Of Love and Life..

I'm soooooooo happy for you!!!!! =)
That you've found love!!!!!!
hahahah, really really glad... =P

The power of loveeeeeeeee...

Anyways, on a side note, i'm going away again!!! and when i'm back, i'll still have just a few more days. 3 to be exact.. 3 more days and i will be ex-HP... mixed feelings, but i've been feelin loved so far, having all those lunches and dinners... i know i've made some true friends!
After which, that's when my turmoil begins.. the unknown, the future, what lies ahead... hmmm, take things as it goes.
It's funny, how my colleague tried to play matchmaker.. he's really so so so so so so old fashioned that i burst out laughing everytime i read his SMS...
And to begin with, i have never received any SMS from him during my entire stay in HP, except for NOW... this is funny.. i hear stories about this ex HP guy EVERY LUNCH.. you know how old people like to nag. So here goes:

you call me and say "wait, wait, wait.. i'm comin.. wait for me!!! just say hi only"
so here he comes and i go " hi, nice to meet you"
*THE END*

you SMS: Can i give him your mobile number? (this is how cheesy.. just made me burst out laughing halfway through lunch)
me: Anything, i sui2 bian4
you: Biz Card of WRONG PERSON!! haha, sent me our prod sup's number instead..
me: Uncle, send wrong liao. Anyways, nvm.
you: Biz card of right person now..
me: OK, thanks!
you: ya, now it's up to both of you
*The End*

OMG, it was sooooooooo funny! i just kept laughin n laughin all afternoon...
Aiyah, but it's still funny how small the world is... eventually we did meet up and he's like my ex teammate's BROTHER!!!! This is weird... =
haha

I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo disappointed...
Nothing can describe how i feel now.. just sucks big time..
I hate this and i hate myself for feelin like this.....
i was Extremely happy and lookin forward to my dive trip and voila!
i needn't explain further... KNS!!

I know it's not your fault and i'm not sayin it is but somehow indirectly, it's still your fault..
Doesn't make sense? Means i'm still a girl.. this is totally girl language..

Urrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh... it's so frustrating!!!!!

Well that aside, i manage to be rid of these feelings for an hours by a mega shoppin spree at mango.. they're havin a sale!! and my colleague and i went crazy... spent a few hundred dollars.. As always, i hate going to the sale and seein stuff that i bought some time back much cheaper now.. So i always have to console myself by saying that at least i enjoyed 10% discount back then and they're run out of sizes..haha.. it was awesome, gettin there before EVERYTHING gets very very MESSED Up!!

so now my thoughts are back to the sucky issue, totally regretting some bad things i said..
i'm gettin a headache from all these thoughts fillin my brain.. i need a break... =(

I'm like F***ing upset... =(

JILEI's Farewell (My other PIG...)

IRENE's FAREWELL.......

Was just going through my friend's blog and i realised it's much more interesting with pictures, so i'm gonna slowly add in more pictures! =) admire her patience doing it... coz i'm already sick of uploading my few pathetic pictures! hahahaha
Anyways, here's presenting:

My BANGKOK Trip! =)

Finally have the time to sit down and blog, without having a head full of thoughts!!

It's really crazy the past few days... talking, explaining, being "scolded" and clarifying stuff.. it's just driving me bananas... such that i dont even feel like talking anymore.. =P

well, i'm glad i did it... i finally tendered my resignation on monday, after signing my new contract... meaning to say, yes.. i'm confirmed going to work with the new company and i'll be going away for some time... now with the great singapore sale, i feel like there are soooooo many things i need to buy.. too much things, too little money... sucks.. gotta draw up a list already.. and a packing list...

Anyways, back to my life... had a really fun day on sunday!!!!!! it's like something i havent done in a long while.. but picnic-ing with the ladies.. it's just great fun! =) Here are some pictures..

So there we go... it was a funfilled afternoon.. with chips, sandwiches, frisbee and soccer! =) and Bren just looks so tai tai!!!! It was funny as well coz Minli was kidnapped in Filip's mini school bus and it was only when i took it myself that it really DID make you feel like you're a fugitive or something... haha

Monday came, it was a stressful day.. Thank goodness for the great lunch i had @ Sakae.. Had so much fun, though it was just a chat and a meal.. Anyways, when i finally had time to do the deed, i was all panicky and my heart was racing... My boss asked for his 'present' when i said i wanted to see him.. made me feel so bad.. and the whole conversation was kinda awkward when i tendered... i was just glad that it was over in just half an hour!!!

Funny how words spread... by that evening, our secretary knew already!! She text me.. (well we're pretty close..) so i thought i had to let my immediate colleagues know before they find out from others.. out of courtesy.. so i text them and there goes my whole evening... Sending text and feeling sad/bad/glad, whatever, you can just name it coz it's amazing how many emotions can fill you up simultaneously..

