Everybody's screaming, I try to make a sound but no one hears me

Today wake up with a shock... One of my dogs went to the better place..
Found out tt when dogs die, their muscules will be loosen, and all the urine and juices will flow out.. Its kind of disgusting..

Went to the nearest pet store to ask what to do when a dog dies.. Upon reaching, the store was not open.. So have to return home and change a bit to go to the vet which is located at further down heartland mall.. Reach the vet and ask the recepitionist for information and was kind of surprise to see how they charge ppl for the transport and burning of the dogs.. Its charged by THE WEIGHT!! In the end my father found a cheaper service and have to wait till the person comes b4 i can bring Wolfie back to the vet..

Wolfie's turn to see the vet.. She has a fever and a infections in her ********(i dunno how to spell.. But its the place where the babies are made) including a cough.. The vet gave her injections and some medicine to eat.. Wow.. They are realli costly.. Currently dun haf any more money to spend liao.. All spend on both dogs.. And tml i have to bring Wolfie back to the vet again..


Signing Off,
Vincent

juz watch this show called "Solitary".. It a reality show that isolate a group of ppl from their friends and family and the outside world.. they live in a port (a room tt onli have toilet and bed).. They will be given tests which the one tt successfully pass tt test will be given freedom.. Meaning he/she wont have to do the treatment.. The treatments and tests are ways tt push ppl to their limits.. all kind of limits i can say..

Was amazed at how disliking a common person can brought a grp of strangers together.. And its kind of funny though.. They can actually sit down together or chat in a conversation saying abt this person's bad points for hours and hours without getting tired.. And they can actually provide evidences and examples of those bad points.. Really interesting and funny..

Was thinking abt wad Alvin Lee said during the dinner at Miss Charity Cafe on friday.. He said tt we should sit down and chat.. Since we are from different places, you is you and me is me.. But den nicky interrupted by saying "you is still you, me is still me.." okay this is realli stupid but yet funny.. lol.. Anyway.. Lee is right.. We came from different backgrounds and get together in this club.. But we dun really noe each other after this 1.5 years.. Its not like we noe this person at the back of our hands.. Like wad he/she likes, he/she dislikes.. And the worst is its ending.. Kind of sadding... But during this last month together, i juz wan to have all the fun i can have with them.. though wad i said in my previous post still applies.. I DONT BELONG! (sounds like we are going to die like tt.. lol)

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Vincent

Excos playing "The Impossible Quiz"

Oh ya.. there is this game called The Impossible Quiz.. Its kind of fun to see ppl playing.. super funny.. and u can laugh like hell to their reaction when they game over.. haha..

One final thing.. Here is a difference between a middle coke and a large coke..

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Vincent

Today was veri pissed with myself.. Because my Personal Mentor came and should us our results.. And wad i saw was a stupid Cs and Bs including 1 D! Den i think abt it.. Wad the hell is happening.. How come i will get this kind of results.. This is not the results i am supposed to get.. The further i think back.. The more angrier i am.. Coz my results are dropping like a plane crashing from the sky.. To make things worst, i am left with the last paper.. WAD THE SHIT!!
Den another lecturer come and ask me am i giving up on myself?? OF coz i was shocked to hear tt.. But inside my mind were "Who in the world told u i am giving up?" I will prove tt i have not given up.. I will Ace this paper and get an A for XML.. That's my AIM!!
Was also pissed with myself because of my mistakes, i may have to repeat some modules.. And i noe tt now regretting is useless coz i am thinking abt whether i make the correct choice for my specialisation anot.. Looking at my previous classmates' results, theirs seems to be rather easy to score.. But its kind of too late..


Was watching some korean show tt my mother watched nowadays.. And it's kind of touching to see the sister of 2 younger brother show her care and concern even though they have become poor.. And she even have to suffer others' critics and work super hard to earn a living for her brothers.. Fyi They are rich at the start..

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Vincent

Juz watch finish Evans Almighty.. Lol.. I should say it is not like Bruce Almighty.. The comdy izzit there.. not enough jokes.. But there is one scene when the God meets the wife of the main actor, and told her sth tt makes me agreed quite a lot.. Even though i am not a believer..


The God in the movie said sth like this.. If you pray for courage, God is not going to give u courage, but he will give u opportunties to let u gain courage.. And i totally agreed with that sentence.. Coz courage does not come juz like tt.. You have to allow urself to gain courage.. And Opportunties is not sth tt will appear in everyday life.. Once it realli comes, grab hold of it and make full use of it.. No matter how others disagreed with you, Do It.. Coz they dun see the way u see it.. They are not you.. They do not know wad u are thinking abt...

