How many times does a butterfly blink
Before it learns to fly?
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
But how many will remain?
Even as I fly, you will still fall
You stood so close that I can hear you breathe
I am sorry I didn't keep hold of you
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Chy Suen 채스엔
You know what? You can't just loose your pretty smile, you have to live life in order to fulfill your goals. God did not give us everything, because He understood that people have to strive for what they want for the BEST RESULTS!
I have wonderful friends surrounding me, and I KNOW, that I can count on them with my life.
I am working hard for what i want (badly) - 8A for PMR! :)
Don't be a bitch - It will do no good to you. Just because you look tuff (cool), doesn't mean that you can earn a living with that.
Be someone nice - not too angelic. ♥
Wants.
♥ 8 A FOR PMR!!!!!!!!! (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! *crosses fingers*
♥ You, to visit my blog.
♥ For all my best friends to be around me!
♥ To have fun in life! :)
Footprints.
Linkages.
Adam! Amanda! Angelin! Ashwinee! Avryl! Carmen! Chelsie! Chermaine! Chy Yun! En Zhen! Fatin! Hui Shin! Jacyln! Jade! Jan! Jeanne! Jeremiah! Joshua! Kai Ying! Limin! Lih Wern! Min Hui! Muayyad! Nicholas! Pei Shen! Rachel! Sharon! Rebecca! Shu Wen! Shi Yi! Siew May! Suyi! Wei Jun! Weii Syuen! Wei Teng! Weng Ni! Vincy! Vicky! Xin Vee! Yee Shean! Yew Ming! Yong Hong!
I found this news yesterday, and it was shocking to me.
For someone so nice, kind and brave, everyone fall when these things happen. No, I'm not talking about my studies, cause I'm very disappointed in my Add Math, if it weren't for my silly mistake, i would have got an A+. But push away my kiasu-ism... It's not the point of this post in my blog anyway.
I didn't expect so much pain. But even then, I can't turn back the clock. No matter how much i pray or cry, I won't want to ruin everything that is happening now for them. I'll just let it by.
It goes L-O-LL-I-P-O-P.
Thursday, June 9, 2011 @ 11:00 AM
Today will be a short post. I can't really stay in the computer room for too long, I still have my add math homework and Chinese tuition "analysis" to finish up. They are staring at me like monsters. Damn.
It's either I have some issues of my own or I'm bored. Maybe affected by some emotional songs, which brings you on a roller coaster ride of your life. That's how I'm feeling now.
What happened to 4Men's and DNT's songs? All my favorite tunes seem like yesterday. Today they're songs are pretty much weird. Maybe DNT wishes to change genre, like what SHINee did, from slow ballads to sometimes-annoying electro-pop.
Hyun Joong released a new song! And he cut his hair short.
I do prefer his smiley face! :P
See you!
Love is in the air.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011 @ 10:44 AM
I had the urge to blog so badly while I was reading newspaper today. I wonder what's up with me today. Must be my disturbed sleep yesterday.
Dropping by to Ern Seong's house this evening. Some house warming party. No, it's not his new house. We had an official one last year. But hey, we will make every reason up just to get together again. We are called Browserians for a reason you know.
I think I am one hell of a proud Browserians. Here are the list of things my sister said the Browserians usually do:
1. Make the most noise. 2. Create the most troubles. 3. Difficult to handle. 4. Teachers target of letting out their anger. 5. DON'T KNOW HOW TO SHUT UP. :P 6. Latest to enter the laboratory.
I think we met all of the school's "expectations", right? I am such a proud Browserian. I may sound like a total rebel listing and actually doing these things. But it's secondary school life, once you step out of the school, it will be so difficult to meet up with each other already. Plus, it's our last year next year, of course we have to make our schooling life memorable with these things.
Best buddies. Haha, I love her! We had tons of fun for a year sitting with each other. Adventurous, fun, exciting, oh and we speak "foreign languages" when we talk about korean stuff. Serious when she does her work. I always read that music can pull each of us closer to each other, I guess we are the living examples of it. Hypothesis accepted! After k-pop then came k-drama and sooner or later we became close friends. We share dreams, fortune, luck, pain, laughter, sadness, tears, advices, medicine, talks, problems.. So many to list down.. You will never be in the back storage in my brain, hard to retrieve, hard to discover, hard to obtain. You will always in the main storage, when I am upset I can always bring you to my mind, and call you to talk.
