Of Love and Life..

OK, my 3rd day at work.. so far so good.. =)

haha, slowly just finding things to do around here...
Yesterday was a tiring day coz i went out to the plant... other than that, pretty much nothing else... Went to the mall to walk around, do some grocery shopping and have dinner with Porter n Nic... We actually had Sushi King there... hahaha, but there's really nothin much to shop over there!!! N it's quiet, unlike the malls in singapore... =(

It's only been 3 days but i'm beginnin to learn more things in the office and more about the PEOPLE in the office.. like who are weirdos, whose toes you dont wanna step, who does work, who does not.. bla bla bla... it's interesting.. anyways, these 2 interns are headin over to singapore over the weekend! wish i was in their shoes... sighhhh.. and they'll head back to school in another week's time, so yeah... that will be 2 lesser friends (who are younger) around here...

I just learnt i'm gonna get a car.. a rundown one.. but better than nothin i guess.. and i just called home.. coz my dad says my mum misses me... well, i miss them too... but ermmm yeah.. ok.. i miss them.haha

i just got a mail this morn that made me feel so close to home... sigh.. makes me just smile to myself when i read it.. n i have all these really really nice HP folks and my close friends just emailing me to ask how i was.. makes me feel like i'm somewhat still alive... today will be a quiet day and hopefully i'll get home early to rest.. been up till late every night, i need to catch up on my zzz.. =)

A quiz i got off my friend's blog. It's so true about myself...hmmmm.... somehow...
Visit http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

DAY 2 in Kuantan

I survived day 1!!! =)
it really wasn't all that bad.. thank goodness they got my air con fixed yesterday so that at least i slept better last night... But the air con in the living room still ain't workin!!! urghhh.. n this morn my flush couldn't work.. darn..hahaha

Well anyways, my boss took me out to lunch yesterday.. to a lobster seafood meal to welcome me... and after work, Nick took me to Sunday bar, bought me a welcome beer (crap) and then showed me the apartments where he and the rest of the company pple stays.. their apartments are soooooo much nicer!! :( im jealous.. the interior is cosier and they've got a nice seaview!!! damn... but i must say the beach here is really vast.. unlike in singapore... i'll probably check them out over the weekend... I've got a really cool swimmin pool in the condo itself too...

Dinner with Ritchie, Porter, Nick and yan leng (dont know how to spell).... it was just zhi2 char4... and ermmm, great food here!! Well, dinner's on Ritchie and after that we had Strawberry Malibu @ his place altogether... i'm keepin a close tab on all the drinks and stuff, just in case.. since i'm a girl alone with them....... so no worries..
All's great! :) Gettin my act together so that i can enjoy my 6 months...

Friday there's gonna be a BBQ @ Ritchie's place with the usual gang and my boss, An will be around... so it will be good to mingle together.. get to know people...

just came back from the plant and its like a workout..walkin the massive distance in the hot sun.. PHEW... but its GREAT.. i love it coz time passes by so much faster.. :)

Missing ya...

Well, i'm finally in Kuantan...
They managed to change my lodging at the last minute.. thank goodness..... so instead of sharin a house with 3 other people, i got my own place!! :)
Yay, itz at Tembeling, machiam condo style... but problem is i dont have internet connection there! so upset...
but that's alright.. will be gettin the people here to arrange it for me.. but it will take a while to be hooked up.. meanwhile, it's just dramas and ermmm occasional grocery shoppin or movies with the guys here...

My office is at the plant and as expected of a site office, not so glam... but as long as i have my own table and space, i'm fine... things here are pretty relaxed.. own time own target... N my boss here will try to get me a car, so that will be great! much more freedom, else i'll be cooped up at home most of the time!

I've been here for a day and feels like 6 months already! isn't it time to go home? hahahaha :P

My last blog entry while i'm still in Singapore..
How can you not love CHangi Airport??? With all these free internet access all around...
It was easier than i thought.. Perhaps not time for all the weepy stuff coz my dad had to go back to work...

