Of Love and Life..

I'm beginnin to think whether i'm just plain lazy or just want some peace while i'm here...
Suddenly, things dont look that rosy... and.......................................
cant wait to go back.. NO ONE's AT WORK... Gggrrrrrrrr..

Gosh, i'm soooooo bored at work today!!!
EVeryone's not around coz of the long weekend!
my boss ain't around...
N left @ 9am to go to Batam
I left @ 930am claimin he's not feelin well..
M is away..

But basically, no ones in the mood to work today! and we had our usual 2 hours (or was it 2.5 hours?) lunch today.. chat with the ladies... suddenly this girl wants me to teach her swimmin, piano, badminton.... and another young little girl was sayin if i wanna go club, can ask her along. Now thats more like it.. haha, but its weird to club with people i'm not familiar with.. maybe i'll just go take a look... So, the next time i'm back in SIN, i'll bring some decent clothes for clubbin.. :P hahahaha

OH dear.... i just realised i'm gonna miss mooncake festival altogether!!!
I can just imagine the taka square, filled with booths from different hotels, selling mooncake!!!
sob sob.. so sad... I love the piglets (basically just the mooncake crust)!! =(
I like the Snow skin ones.. and the DURIAN ones... OMG OMG OMG...
i'm hyperventilating...
Sigh, i was at the shoppin centre and i saw the lanterns.. so nostalgic...... childish as it may seem, but every year, i still make it a point to go home on the night itself to go see the moon with my parents at the reservoir (well, at my old place)... we'd have apples, mooncakes and peanuts.. i'll play with candles, light up LOTS N LOTS of candles...

Suddenly, thought of last year.. after we were done eatin n all, my parents suddenly went to play at the playground.. and they were on the see-saw... my mum was hysterical, giggling uncontrollably coz itz like maybe 50 or 55 years ago since she last played.. so she n my dad were havin such a great time. First time i saw them laugh like kids, i was really happy... can just imagine their faces right now... =)

Sobs...

I have learnt not to have expectations that may be too high...
Not that i'm complainin, though a bit more 'homely touch' would be good..
But its okie, i dont like to be difficult...
Happy with things as it is now..


ON the other hand, my back's slightly better again, tho sometimes it just gets to me, i cant really understand... restin do helps though. and DAMN IT... i stick the SalonPas and i think i had a self-waxing sesssion done... Pain! haha

last night we went to this Japanese restaurant for dinner and bumped into a client H-san... He joined us n started talking.. We were like ok.. looks like we're gonna be stuck here for awhile... so he went on n on n we ended up stuck there for an hour or 2 longer.. by the time we left, it was 10pm! such a long dinner... But its alright since my internet at home's STILL DOWN.. sob sob sob...

FEels a lil better today, but still stiff... at least it doesn't hurt (as much) even to just sit down....
Sigh sigh...
Am wonderin whether a run will help, just to get movin a little.. went walkin around in the hot sun today, feels a little better already...

Suddenly, i'm wordless.

It's exactly 1 month now...

Oh and btw, i'm really happy.. finally managed to get hold of Mr Kent today...
That idiot... haha as usual, full of excuses... just so happened i caught him durin lunch, with EVERYONE else... and i found out an aunty is takin over my position.. so diappointin.. sigh sigh...

i dont know what else to say... my back STILL hurts.. so much so i dont feel like typin..
i really hope its not like what he said... that it may be a slipped Disc???
how can it be right?!?!
when i merely STRETCHED...
Gosh... it sure is spoilin my day!!! =(
Sob sobz...

Wedding bells are ringing.. and i just realised another 2 of my seniors are gettin married!!!
Now, this sparked something in me, to really think about what getting married means...

So, you've finally found them — the person of your dreams. Now, it seems the next logical step is to get married. After all, you're in love, and that's all you need to handle whatever curves life may throw your way. However, with so many people divorcing these days, it's more important than ever to take the time to consider whether you are truly ready to devote yourself to a life-long commitment.
People spend so much time planning for that special day — the day of their wedding (resulting in marriage phobics). But what about planning for the actual marriage, which is meant to last the rest of your life? As you would with any long-term commitment, marriage is something that you should plan for. So before you take the plunge, take the time to consider some things that could have an effect on your level of happiness.

Marriage is not a fairy tale. The love you share with your mate will change over time. What you need out of your relationship will change over time. The excitement will eventually wear off. Your patience and devotion will be tested. Marriage requires you to give of yourself, to make sacrifices, and to admit when you are wrong. It requires you to forgive when you really don't want to, and to keep on trying no matter how hard you want to give up. It takes dedication, commitment, honesty, and effort to make a marriage last.
There is no magic formula to making a marriage work. Sometimes, even the best of marriages fail. Many people enter a marriage expecting their partner to make them "happy" or "complete". However, only you can be held responsible for your own happiness. By taking the time to think about your future and sharing your thoughts with your partner, you have already taken the first step in making sure your relationship can stand the test of time.