Vampire. He doesn't want to bite me. I have anemia. He is afraid he might make me dead and be a murderer. Hah! At least I love this vampire. Here's a bit of advice: If you have anything in mind, please don't keep it to yourself. You have friends who are here to hear you out. We exist for a reason. So if you are plagued with issues, please do not hesitate to let it all out. You may get thyroid problems if you don't. Haha. :)
Her house is my target every time it comes to the end year holidays for doing malay projects and talk a lot. She may seem quiet outside, but she is a very sweet girl inside her. Did I mention she can talk a lot (of sense) when you know her very well. My first impression of her is always smart but quiet. But I have changed my mind, she is not so quiet after all, which is a good thing for me, so I don't have to babble on my own, at least I have a mate with me to interact. Jo Kwon!
YI HUI! We can get along well, we have almost all-kpop to talk about. We do talk about other things, like ambitions, not just k-pop. But I don't mind if we do talk about k-pop the whole day. Her house is a super big one. I even have her address in my phone, still. Maybe that's why my phone memory is always full. HAH! I found another stupid reason. Jo Kwon!
For me, she is philosophical (in some sort), fun, adventurous, outgoing, daring in whatever she does. I have been sitting with her for a full two years. We had our ups and downs in our friendships, but yet we strive for the best. She was the one who taught me some valuable lessons. First, walk slowly. I remember when we went to the lavatory, she will always walk behind. Therefore, I have to stop and wait for her. Sooner or later I managed to follow her pace and sometimes walk slower than her. 青 出 於 藍 勝 於 藍 applies here! Secondly, taught me not to be a pessimist. Haha, I think this was the usual cause for our minute quarrels.
Wow, I always wonder why and how she can be super quiet all the way. But yes, I think it is normal human psychology in some ways that they only talk a lot after getting to know each other well. People are just being careful, I understand. She can be very hyper at times. I enjoy talking and relaxing with a book with her. A wonderful companion throughout my life.
The girl who talks a lot. Haha, my first impression of you has been always hyper, and it will stay that way until the day you die at 100. Maybe. Outgoing, fun, outrageous at times, I love pairing up with her when I am in Ace (drama class). She comes up with all those funny ideas that will make yourself laugh at how silly you are. Carefree, oh yes, she is totally a living example. I am envious of her, anything she wears looks good on her. Awesome, I want to possess that sort of "ability". Therefore, I am not surprise if any guy comes knocking on her door tomorrow.
Without you noticing, I always think of her as the "dai jie" in our group of friends. She has the ability to give out instructions (like "shut up" or "listen la") and yet act super cute in front of us. Leader in the making? I don't think Hui Shin is interested in anything to do with leadership. Lesbian partners with Kit Mun (or any other girl in our group). Cause: same primary school, for Kit Mun.
Model in the making. We love to hook hands when we have the chance. She hordes Hui Shin all the time. Grr. But there's something called sharing between us. She has a good voice too. Tons of guts to dress in whatever she likes, for she is a pretty and hot girl. I'll support her all the way if she ever becomes the next Amber Chia.
And no, you're not stupid. I'll be dumber if you said you're stupid. She has tons of tag lines.. like "BABILAH YOU" or "GO DIE LA" oh and the newest one that I know will be "FOR NUTS ARH!". She may seem small ans weak at the outside, but please don't take the risk of making her angry. She may just explode into fireworks, hurting you, or breaking you into tiny pieces. She is awesome. Her house is so near to my house, I think I can walk there now. (Never in a million years will I walk to her house).
I am still wondering why his nickname is "whale". A whale? Dude, can't you come up with a better animal? The thought of it makes me laugh. I have actually known him for 3 years, like the rest, but he is comparatively quiet than the rest. I love his handwriting, those cursive writing, oh and good Chinese calligraphy skills. Do you actually open up your black ink and write everyday?
Oh, sad to say. I have always hated him in Browser. But we patched things up and I decided that he is not such a bad friend after all. Singapore boy! Let's be honest, have you gate crashed our class without a pass kebenaran when we were in Form 2? HAHAH, bet you did. :)
Wow, a cheeky smile. No one can beat G-Dragon in this. Haha, is he scandalous? Not really. Just a bit playful. He loves the massage machine in my house. He puts his leg on it almost every year when he comes to my house during Chinese New Year. But hey, sorry to break your bubble, the machine is spoiled. You can always buy another one and give it to me next year, as a gift.
Vicky. The guy who spilled sparkling juice on the floor of my house. The stain is still there you know. You should come scrub my house sometime. Joking. My mother says you're a very cute and nice boy. Haha, I bet you're happy with this compliment. I always hate people who insult you, for you are who you are. RE: This statement is not applied to our people. :P
Sad thing to say, kid, we have been in the same primary school for a few years, and we met again in secondary school, YOU ARE STILL EQUALLY QUIET. I really have a feeling that you are very lonely in Cyberlink. I pity you, from the bottom of my heart. I can see that Arvind, Li Syuen and Vicky play such a pivotal role in your life that you can hardly get rid of them after 3 years. :P My only wish for you... Talk more, please.
Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. After typing your name so many times I still do not know what to say. Just kidding. He likes to be called "sexy monkey". His gang is called "call us tonight" for to consecutive years in NiE. So if any girl out there wants to pick Arvind up, please remember the information you need. And I am not a representative from a match-making company. I am just his friend, thinking of things to write about him. O.M.G. I didn't know this photo existed. Don't hate me, Faiz, even if I humiliate you with this photo. The butler in the family, I don't think you clean up our mess, do you? You create more and more mess like the rest of us. Sometimes breaking the rules won't hurt, butler. And I'm proud of you breaking the rules. Just don't let Grandpa Soon Nan find out. If he does, he might slaughter you or maybe just fire you.
I love you guys. You guys taught me all about life, how to step back and listen or smell the flowers. Thank you. My gratitude towards you will never be a flower which blooms on one day and fade the next. My gratitude will never be something that will disappear.
This post is dedicated to you, for the life lessons that you have taught me for three years (and counting), for everything bit of advice we have shared from the past.
I think we were all family in our previous lives, for we never quarrel over petty issues that will worry our ties. "Air yang dicencang tidak akan putus", hope we will be the living example of this idiom you guys!
Life is a maze and love is a riddle.
Sunday, June 5, 2011 @ 8:22 PM
I'm back. I'm not very proud of myself. I actually promised or maybe vowed to update my blog after the exams. But sadly I have been occupied with many things, like the Sivik Project I was supposed to finish and pass up one day before the official holidays started. I was quite disappointed in myself for not finishing this project on time, this will be my first then, which I hope to be the last time I ever need to carry out this sort of "sin".
My form 4 life has been pretty much hectic. Other than the increasing pile of homework in front of my table, or the mounting numbers of tuition homework and tuition, my life has been pretty much blank like an empty zero.
Exams are over. The mid terms are a nuisance. I lacked sleep for nearly three weeks, THREE WEEKS. I have to sacrifice at least an hour of sleep just to study. After studying so hard, I always have an after-feeling that I may screw up my whole exam. I wonder why. I think my paranoia for these things never seem to fade. Sigh, I guess it is either in my genes, or it is just my attitude. Doesn't sound a bit creepy?
Let's list down the sort of torture you have to go through, shall we?
1. Malay (I don't consider this a torture. But after I stepped into Form 4, I have ever-increasing worry for my Malay. Yes, this was my best subject for my three years in secondary school. I have never studied for Malay, not until this year where I broke my record. Plus, we didn't have a teacher for nearly two months, and she only came back a day before our exams. Wow, its like rubbing salt onto a wound.)
2. English (People say I don't have to worry about this. BUT YES I DO WORRY ABOUT THIS SUBJECT. There are superb writers in our school, and my essays are incompetent towards theirs. I have to brush up my skills. I want to be a polished diamond, not a dull, unpolished one. I will work hard for this.)
3. Chinese (Whee, what more torture can you ask for when you take Chinese. I'm not tarnishing my mother tongue here. My Chinese has been weak all the while, so I have no other person to put the blame on other than myself, not the subject. Oh well. Let's just hope I won't screw up my mid term paper.)
4. Chemistry (Oh I love this subject. It's straightforward and organized. A lot of people claim that girls are better in Chemistry then in Physics. This applies to me, but i don't think it is true, no evidence to prove so. Don't claim people! :P)
5. Biology (Yes, because of this subject, I do wonder sometimes why I took up the Science stream package. Somehow thanks to this subject, I ALWAYS WONDER WHY. So many terms, but i do love mitosis and enzymes though. The rest I don't know yet, since I haven't started reading/studying on it yet.)
6. Physics (Yay, torture above all torture. It is so easy to read this subject and think you understand it. Then, you will realize how stupid you are in physics when you do the exercises provided in the book. Tough, tough love with you, Physics. Oh and did I mention how much I am worried about my results for this subject?)
7. Moral (No comments. I just have to waste my brain capacity for this useless subject, for you get "charged" for not writing a key word, not even a keyword with similar meaning can help you get back that mark. Memorizing can help you be a moralized person, I wonder who came up with this idea. IT IS WASTING MY BRAIN CAPACITY)
8. Modern Math (I love this subject. I think I love any subject that is easy to understand, and can be applied in everyday life. I love all subjects that require calculating, but not physics, sadly.)