Last night was tough.. way way much tougher than i thought...

i was just askin my friend the other day... is your bf romantic?
and she said... well, not really.. more sweet than romantic...

That got me thinkin... i think romance is very much subjective... what is romantic to you, may not be romantic to someone else.... coz everyone's expectations is different...
So i guess itz not a question that can be answered easily....

N what happens if a guy is neither romantic or sweet?
Hahahaha he is in such deep sheet... :P
i think even geeks can do better than this....

At the request of a Ziggy who complained my blog is too full of words.......













Bunch of HP Managers.....all came down to railway mall...

YAy!!!! My very first meeting in my new company...
haa, its funny i tell you, this company here doesn't have meetings very much often..
And like i've been sayin, it is surprisingly even slower paced than HP... which i have no complaints about.. but i've got a gut feelin all these will change when i get to Kuantan...
n guess what, i love the bosses here... they're so much more easy going in terms of money matters... farewell drinks on the house... i heard they spent like $1.5k on drinks alone...
ANd Just just just, our big big big boss just treated us to starbucks breakfast... how sweet? :)
wow...

Anyways, i've decided NOT to go away for the weekend.. so that i can spend more time with my family and loved ones... After all, i figured i wont be VERY happy if i go anyways.. and i'll be payin $400 n not be happy.. for what ya? When i know i will be happy if i just stayed... I suppose we could do with more time together... =)

Am totally in a zombieeeeeeeeee state now... slept @ like 3am...
it's funny.. everytime i'm early, others will be late.. when i'm late, others will be early... strange...... anyways, not that i have any complaints... i remembered that ji lei will be busy with T3 openin ceremony, which is today.. after takin a look, it's really not that fantastic... although i must say they certainly do have lots of eateries...

Lookin on, i'm really envious of those people who are doing their dream jobs.. its like such a wonderful thing, to be able to fulfil your aspirations n such... n i kinda regret that i didn't have one when i was young...... i tried very hard to think n REALLY, i have never thought of what i wanna be when i was young.. probably coz my parents never asked me...... Anyways, sometimes i wonder if those people really work for their passion or for money... esp if its a higher payin job..... i really wonder..

For the longest time, i haven had the Bedok Bak CHor Mee, so was really nostalgic to eat it again.. too bad the authentic store closed already... that place is still like how happenin @ 2am......

i SERIOUSLY need to get started on my packing man... darn.. i've only dumped my stuff into the luggage, which is bulging n yet i have been too lazy to sit down n pack nicely... i'm in such deep sheet.. i think tonight is the night to really sit down n pack PROPER...

Met up with the Ex HP girls last night... it was fun and filled with laughted as usual... Then again, it soon went on with talks of wedding preparations... which never fails to make me jittery coz of all the procedures and superstitious things you need to do, it's never endin i tell you... different dialects with different requirements... n in the end, its a FUSION, EVERYTHING also need to do... i tell you, its crazy..
I had this conversation with XH and Macy before the rest came as well.. about the Chief of Honour.... which ones are good.. and i am strongly against the recite together procedure.. i've been through so many and i've never seen a proper recitation together by the bride n bridegroom.. i find it weird....Personally, i prefer the church styles... or basically just the "read your own vow" kind... Doesn't necessarily have to be your own... but i thought it will be more meaningful to create your own vow... i ALSO think that it's more sincere to memorize your VOW before hand.. so that on the day, you dont have the 'HUH?' and 'what?' situation... and your vow is supposed to be extremely sincere and say it to your partner, look him in the eye, instead of fumbling... i've been to one, whereby they read the entire para, holdin hands, lookin at each other in the eye.. that is sooooooooo much better than those other Solemnizations i've been to.......

Had a short dessert meet up @ my beloved PS cafe again.. this time it was fudgy brownie and boy, it was Oooooomph!! haha.. got home before 1130... such a gd girl.. but it wasn't till 130am when i turned in...