OK, its officially over.. =(
I had an awesome 2 weeks just catchin the top atheletes in the world in action...
The adrenalin rush, composure, hunger to win, drive to excel, passion to play.. EVERYTHING...
Its interestin coz you can see it in their eyes... Whether they feel crushed, disappointed or excited..

However, somehow i do feel that judging can sometimes be pretty biased. Comin from world No 1, marks tend to be higher for the same stuff performed, compared to a relatively unknown figure. Perhaps i do not know the fine details or technicalities of judgin, but sometimes, marks given seem unjustifiable...

So from now on, back to drama and movies.. haha

My brother put on a few pounds from his trip, it was so funny when i saw his round (but still flat) stomach... only thing missin is the 6 packs, nonetheless...
Well, he can afford it since he's like how skinny? i would really like to go on a holiday actually.. come to think of it, i haven seem to have gone holiday-ing with a loved one b4... (other than my parents?) Although i do have great times travellin with my galpals, coz we ALWAYS have fun.. =P

I have no idea what happened to me over the weekend, perhaps over-stretched? My back is killin me!!! Arghhh... n i have no idea what happened... i can twist left n right, but when i move my head downwards (like a nod), my lower back hurts... PE teachers out there, is this serious?!?!?!?!? coz i can still walk and i believe run, just cany bend forward and downwards comfortably... HELP!!! =(
Sigh... perhaps i'm just gettin old.. haha

Congrats on passing!!! =)

Haiii...

Such a boring Saturday.. i was just MSN-ing the whole mornin and chattin away with my colleagues whole of today! haha, bosses not around...
Woke up early to go have Curry Noodles just now... it was actually good... finally get to taste something that tasted Singapore...
hahaha

Anyways, it was only just that i realise one of my gd gal pal, was sufferin this much when she broke up with her bf.... took her like a year or even 2 to get over it... and throughout that period, she actually cried herself to sleep... well, not surprisin, considerin she's really the easily hurt kinda girl... Just wished that i had perhaps paid more attention to her and be there with her while she was sufferin.. Well, too late. felt bad actually... how can i call myself her gd friend?!?!!!?!?!?!

Sigh, all i can say is i'm glad she's moved on and got over that stage... but she's still a tad bit skeptical and scared of committing now.. which i'm wonderin how to help her get over... plus the fact that her ex is now attached... i really DUNNO wat's wrong with that guy... she's really great and a to-die-for kinda gal and if u ask me, there's zero faults or bad things about her...
goodness... life's never fair huh?

Sigh, what a mornin... sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh..
and i'm so upset now coz olympics is ending!!! my entertainment is endin!!!! =(

I wish for a BOXFUL of BOOKS n Korean/Jap Dramas nowwwwwwwwwwwww... =)

It's LONG LUNCH day... haha

I have this old old sec school friend who came back from Germany?
he went over for an exchange and you should check out his trip.... totally well spent and fulfilling i thought.. Welcome home!
Wish i had the chance to do the same... haha =)

Anyways, back to reality.. It's gonna be Puasa here soon.. Meaning FASTING... so, i was just tellin my boss here that i've been eatin too much gd food.... n he said "dun worry, next month comes, i GUARANTEE you'll put on weight".. i was like what?!?!?!
and then i found out that it's because the malays here normally break Fast in the evenings together.. and Most of the time, our clients, suppliers and contractors will invite us to hotels to break Fast together (yes, even though we do not Fast)... it's almost like an every night affair... wow, really wonder how i'm gonna hold up..
Good thing is, free AND GOOD dinner, on the hind sight.. ahem, you know what... haha
Anyways, its interestin since its never such a big affair in singapore. Would be nice to experience Ramadan, on a BIG SCALE.. =)

I've got another Singapore colleague up here today.. Always good to see a familiar face...

Hope all goes well over the weekend!

On my way to work, i realised how EVERYONE here has A car or CARS...
so far 2 cars per family is a norm... 3's more well to do...
Today, i saw a few families with FIVE cars i their house..
Goodness gracious... can you imagine? Goes to show how much land space they own in their houses... Then again, car is cheap here and everyone just gets them without thinkin too much... and seriously, they haven't got much to spend on.. Not as many properties to invest on, compared to Singapore.. Not that techy, few pubs, only 1 movie theatre, lesser coffee joints, nothin much to shop for, so basically very self-satisfied little state...

And then i recall my friend, who went car huntin for a day n decided against it coz of financial reasons... I guess unless you have the spare cash, it doesn't seem wise to invest in something that ONLY depreciates.. and we contemplated sharin (some or in fact quite a few of my colleagues suggested that to me), but we thought, better not... the many complications that come with it, may create other unforeseen problems.. unless they can come to an agreement... Hence, NO CAR...

Frankly, i'm still somewhat disturbed by the piece of news learnt yesterday.. i dread to know who else knows of this piece of news and at the same time, i just cant believe my friend's pregnant that's all... coz when we graduated, i really didn't see this comin as she was single and VERY available.. in a short span of 2 years or so, she got happily married and is gonna be a MUM... WOW! i mean women nowadays have kids later.. but she's only 26... sometimes i admire them for havin the courage and foresight to start a family so soon coz i dont think i'll be ready for this at all...... i thought i was, but i'm losin it.. haha

ok, yesterday my boss from SIN came over and i had big seafood lunch and dinner... haha, went for the famous curry fishhead and it was ridiculous coz they ordered ANOTHER big fish, together with salted egg crab, steamed prawns, clams, vege and rice.. that was dinner.. LUNCH, we had FISH AS WELL, oysters, chicken and fried rice...
Such a fulfillin day... plus i went to do my grocery shoppin..
Got quite a bit done...