Ya.. This is wad i have to say.. lol.. Even though i noe how to say this kind of things.. But i have a weakness.. I do not noe how to act on it..

Signing off,
Vincent

Phat Nite is over le.. Which also means the last and final event gone.. Even though clubbing is not my kind of thing, i should say it is great.. That is all i can say for the event.. lol.. now abt the club...

Since not many excos will be reading this, so i can pour every single thing out..
Okay, i noe tt 4 months is kind of short of things to change.. But i tried my best to fit in to the ppl.. Every single thing i could do, i gave it a shot.. But the results seems to not the way i wanted.. Time after time saddness will take over me, and i will do things to make the "pain" go away.. Be it blasting music into my ear, scratching myself with my finger nails leaving marks on them, or the newest.. pouring hot water on to my now-heat-resist legs.. To make things even worst, AGM is in a months time.. This is the time when ppl start to remember the memories they have in the club.. But for me, i think i could remember is the time i failed to fit in..
In conclusion, I DONT BELONG THERE.. I could never ever fit in the club.. ppl will never come and look for me when they need accompany.. Anyway.. To the Excos, Thanks.. for sth i dunno..

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Today receive good news.. That the nightmare is going to reach its ending point.. GOing to celebrate soon... wahaha. But there is one more thing.. During this nightmare, could not realli study for test.. And today i have the most shocked in my life.. 2 test in a row.. G Dev i think i will not be able to make it.. but hopefully i could pass.. Com G i believe tt i could make it.. hee hee.. Should stop here..

Signing off,
Vincent

Today stayed in club room until 11plus.. 1st time tt i stayed till so late.. Watching fir, fawze, mevr and Nasir playing dota while Yew King playing transformers.. lol.. was quite funny.. Okay tt is not the point.. haha..

I think my observation is kind of wrong.. coz if u dun haf any topic with tt person tt u are going home with, u arent going to get any closer to tt person.. And this also makes me realise tt face to face conversation, i actually could not think of any topic to talk.. 1 more thing that i have found out is that i am actually still scared of talking to Yew King.. maybe there is this fear inside of me and i juz could not figure out wad is it and hope to overcome it.. Though he says tt i got talked to him but the fear is still there.. Muz try my super best to realli open up..

Okay currently i am blogging with half my eye lip open.. Think tt is all i can think of.. Tired mind = useless thinking..

Signing Off,
Vincent

Hmmm, quite a while since i last updated.. lol.. currently was now living in fear.. was veri scared of going to school every single day.. Today thought the nightmare was going to be over, but in the end found out tt the nightmare has just began.. Though ppl says do not think too much abt it, but they do not realli noe wad happen and i juz stop myself from thinking abt this.. its super scary and u do not noe wad will happen in the end.. Hopefully things will turn out the way tt i hope for..

Been staying back in club room for a few days, found out tt staying there is more fun den returning home and facing the lappy for dunno how many hrs while nth is completed.. Thought reaching home will be quite late, but its worth it.. The ability to escape my parents' blame pushing plus nagging is wad i wanted.. Every time when there is a problem, the 1st person to be pointed to will always be me.. kind of cannot take it..

Watched Transformers for the 3rd time this week.. No matter how many times i watched this show, it juz doesnt seem to bore me.. It is still as exciting as ever, as interesting as ever.. And i even bought the transformers figure, the one that can transform.. Saturday going back to the shop to get Jazz.. lol.. The car is cool..

Harry Potter last book is coming out on satuday.. lol.. realli looked forward to it.. wonder what is the ending of the story.. And will there be any surprises.. hmm.. thinking..

The endless amount of doubts still wondering in my head as days passed.. But slowly each doubt will be cleared, though some of it wasnt the answer i was looking for, while some of it was the expected answer..

Shall stop here, tml there is a mock interview and my team happens to be lucky number one.. hope everythings goes smoothly.. haha..

Signing off,
Vincent

Okay.. was playing Grando Espanda.. and kind of bored.. though playing mission.. but the mobs seems to be not my killed.. not my killed equals nth to take or loot.. so super bored..

Okay.. here is the doubt of the day/week.. Is it that going home with friend will bond faster and closer den usual friends u meet in school or club.. coz from wad i observe, it seems to be this way.. hmm.. wondering..