Finally, i'm feelin closer to my new colleagues.. i think thanks to this guy's farewell... we actually had a group lunch and joked around and i'm on everyone's MSN, so things are movin along n feelin better.. sad thing is i'm leavin them liao... hahaha, irony....

OK, pretty much peaceful today.. I was just thinkin, since i've got nothin much to do.. let me just list down the to do n not to do for weddings! haha, you'll be surprised i tell you...

1) Need pig's legs cans (tew ka guan)
2) REAL pork's legs
3) Female side parents must give the Bridegroom a pair of pants
4) Need 2 fans (or shan4 zi3)
5) Bride must carry umbrella (strange huh???)
6) must throw the dunno what yin2 zi3
7) must have oil lamp at bedside
8) Must give XO liquor
9) si4 dian3 jing1
10) must eat tang yuan on the day
11) Cannot look back when u leave the house
12) must have metal wash basin and the potty pot
13) ONE BIG ROST PORK
14) Gate crashing can only eat sweet things (this one got different versions)
15) cannot take off shoes in new house?
16) girls parents will buy the new bed sheets for her...
17) everythin received must give back half
18) dont know why my bro's weddin got a basket of ferrero rochere
19) must have many many pple in new house
20) must have boy roll on bed
21) wait for the good time (liang2 chen2 ji2 ri4)

I'm tired already.... see? still dare to get married?!?!?!?!?!

I knew this was coming when i allowed myself to get into it...
And i fell for it more than i expected myself too... sinking deeper than i thought i would...
So much so that it hurts, coz what i feared seems to be comin true...
Causing hurt to people around me.. I so wanted to get away back then, now i'm havin 2nd thoughts.. n it just isn't helpin that people ard me are makin me think that i'm makin a bad choice... doesn't help that my parents are constantly naggin already..

Last night was torture for me.. the short time we talked, it just made me feel from bad to terrible to horrible to torturous to pain... i was surprised by my own emotions actually, that i felt so much.. maybe it was PMS.. hahaha
Coz i just basically felt like sheet.. what with the diving trip i'm supposed to go to.. i'm beginnin to wonder if its such a gd idea after all... i'll see how it goes.. right now, they seem to have problem findin the receipt for the deposit i paid.. if they're gonna deny that i've made payment, i'll just forgo the deposit and give it a miss readily...

am in a torn state now actually.. then again, i'm always thinkin about other people.. tryin my best to accommodate n help them... perhaps i should think more for myself... haha

My first tears...
It just hurts so much
there n then..
Yet there was nothing i can do..
Seems like i'm the root cause of all evil.
Painful, it is..

I need chocolates.

Life's been so good.... TOo good so far in fact... that i cant believe this is happenin to me...
Just speechless...

Now, i'm just thinkin n thinkin n thinkin real hard whether to go for my diving trip... just so that i can spend more time at home with my loved ones and to hang out in singapore so that it's not so rush... coz currently, the way i look at it, i'll be headin off on Fri night, back on sun pretty late and on Mon, i gotta fly off!!
On the other hand, i can think of so many things i can do if i stay..i'll catch Ballet under the Stars on Sat night, go for NYP friendly on Sat... Send Em off.. Have another piano lesson on sat maybe? ermmm, spend time with my family on Sun, have a nice dinner.. maybe catch another movie b4 i go... haiiiiiiii

If it weren't an Advanced diving course and just a normal leisure dive, i would have cancelled it without hesitation.. but i really wanna get certified with this bunch of mates... Then again, if a person cant dive after doing Lasik, seems like i'm short of quite a few buddies.. a few girls used to dive n have gone for Lasik, so how to plan for a trip together??!?!?

haiii, this has been drivin me crazy last night n today... TORN...

Well anyways, last night i met up with the group of drinkers @ Blooies @ Railwaymall.. it was really funny and i had such a gd time... great to see my mama again... N Constance, who has been keepin me company for the past week n this week while i TOTALLY rot in office.. great to see the new father of 3, Ham since i missed him on my last day.... as well as the other jie jie n kor kor... After which i went home to get the car and gave him a lift away...
I really dont like the idea of sending people off... makes me sad.. but at least i was happy durin the process of the drive...hahaa, drivin back was much less eventful...