It's 21st.. i REALLY hope for 1st September to come... coz it'll mean that i've been here for 1 month and that he's gonna be done with the stressful tests... for now at least...

GOOD LUCK! =)

oh no oh no oh no
my secret's out!!!!!!
My seniors know about it!!!
Arghhhhhhhhhhh
So paiseh so paiseh so paiseh!!!
:

Gosh....... breathe breathe breathe!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

OMG!!!!!
What a piece of news!!!
My friend's pregnant!!!!!!!!!
Yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy :) so happy for her...
heeeee, she's only 26!!!! or 27.....
Sigh, i just have a soft spot for babies....
SHe on the other hand, has a soft spot for weddings!
hahaha, its all so sweet that you just feel like crying.... I always feel its such a touching affair...
her baby's gonna be so so so so so cute!!!!!!! coz her hubby, Matt, is ENGLISH!!
OMG... i cant cant cant wait!!! :)

OK, i'm at a loss for words!!!

Last night i had seafood dinner again... but it was just with 2 others, Ivan and LingPeng.. LingPeng was sweet.. she was so kind, to give us both some 'baos' from seraya or something like that... its nice! :) suddenly, i miss the "dua bao" in singapore...
This time, it was at Muhibbah...
Food's pretty good.. the crab's fresh... and ermmmm, we had Shark's meat... LALA and just some vege... SO FULL...
that was an awfully long dinner that kinda put me to sleep coz we finished only around 10... n i was tired of eatin crab! hahaha

i'm becomin more involved in the new project and there are still many ends to tie up, but it's gettin more interestin and we need to meet up with our client SOON!!! :)
I'm lookin forward to it!!

Not really in a bloggin mood now.. Later!

I'm gonna make sure i bring more sleeved tops here next time round.. imagine wearin a JACKET under the hot sun, i was just meltin when i went out to the plant yesterday... hahaha
Had a good rest last night and seriously, my new lapop is driving me crazy.. seems like the only thing it does is update, update n UPDATE all day! strange... Last night, it updated for like 1.5 to 2 hours!! n it told me not to switch off or interrupt the update, so i could only just WAIT... n fell asleep while doing so... i hate computers!

N the day before, i had a shock coz i thought there's a virus on my laptop.. i googled it and realised there's something wrong with AVG, not me.. the problem went away on its own yesterday... i feel liks such a geek, doin all these on my own.. coz usually, my bro does it for me.. all these updatin n stuff, but i made it a pt to run the Anti-virus software everyother day... Defrag it regularly and just keep it in shape.. else he's gonna holler at me... hahaha, plus i'm here all alone.. i cant scream for his help even if i wanted to.. :P

So here we are, on the topic of RELIANCE...
i figured he likes independence, more than reliance.... in me.. well, i AM independent, just probably in everything else...... For my jobwise, not too sure for now.. hmmmm, which is quite frustrating and i wondered if i've made a wrong move again.. When i was lookin for a job few months back, i was ADAMANT that i'll go do something NON-ENGINEERING, which i probably am, but seems like in order for me to progress under project management, i cant do it in Singapore office, even if not here, it will be somewhere else.. in batam, australia, states? Which makes me unsure now...
I guess if i had just stuck out and insisted on gettin into a bank or financial institution, despite a pay cut, i wouldn't have had this headache now.. but anyways, despite the better pay here, apparently the increment is similar (or shld i say, as pathetic, as my old job).. although the bonus is just a wee bit better... which disappoints me actually.. hmmm, so much so for better prospects... Although the benefits here are great.....

SO, saya needs to really think about what i want, coz tai tai is out of the picture... haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, not that i wanna be one... but if i HAd THE choice.. ahem, y not right? haha, just not that interested in climbin up the corporate ladder n be involved in all those politics... doesn't help that the lady figures around him are all VERY capable.. somehow, i feel inadequate......


ARghhh, so frustrating...

All of a sudden, i was set thinking about what i'm doing here in Kuantan...
What i have learnt.. I'm learning things that i do not need to know for the job i actually applied for...
And i'm actually lost for a bit now, as to what i wanna do and what i'm doing...
Everyone tells me its honeymoon for now n i reckon it is in a way... feels like i'm comin here for a holiday, stayin in a 'resort' apartment n all...
After that, what happens?

What lies ahead?
I wonder...

Well, much as i'd like to think that i'm proud of SIN's first olympics medal, i'm emotionless at the same time. Realised how the team is actually made up of NON-SINGAPOREANS? Same goes for swimmin.. even if she did win a medal, i'd have mixed feelings...
Nevertheless, i guess after payin so much to these atheletes, SIN finally gets something back in return. A name in history. Glory, that lasts forever..

