Everybody's screaming, I try to make a sound but no one hears me

Friday was an interesting day.. lol.. morning went to hougang mall with Yuan Ching and look for a cake shop Opposite Monfort.. lol.. den in the evening, play bball after months of stopping.. lol.. Well, my skills drop like hell.. But wadever.. lol.. And had a bbq session with the excos.. lol.. kind of cool..


Went home at 1130pm like tt.. haha.. There wont be much more chances to be able to leave the sch so late doing club things.. lol.. Went home with Eugene and Xiao Wei.. Mostly Eugene coz he live near me.. lol.. During the period of waiting for 112, he told me sth really make me go "so true"


Tt wad he said.. to some maybe these words are nth.. but to me, it meant a lot.. lol..

Few more days left.. And after helping few ppl take their videos, it appears to me tt wad Yuan Ching to me weeks ago is realli sth to think abt..

Why is tt when ppl did not come and ask me for things and after a while it somehow become my fault? Juz dun understand lor..

No mood to continue..

Signing off,
Vincent

I HATE MYSELF!!

hate my face
hate my voice
hate my body
hate my mind
hate my thinking
hate my actions
hate basically everything abt me..

OVERALL
I HATE MY LIFE!!

Today went to watch fireworks with Zaty, Yit Jing, AO, Cheryl, May, Eileen Shui, Eileen Neo, Nicky, Kamal, Alvin Lee, Kenny, Mervyn, Yew King. Meet up at 6pm at city hall.. Was there early so decide to walk ard.. THERE A LOT OF PPL!!! Finally 6plus saw ao.. den meet up with zaty and cheryl... Went to look for Yew King, Nicky, Mervyn and Eileen Neo who happen to want to eat Sakea Sushi. Lol.. AO and i lose Cheryl and Zaty on the way there and decide to meet them there.. LOL.. We went to the wrong sushi resturant.. lol.. When we meet up again.. Yit Jing was with them.. lol.. den called nicky and they change their location to another place.. Found tt place but we cant join them coz too many ppl liao.. den we went to eat subway instead.. lol.. Alvin Lee joined us b4 we left to book a spot.. haha..


7.15 we reach the spot.. waited for 2 hrs b4 everything starts.. 8pm kamal, Yew King, Nicky, Kenny, Mervyn and Eileen Neo joined us.. lol.. Nicky even wanted to take a video of wat is happening... he is mad.. lol..
9.15pm kites start to fly out.. Den Mervyn did the mickey mouse voice and say "Oh boy, Kites!" Everyone ard us LAUGH like hell.. den FIREWORKS!!





After tt May and Eileen Shui met up with us and den we took one grp photo and left for our makan place which initiatly was at a roti prata shop near Orchard, since it will took 1.5 hrs b4 the prata will be served to us, we change location to Chomp Chomp.. lol.. WE ARE STRUCK INSIDE A CARPARK FOR ONE HR!! and there are ppl going the wrong directions.. lol..

Went to club chalet for the past few days..

13/8 day 1
Reach there at ard 3 plus together with Yew King, Yani and Hairul.. Nth much to do there coz not much ppl.. so decide to went for a walk in the beach.. After tt more and more ppl came.. Den went to the beach again to watch sunset.. After tt have chocolate fondue(not sure i spelt correctly anot), thanks to Alvin Lee, May and WS.. Went out with Mervyn to fetch Jessica and XW while on the way, BK.. Den went to Changi Village to help them buy dinner.. lol.. The nasi lemak looks spicy.. Did not get to eat coz bought one less.. Den play JUS with BK..

Eileen, Gladys, Sabby, Wen Tao and Cheryl went out to eat prata.. Juz b4 they came back, there are few sets of knocks on the door and there is no one there.. so skip the rest.. Den played Murderer-Polar Bear.. lol.. Play until super high.. After the game, most are tired and went to slp while sabby went back to sch.. Went to buy mac by eileen's car.. lol.. Went to the kiddy place to slp accompanied by Alvin Lee since there is no space in the chalet.. Actually was to slp, in the end we ended up chatting.. lol.. kimo joined much ltr, den cheryl slowly after Lynn.. lol.. Play dodge ball with Alvin Lee and kimo.. lol.. tiring.. After tt went back to the chalet and went out to eat with Lee, Lynn, Chuan Lim and Kamal.. lol.. Went back on bikes.. haha.. den take a nap..

