6:08 PM
what really happen to me? i don't know.. just that i really hate the feeling of being restricted.. not that i am materialistic or what.. just that i really want to buy the stuff that i need.. just like i need a new shampoo, a new cleanser n makeup remover as its finishing.. i need an eyeliner.. i want harry potter 6, i want ash mascara..
i know dear is feeling very stressful.. i've been trying to find part time job too, hoping to share his burden..
do i sound like a spoilt child? yes, i am spoilt, i wont deny it. i was spoilt by my dear, who tried his very best to give me the best he could. i really appreciate it.. my family is consider quite well to do, thus, i can be consider as a worry-free girl - i dun have to worry about money, clothes or food since my family is quite well off.
i know i am adding on to his burden as to him, i was perhaps a princess, who used to be happy-go-lucky, no worries about life, have anything i want n stuff. now that i am with him, its his responsibility to give me the equal lifestyle, or even better. i have to be sheltered, he have to shower all of his love and care over me, trying his very best to give me a good life, without worrying about money, without worrying about life. yet he have to face all the pressure by my family, by the society (as in to really look for a stable job n stuff), n his salary must be able to pay the debt, to feed himself, and me.. my tuition assignment only $170.. how long can i survive?
i miss the times where i can just go shopping as n when i like, buy watever thing i like... eat whatever i wan.. fish n co, phin, kenny rogers, dim sum etc.. all these are nothing to us in the past..
we used to visit the theatres n shop every week.. buying things that i like, buying things for our car.. eat at restaurants instead of foodcourt or hawker.. in fact, the nearly 4 years that we have been together, we always eat in restaurants.. the number of foodcourt or hawker that we been to, can be countable by using our fingers..
do i sound as if i am materialistic? maybe i am, maybe i am not. money is important.
although now we are really poor, we are really restricted in our activities, but its ok.. coz we are still happy. what i am really angry is, we are innocent.. why are we always implicated by our circle of friends? have we done anything wrong to them? do we really deserve this kind of treatment?
the reason that im typing all these is not to gain sympathy or to seek attention. dun judge me, some of you have NO right to judge me. i dun need your sympathy, i dun need unnecessary attention. this is my blog, i can type whatever i want. if you think its an eye sore, den dun bother to read my blog anymore.
n to u (yes, u noe who u r), dun buy me anything.. i noe u meant well, but im just not used to it.. if i really wan to buy things, i'd much much prefer to use my own $$, if nt i dun want to have it.
u noe wat i mean. :P
4:31 PM
i gao da san yuan leh!! dear they all stunned sia. hahaha. when i open my cards, inside oreadi got 2 bai pan, 3 hong zhong, 2 fa cai. LOL. i jitao happy sia. den i pong bai pan, kang hong zhong, den i take flower, got a fa cai. jitao da san yuan liao. hahahhaa.. $13 for all~ lol
jitao win back liao.. initially was losing quite badly. lol.
after tat game, they keep saying abt the da san yuan thingy.. den i pong fa cai oni they all niam niam niam. lol
den after tat mel play, oso nearly xiao san yuan. lol.
after playing 2½ pok, me dear n roy go eat big breakfast! oh yeah.. so long nber eat le.. but eat until sibei full sia. haha
oh yeah, dad agree to sponsor my 21st bd chalet~ haha. my mum knew i wanted to celebrate my bd at chalet mah.. so she help me hint my dad.
here comes the conversation.
when we were walking in to the chalet:
mom: eh ger, tot u say wan celebrate ur 21st bd here.
me: yalor, but no $ leh.
mum tell dad: eh ger wan celebrate her 21st bd here.
dad: celebrate lor.
me: u sponsor?
mom: yalor u pay abit la.
dad: pay lor.
LOL
den mom ask me to book those bungalow wan, bigger mah.. but exp leh i told her..
but i dunwan to book too big la actually.. later my bro they all wan to stay overnite.. its nt tat i wat la. i mean, they r kids.. we adults sure play until late, den we will wake up late. we can dun eat.. but the kids how? ok la, although ntuc is beri convenient, walk out can eat liao. but wat if 1 of them go missing or wat? i dang dan bu qi leh.. if they wan swimming, den no adults accompany leh.
den mom go n tell ahma they all wan i celebrate bd at chalet. den ahma they all say cannot leh! ask me celebrate at ahma hse again, coz, no need mahuan mah. but i say mahuan my family they all leh, must cook all these, must clean oso.. den char tio neighbours. den ahgong say if i celebrate at chalet, he dunwan come liao, coz he duno hw to come. LOL.
mom ask me to celebrate at ahma hse, den hire those ktv like weiwei's bd he did. den i say dunwan. like getai leh. LOL. ktv sibei char wan leh. lol
anyway, aloha loyang all full liao, except the single storey with 2 rooms, which is the smallest.
if nt i book ntuc le.
i dun mind those bungalows opp fisherman, but tats private companies wan.. lol.
any companies hiring part time?