Also yesterday, the thing that was buggin me since i started workin kinda got resolved... coz the person who brought me into my new job hasn't been very happy n to finally hear from him that all's more or less gd has kinda resolved my worries...

Today's just gonna be yet another day n i sooooooo need to get home n rest... AND START PACKING... goodness... now i understand why people always pack last minute.. coz everytime i want to pack, i'll be thinking "i still need to use this"...n after awhile, it seems like there's pretty much nothin i can put in without takin it out again... but i guess i'm near enough to my departure date already... Time to get started!!

I'm sure time will pass by very quickly when i'm there and we'll work hard to reach the next level so that everything will be paved nicely (well, it's already nice as it is now.. just perhaps even NICER?? or more comfy) when i get back... i'll probably try to escape back after a month or so on one of the weekends, so dont worry too much.. :P

darnnnnnnnnnnnn i typed like 2 long paragraphs and poof, everythin disappeared!!!!! =(

was just wonderin why i had no entry on Friday.... i would have blogged since i'm MSN-ing the whole day... strange.. Anyways, my weekend came n left toooooooo quickly!!!
Picked him up and went to CHin Lee for dinner... it was one of my family's fav restaurant while we were stayin in the east.. food's great as usual.. but seems to be more pricey now... was contemplatin eatin the blk 85 bak chor mee, but decided against it.. looked to smart to eat there that night... N SOooooooooooo coincidentally, i bumped into my cousin there and my fav niece n nephew were therE!!! so cuteeeeeee... hahaha, seein them always brighten up my day...

My bro decided to come home for dinner that night, so it was crazy.. i dropped him off to change n dump his barangs then i dropped off my car so that my dad can send my bro home... then we went to blooie's for some drinks...
Sat was a long, long, long day for me.. i woke up early to pack my farewell gifts for my kids... it was my last lesson for them and, i felt sad durin all the lessons.. watchin them play and listenin intently... haiii, sad.. after all, it's been 6 years or so with them!!! by the time i was done, it was like 4 ish.. got home, quick wash up and i was off again.. we went to Novena Sq for dinner @ curry favour while they discussed the weddin stuff for one of their bros... Listenin to all the coordination and plannin puts me off a little.. coz i've been through it more than once n i know how tedious and tiring it is... so much so that i dont really feel like going through the entire process for myself! haha...
Ooooo, we bought donuts! and i was thinkin of the donut twins when i was there...hahaha, too bad they're not workin there anymore!! =P Headed over to Suntec to catch Red Cliff... it was alright, though there's a part 2!! xianz... Headed over to PS Cafe @ Dempsey after that and the double choc was absolutely delicious... absolutely sinful, but it was goooooooood... they close @ 2am though... so ermmm ya, another late night..

Sun morn i was up early... then i headed off to vivo's Serenity to meet up with 5M.. It's a really nice place n i strongly recommend it.. it was supposedly my farewell, but it sounds a little sad.. thank goodness i combined it with LY's bdae, so it was more of that than some sad farewell thingy... n yeah, i had loads to update them.. bout my new job n stuff...
Headed off to HV Essential Brews after that... to meet up with the fb babes... hhaha, just for drinks and snacks... touched, touched.. to see quite a few of them turn up for me... heeeeee, too bad em wasn't able to make it due to bad cramps... sigh sigh...

We hung around and waited for our dinner dates to come and everyone parted from there... i guess its the last i see a few of them until a few months later... it's really gonna feel like a long time.. coz sometimes if we skip trainin for just a wk.. it already feels like a longgggggggg time...
headed all the way to far east... in pasir ris... wanted to eat @ fisherman's village, only to discover it's been demolished since Oct 2007! i feel so ku ku.. so we ate @ summer breeze instead... hung around... drove to seletar to check out the place he had his trainin n the famous chicken wing place! haha.. it was a sunday night but we hung out till a bit late still... i'm ok but my parents are a little unhappy that im tiring myself.. but what the heck... i'm gonna be a loner for a few months, am gonna entitle myself to more time with my friends..