I caught the game and it was pretty one-sided... Next up i watched as Malaysia's badminton player lost to LinDan in the finals, pretty easily too.. After awhile, i felt better off watching the Gymnastics, diving, fencing and volleyball finals..

18th August... suddenly, i feel time is passing by soooooooooo slowly... :(
cant wait for at least the 1st month to pass... coz i know thereafter, September and October will just fly by very very very quickly... :)

Again, its Saturday... by right, i should have training later in the afternoon!!! urghhhh...

Anyways, yesterday was an alright day. Went to Medan again for dinner with Ivan.. After a short while when i got home, it started pouring BIG time... n my stupid ASTRO got interrupted coz of that n i couldn't watch my Olympics for awhile.. but it came back la...
Dun really feel like workin today actually... since nobody came back.. there's only like 4 of us in the office today... n coz nobdoy came to work and nobody took the transport, i was in office at like freakin 740!!! N my office is locked... what a great way to start my day..haha

Well, i'm gonna have 2 days of 'drought'... but i'll get by it..
There's gonna be a year end company retreat end of the year and i think i'll have TWO.. one for Kuantan office, one for Singapore office.. heeee...
Speakin of which, i actually feel quite bad.. n my belief about "not so good to work with too many women" still holds... Apparently, i was told that when HE got back to SIN for work, he was sarcastically commented that he told me about my lodging and stuff in Kuantan and in a way "instigated" me to request for the change of apartment n all... so in short, blamin him for making me cause trouble for the changes n stuff... =( i felt soooooooo bad after i was told... since he was so nice to me while i'm here.. takin care of me, makin sure i'm ok... lookin after my well-being.. which i ABSOLUTELY appreciated.. never did i know he got shit in singapore... not sure why he told me, but i guess just to let me know tat i ought to be careful about what i say to certain people and stuff...

SIGH! i hate politics!

In such pain today.. DAmn.........
I got really irritated yesterday coz itz came SO DAMN early.......
ARghhhhhh.. N i was just really surprised by some things i've heard..

I'm glad its Friday today.. n i really wish i didn't have to work tomorrow.. haiii......
But yesterday was cool.. i caught some of the olympics action live... Hockey had such hot babes!!! Esp the NZL babes... Preferred them to Great Britain gals... AND I watched the most exciting fencing match ever.. between Ukraine n China.. They were tied at 44-44.. One point to decide who gets the gold n silver.. n ultimately, Ukraine won.. with an admirable comeback from a deficit of 10 points! No gymnastics yesterday though...

AND i've gotten into a reading mode again.. like i can just sit there n read for hours on..... once i start, i just cant stop..haha, but i enjoy it, so no complaints!

OUCH... i soooooooooo want the day to END! =(

Hmmm, seems like today is the day i stole a part of my precious gem... isn't it?
Or, should i say the day you had a very important lesson in your life and graduated with a ermmmm Masters?
hahahahahahahahahaha

Was just looking at how people live in Kuantan while on my way to work.. Went round n round to pick up everyone, so i just thought... I'm definitely not suited to live in countryside life...
Well, simply because i feel so restricted here.. Its not just because of the fact that i dont have a car here, but in general, people here do not get out that much... Maybe that's why they just make more babies and bring them up.. Perhaps more family oriented?

I dont know... Coz i've been askin around my colleagues (old n young), i ask them what do they do over the weekends or weekdays after work, they say they usually just stay at home... N i'm like "ohhhhhhhhh".. i dont like to be cooped up at home ALL THE TIME... which my mum always complains about.. haha
I guess its just that i'd like to have like tennis games or go catch a play/dance, go walk walk (outdoors) or trainings, soccer, beach... whatever... Thing is in Kuantan, there's not much parks here to walk... n even if there is, you gotta go in the day, coz itz not safe at night. If you run outdoors, people give you the stare n think you're crazy... At this place, it's insane but even if you just wanna go somewhere say 50m away, they DRIVE there.. funny... There's a beach,but i cant wear shorts n spaghet without being a public display.. No tennis, soccer, basketball.. mostly just badminton here? Only 1 movie theatre in the entire state...

Well, do i need to say more? its not as if i dont wanna do what i wanna do, but people keep tellin me its not safe or not good or try not to do it alone... well, locals tell me its fine, some say maybe a bit dangerous.. ivan tells me its not safe... *sigh*.. that's y, suffocated...

Suddenly, i miss helsinki.. I was there for 5 days n i like it that you can walk around freely and not worry... go run around or do whatever you want... plenty of shops around, nice view overseeing the waters near Hakaniemi... You feel like there's Freedom.. i actually enjoy Boston and Philadelphia.. Not so much London though..