8:07 PM
going to mel's aunt's place for mj again..
nth much to blog ba.
hey u all gt hear my blog mp3? duno y i cannot hear leh.. but its ok, as long as u guys can hear lor. haha
oh ya.. now harry potter 6 oreadi $33 liao.. lol. but i still dun haf $$ to buy.. managed to read 36 pages of it though.. haha.. pathetic
will blog abit later or maybe tml
11:40 PM
had a fun time in class todae. y? bcoz of mel of coz! but i think is bcoz she beri tired, den she need to entertain sumone n vice versa. lol.
so she beri farnie.. she come up with some abbreviations. eg: QC = Quality Check n stuff lytat. initially we juz ask each other those short forms inside the textbk. after tat, she ki siao come n anyhow ask me, eg like a statement header like, CPPQ. i was like har? den she say, Controlling Production Processes for Quality. duh rite. she jitao anyhow come up with 1 abbreviation. -.- but quite fun la. we keep asking stupid abbreviations. haha
feeling nt beri gd these 2 days. ah forget it. lol.
was watching a show.. toking abt everyone have weakness, thus naturally will haf strengths as well...
tat set me thinking.. do i realli haf any strengths? how abt my weakness? weakness is probably too trusting.. or too straight.. or too stubborn.. or simply, im juz a bad person.
strengths? i probably haf none.
4:35 PM
lol. i was thinking if i should go to school.. den i think think.. aiya, todae class starts at 1pm, ends at 3pm (since its only a tutorial).. by the time i bathe n reach sch, also 3pm liao. LOL. so mite as well i stay at home. -.-
really leh.. i slept at ard 1am+ last night... how come i will oversleep?!
anyway looking for part time job now.. anyone got lobang?
i think i dunwan to teach the tuition le.. 1st is i scared i teach wrong, 2nd is i rather go work, coz can gain experience mah.. summore now i oni got 1 tuition assignment, will not haf anymore assignments coming in as its almost exam period already..
besides, im abit tired of rushing back hm n rushing to my student hse after sch. zz... sians
6:41 PM
sians.. i've been thinking alot recently.. dear's bd coming in a month time. but i still gt no $$ to buy present for him.. dun even haf $$ to eat outside.. i wanted to buy a hp for him, but no $$.. i oso duno wat else i can get him.. all bcoz of some ppl who run my $$.. a huge THANK YOU to u ppl.
btw, anyone company looking for part timers? hehe. prefer to work office part time jobs. i dun mind working in the morning or evening though. hehe
sch start liao.. nth interesting though, so nth much to blog abt
6:02 PM
went to simon's hse for bbq 1st.. quite fun though its oni the few of us... gt crab summore leh.. but the crab taste fantastic though its oni bbq. the meat is SOOOOOOO sweet. after that we go loyang baibai with alvin they all. den after tat come my hse liao lor.
received my results. im so happy! i got A for marketing n financial management. bis got B though. but not bad la, kinda surprised coz i realli nber expect to get such gd grades. lol. i think dear oso abit shocked. but he say he nt worried, coz i gt ask ju they all abt their results, they get quite gd grades too. so dear say if they can get such grades, he believe i oso can as we all study together wan. lol.
but i think this semester i wont be getting such gd grades liao.. coz i dun understand any of the modules. lol.
bored. f1 later!!! sians
8:38 PM
first, i travelled for 1hr++++ to hotel miramar for that interview. damn sick, i saw from sbs website that the whole journey took only around 64mins.. so just in case, i went out of the house at 845am. so by right i should reached there at 950 or so.. guess what? i reached there after 10am! wth?????? luckily i went out of the house early, but this is too ridiculous! bus 28 (at my place here) came when i reached the bus stop. i waited for 51 for around 5minutes. zzz
but the hotel quite wulu also la... anyway haven call us yet...
after that we walked to ue square, coz jeanette say their got foodcourt.. tmds walk until there no foodcourt! so nm.. as i got another agency interview at 1245 at raffles, so i asked them to go there eat lor. den we wanted to take a bus to raffles, but no bus, so they say, y nt walk to dhoby ghaut or somerset, its nearby. so we walk again. walk until jeanette n my legs were blistered as she's wearing slippers with some heel, n im wearing heels. tmds.. den i say, y juz nw we dunwan just take cab to raffles har? lol. den juliana was like, yahor! y nw den u say. lol.