9. Additional Math (Confusing at first, but once you get the hang of it, it works with formulas, tons of it in fact. Love Add Math too. My dad made up a joke about this subject. Here goes
Dad:' What is Add Math?' Me: ' I don't know. ' Dad: ' Some kind of Math where you are required to Add, not subtract, divide or multiply.'
Haha, I know it's lame. But hey, a little lameness won't hurt. Especially when it is from someone you love. :P)
10. History (I just asked my sister what subjects I take for SPM. I guess form 4 life hasn't really seeped into me, even after 6 months. History. It's boring at some point but interesting at some point. My liking towards history is like a roller coaster, for I love it when i understand, and loathe it when I don't... I'm not the only one, am I?)
Yes, I have finished my so-called analysis for all the subject I'm taking this year and next year. Its just what I feel about it, I don't expect you readers to agree to everything I say. Even I disagree sometimes.
I don't consider my holidays boring, even though I don't frequent shopping malls or going out visiting my friends house. I have been used to reading and relaxing in many ways for my holidays. When I was younger, I used to think my house was a bloody jail. Basically my parents never allowed me to go out with my friends until I was 15. As I grew up, I don't think that not going out with friends is such a big deal anymore. I don't cry and whine like I used to last time when I was not allowed to, I just say okay, fine, maybe next time. (Haha, probably that's why I'll be the last one being asked out, for my friends know that I will give a negative reply.)
K-pop time! Haha, don't worry. I never forget this part.
Beast-비가 오는 날엔 (On rainy days)
This will be the song I'll search frantically in my brain before I sleep.
Ballads are my sleeping pills.
SECRET - 별빛달빛 (Starlight, Moonlight)
A very cute song indeed. Secret are going retro people! Love them now, so much better than their previous songs, though I loved their debut song.
f(x) - Pinocchio (Danger)
I thought the lyrics didn't make sense, not until I saw the translation. :) and yes, f(x) is not you add-math function. It's also a k-pop girl group.
Infinite - Can U Smile
I never liked their debut, Dashi dorawa, means come back again. But this ballad is enjoyable!
Bye! I hope you enjoyed my post today.
이젠 아프지 마 이젠 울지도 마 내가 너를 지켜준다고 너와 영원히 함께라고 사랑을 믿어봐 다신 두려워 마
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Wednesday, February 2, 2011 @ 8:35 PM
Yes. I am back blogging for a day. As pathetic as it seems, at least I am making an effort to keep my blog alive.
To all the Form 3s out there, if you are reading, GIVE FORM 3 A CHANCE. Don't complain saying that form 3 life is stressful and boring, its all books books books stacking up in your room to form a river. Don't. Give form 3 a chance. You never want to come to Form 4. Like seriously. Everyday is passes like a blur. Everything is like a shadow that says a dry and split second "hello" and poof! That thing is gone.
In my opinion, Form 4 life is good and bad at the same time. The good thing is that I have wonderful classmates like Joshua, Rebecca, Carol, Kim, Nat, Yik Kin, Arvind, Angelin, Shev, Ern Seong, Nick and the list goes on and on. They're such nice people. You don't need months to know them. You only require a day or two to know them. Straightforward people, what I love the most! :)
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Chinese New Year is just around the corner. Just an inch away from your doorstep. Tomorrow is the official Chinese New Year!
You know what? You can't just loose your pretty smile, you have to live life in order to fulfill your goals. God did not give us everything, because He understood that people have to strive for what they want for the BEST RESULTS!
Vampire. He doesn't want to bite me. I have anemia. He is afraid he might make me dead and be a murderer. Hah! At least I love this vampire. Here's a bit of advice: If you have anything in mind, please don't keep it to yourself. You have friends who are here to hear you out. We exist for a reason. So if you are plagued with issues, please do not hesitate to let it all out. You may get thyroid problems if you don't. Haha. :)
Her house is my target every time it comes to the end year holidays for doing malay projects and talk a lot. She may seem quiet outside, but she is a very sweet girl inside her. Did I mention she can talk a lot (of sense) when you know her very well. My first impression of her is always smart but quiet. But I have changed my mind, she is not so quiet after all, which is a good thing for me, so I don't have to babble on my own, at least I have a mate with me to interact. Jo Kwon!
YI HUI! We can get along well, we have almost all-kpop to talk about. We do talk about other things, like ambitions, not just k-pop. But I don't mind if we do talk about k-pop the whole day. Her house is a super big one. I even have her address in my phone, still. Maybe that's why my phone memory is always full. HAH! I found another stupid reason. Jo Kwon!
