on a scale that had no inclination of lying to me. I was horrified. I had managed to disregard the fact that the jeans were becoming a bit —okay, way too tight— but the digital numbers brightly announcing the pounds that I had gained were hard to ignore. 

I have never been good with gyms and now, with the pandemic, I was even less motivated to go. But I’ve always loved walking and it was time to start again. And it would do me good mentally too. 

Near the apartment is a wonderful trail that does wonders to transport me to another world. My walks the only alternative to traveling for now. 

Not many steps in I encounter an unkempt stone wallI and the writer in me spins tales of a lost civilization being desecrated, the only vestige of their existence this stone wall that did not properly protect its people. A few more steps and my mood is echoed by trees that seem to cry with me expressing their sadness of these people’s demise through a strange vine, weeping willow style, that hangs from its branches. 

I later come across an old stone gate and wonder what it may have welcomed in some time past.

My mind, continuing creating tales, takes me on a survival trip where I must find food as the grumbling of my stomach grows louder. A burst of red , and another indicates that I would not die from starvation. Or would I die from popping any of these in my mouth?

There’s another kind that resembles a very inoffensive blueberry. 

And then come the signs that I am not alone. Someone has been making little canvases and putting them along the path.

Each makes me smile and I commit to making one of my own to attach to one of them so as to thank “CM”, for making my passage pleasant. 

I encounter a painted rock that reminds me of a group of “rock painters” that a dear friend, Grace Kono-Wells created – Random Rocks of Kindness their rocks meant to be put along various paths to brighten someone’s day. Her beautiful “Breathe” rock probably has reminded me more than once to take a breath. The painted one on my path, “mask up”, gives us a much needed reminder of the life we lead now. The sign on its side (Nottely Hidden Cove) is displaced, for it seems to belong to a farm in Georgia that oddly advertises as “a great place to social distance” so I figure it is somehow appropriate that it be paired with the “mask up” rock.

There are other signs that tell me where I am and to where not go. Others that give out a set of rules so long that my enjoyment would be marred should I stop to read it all. 

The woody trail ends, I cross a street and follow another path that leads me into an expanse inviting me to go further. I cannot resist its beckoning. 

Turtle alert! In other short walks I have come across some turtles. One, named Jacinta (we are in Latino-land and she deserves a Latino name). Please don’t ask me why I denominated her a female for I’d be at a loss to answer. And another that was named Jazmin. She had yellowish markings on her shell. She was quite pretty.

This one I believed was a “he”. Again, no rhyme or reason to my gender designation. I know nothing about turtles. I get real close and his eyes get squinty and he begins to go into his shell. I take another step and he surprisingly comes out again, opens his eyes and seems truly comfortable with my proximity. I’m touched by his trust. Or is it his naiveté?

I continue on to owl-land. Part of the sign announcing: “Our nest is a mess! We keep trash near our nest. Do not remove.”, makes me laugh and I am reminded of a hoarder I once met and of another that is his exact opposite. Funny how my travels -be they of any kind- seem to remind me of past and present lives lived, and those that populated them.

The same way that the manmade signs along my path have bettered my mood, the flowers along my way seem intent on competing for my delight. There are those that show off in a burst of color very similar to the sparkle firework sticks of my youth and those that resemble slender bells, and there are the leaves that seem to try to outdo the flowers in shades of green and red.

And a papaya tree which reminds me of one -actually two- that my parents had in their backyard. Images of times that will never be again flashing so vividly that they stop me in my track.

My steps grow slower as my heartbeat grows faster with the memories but lessens with images of a sunset that my camera does no justice to.

And because I have promised to end my blogs (and because you have at least scrolled up to here) I give you two songs.

One from Alfred Sheppard (who I had never heard of before) and Mandy Harvey, the deaf singer with a heavenly voice, which wowed pretty much everyone at America’s Got Talent a few years back. We should all fall into our dreams.

The next one by J.P. Saxe ft. Julia Michaels. I love the original song all in English but this one with a singer I had not heard about, Evaluna Montaner, is not bad. Besides it gives my Spanish readers a way to understand the song.

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Comfortably Numb

It was hand-delivered to the penthouse residencia de señoritas (ladies’ residence) on Avda. Generalísimo (now renamed Paseo de la Castellana) where I was living in Spain. A beautiful envelope with a wax seal and a “Personal: a ser abierto únicamente por el destinatario” label on it. In it, a ticket to London and along with it a handwritten note that invited me to a Pink Floyd concert there. More on that as you read on.

Today, as I watched the documentary Whatever Happened to Pink Floyd? memories that were long forgotten floated back in. Definitely not love at first “hear”, my appreciation came in stages. I didn’t like them at all at first. I didn’t do drugs and saw their music as one that could only be enjoyed while partaking them. But their sound wafted through my roommates’ radios, and at first I learned to tolerate it, then their music infiltrated my mind. I even bought their LP (record/vinyl for those too young to know what that is).

The note in the envelope received was unsigned but I knew who it was from. I went downstairs to the phone next to the kitchen where I dialed the number from a card that had been given to me saying that I should call if I ever needed anything.