BandzOut is over le.. left with one final event.. and den is bye bye.. wahaha.. so enthu of tt day's forthcoming.. haha.. hmm.. wad can i say abt BandzOut. still not my style of music.. lol.. but overall good job.. haha.. nth else..

I found out tt not enough slp will actually cause great harm to my emotions.. cant seems to control it well.. B4 the event was super high.. and i think not many ppl see me really high b4 tt is why they think i am scary.. lol.. den when the event started.. become beri sianz.. slowly after the last band performance.. my emo went for a deep dive.. and i actually teared.. well, as usual no one will notice. after tt back to normal self again.. pathetic right.. lol. need more slp.. haha..

Signing off,
Vincent

Hmmm.. could not sleep so wake up switch on com and blog awhile..

Wednesday
It was Yew King's and Anders Kor's birthday.. lol.. Plus my 10% presentation of project..

Project
Was super sad when my grp present to teacher and was told tt we could onli get an unstable B.. Lucky he got tell us the things we need to improve on in order to get an A.. And i am going to aim and work hard for it.. At least an A is better for my final sem project..

Yew King's Birthday
Actually wanted to meet up to pass him the presents personally, but his breaks clashes with my lessons time so could not personally pass him.. Left his presents inside clubroom together with the "last minute" self made card.. Wow.. Found out tt the jacket i gave was his first jacket.. so honoured.. lol.. He also noe tt i am afraid to talk to him.. haha.. but i think things will change for the better liao.. wahaha..

Harry Potter Movie Preview
Also went to watch Harry Potter preview.. The tickets were bought by Hakim.. Thanks.. okay now for the movie.. the movie was not good at all.. It was from the thickest book and become the shortest movie.. OMG.. somemore alot of things are either changed or not shown at all.. zzz.. and somemore there is onli one fighting scene which is at the end.. realli not worth the money.. BUT TRANSFORMERS still ROCKS!! Going cine to get the figurerings(spelt wrong) that can transform.. Super high lar.. haha.. Disappointed..

Today
WAhaha.. super happy.. Got a new brother/kor.. haha.. I like my ship model.. but i forget to save it.. Next post will display the ship that i created.. haha..

Signing off,
Vincent

Gaint Beetles

Male and female butterfly mixture

Once we are outside Butterfly Park and Insect Kingdom, we head towards Underwater World.. But its at the end of Siloso Beach, so we took the skyride down to Siloso beach and walked for a while coz the tram that is supposed to go to the place arrived.. lol.. simply took it and ride it tothe end.. haha.. Underwater World is right in front of us.. bought the tickets.. lol.. Inside is packed with ppl.. some are playing with the touch pool, others are looking at ppl feeding stingrays.. lol.. Lots of new things are being displayed there.. lol.. and a whole lots of Crabs! There is also sth new.. i think its called the "ice angel".. its like a growing red thing that has transparent body.. it lives at 2 degrees!! Okay.. The tunnel was the same i think.. Janet was realli pissed off by the ppl there.. coz they are like pushing and squeezing here and there.. As for Wei Jian.. erm.. busy with his own surroundings.. haha.. Exited the world.. to have a break before going to Dolphin Lagoon..

Some anicent underwater creatures

Ice Angel

We walked back to Beach Station as we wan to sit down at Coffee Bean and rest... haha.. but the Coffee Bean is out door.. So Janet + Wei Jian thought they saw one that is indoor.. lol.. so we walked up to Imbiah Station.. WAHAHA.. AND!! found out that the Coffee Bean there is also OUTDOOR!! haha.. Bought out coffees and sit down rest and chat.. wahaha.. talked abt everything.. haha.. When its abt 5pm, we took the red line down to Dolphin lagoon.. lol.. Watch Pink Dolphin performed.

Pink Dolphins in action

After the performance, we walked back to Beach Station.. lol.. Seems to be full of walking.. haha.. actually it is full of walking.. WAHAHA.. Took the skyride up to Imbiah Station.. lol.. and Run to the 4D Magix.. haha.. Why is it 4D.. haha.. actually it is 3D and in addition to that, it let the person feels the effects.. eg.. there was this scene when the pirate lucky knocks one of his crew, the chair will move(jerk(wrong spelling)).. there was a scene where crabs attack one of the crew.. holy man.. The bottom of the chair spray sth tt will bites.. and it hurts.. haha.. Overall this ride isnt as good.. and is a neck breaker.. haha..