Only thing is i wont get to see my bro b4 i leave coz he'll be flyin off to europe for his work on thursday.. so i'll have to see him only when he gets back...

Gosh, it's monday and it's pouring... how gloomy.. :(

PS: It's a boyyyyyyyyyyy for his family! hahaha

yes, its me again...

Can someone tell me if there's something wrong with my tagboard and how to fix it?!?!?!

OK, my tagboard seems to have an error everytime i come into the page.. wonder what's wrong..... must be some bug... :(

Anyways, yesterday was officially my 2nd last training i suppose... feels gd, just playing games.. but at the same time feel sad la.. damn it..... now i soooooooooo dont feel like going away... gawd... shucks......
Well, i'm seriously quite packed for this comin weekend and over next week.. but i would really like to spend some quality time with my close friends, so... yeah, time management!!!

ya know what.. it's the very first time someone tells me "i wont let anyone or anything hurt you"... and it feels gd hearing it.. it just didn't dawn on me that any guy will say that to me.. given my physique, tall, big-sized.. who will dare to bully me ya? hahaha, so to hear this for the very first time.. i'm touched. And to think i am still capable of bringin about a change in a Geek's life?! at this age?!?! wow, that's something new.. :P

ok.. yet another day of stoning.. and i gotta do this for yet another week!! arghhh.. drivin me crazy...
am brain dead now, so shall stop here... still tired from trainin last night!!! mwhahahah old already..

OH YA... n i seriously think i should start takin better care of my legs.. (yeah, should have started that eons ago)... my knees are seriously startin to have that niggling pain whenever i climb stairs or sit too long...it's not very pain, but it's like gettin rusty or something, i can feel it being stiff n all... scares the hell out of me.. a sign that i'm gettin old... =

ok.. 2nd post in a day... goes to show how bored i am!!!

Alright... i just got back from lunch N a visit to my grandma @ TTSH... she was admitted last night coz of lung infection.. which sounds serious.. but actually it's just that she has too much phlegm and thus, havin difficulty breathing... But all's good and she will be discharged tomorrow.. Just that when i was there, she looked so frail and tiny in bed... My heart was torn.. even though we're not very close like most other grandparent and grandchildren relationships, i still love her very much.. Seein her and yet not being able to ease her discomfort in any way, that sucks...
So while i was there, i just held her fragile hands in mine, give her a massage and tried feedin her, but she just had no appetite.. .and was very quiet... but she's normally quiet, so no complaints...

yup, so that was a hellava emotional roller coaster over lunch and now i'm just moody with lotsa thoughts.. like i cant help but think about how everyone's life starts off in a hospital and that every woman has to end up in a hospital bed, like it or not... (unless you dont intend to give birth)... and how thankful i am for everything.... that my friends and family or people around me for that matter, are healthy and hopefully happy...
That how come people come into my life miraculously, totally out of the blue. Which i have come to think of as fate. How you mould your life to what you want it to be like...

With that, i end off with the song "Fly Away" by Corrinne May.. my all time favourite...

I have mastered the technique of meditation..... to just sit at my desk n do nothing can be such a torture... so i have learnt to sit n stone without fallin asleep.. albeit thanks to MSN.. mwahahahahhahha and the various folks who have been ard to keep me company......

as you can see, i'm really bored.. i probably have things to do.. and be good and really look through the excel spreadsheets, but there's just no govt here such that i lack discipline... of coz, i do look at it now n then...... hah, i think it's because i know that basically there's really just nothin much for me to do while i'm here as they've got my trainin plan only for Msia...