So yeah, everyone here's too lazy... that it's killin me!!! hahaha

Aunty is getting old n retarded..
Just today, i realised all the while my date and time settings were not quite right...haha
Anyways, just corrected the problem, so should reflect the correct time now... =P
I'm soooooooooooooooo happy! my internet is up n workin at home!!
but i'm sooooooooooooooo unhappy coz i have no idea how to navigate around those drama webbies and stuff... either that or the streaming n bufferin just takes ages or just hangs.. .=(

Finally managed to catch up on my sleep last night.. just a little...... i loved it actually. coz i finally just laze n read my book... so enjoyable n peaceful.. i could have gone on n on... but i forced myself to sleep about 10ish... Could have been earlier i guess.. Another early nights and that should get rid of my eyebags.. or i'll just catch up over the weekend!! Olympics, eat n zzz... shiok! =P

wah... was just talkin to ah toh just now... damn he made me miss some of my favourite snacks even more...

KETTLE CHIPS cheddar cheese
Snyders Pretzels cheeeeeeeeeeeeese
CANDY EMPIRE!! (EVERYTHING)
Marks n Spencer Choc biscuits...

YUMMy! Haha :)

Why men dont listen and women dont read maps?

Ever wonder why women can brush their teeth while walking and talking on various subjects while men generally find this very difficult to do? Why 99 percent of all patents are registered by men? Why stressed women talk? Why so many husbands hate shopping?
According to Barbara and Allan Pease, science now confirms that "the way our brains are wired and the hormones pulsing through our bodies are the two factors that largely dictate, long before we are born, how we will think and behave. Our instincts are simply our genes determining how our bodies will behave in given sets of circumstances."
The premises behind Why Men Don't Listen and Women Can't Read Maps is that all too often, these differences get in the way of fulfilling relationships and that understanding our basic urges can lead to greater self-awareness and improved relations between the sexes.
The Peases spent three years researching their book--traveling the globe, talking to experts, and studying the cutting-edge research of ethnologists, psychologists, biologists, and neuroscientists--yet their work does not read a bit like "hard science."
In fact, the authors go to considerable lengths to point out that their book is intended to be funny, interesting, and easy to read; in short, this is a book whose primary purpose is to talk about "average men and women, that is, how most men and women behave most of the time, in most situations, and for most of the past."
Why Men Don't Listen? "We don't beat around the bush with suppositions or politically correct clichés," the Peases claim. Those up for an irreverent and unapologetic take on why men and women just can't help themselves sometimes should check this book out..

The Peases say that a woman's brain is wired to be able to speak and listen simultaneously, for example, and they are geared to talk through problems. Men, by contrast, need to clam up. "He uses his right brain to try to solve his problems or find solutions, and he stops using his left brain to listen or speak." These brain differences took shape in cave days, according to the authors. Men were hunters and defenders who evolved tunnel vision (as compared to women's vision), while, as nurturers, women not only had broad peripheral vision but sensitive relationship skills.

Musings:

Was just lookin at my flats... I've really worn them out.. They are comfy and easy to wear and CHEAP... i think i bought a pair @ Harbourfront for like $19 and a pair in BKK for like $8.. Still going strong.
ookin, lookin, lookin... i suddenly feel like buying a pair (or 2.. or maybe 3?) of new shoes...haha, my fetish for shoes is comin back now that i feel like shoppin.. i haven shopped (except for grocery) in close to 3 weeks... Not that i'm cravin for it or somethin.. but i'd be glad to be able to just catch a glimpse of my all-time fav and all so familiar MANGO, ZARA, Nine West, Charles n Keith, MARKS n SPENCER (i suddenly miss their CHOCOLATE cookies and chips...).. Ted Baker (i love their dresses).. i feel like gettin a new dress.. although i have ABSOLUTELY no occasion for it..haha...

Know how we always watch those romantic comedies or the most recent SATC? whereby the guys will buy a dress for their partner, and it comes in a BIG box, nicely wrapped up exquisitely, with matchin slip-ons and clutches? just because he's bringing her to a gala dinner or for a special occasion? Well, do such fairytale like actions actually exist in Singapore? N i wonder how feasible it is, since it's not easy to know the size and fit n all... Plus, different brand, different size..
So i guess it's all just ficticious?
How nice it would be if it's true... i've only known of a gal who had this privilege.. If anyone who reads this has such treatment before, TELL ME.. so that i'll know i'm the only loser.. :P

ok ok, i better stop. Not that i have not enough clothes.. :P
But i need to satisfy my Kate Spade craving when i get back..... or well at least by 2008.. Perhaps i'll pamper myself with that for Xmas?? jahahahah just to have an excuse to get a new bag...

I need zzz I neeeeeeeeeed zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......
OMG! such a zombie todayyyyyyyy...
Goodness, i wanted to turn in early yesterday, but by the time i got back, pack some stuff, keep my laundry, iron n all, it was 7ish..
Went over to collect the adapter n modem, got back... n before i knew it, it was 9ish..
Waited for a call at 10pm... that surprisingly lasted about an hour ya?
It sure didn't feel that long, but it was gd.. i was kinda awake by then, especially when i laughed so hard when i was gonna hang up... about sending some stuff over for him to practise..
mwahahahahhhahahahahhaaaaaaaaaa

so i finished up the one episode of drama before sleepin at 1130? or was it 12?
Plus today it was the driver pickin us up since the boys are not around anymore, so i had to wake up about 6am... =( only 6 hours of sleep wo... haiiiiiii
I think i'll go home straight after work today to just KO...