At ard 3, was woken up by WS coz some of the gals wan to change.. zzz.. Slack outside in the living room.. After some time, Fawze, Fir, Hairul, Mervyn, Nasir, Kamal, Eugene, Yew King and Boon Kin started to sing.. join in for the songs tt i noe.. lol.. Was an enjoyable time. Think the most enjoyable one throughout the chalet.. lol.. den BBQ time.. lol..

Some time in the midst of bbqing, went to the arcade to see Hairul and Boon Kin played para para.. lol.. Boon Kin top the 1st place during his 1st time playing.. lol.. After tt back to satay cooking.. lol.. Celebrated July babies bday.. okay its like kind of late.. Eileen, Xiao Wei, Wen Sheng, Yew King and Boon Kin went out to have some beancurd.. Cycle out to shop and save to get some small bites with Yuan Ching.. lol.. Den went to the pool side to listen to the top 2 perform.. lol.. After a while went back to the chalet liao, wanted to do some stuff.. lol.. but in the end, watch Transformers with Yuan Ching, Wen Sheng and Boon Kin.. Its a bad idea.. coz half way through the show, most of us KO liao... haha..

Helped Kimo pack up the chalet and check the stuff while most ppl are slping.. lol.. den slack ard in the ogls chalet until totally cant take it... went back to get my slp.. lol.. When i wake up, its abt time to leave liao.. lol.

Ending..
Went home with Kamal, Alvin Lee, Wen Sheng, Chuan Lim, Nicky and Boon Kin after lunch at White Sand.. lol..

Reach home really slp through out the day.. wake up onli for dinner and went back to slp.. lol..

Signing off,
Vincent

Currently waiting for sth to dl finish.. Was watching claymore juz now.. Good anime but sth veri funny abt tt show.. When there are blood being spilled, there is this sound. like some robotic sound.. lol..

Animes and mangas/comics somehow interests me a lot.. How this ppl can actually come up with all this things, the storyline, characters, powers and etc.. If only i can draw a simple anime character without destroying it, i think i will be superb happy..

For me, i am a person towards the manga side, coz i can totally go in the world of tt comics and onli come out realising how much time has pass.. In the past i normally juz flip through the pages without actually reading it.. Until one day, one of my friends(i forget who) discuss with me abt one particilar comic tt i read.. tt struck me to read the words.. lol..

Was amazed at how different ppl are.. did not noe how to describe in details.. But juz simply amazed..

Signing off,
Vincent

Never know i am sure a stupid timid person.. Cant even ask kor a simple qsn.. Serious veri stupid..

Signing off,
Vincent

Finally finish my maya project.. actually not consider finish.. coz haven combine them into one video.. lol.. A animation without sound... wahaha.. dunno wad song to put.. lol.. And onli 1 person doing it.. so yea.. did my best.. haha..

Yesterday was voting for the next batch of excos by the ogls themselves.. Super finally when i walked ard.. Looking at wad they write and how they act and the way they vote.. After tt, like having a high time in the club room.. Taking videos of fir, kamal, fawze and yew king singing and more.. lol.. Den was DOTAING!! lol.. Tml can also dota like mad.. wahaha.. EVERYTHING IS FINISH!!

Ppl always says "you wont noe wad will happen until after you take the 1st step!". I agreed to this.. But there is always the second thoughts that are holding me back.. The "What ifs" and the "wad is this person thinking?". I think if i managed to hack all these things, i can do way lots of things and have way lots of fun.. But this needs a lot of courage.. And i have not build enough courage.. Building in progress.. Hope i will be able to do it in time..