After the ride, we took the sky ride down to Beach Station to catch wad i have been waiting for.. WAHAHA.. MUSICAL FOUNTIAN AKA SONG OF THE SEA!!! The starting was super bored.. But when the real effects come, it is SUPERB!!! haha.. was too engross in the effects den to watch wad is happening.. Luckily, my camera is in my hand.. haha.. i automatic take lots of photos.. haha.. THIS IS WORTH THE WAITING!! AND IS AWESOME!!!

After the show, we took skyride up to Imbiah Station and rush to ride the CineBlast.. wahaha.. though have to watch a long video b4 the ride.. The ride is FUN!! Its abt how a log is being process and the areas it has to go through.. wahaha.. superb fun.. After the ride, we walk back down to Beach Station to take the monorail back to vivo city to have our dinner.. haha.. We ate Carls' Jr.. haha.. the mushroom is not beri nice if u eat without anything... haha.. after dinner is home sweet home..

AFTER 7 MONTHS OF WAITING!! WAHAHAHAHAHAH.. COOOOOOL!!!

Signing Off,
Vincent

Today went to Orchard with Yuan Ching.. lol.. nan de right.. lol.. Actually got purpose de.. to look for Yew King de birthday present(s).. When we first depart from sch, we been quarreling over any matters until we left.. wahaha.. Reach orchard.. 1st stop went to wisma.. haha.. walked the shops tt she thinks will have Yew King's shirt.. den after half an hr ltr, sit outside G2000 to wait for Lynn.. haha.. At first, Yuan Ching asked me to share the present so that we can buy a watch for him.. Actually i dun like to share ppl presents.. but since is like the last person in excos i am buying present for, so anything lor.. den we procceed to the shops selling watches.. WAHAHAHA!! The watches she choose are super EX!! even combine also not enough.. lol..

Next, we went to look for ice-cream.. haha.. coz i wan to eat.. Actually intended to eat Anderson Ice-Cream.. but cant find one.. den we go to the ice-cream vendor outside paragon.. haha.. super funny... den go to Heeren to continue the hunt.. wahaha.. den did not find any suitable.. wahaha.. so we went to have our dinner 1st b4 heading back to the shop where we found the most suitable.. wahaha.. during dinner.. WAHAHA!! another ally found!! haha.. okay a bit siao.. haha..

Okay.. here is the answer to why i buy the present.. I SERIOUSLY DUNNO!! *BREAK DOWN AND CRY LIKE HELL* Sth in my head tells me to buy present for him.. that why i buy.. okay.. settle.. wahaha..

SUNDAY GOING SENTOSA!! SENTOSA!!!!!!

Signing off,
Vincent

Currently In School WAiting for lesson to start.. so blog a little..

Monday
I only have one hr of lesson so went to watch Transformers with Janet & Wei Jian.. The movie was superb!! seriously.. Win Fantastic 4 & Spiderman.. haha.. Left Harry Potter to win it... haha.. This movie is worth the amount spent buying the ticket.. it is juz Great.. So good until no words can describe it.. But there is some weird things in the movie..
1) Where did Barricade go to? it wasnt destory..
2) How can someone came out from the right door of the car and appear to be sitting on the left side.. interesting right..

Tuesday
Reached School earlier than i expected.. so decided to walk ard.. Saw the Phat Nite Booth.. den decide to avoid as many ogls as possible.. took the lift up to lvl 5.. saw Beng and he kind of disturb me to make me took off my earphones.. lol.. Was thinking of going to the club room.. but on second thought decided to get me a cup of ice milo.. haha.. walk down to mac.. on lvl 4, saw Nicky they all.. decide to avoid them by walking faster.. on the way to mac, saw Boon Kin Kor coming out of Kou Fu(spell wrong).. thinking by getting to mac faster and going back to lvl 4 will avoid him.. Okay.. dunno why but i juz wan to avoid ppl on tt point of time.. Bought my drink and 1st person i saw when i walk out of mac is Boon Kin Kor, so was in a state of stun.. but said hi to him.. den next walk a short distance, saw Nicky they all.. wave hi to them.. Lastly, upon reaching lvl 4, saw a lot of Ogls... DIAO!! those i wan to avoid seems to fail!. -.- okay.. nvm..
have a practical test for my Games Development.. i think i flung it.. haha. dunno how to do the second part... Anyhow put codes.. haha..

Signing off,
Vincent