N i m quite sick of watching replays of olympics at night... coz all the live games are in the day.. =( so upset... cant wait for weekend to come!!!

Soooo Full of Lub now....

This was what one of my colleague said yesterday... which i thought was hilarious:

" A good speech is like a mini skirt... the shorter it is, the better... keep it short and sweet yet concise at the same time... you can reveal a lot more"...

Interesting..

It's Monday again....
I thought my email n msn was a little quiet today.. then i realised.....
ITS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY IN SINGAPORE!!! sob sob... =(
n we're both workin.... well, its okie.. not much of a mood to work today.... monday blues.. weekend felt too short... i feel like such a couch potato coz after waitin for the boys to come back, i watched the olympics and didn't turn in till like 330am? hahaha,such a loser!!!
but i really loved watchin the gymnastics... i actually get an adrenalin rush watchin that n i get more awake everytime i watch it!!

Also, i managed to catch the finals of the Fencing competition for Epee.... The males are definitely more exciting that the ladies sparring.. and itz way toooooooo short a game to have it decide whether you win or lose.. but i guess that's the nature of it..... n for the very first time, i have discovered a sport whereby the sportsperson (women in particular) Squeal or Shriek or shout or Scream ALOUD, apart from Tennis (whenever they serve).... haha, but i must say in fencing, it sounds way less sexy... =P
hahahaha

Alright, finally got around to uploading my pictures.... since i'm usin the internet OUT of office...
So here we go... everything at one shot.. well, at least those i have in my laptop... =)
Forgot to bring my hard-disk over...

HERE GOES:


The 2 boys, Porter and Nick... who're leaving soon...

Yes, that's my little work "cubicle"....





A proper photo (simple office i have here.... )













OK, here's when they start gettin wild...
















Last minute mugging for their test.. haha













Ex-HP ladies....













ALL the Ex-HP ladies.. =)










ok smart... i didn't rotate the pic... but yeah... that's my room....















the other side of my room...













My living room...










The breath-taking view... though not as nice as others' apartment...

Happy Birthday, Singapore! =)

hahaha, i kinda forgot that it's national day... after all, i'm stuck in Malaysia and WORKING... there's no national day here...Monday is not a holiday for me too.. =( Doesn't matter since its not a holiday for BOTH of us... Sometimes i do wonder what if i was in Singapore n have a long holiday yet no one is around.. Hmmm, that may be kinda sad actually... hah, but i think i'll do just fine... need to earn more money so that i can go shopppin!!!!!! speakin of which, i wont say i miss shoppin since i dont shop much, but i really do miss the SHOPS in singapore.. its like there are soooooooo few shops in the malls and its sooooooooo boring!!!

i like the freedom here, but lack of activity and company.. haiiiiiii
ANYWAYS, for some reason, i was really happy yesterday.... not sure why.. maybe coz it was asif i was with you the whole day, talkin n all... did a webcam with my parents... they can see me, but i cant see them coz they have no idea how to use the webcam.... so it was kinda retarded coz my parents are not exactly familiar with MSN... so i ended up callin them instead! haha

Fridays are always like relax days at work coz basically after lunch, everyone switches off... lunch ends at 230pm.. another hour or 2, people start leavin.. but i had a LONG lesson yesterday about the MIS system... Its tedious but manageable for now... Totally big headed after that..

Yesterday was 080808... totally 4got about it.. it was also the olympics opening... which got kinda boring after the performances..haha .. i remembered how me n my friends used to say that they wanna get engaged on 080808 coz of the nice numbers... but i guess time's not right for some n for others, they picked another day... so i guess people are now waiting for 090909... haha, they call it "for eternity"... but apparently, accordin to the lunar calendar, its not a gd day... then again, watever... i wont be in that situation havin to pick a day la! haha....

i just felt really happy last night.. But at the same time, it makes me yearn... the conversation was full of jest and laughter... what did i do to deserve all these? i really wonder...

It's been a month!

It's been a month since my last workin day in HP... i still recall vividly the day we spent at Sentosa.. the many tears shed and the many many overwhelmin emotions that ran through the other day.... Not forgettin the way it all ended nicely... =)

I still miss HP somewhat... they're just different from the kinda colleagues in this company.. and there aren't the same uncles who would bother to protect n guide me... =(
But i had to move on.....

wow great... i just realised people have been lying to me... AGAIN......
i was just sayin bout how people dont look their age? that's coz those boys bluffed me!!!
urghhhh ivan's only like 35.. n harry is only 42/43?!?!?! DAMN!!!

haiya... in any case, they STILL look younger than they actually are..
I've been assigned my first project... which came a tad bit faster than i expected... but all's good.. it's still in its infancy stage, so learnin from scratch which is gd..
yesterday was a traumatizin.. i stayed back after work to wait for my colleague and at 6pm, my boss called me to sit in a meetin since i was still around...
THE MEETING WAS IN MALAY!!! omg... i only caught like 20% of it?? goodness, imagine sitting among all the guys, who're production peeps n foreman, itz intimidatin i tell u...
hahaha... that was the latest i ever stayed in office so far.. about 7pm... well anyways, ivan brought me to dinner n then to Giant to do some grocery shoppin.. this place is HUGE, machiam like Singapore... n i spent the most ive ever spent on groceries at this place.. hahaha

