Life according to Emily: August 2009

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Long ago or not-so-long ago

This picture was taken approximately 2 years ago before Brian left on his mission- I can't believe it was that long ago... at least that's how I feel today... sometimes it feels like it was centuries ago... but anyway... I love this picture for several reasons. First of all, Grandpa Montierth and his hat and his cross-leggedness makes my day. Second, I am not wearing make up. Third, Brian's head is resting on my shoulder while my legs are still resting in his lap. Fourth, I'm playing with his hair while we're watching TV, and my arm is totally in his way, but he is totally content with not being able to see the television. LOVE.

This picture was taken at Brian's "Farewell" family, friends, and food deal after he gave his talk in sacrament meeting. I look so comfortable snuggled up into his shoulder... and I was, I'm sure. We are examining the damage done to my heel from the shoes I chose to wear that day... after which, Brian went and found me a bandaid and lovingly took care of my hurt. Awww... There it was his day... people were there to see him... and he goes and finds me a bandaid- pretty sure I could've done that myself. What a sweetheart. Yes? Yes. I loved him then, and love him even more now. Indeed.

Only 2 1/2 more months until Brian is home!

That is just crazy! I know it's so close, but it still seems so far to me... unreal... oh, but I am SO excited! I can't even describe it to you! SOOOO excited!

Oh, and those of you who may have heard about and are looking for my explanation of our plans for marriage.... you can read it HERE.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Just stuff.

For the last year, The Stubbs Show on 101.5 The Eagle has played one of the starring roles in my morning routine. I've never met any of the DJ's in person, but I still feel like I know them, haha... they are very much a part of my life every morning at 6:00 AM as I am waking up and in my car on my drive to work. I love how down to earth and real the DJ's are, and Keith Stubbs is hilarious. What amuses me most about myself and this particular radio show is that I don't even listen to the station for the music they play. I mean, for the most part I do like country music... but there have always been and will probably always be those country songs that just really get on my nerves, and I often times find myself changing the station during the songs, and then switching back when they're talking again and aren't playing music. Ummm.... yeah. Weird.

I've seen enough of these signs this summer to last me a lifetime, thanks. I'm so tired of road construction I could probably scream, but I won't. Highway 89 in Layton is the one that is causing me the most grief because I use it to get to work every morning. I've driven it everyday for more than a year now, and I always used to complain to myself about all the cracks and bumps and potholes. I never thought about how inconvenient it would be for me for someone to fix it, of course, haha, but regardless... I'll try not to complain so much about my being inconvenienced since I complained about how crappy the road was before...

I went to the Zoo last Friday. I took the boys I nanny. My friends Randi and Annie, and Annie's sister, Jenilyn, came and met us there. Annie and Jenilyn brought their little niece Lucy. We had fun, but not going to lie, it was kinda weird having my two worlds collide. Haha! I'm in my mommy/responsible-adult mode in my work world... and I'm just... well, me... in my social life world. It was interesting, and probably a good thing for future reference to have a chance to figure out the balance between mommy-mode Emily and social-life Emily. I enjoyed myself... it was just in a different way. Just another taste of mommy-life, perhaps? Haha.

Annie, me, and Randi at the zoo.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

So you had a bad day....

I was given a day off of work yesterday, and it was marvelous. It was very much needed, and I was so grateful for it, because I haven't really had any time off all summer. So yeah, I had this great day off work yesterday.... and then...

My alarm didn't go off this morning, and I woke up to my cellphone ringing. It was my boss.

"I had to go into the office early today and Chad just called me wondering if you knew you were supposed to work this morning?"

"Yeah? *glances at the clock* HOLY CRAP! I guess my alarm didn't go off!"

"Are you still in bed?"

"Yes, I'm so sorry. Let me get dressed and I'll be on my way."

WORST WAY TO WAKE UP EVER!

