Something crappy happened ytd while I'm in the office's lift -.-
scare the shit outta me. zZz.

I think June 2010 is gonna be a scary month for me ):
first 2 weeks predicted to be stressed for work, while the next 2 weeks for presentation. sighs.
It isn't becos work hadn't been stress, but it's just that, my S will be away for the whole of nn week.
I told her I'm scared, and she replied, she's afraid too... lols :/ funny woman.
(cos everyone's so busy with their own client too. blahhhs.)
She's been explaining and making sure that I understand. but, I'm really really scared..
Scared that I will do smth wrong, or missed some steps. sigh.
My memory do fail me, even though I've my notes with me.
Next week will be a busy week, nice. (:
I guess, things will work out somehow.

I'm already so lack of sleep this week, but still going to volunteer for some lame event.
Deprives me of my sleep from sat to sun ):
Foresee another tiring week it's gonna be...

And, this week was crap.
When you're over concern, i find you irritating. -.-
i think i'm so lol... =.=

oh yeah, watched "the losers" earlier this week with jiahui.
the movie was nice, but I was trying v v hard to keep my eyes open.
Really drained after days & nights of report.

Somehow I just felt weird to be blogging about how sian (not bored that sian...) I am. Sigh.
I do seems to be having a great time. Oh well.

When there's gain, there's bound to be loss.

I was kinda happy ytd night.
I always thought we'll be stranger unless I'm taking initiative.
So unexpected (:
Sad to say, I really don't like to take initiative.
Idk why I just feel awkward. Even if I do, I will be considering for more than a week -.-
Some asked me 'why', and I replied 'because I'm fine with it.'
I don't mind to be home everyday after work. Perhaps ba.

Year 3 huh. To think the pioneer batch has come to the final year.

Did something quite meaningful this week. I considered for almost one whole week, but am glad it turns out well.
The little gesture really works out well. (:
At the same time, realize that the lunch group is beginning to split up. And me ps-ing them for quite a number of time... :/

Last but not least, that fat ass finally came looking for us. Although I am not very enthu or looking forward to lend my helping hand, the day still came. SIGH MUCH.

Actually, I was referring to you. But I didn't intend to let you know, and neither do I know how to phrase it to you.

Idk to feel sian a not to blog. After writing a few pages long report for every week, I am starting to feel tired of the words.
Perhaps it's just because my life is just work and home, and it repeats.
Perhaps I hate myself for my poor language, and the post just seems to summarize my day.
Perhaps it's because I've been talking/sharing too much during the weekdays. No matter happy, angry or sad, I will have different people to share the different emotions.
I will share things that I think can be shared, and sometimes, matured people really give good advices.
I'm also glad that I'm finally approachable by people, at least I know they really share with me something that is not to be known to everyone else. Even though they know I suck at words.

After all, it's a workplace. There are bound to be some bitches that I really hate. Sigh, that's all I can say.
Overall, I still think that I'm happy working there. At least, it's the first place that I felt so belonged, and no longer felt like a substitute, or a 2nd choice. Although Hewitt was good too, but still, I'm the third choice. Sigh much. I am that negative. You know, I'm not just referring to work, but I'm also comparing it to my life. How honored it should be to be my first, after I had lived for 19 years. I feel sad for myself.
You have to be there to understand.

Because I am packed with work to do everyday. Really stress at times, but still okay ba.
Week by week, it's really going fast.
Think I'm only one of the few that is not looking forward to August 6.