I actually wanted to buy some stuff for the boys for farewell, but there wasn't much there... N i didn't wanna MAKE HIM drive me to East Coast Mall or somethin n wait for me.. so i'm really thinkin what to do!!! guess i'll write a nice lil note n my gift will be the singapore flag, which will come later i guess... :(

On a side note, i'm gettin hooked onto Good Luck... watching it over n over n over n over again n loved every bit of it coz it somehow correlates.. but its a little unrealistic coz u dont really have all these circumstances that often i believe... n i just hate watchin the part where he went through rehab.... haha :) i always fast forward it...

Weekend's here again n its been almost 2 weeks since i've been here.. all's good! :)

just a short note...

I realised how most of the guys workin in this company all look YOUNGER than they actually are!!!!! goodnesss.... its like there's this guy whom i guessed was 31, he's actually 39!!!!
My boss is only freakin 33 only....
And this other business development manager, he's a 47 or 48 year old swinging bachelor... but he looks only 37??
Hmmm, what does this say about the company? hahaha, cant say the same for the ladies though.. hahaha, i guess women do age VISIBLY no matter what.. :(

i am sad.....
i think i'm gettin fatter here....
hahaha, i think i'm bein TOO WELL TAKEN CARE OF....hahaha
imagine zhi2 char4 almost every night.. hmmmm, that explains i guess..
i better start workin out a bit...
I NEED SKIPPING ROPES!!!!!!
hahahahaha
i'm just plain lazyyyyyyyyyy... :)

Somehow, i really gotta thank these 2 boys... coz seriously if they're not around, i prob wont be going out almost like every other day to have dinner and walk around..

Yesterday was kinda torturous coz my heart was all wrenched up all day. Worried...
But seems like all's good now.. =)
Anyways, my bosses from singapore were all in yesterday... Met Sim, Neo, Lee (again).. ermm ya, n i was talkin to some ladies from singapore office. they are machiam HOLIDAY-ing back there... =(

Went to the bus terminal yesterday. Wanted to get the bus tickets back to singapore for end sept, but it was too early to get them. So much so for gettin the tickets early. hahaha.. coz i was told by siew kim that its better to get them early coz it's holiday weekend and may be sold out. Guess i was a tad bit too early... and i had ROTI PRATA for dinner... gosh, was cravin for it for a few days!! haha, its called Roti Canai here.. malay style indian food?
Prata makes me think of Al Ameen... made me think of home, the various times we went past that place on our way back... Jurong... haiii, nostalgic...

Right now, i just have cravings for some singapore food..
HIGH HIGH HIGH on top of my list: OLD CHANG KEE!!! (damn, i miss it so........)
Sweettalk..
PS CAFE!!! heee =)
salted fish fried rice
Naan and Masala

haii, that's all for now... i have some things i wanna eat, which i can probably get here, but just that it's meaningless to eat them alone.. anyways, i probably should stop thinkin about food... Someone said i put on weight?!?!?!?! OMGGGGG.... it's ONLY been like 1 week!!! damn, i'm seriously gonna become pudgy dory... sob sobzz...

YAY! my webcam's finally workin.. but now the mic ain't workin... so weird.... i hate computers!!!!

ok, besides the fact that i feel horrible now, coz i've seen how my friend gets so much pain from a toothache that it leads to a bad headache and eventually tears... i can guess how painful it must be...

Anyways, yesterday the singaporean guy brought me out for lunch.. i was excited for awhile and after lunch, i think i'd much rather have stayed in coz it was not gd at all.. i had yong tau hoo without tau hoo n fish ball and vegetables.. with only 1 tau pok and wanton and some other dont know what stuff.. with the tau kee skin... yucks...haha, and the barley drink... it was supposed to be home made but it tasted like water really.. :) so when i came back n saw the 2 boys havin KFC, i was cursin n swearin n i felt hungry...hahaa

So, one of them was sweet enough to take a box for me... since Chris doesn't eat it anyways.. YAY!!! i basically DEVOURED the crispy chicken, mashed potato n coleslaw... YUMMY!!! that was my tea n dinner.. and we went to megamall last night to catch Mummy 3.. its alright actually, i thought it was kinda boring coz no cute characters... n Michelle Yeoh's CHinese is just HORRIBLE... considerin she only had like 15 lines in chinese, i thought she could have put in more effort to get the pronounciation and dictions right.. i was just laughin at her chinese all the way... goodness.. Movies only cost like 9RM? n popcorn like 5RM? goodness.. cheap cheap! n we're talkin like perhaps even better than eng wah theatre.... :)

its just another 2 or 3 more days with the boys around coz they will be off to phuket from thursday onwards till over the weekend... n next mon will be their last day.. so there'll probably be a farewell for them.. 2 farewells since in joined BS.. .well done..haha, anyways... the office's gonna be quiet without these 2 jokers.. n i guess i probably wont be going out as much when they're not around...... but that's alright.. coz by then, i'd have taken over their internet!!!! and my astro's workin already!!!!! i can watch my HBO, AXN, ESPN and StarSports... catchin up on the olympics stuff now.. haha =)

It hurtssssssssssss....
I would be more than willing to trade places with you now.
To be the one in pain, so that you can go to work as per normal... since i'm still at the stage whereby i sit at my desk doin nothin much all day...

