Today I had a good jog along Singapore River. From school all the way to Fullerton Hotel and back.. Happy! :)

Friday I was not well. Physically and mentally.

Saturday I went to Kallang feeling a lil shitty.. Weather was reasonable but it was sure deadly cos after that, I saw shade mark on my face.. :(

Sunday I had to give visiting Little Xin Hui a miss because I didn't want to spread the germs to the new-born... :(

Monday, which is today, I felt lethargic at work because I just cannot clear some thoughts in my mind.... But after the run, I feel better although I am feeling feverish again now... Just popped 2 panadols and my flu tablet... Once the med takes effect, I will hit the sack.. :)

Back to the River Jog, I passed by Robertson Quay and Clarke Quay... and Boat Quay too!! To realise how silly I was the other time to go the longer way from UOB Centre to Clarke Quay.. I took the roads instead of going along the river... The way along the river seems much shorter..... :(

There are a couple of food which I wanna eat but I can't. Becos I don't want to fall sick (although I am feeling kinda feverish again now)... Never mind... I shall be better tomorrow.... :)

Today the emotion sets in again..

I stared at the ceiling this morning thinking about what happened over the past few days and I just can't help feeling a little upset over it.

This feeling is disgusting because I felt exactly the same in 2006 and it seems like a deja vu. Except that I am seeing it happening almost everyday now.

The dates are drawing near and the amount of effort out in just cannot be justified.

I am affected.


Physically.

Emotionally.

Mentally.

I just feel like shutting myself up in my own world and ignore ehatever that happened to me earlier on.

Maybe too sensitive.

Maybe there is nothing.

Maybe there is something.

I just feel super pissed and angry about myself for letting this happen to me again.

I don't wish to talk about it and please don't bother asking me.

Don't tell me what to do.

Don't tell to cheer me up.

No use. No point.

Just let me continue to rot my life away.

FML...

Planning is a tedious process in life.

There are soooo many things which require careful and detailed planning in one's life. From birth, our parents start planning for me.. Buy insurance la... Education la... Everything planned.

When we grow up, we plan our revision schedule in order to prepare for exams.

Plan birthday parties, class parties etc.

Plan the secondary school to go to. Plan the jc/poly to go to.

Plan the uni course to go to.

Plan the career path.

Plan for holidays with friends.

Plan your wedding.

Plan for your children.

Plan for retirement.


Everything must fall in place in order for the plan to work. But seriously speaking, are we really planning for the sake of planning or have we discover the purpose in life?

I cannot answer. I don't know the answer.

Sometimes I feel that I am just planning blindly.

Sometimes with a plan.

Sometimes without.

But at the end of the day, work is still done. The only difference will probably be whether we have wasted time doing unnecessary things which may have unknowningly lengthen the duration of the process.

I am a little tired of planning my life and what I have to do. Maybe I should take a short break and not waste time on planning! Yeah!

Ok...

Ahem! HELLO (once again) EARTHLINGS!!!

I am back again!! Sorry I havent been diligently updating my blog but I am sure I will continue to try my very very best to keep my blog ALIVE!!! Since I have kept it going for the past 5 years!

Ok.. Let me travel back time allllllll the way to XMAS 2009!!!

This Xmas was a little different than the usual ones. Other than humans, doggies were invited to the party as well. We had 3 Jap spitz running around the house and I finally had the chance to meet all 3 - Miru, Muji and Shiro. M&M Brudders belong to Leong and SY when Shiro is Meiwei's "nephew"..

Photos are in my Facebook so go and see from there k.

Ok.. Back to 2010!!!

This year I am teaching P3 again. Cos I requested for it. This year's class is a good class. The lowest banding is Band 2 for Mathematics. And the target set for them is 91% Band 1. In another word, 39 out of 43 must get Band 1 for Math... Tell me how to achieve this?? -__-

One thing I have observed thus far is......

(Sadly) They are not as loving as my class last year. Last year's 3E was more loving... I miss them. But this class still young la..... Give them 2 more months and I hope they will learn to be more loving... PRAY HARD!!!!

So far... This term has been totally INSANE and MADNESS for me...

2 School camps
1 Musical
1 5-Day course (8am - 930pm every freaking day)

And a couple of weddings which burnt a big hole in my pocket... Haha...

Thank goodness the year of tiger will mean less wedding... Haha.. *Evil*

The month of January passed in a flash. So fast that I didnt even know what I have done and suddenly it's CNY liao... I havent gotten my notice board up and I am really disappointed with myself for my inefficiency.. Sigh... Okok I will get it done!!!

I am still struggling to learn how to better manage my time well. Everyday in office until abt 8pm is NO JOKE!!

Ok.. Feb seems to be a more interesting month as compared.

1st-5th Feb - I attended the MOE Outdoor Adventure Facilities Course hoping to attain the licence to conduct rope courses at MOE Campsites. And yes. Thank you very much, I did it! Ok... I shall not be humble.. I ACE it!! Keke...

Hopefully I am able to practise it in April during the P5 Camp... :)

Mad rush to Raffles Hotel Jubilee Hall for the Musical after the course. Or maybe I should say in the midst of the course I left earlier in order to make it to the Musical in time... But it was a wonderful Musical put up by the team of teachers and students...

Together. :)

As I am blogging away, my nostrils are stuffed with tissue becos the flu bug attacked again!!!! Arghhhhhhhh...

CNY is just another day of the calendar. At our age, we dont get ang baos anymore... Cos we will never break even. I gave my parents money for new year and what I am gotten back is not enough to cover liao... But ok la... I dun really need the ang baos anymore.... Sooner or later, I may not even qualify to receive ang baos liao sia....

My parents and brothers just pressed the "PANIC BUTTON"...

What is "PANIC BUTTON"?

It is an imaginary button planted in the air that the adults (in this case anyone older than us) will press when you hit the marriagable age!! Yes... The whole reunion dinner was about WHEN WHEN WHEN I am ever going to find myself a MAN....

I just don't understand why this can be a topic... Maybe I should tell them that I am not getting married! Maybe I am lesbian? Maybe I have too many I can't decide... Whatever it is, it is NOT time yet... The button is not working on me (yet). :P

But seriously, it is a waste of time to go and find the so-called Prince Charming becos I have been celebrating Singlehood for the past 9 years! (Yes! Please applause for my endurance... Haha...)
. When it comes, it comes. And when it comes, whole world will know becos all those people will go "Wahhhhhhh... FINALLY!!!! SOoooooOOooOoo HAPPY for YOUUUUUUU!!!!!"

Ok I am spouting nonsense cos I am getting a little drowsy from the medication. I shall set BLOG MENU as my homepage so that I will have to blog something here to keep the blog alive!!

Good night Earthlings! :D