so geiko at somerset there we take cab to raffles lor. in the end, we passby the hotel again. -.-
so we had lunch at mos burger den go recruit express. jeanette also fill in the application form with me. ask juliana to fill in she dunwan. lol. so after that we walk again to bq coffeeshop there for some drinks. den recruit express called and ask us if we want to work as data entry, $7 per hr at taka, but 4 days for weekdays, 7-11pm, 9-6pm for weekends. abit shack, but good $$. anyway hope they will select us. juliana also gian tio, haha. but she nber fill in the form, so in the end we walk back again so that she can fill in the form, den we talked about the job coz, we still have tuition commitments....
anyway, i have another call centre job. its those mac call centre, as they r 24/7 now. although only $6 per hour, but its at tampines!!!! haha. anyway, have to go for their so call training on friday, 9am-9pm. zz. but 8 hours r training, another 2hrs is receive calls liao. they r only paying $4 per hour for training though, but after that is $6.
sians.. hp bill $101... zzz. lol.
oh ya, ju is beri cute todae.. she ask, eh go pulau ubin need passport? LOLLLLLLLLLLL.
and when i saw 24/7, she ask har? tuesday thursday sunday? den i look at her. den she oh, 24hrs a day, 7days a week.
god.
9:01 PM
went to telok blangah hill for fireworks.. sadly to say, we can only see tiny mini fireworks as its too far away, and duno which blardy building blocked most of it. -.-
but still, we had a good time. we celebrated mel's bd between the 4 of us - me, dear, alvin n mel of coz. i was responsible for diverting mel's attention when alvin "prepare" the cake n stuff.. lol. but tat mel ah, suddenly turn back to look at alvin! hai me let alvin scold. lol.
anywya.. pics~!
me n dear~
mel n alvin, with our cake!
mel with sparkles~
mel n cake. lol
me n mel
nice hor? hahaha.
oh ya, in the middle is the cake
dear n alvin. look like couple take photo hor? dear specially step dw 1 step of the stairs leh. haha
alvin. so handsome hor? LOL. happy bo alvin? haha i praise u leh. lol
tuesday (NDP):
we were driving at ecp.. den alot of cars stopped at the side, YES, in the middle of ecp expressway towards rochor exit.. coz can c fireworks at both marina n padang mah.. haha. so dear park there oso n we climb over the barrier (coz beside is for pedestrian to walk wan). alot of ppl n cars sia.. all take out their camera getting ready. there were 3 lanes + 1 shoulder lane.. all the cars squeeze n park, oni the last lane can be used for driving. lol
super nice n clear fireworks sia. here it comes~
Wednesday:
celebrating mel's birthday.. we head to fish n co for dinner, without her knowing of coz. haha. had quite a fun time over there. after that we sua to ktv!!! reached hm at ard 2+am. ok pictures coming up!
wendy n me!
monica, jeanette, juliana n wendy
mel, jean, mon, ju, me, wendy
mel n wendy
ju, mon, jean, wendy at mac
ju, mon, jean, wendy at mac
ju n wendy
ju n mon
jean n wendy
jeanette
the ladies~ bottom: jean, mon, ju, wendy. top: mel n me~
jean, mon, ju, wendy
our cake for mel~
alvin n mel
me n mel
all of us!
thursday:
after my tuition, go mel's void deck ther sit dw n tok.. nth much lo.. went back at ard 1+am..
friday:
meet up with alvin n mel again at lailai for some billiard. lol. after that my hse mj~~~
saturday (todae):
finally epl started!! though cannot bet, but i juz wanna watch! i miss soccer! lol. they r here again at my place for mj with roy n dear's pri sch classmate.
tml maybe go marina there c fireworks.. hehee. but gt f1 leh!~~
so.. nw u guys noe y i so long nber blog? i've been so bz this wk. i've not been home every night for a wk! i missed all my tv shows! lol.
finally blog finished..
anyway, i've change my tagboard. pls tag ok!
4:36 PM
meanwhile, will be searching for new skins n will be posting alot of pics.
5:32 PM
went lor 9 for beef horfun.. saw lydia sum n huang hui... huang hui quite tall actually... n lydia sum dun look tat fat
anywya.. will be posting pics!!
melissa n me~
kevin n monica, not forgetting her presents from kev!! so sweet
monica n kevin
kevin n monica
kevin n dear, doing something silly. lol
ju, me, mel n wendy. lol
me, mel, monica n juliana~
jeanette, wendy, me n mel
jeanette, wendy, me n mel
forfeit! jeanette kissing the pool ball
dear's face kana chalk as forfeit! lol
mel, dear n ju, doing something farnie
dear trying to be farnie. lol
dear -.-
dear and me
alvin's forfeit, 4 triangle!! c he smile until so sweet. LOL
alvin's forfeit again, 2 triangles!
wendy and jeanette!
monica n ice-cream. lol.
mel, wendy, ju n jeanette. siao hor? LOL
mel n me!