Anyways, its okie.. this is the time i'll blog more... and when my thoughts start comin in...
Had a quick chat with a gal yest... one of my closer friends.. i realise we are pretty similar when it comes to relationship... or rather, i think we are the 'same' kinda girlfriends... n not that i'm braggin or what, i guess we are a rare species. We adore indepence and some amount of freedom. We are understandin and prefer not to kick up a ruckus if possible. What we will do is we will approach the problem or issue upfront and discuss... we do not like to go around the prob or just hope that with time, things will get better.. not quite... so it's nice talkin to someone who thinks the same as you do...

Then again, of coz.. when we are the way we are in a relationship, we may have to tolerate certain things that may be unfair to us.. but that's life and perhaps that's what make the guys like us to begin with... like we are easy to hang out with and easy to please i suppose... maybe we're being too easy on the guys already.. mwahahahah
anyways, it's funny how she's becomin my 'mum' .. e way she say, wah this one 'bao jia'... haha, damn funny...

Anyways, 2 heartbreak stories of yet another 2 friends totally spoiled my day... got me so upset..... i just hope they get over it and i hope what they did is right for them...... i always tell people that whatever they do, just make sure they're happy and dont regret.. that's most impt.. after all, life is short. Live it to the fullest... =)

And another thing... Thanks for makin me feel like i'm the world! come back quick...

Things are happening faster than i expected...
I'm at my 2nd day at work.. and i'm bored to tears!!!
Basically i've got nothing to do as my training plan is for my stay in Kuantan...
So these 2 weeks i'm just gonna come into office and rot.. look at brochures, old files and get used to the admin system i guess... but so far so good.. the people here are pretty nice... small company, so not as intimidatin.. neither do i have the prob of tryin to remember names!!!

What have i been doing over the weekend..you have no idea... i've got a busy sat as usual and i met up with char n yin for dinner @ HV coffee club... somehow we always end up meetin at coffee club... it was a gd meet up to hear about updates on their lives... one gettin married, one thinkin of a breakup... and i was really worried about her coz of some of the problems she was undergoing currently.. so i was being aunt aggy n all and helped to share my opinions... so i told her whatever she do, just make sure that she wont regret and that she's happy.. i'm glad the next day she made the call to settle at least 1 of her probs... tryin to see if i can squeeze a day or a few hours to catch her b4 i leave to see how she's doing.. sigh, no time no time!!!!!!

I went on to One Rochester for some food and drinks.. and back to drop off the car, b4 headin to railway mall Harry's for more... we finished off one bottle and went back... had a little chat.. it's funny and sweet at the same time! gettin drunk or high to admit some things... Cute!
so by the time i went to bed, it was 5am... been so long since i stayed awake till so late.. considering you just knocked off and met up with me without gettin to rest.. poor thing..... hai...
so i guess that 12th of july marked a special day in my calendar...

Sunday i went to the farm near lim chu kang.. this neo tiew rd or something.. ulu place.. but it was really sweet! this place is like a little mini plant.. family biz called bollywood.. famous for their kuehs and organic food, though i found them a tad bit pricey! after that we went for dinner @ Timbre.. it was funny coz they only served Pizza that night and so we didn't have much of a choice... and off we went to PS to catch Hellboy... it's an action flick with a hint of romance... kinda sweet and funny at times... =)

Now Monday... i was startin to get withdrawal symptoms.. at the thought of havin to get back to workin life the next day.. the end of my tai tai life!!!!!! He picked me up at 3pm, havin gone through some interrogation at home..hahaaaa, and we headed over to sentosa via cable car... haven really done it b4, so it was a cool experience.. Felt really tourist-y and it was fun... since the past few times i've been there were to hang out at the beach... got back to mt faber, hung ard a little and b4 we knew it, it was like 9 plus and we haven had dinner, so we got back to Alexander village to eat the HK street zhu2 chao3...

And there you go, my last moments b4 i turn in and wake up to go to work... it's funny how he wanted to retake a module over and over again... soooooooooooo cute lo.. but i really gotta give it to him for his courage la...