Signing off,
Vincent

Today presentation of project and the nightmare is offically OVER!!! wahaha.. Happy and can go celebrate liao.. But hor, still got one last assginment.. Finish 1/3 of it liao.. Hopefully by friday noon can finish everything.. YEA!!

Went to orchard with Yew King, Yuan Ching and Lynn.. lol.. Walk here and there to window shop.. lol.. At kino, Yuan Ching like went missing.. In the end, walk ard to find her but she called and say she at the section tt we were juz now.. lol.. Eat Ajisan.. lol.. den after some photos sessions, Yew King and Lynn head home while Yuan Ching and me headed to another place.. The Ark.. lol.. Go there sit down drink drinks and listen to ppl sing.. lol.. And chat too.. wahaha.. Cool to go new places and explore.. Its cold there.. lol.. Was Fun today!

To Yew King, Yuan Ching and Lynn
"Really very sorry abt juz now.. Did not really know where i wan to go.. Sry to let u all walk ard aimlessly.. Really really sry.. It wont happen again."

YES!! my nose finally bleed.. Been waiting for tt to happen.. lol..

Been wondering if there is a faster way to get close to someone(as a friend).. If there is, i will surely go for it.. Serious.

Signing off,
Vincent

Today spent almost the whole day inside club room trying to do my project.. lol.. Coz at home there is no limit to my internet connection den will have the temptation to go and play on9 games.. And i cant resist them.. lol... Den dun like to work inside lab coz there is a lot of ppl ard and will lose focus very fast... Since today not many ppl go to the club room so can work inside.. haha.. But as more excos came to the club room.. my focus gone.. wahaha.. usual thing for me.. BUT i did sth hor!!!

At night went out to makan with Mevryn, Kamal, Alvin Lee and Yuan Ching.. lol.. Went to thomson there again.. (spell wrong) but this time eat Roti Prata.. lol.. Amazing tt i did not shit right after.. coz i got a weak disgustive system.. cant take spicy food.. hee hee.. The food was nice.. I think its because i did not eat for the whole day.. wahaha.. After dinner went to Ice Kimo to eat ice cream.. haha.. this time i did not get anything.. was saving money for Wolfie's visit to the vet.. Den Mevryn send Yuan Ching home follow by Kamal then Alvin Lee and lastly me.. Lol.. The ride was full of joy and laughter and fun.. wahaha.. Joking abt everything we could.. haha.. COOL!! Should have more of these..

During the course of eating, i notice how the others eat.. lol.. Super funny.. Their action and reaction when the food comes.. Like 10 years did not eat like tt.. I mean the guys.. wahaha..

Thanks Mevryn for the ride home.. Its an enjoyable one.. haha..

Lesson Learnt : Put the camera inside my pocket where ever i go!

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Maybe i tried too hard on the wrong ppl.. Maybe there are already ppl that are already willing to welcome me.. only tt i did not take notice of it.. But wadever the case is.. I am glad i am there at the point of time and finally discovered these.. And i will keep on trying.. A big thanks..

THANK YOU!

Signing Off,
Vincent

After 3 days of visitng the vet, Wolfie is finally getting better.. Yea.. Tml dun need to go back to the vet liao.. but sat have to go back for a follow up check up.. Hope everything will turns out fine..

Today is the day of my final paper.. wahaha.. happy.. dun need to realli study for exams anymore.. But there is still 1 sem project and 1 maya project to do.. And every thing is due next week.. So after next thursday i will be offically free.. ^^ Hope everything turn out okay...

Yesterday was chatting with YC abt some issues.. Den there is this statement tt she says and i totally agreed with her.. A real person is different from a photo.. Its super true.. A photo is juz an evidence of a piece of memory.. But a real person is real.. Interaction can be done with a real person but there is no way interaction can be done through a photo.. So ya.. Juz totally agreed with her..
Den she say abt who is significant to her and all this.. was sth like emo talk.. okay shall not go into details..

This is taken from a comic.. Calvin and Hobbes..


Two words.. TOTALLY TRUE!

Signing Off,
Vincent