For me, she is philosophical (in some sort), fun, adventurous, outgoing, daring in whatever she does. I have been sitting with her for a full two years. We had our ups and downs in our friendships, but yet we strive for the best. She was the one who taught me some valuable lessons. First, walk slowly. I remember when we went to the lavatory, she will always walk behind. Therefore, I have to stop and wait for her. Sooner or later I managed to follow her pace and sometimes walk slower than her. 青 出 於 藍 勝 於 藍 applies here! Secondly, taught me not to be a pessimist. Haha, I think this was the usual cause for our minute quarrels.
Wow, I always wonder why and how she can be super quiet all the way. But yes, I think it is normal human psychology in some ways that they only talk a lot after getting to know each other well. People are just being careful, I understand. She can be very hyper at times. I enjoy talking and relaxing with a book with her. A wonderful companion throughout my life.
The girl who talks a lot. Haha, my first impression of you has been always hyper, and it will stay that way until the day you die at 100. Maybe. Outgoing, fun, outrageous at times, I love pairing up with her when I am in Ace (drama class). She comes up with all those funny ideas that will make yourself laugh at how silly you are. Carefree, oh yes, she is totally a living example. I am envious of her, anything she wears looks good on her. Awesome, I want to possess that sort of "ability". Therefore, I am not surprise if any guy comes knocking on her door tomorrow.
Without you noticing, I always think of her as the "dai jie" in our group of friends. She has the ability to give out instructions (like "shut up" or "listen la") and yet act super cute in front of us. Leader in the making? I don't think Hui Shin is interested in anything to do with leadership. Lesbian partners with Kit Mun (or any other girl in our group). Cause: same primary school, for Kit Mun.
Model in the making. We love to hook hands when we have the chance. She hordes Hui Shin all the time. Grr. But there's something called sharing between us. She has a good voice too. Tons of guts to dress in whatever she likes, for she is a pretty and hot girl. I'll support her all the way if she ever becomes the next Amber Chia.
And no, you're not stupid. I'll be dumber if you said you're stupid. She has tons of tag lines.. like "BABILAH YOU" or "GO DIE LA" oh and the newest one that I know will be "FOR NUTS ARH!". She may seem small ans weak at the outside, but please don't take the risk of making her angry. She may just explode into fireworks, hurting you, or breaking you into tiny pieces. She is awesome. Her house is so near to my house, I think I can walk there now. (Never in a million years will I walk to her house).
I am still wondering why his nickname is "whale". A whale? Dude, can't you come up with a better animal? The thought of it makes me laugh. I have actually known him for 3 years, like the rest, but he is comparatively quiet than the rest. I love his handwriting, those cursive writing, oh and good Chinese calligraphy skills. Do you actually open up your black ink and write everyday?
Oh, sad to say. I have always hated him in Browser. But we patched things up and I decided that he is not such a bad friend after all. Singapore boy! Let's be honest, have you gate crashed our class without a pass kebenaran when we were in Form 2? HAHAH, bet you did. :)
Wow, a cheeky smile. No one can beat G-Dragon in this. Haha, is he scandalous? Not really. Just a bit playful. He loves the massage machine in my house. He puts his leg on it almost every year when he comes to my house during Chinese New Year. But hey, sorry to break your bubble, the machine is spoiled. You can always buy another one and give it to me next year, as a gift. 
Vicky. The guy who spilled sparkling juice on the floor of my house. The stain is still there you know. You should come scrub my house sometime. Joking. My mother says you're a very cute and nice boy. Haha, I bet you're happy with this compliment. I always hate people who insult you, for you are who you are. RE: This statement is not applied to our people. :P
Sad thing to say, kid, we have been in the same primary school for a few years, and we met again in secondary school, YOU ARE STILL EQUALLY QUIET. I really have a feeling that you are very lonely in Cyberlink. I pity you, from the bottom of my heart. I can see that Arvind, Li Syuen and Vicky play such a pivotal role in your life that you can hardly get rid of them after 3 years. :P My only wish for you... Talk more, please.
Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. Arvind. After typing your name so many times I still do not know what to say. Just kidding. He likes to be called "sexy monkey". His gang is called "call us tonight" for to consecutive years in NiE. So if any girl out there wants to pick Arvind up, please remember the information you need. And I am not a representative from a match-making company. I am just his friend, thinking of things to write about him.
O.M.G. I didn't know this photo existed. Don't hate me, Faiz, even if I humiliate you with this photo. The butler in the family, I don't think you clean up our mess, do you? You create more and more mess like the rest of us. Sometimes breaking the rules won't hurt, butler. And I'm proud of you breaking the rules. Just don't let Grandpa Soon Nan find out. If he does, he might slaughter you or maybe just fire you.