Ultimately, Pink Floyd music, became the soundtrack of a memorable part of my life. Though I learned to love their music I knew little or nothing about the integrants of the band or of the band’s history. Which reminds me of a documentary The Pink Floyd Story: Which One is Pink? A documentary I enjoyed even more than the one mentioned above and gives more of a history of the band.

The conversation was short. I didn’t want to express how upset I was at the arrogance of believing I would accept the invitation. I was young but not naive enough to not know (or be suspicious enough) that this came with a ball of strings attached which I was not willing to unravel. So I thanked him and said I was, unfortunately, unavailable.

As I write, it comes up that Pink Floyd is having a fundraiser: COVID-19 Solidarity Response Fund for WHO by releasing Pink Floyd – PULSE (Restored & Re-Edited 90 Minute Version) on YouTube. At publishing time it looks like they’ve raised over 2 million dollars of the 7 million they are aiming for. There are 68 days remaining to donate if you are inclined. I’m assuming it’s legit though I am not sure of much these days.

Many more gifts came to my residence after the first. All were returned. But the one that I always had a tinge of regret for was the Pink Floyd one. Would have been grand and I would be able to say, “I saw them live!” It would have been quite a memory.

For those who may have wondered about the title of this post “Comfortably Numb,” it comes from a song they released as a single (“Hello, is there anybody in there…”). Here it is:

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The “Crown’s” Little Talked About Impact

The day the World Health Organization declared the Corona Virus outbreak a pandemic, I was headed to a friend’s house to do a transcription. Social distancing was already in place there when I arrived. I disinfected everything I touched before and after which is something not that unusual in me. I am not a germaphobe but I have always tended to overly clean myself and my environment. I wasn’t quite grasping that this was only the beginning of a surreal world situation. The next days Los Angeles proved that it does rain in “sunny California”. Perfect to frame what we would all start living soon.

I grew up in a world that consisted of hugs given the Latin way —close, body to body. It was how my mother comforted me as a child and, as a teenager, how I awkwardly expressed that I liked you. As an adult, it was not given as a precursor to anything (as in foreplay) but as an everything all in itself. I grew up in countries where men kiss men on the cheek in greeting without their sexuality being questioned.

A few days ago I read that scientists have said that we may have to live with social distancing for quite a while. Six-degrees of separation (which actually linked us) has turned into a physical 6-feet separation. So this virus may not only effectively turn lethal to those in the high risk section but to life as we -or I- knew it. In the midst of official social distancing and a self-imposed distancing from mostly everything, I am longing for a touch more than ever. Though I know that I will learn to live without, it saddens me more than words can express.

When I hear about the deaths this virus has caused I think of the sorrow of the loved ones left behind. But I also think of those that in times like this tend to be even more forgotten than they usually are: those suffering from depression and/or anxiety disorders -a not-so-exclusive-club which I have been a member of, off and on, all my life.

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There are many reasons why people tend to shy away. An actor recently said that no one wants to deal with you in your darkness. Even less so in this “be positive” world which doesn’t give room for you to express your thoughts or fears and discards them -and the one that shares them- seeing them as negativity. Now, when we are all dealing with so much, including getting to know ourselves, we gravitate to a mental distancing of anything not considered essential. And those alone feel so even more. 

I am a nurturer by nature so taking care of a kitten recovering from being neutered early last week helps me with feeling needed and not inconsequential, even when I am getting no sleep thanks to his nightly desire to get out of my bedroom (by rasping his cone against the door). My roommate’s (who hasn’t been here since then) other cats undefined await in the rest of the house for some love, food, and water… in reverse order. So all in all I find a sense of purpose in my isolation.

I have shutdown my intuitive side which leads me to thoughts and images I cannot handle right now. I have also steered clear of Facebook and Instagram. My anxiety level is high enough as is.

I have texted, so as not to be obtrusive, with friends checking on how they are doing. I have called and left a message when it goes unanswered. Sometimes, that is all the other side needs. Though it is easy to ask someone to reach out should they need you, it is when they probably will feel less inclined to.

Fear, anxiety, and loneliness are paralyzing. Consider mentally going through your contact list and call or text that person you have not contacted in a while, or a friend or someone that you may suspect may need you. Not in a mass text or Facebook or Instagram post but as a personal message making someone on the other side feel special. I am not suggesting by any means that people may be on the brink of a metaphorical precipice, just that the message of “you are not alone” is a powerful one, one that we underestimate while convincing ourselves of our fortitude or when basking in the proximity of ones we love. And yes, a disclaimer is coming: I am not a doctor or pretend to be one so take this all with a grain of salt. As to taking care of yourself, see what the CDC (Center of Disease Control) says about dealing with it here.

We may already know the value of family and friends but this is a reminder that those with a strong support group should be thankful for its blessing while not forgetting those without.

So let’s maintain physical separation for now and pay more attention to our mental connection. That text or call may mean more to someone than you may imagine.

And as a parting note, corona (aside from being a brand of a beer) means “crown” in Spanish. What on earth are we being crowned as (or with) now?

I have promised to end my blogs with songs so here goes these: Michael Bublé – Help Me Make It Through The Night (feat. Loren Allred) where he explains the reasons why he recorded it as a duet (I think it was written by Kris Kristofferson in the 70s); OK, performed by Mabel which has the sub-title of “Anxiety Anthem”; and Beth Hart – Mama This One’s For You because well… I wish I had her now.

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