Finally got over it at night and come the next day, i was called into the meetin room for yet another "chat" with my boss.. goodness.. and i thought it was over.. the usual talk and tryin to make me stay... well, me being the emo nemo as usual felt like tearing, but i had good control.. =P and since he cant offer me anything, there's no point even thinking about staying.. so it's more or less fixed...

Other than being boycott for awhile by my guys here, they've been tryin to catch up with me and tease me while i'm there.. =P The hard part is finally over....

PS: i'm soooooooooooooooo lookin forward to next weekend!

The toughest office conversation in my life...
make that the TWO toughest conversations.. Got called twice and both lasted an eternity...

It's a done deal.

Negotiations can be such a tiring thing….. Going to and fro.. Especially through exchanges of email… Through phone is slightly better.. But it always sucks when you're talkin to someone who cant make a decision and needs to get back to you on every single thing... gosh, it's driving me crazy..
Having too much bargainin power can be a bad thing it seems…

Looks like the road forward is more or less paved.. Sacrifices need to be made.. Was just tellin woman today about being very reluctant to give up my kids, but she said its okie, as if it was something soooooo minor… and when I come to think of it, it is... Jeez.. i really gotta learn to look at the bigger things in life and have an open heart.. Maybe that explains the difference in where we are in our lives now... she's always the well organised and well thought out person... hahaha
anyways, that helped me a lot in making my decisions…

looking forward to the few months away actually.. Away from everything else and just chill and relax (other than work).. It definitely will help me make my time pass by easier so that by the time I come back, it's more or less judgement day... the intricate complicated stuff should come to an end and we will know how to move on from here... I'll either be in ecstasy or devastated..

Thinking about it, it's the first time I leave home for a long period of time… People go on exchange for months or those who study overseas get out for years… now I'll know how it feels like.. But it's somewhat different, coz studying and working are 2 different things.. if u dont do well in your studies, try harder and after all, most of the exchange programmes are for us to go there and have fun! working, however is like venturing into the total unknown. Accommodation, travelling around, social life everything is a mystery. Unlike a school, you can make fast and close friends, working wise, people may not care less about you.. think about your workplace now, there aren't many who will bother to pay more attention to your life or even listen to your troubles...

Also, if you get into trouble, you jolly well gotta settle it on your own coz it's your bread and butter. You cant run away from it or get a 2nd chance.. That's the reality in life..
Oh well, I'm perfectly fine with all these, just that my parents are gonna have to get used to me not being around for so long..haha, after all even when I was stayin in hall, I see them every weekend..

So anyone with nice entertainin movies, dramas and songs, please give me so that when I get lonely, I have entertainment! Mwahahaha =P

June is here!!!
I'm about to make yet another major change in my life... as usual, i have a volatile life, susceptible to changes.. be it love life or career or whatever...
Anyways, i think i'm most probably gonna change my job and this one, is gonna be very fulfilling, but it required me to really think hard and long before deciding on it... well, i'm still thinking but at least now it's like 80-90%..
It's really mind boggling..
I need to give up my piano kids... Although i always complain about lessons coz they take up my weekends, i really do love them and the oldest one, i have taught her for like 6 years... how time flies!!! even the youngest one has been with me for 4 years or so... sigh.. i really hate to give them up... =(
I need to sacrifice my floorball as well... Well, it's just for the next 6 months, so hopefully i can still be back in time for the league... Meanwhile, must try to keep fit while i'm there...
Lastly, the comfort of my home, family and friends... OK, guess i'm exaggerating.. after all, it's only for 6 months.. but then again, if things go well, they may extend my stay there or i may need to travel more frequently... it's really quite an unknown for now...

so i'm actually still kinda lost..hahaha
At the same time, i'm vexed about other stuff...... like why are you SO HELPFUL?!?!
faint..... i really cant fathom what you're thinking..

And for the past week, i was really pissed... for some weird reason, everyon was gettin on my nerves and i think i have qigong or something coz other people's feet are being stepped by my insivible forces... double wow!
And some guys are just so so so so so so barbaric.. the way they talk and all... cant stand them..

One last thing that really got to me.. i was really upset when i found one of my colleague recently picked up smoking.. he's like a really really gd boy, so i was really caught by surprise when i found out he just started smokin 2 months back.. reason being: STRESSED! and i was thinkin, dude, you really need to get out of your job... QUIT! so i'm helpin him look ard and making sure he's working hard at sending out resumes.. i really hate to see him become like this.. He's really hating his job now and i totally understand how he feels, so i really wish for him to get out.. coz to be stressed to that extent.. for a job? it's really really not worth it......
As a friend, a good friend, i really care for him and hope he leaves this shithole soooooooooooooooooonnnnnnn...........