Get well sooooon!! =(

Was just havin lunch with my colleague... n we ate at this place, which was pretty run down... n the food is pretty much pathetic... haha.. i had yong tau foo, which i cant choose, which doesn't have tau foo and tau pok... :(
so was just chattin n ermmmmm, all i can say is some of the things he said, made me go like 'wow, is that so?'..

Me: So, does your wife cook?
Him: Yeah.. sometimes.. n i'll help with the washin up.... not right to just eat n let her do everything
Me: Oh.. wow...

Me: So you just got married?
Him: Yeah, 2 years ago. I didn't really think of gettin married. Like it was not in my cards.
Me: Why?
Him: Not right, coz no point gettin married if dont wanna have kids
Me: Oh.. wow.. ok....

Me: So you guys have no kids?
Him: yeah, not right....
Me: Why so?
Him: Like its her first kid, not fair if i'm not around during her pregnancy while she suffers or what... not nice lor...
Me: Oh wow.. ok...

Right, so i reckon he's a way too nice n thoughtful guy... which scares me a little, if i'm his wife.... So seriously, how many guys are there left on earth, who actually thinks this way?
My god.... haha

My weekend was quiet and peaceful... Actually glad to have all the alone time.. never had such a lazy day in ages... everytime in singapore, there's always somethin to do...
SO much so that yesterday, i actually got a lil home sick and called home... My parents just got back from vivocity too.. apparently they wanted to catch red cliff but there were only front row seats left, so they decided to catch it another time...

its funny... as if my parents were 'dating'... and i really cant wait for my internet to be hooked up at home... it'll be so much more interestin and more of a life if i had...
I actually manage to complete 2 sets of dramas that my friend transferred for me b4 i left....
i'm only left with 2 others!!! looks like i'd better stock up more when i get home or get some DVDs or something... else i'll be bored stiff... also, if the ASTRO thing works here, at least i'll have my HBO and Sports..haha

i was just thinkin, it's a bad idea to watch all those sad drama soaps at home, all alone.. makes me even more sad!!! ahahaa, it's like wallowin in self pity.. so silly... =) i have a wonderful pool n beach that i cant really utilise coz i dont have company... well, the guys are either chi ko peks who cant be trusted or married, whom i dont wanna bother... so i seriously haven't got much people to hang out with... Also, the gym at my resort is pathetic.. nothing is workin!!! and runnin outdoors alone is not safe....
so......... looks like i have no choice but to go back as pudgy Dory... mwahahahahah =P

It's a Saturday and i'm working... :(
Well, not that i mind since i haven't got anything to do... but the ONLY TWO things that comes to my mind every Saturday when i wake up: TEACH, FLOORBALL. :(
I wanna play floorball!!! boo hoo hoo...
And i havent got internet at home, so that sucks. Boring weekend..
last night i had dinner at this place called Crocodile Rock. It's like a bistro place, nice to chill out and i heard its crowded over the weekends... But i probably wont go there often, since its only nice to chill out when you're with the right company.. But the food there's pretty alright. For the first time since i arrived, i had 'western' food...

I'm gonna try to do the webcam thing later.. hope it works!! =)

There's only one thing in my mind now: "i'm hungry"
hahahahaah

Here's the link to my pictures!! :)

http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=batch_download&send_id=594110517&email=2f4afbf52d83d2af7a8fab34543b749c

mwahahahah.. FINALLY!

WHY CANT I UPLOAD MY PICTURES!!!?!?!?!?!? =(
so upset....
i'll upload the pics when i can... (meaning wait till i have access at home)

I went out for dinner again last night... had some curry chicken, ostrich meat(??? no choice, the guys wanted it!!!) , vege and fried rice.. was so hungry last night i wonder why.. haha
I'm Hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! =P

Made a few calls home.. to my loved ones... basically the internet works just fine, but to be able to listen to the voice just paints an even more vivid image.. which i wonder whether if it is a gd or bad thing... coz it makes me wanna go home even more!!!

Supposed to have a BBQ tonight, not sure if it will hold through... coz this guy is known for lying his ass off... hahaha, its funny how everyone just gossips about him and mimicks him after work... doesn't help that he's the son of one of the company's directors! Anyways, the ants in this place are really gettin to me!!! i've got ants in the office on my table, from dunno where.. i've got ants at home too!! coz i live in the jungle area... not to mention the POOR reception... how do i get rid of ants?!?!?! =(

Just found out yesterday that Xmas and 1st jan is not a holiday here in Kuantan!!! darn..... but i do have other long leaves like for hari raya and chinese new year...so better than nothin i guess...... haha