Fortunately my employers were very understanding about the whole ordeal. I've been working for them for a year and half now and I'm never late, and I always show up. I'm very reliable. I mean, they called me not even ten minutes after I was supposed to have been there. So that tells you something. Ha, ha.

It totally threw the rest of my day off, though. Just have been feeling out of sorts... you know?

Of course, it wasn't all bad, Jen came home early so she could spend some time with the boys before they are back in school, so I got to go home early. How lucky am I? A day off and then a half day? Yeah, it was pretty great. I sent off a package to Brian. I Love him. And then my dad took me and my brother, Taylor, out to dinner at this little Diner in Perry called Skyview or Skyward?.... Sky something?... Diner. Haha. That was fun. The food was okay, I guess, but the 50's diner feel to it was even better.

But yeah, I'm glad tomorrow is another day. Yay for fresh starts. And you better believe I'll be setting 3 separate alarms to wake me up tomorrow morning. Ha, ha!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Tender Mercy

Completely out of the blue, I have the day off work tomorrow.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Swing Life Away

... We live on front porches and swing life away

We get by just fine here on minimum wage

If love is a labor, I'll slave 'til the end

I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand ...

-"Swing Life Away"- Rise Against-

Good song. Haha. Doesn't really have anything to do with this post, but I do LOVE front porch swings. Indeed. Unfortunately, it is mood swings, not front porch swings, that are playing a starring roll in my life right now, and it's getting ridiculous. I realize I am female and mood swings will probably always be something I will have to deal with, but this is different. This is a little more extreme than my normal mood swings. I feel like I'm reliving my early teenage years. Haaa. Yeah.

I have these moments where I am totally driven, confident, optimistic, laughing and smiling, wanting to be social, full of creative energy. Just totally on top of the---- Full-time nanny + part time farmer + wedding planning + daughter/sister/friend + singer/songwriter + church member + responsible adult with bills to pay + nearly non-existent social life + MG with a busy, busy missionary boyfriend with only 3 months left- both of us living off letters that seem few and far between because we both are so busy---- life that I lead.

Then I swear it's like someone flips a switch- that's how quick the change is- and..... I just want to crawl in a hole and hide from it all and just curl up in a ball and cry---- I don't do that, though. I'm not generally a girl who cries much, but even if I were, I don't have time. So I force a smile, suck it up, and..... find myself doing everything half passed without the p. Bahaha. And I hate that, too. Mediocrity is a big waste. Do your best, or don't even bother. I mean, really. It bugs.

I've crammed my schedule so tight in an attempt to keep me busy and distracted and feeling happy, and I generally like it that way.... but I NEEEEEED my alone time, too. And I'm not getting it these days. And it's a problem, I think. Then, again. It's not like I really have a happening social life right now, either. Ha. Maybe it's because everything that is keeping me busy just feels like a space filler instead of progress, well, progress that is tangible in my life right now, at least.

Whatever the case may be, I'm ready for some kind of change. Please? Or at the very least.....

I need a vacation.

Oh, but just be aware, with just a simple and quick flip of that switch I'll probably be just fine again. And I'll probably think that I'm finally snapping out of this funk I'm in... I'll probably fool you, too.

And then gravity will take control of the swing totally destroying my momentum. Honestly, I think I'd prefer to be on a roller coaster ride. Ups and downs are inevitable in life anyway.... but at least on a roller coaster there is forward movement involved.

One swing forward, one swing back. It's getting old.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Can barely breathe

So busy.

So much to do.

So much going on all at once.

So close,

and yet so far away.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Stye in my eye

I get styes in my eyes every once in a while. It's annoying and quite painful. They come whenever I've been stressed out or emotionally overwhelmed with something. Which is even more annoying. Well, this past week has been a little on the stressful side and I've found myself slightly overwhelmed with everything, and when I woke up this morning, there was a stye in my eye. I should've been expecting it, but I wasn't. And it hurts. The end. Haha.

It's AUGUST!!! HOLY COWWWWWWW! I can't believe it. Summer is almost over. Weird. :)