Yesterday was my first day.. everythin was set up, so at least i can just chat on msn the whole day instead of sittin there n rot..hahahah, this is cool... he met me at my workplace and visited his fencin buddies b4 we headed to esplanade for dinner @ humble house... it's like how atas? luckily i wore a little more formal yesterday... haha, it's fine dining for chinese / fusion delicacy... and boy was it tasty.. though we ended up eatin too much... very very full!!
went for a walk to digest some of the food stuff b4 we headed back early coz he gotta work the next day le..

so i've got another 2 weeks b4 i take off but i've got many things planned and not much time left to hang out with my family / loved ones and friends!!! will just have to make the best of it..

Some things are spiralling beyond my control...
Whether or not i should go with the flow or listen to my heart or be rational, i dont know...
It's all comin together so fast that it's scary..
The whole world's coming at it TOGETHER and we find it really hilarious...

My past 3 days of tai tai life is gone!!! =( i've only got Monday left to rot before i start work...
i really hope the place will be OK!! I've been such a good girl over the past 3 days..
Tho i got a little upset yesterday coz things keep gettin cancelled yest.. First, beach volley Due to rain (eventually the sun came out).. Next is PT.. hahahah, coz of rain again.. so me, being all eager to go out after bein cooped up at home all day, was stuck at home all day!!!

Wednesday i went to run errands for my mum.. helped her settle her bank stuff...you know how old people are.. insist on queuing up to get things update n stuff, when i can just use the machine.. so i had to do the queuin for her at THREE banks... brought her out for nice lunch.. Bought Coffee Bean Hot Choc for her.. (she's hooked to hot choc).. but starbucks one tastes better!!!

Today, i brought her shopping... it's been a long time since i did this...i used to do it every school holiday with her.. but have yet to do this since i started workin... n i felt really bad.. so i brought her out today and we found a couple of nice tops for her from OG (Old Girls - the only place she shops).. she only gets her clothes from NINA... so we're lucky to find some nice ones...
i paid them, as a gift for her birthday since i will be away by then... It's funny coz i've been seein the same salesgirl serve my mum for the past 5 years or so.. she recognises me and my mum and knows her taste.. and everytime she says the same thing... hahaha

Tomorrow has finally come.. been waitin a tad bit long for you to come back... lookin forward to see what you've gotta say... haha, it has been funny so far... :P

Just b4 i left Macau, i finally met up with wei young and since i had lunch with some ladies that day, i met him for dinner instead & caught "Wanted" which was all so exaggerating.. and Angelina Jolie didn't have that much to do in the show... After which, i left for Macau over the weekend...

Back from Macau... It was a pretty boring place.. just full of casinos and uncles playing...

Then again, i was glad for the break from work and time to just chill n relax.. Except for the fact that i'm pretty sick of Chinese food now coz we eat chinese restaurant food EVERY DAY, LUNCH & DINNER.... haha..

Well no complaints.... the reason i even went was to keep my parents company.. since i'll be going away for a long time come end july... just spend some time with them...



Once i came back, it was crazy busy at work.. with all the last min handover i had to do... goodness.. i didn't even have much time to nua or rot like my other colleagues who have tendered... their last few days were a breeze.. Luckily the weekend came quickly.. I had to teach then went for trainin as usual on sat.. came home after that and met up with him for late dinner @ Keppel Bay Prive... such a lovely place! and i wasn't even aware of its presence till now.. We were supposed to catch Sex & the City but it was too late so we decided to just chill out there... n i had 2 martinis.. *HIGH...

So ended up catchin Sex & the City on Sunday.. (FINALLY).. i really loved the show.. the story and how it reflects women's thoughts... it was great! and the day just ended all too soon.. :)



Monday came and i was in zombie mode the moment i entered office.. taking longer than usual to look at things and to try to remember every single detail in my head... i was startin to miss everyone.. Anyways, somehow we arranged for an afternoon off on tuesday to all go out for lunch & to sentosa for beach volley.. for my farewell.. which touched me totally...



So tuesday came.. first off, there was a bear at my table and it was from dear constance n siew lan.. such dearies... Tap 1 turned on when i went to thank constance and we hugged.. Then i went down to find siew lan... she turned on my tap 2... coz she started seeing"RED"... went back up to gather my stuff and stopped to chat with Big boss Wee Boon for awhile... then went for meeting... then did my exit interview with boss.. cleared my desk.. it was all just so saddenin...


And so, i took boss' car to vivocity mussel guys for lunch.. Attach folks came soooooo late!!! coz they went queensway to get my volleyball! haha, it was a long lunch n we had a guest.. this ex hp guy who joined us... n lunch was tough for both of us..

Left off for the beach and the sun was out, everythin was good.. had a good game and i got thrown into the sea after everything... n eventually.. everyone got wet.. =) how sweet...

Just when i thought i was gonna head back to office, boss suddenly just stopped us for a round of beer.. a quick one, he said... 2 jugs n some finger food came.. finished.. and another round... finished.. and another n another.. i was already pretty much high by then.. and the last round, i had to drink half of whatever everyone had left (basically a full glass) and "da" till the last drop...... that really made me totally gone case... When the last glass came, i was sad that i'm officially out of HP there n then... i toasted to everyone and when asked for last words, i didn't know what to say and got a little emotional..

it was fine.. until i saw my uncles' eyes gettin red... now that's somethin u dont see everyday or that i would have expected.. what with them actin macho or man n all... i was so touched that all hell broke lose... and the dam just broke,unable to contain all the water.. hahaha, my two most loved oness, kent & chong yeow... gave me a hug, makin me uncontrollable... we finally left & went to the train station where we parted ways.. before that, they all signed on the volleyball.. seein that, my emotions were overwhelmin at that time (mixed effect with the beer).. A one last hug to my 2 darlings and subsequently everyone... One last look at the tears streamin down their cheeks, i can only try my best to register that image in my mind.. and my heart just wrenched... thinkin back, i realised just how much my presence in the company meant to them.. since they are usually the bo chup kind... i was just sad beyond words...

All the way back to office in boss' car, i dont know what to say except thank you... i was wasted & had puffy eyes, basically looked like shit.. came back to shower and found more gifts on my table which made me feel even worse... WY came to help me pick up my stuff..

After i showered, the last thing i needed to do was to bid my final final final farewell to siew lan.. found her at the courts... gave her one big & long hug.. it was all i could do... seein her break down got to me as well.. coz she's the macho kind... ya know.. imagine 40 & single & Absolutely strong... well, i was startin to miss her...

thank goodness for the pillar of strength beside me to help me with my stuff n all coz i was very much disoriented by then.. thanks to the beer.. think i had 1 plus.. close to 2 jugs.. =

i was so tired by then n just glad to leave the workplace coz i was so emotionally drained and too much tears in a day... it was just so drama...

i really didn't have much appetite for dinner n got some panadol so that i can better enjoy Hancock.. It was nice.. will smith always is nice.. and GV GOLD is SHIOK... haha, with blanket provided, totally conducive for sleepin.. =P
After that we went to Klee @ Portsdown road for a quick drink & to check out the place, its lovely... and finally i came home... Thanks for your help...

My boss said we've never had such an emotional farewell b4 and i guess i just got really attached to the boys... lookin at the collage they made for me all framed up and the card with all the touchin words, my tap managed to work just one more time and then i had a conversation that at least put a smile on my face and stopped all the sobbin...

Today is the first day i'm off from work.. accompanied my mum to the banks and brought her to eat good lunch... simpe and well rested... but i'm startin to miss my guys already n i was kinda hurt when kent said he doesn't wanna meet up over the weekend coz he doesn't wanna be sad!! =( guess i'll give him sometime to get over it.. as boss said that office is different today.. unusually quiet...

I love you guys for everything you've done for me for the last 1 year n 9 months, up until the last second of my last day... and i really appreciate it... i miss you guys already! The most i can do now is to remember you guys, keep in touch and pray that all goes well for work... =

Emo Nemo.. Peace out...