It shouldn't be hard, not hard at all, to donate blood.
But I have never done it. In my entire life, I have avoided it. In my defense, I had valid excuses for a long time because most of my life I've been anemic. But since my surgery, that excuse got removed. So I've been clinging to the excuse that I would pass out.
In spite of the fact that I have blood drawn for tests quarterly (welcome to diabetes), without batting an eye now. In spite of the fact that I work around blood at work without it phasing me anymore. In spite of the fact that with my wealth of experience that comes with each passing year, I have endured all kinds of bloody, gory things and survived. In spite of it all, I still cling to the excuse that I would pass out.
Ok, so in walks some brainy idea that I can accomplish 60 major goals before I turn 60, right? And one of them is to do two major service projects in that time. Now nobody is forcing me on this. My own choice, right? So I decide the projects, in order for me to really feel satisfaction in doing them, need to be something I really, really do NOT want to do, something that will require me to truly sacrifice and stretch myself.
So come Sunday, when the sign-up sheet was passed around one more time for our stake blood drive, I found myself actually writing my name on it. Really? Me? I decided it would be a major thing for me to donate blood six times between now and my birthday, and I'd better get going on it if I was to be successful with this service project.
And had been dreading yesterday ever since.
There was a message from the Red Cross reminding me of my appointment Brent told me I needed to listen to. Like I would forget? Like I really needed reminding of this huge dark cloud looming over me each day??? And then the vampires even suggested that I consume extra protein for the experience as well as keep well hydrated.
The closer I came to 7:00 o'clock the more nervous I got. Could I really do this? I talked Brent into coming with me. I just knew I was going to need a driver after I passed out. He was a good sport and came. After all, he hadn't signed up, right? He could just sit back and visit with people and laugh. Sometimes, I think he gets a hidden pleasure out of watching me suffer.
In fact, we went out EARLY, he was so excited. We arrived at the Stake Center and walked into the cultural hall which had been transformed into vampi..., er, blood donation, centers. I just wanted to get it over with at this point. I could feel my heart pounding and head getting lighter. But, no, there is the screening. I didn't know that when you donate blood you need to allow an hour for screening. All the questions - have you ever paid to have sex, have you had sex with more than one partner, have you ever had sex with another male (for males, only), have you.... how many ways can they ask if you might have HIV???? It would have been nice to have an exclusionary question to begin with - were you a virgin at marriage and married to a virgin, and have you lived in a monogamous relationship your entire life? If yes, then skip to question 120.
The nice part about the questions was it gave me a minute to sit back and catch my breath before hitting the vampire couch. My blood was healthy. I passed the screening. No excuses. I was committed now. This was it. The next hurdle was going to be if they could find a vein to stick the needle into. That's always an issue with me. But after fiddling with my arm, marking a spot, wiping that mark off and trying again, getting someone to come and confirm it as being viable (all this time I'm squeezing a rubber ball and my arm is growing number by the seconds), the lady was actually able to hit it on the first stick. Yay! And it worked. At that point, all I had to do was sit back and let the blood flow.
I did start to get a headache. I think it was from nerves more than anything else. Another worker put ice packs under my neck and on my chest. Then I started to shiver. He told me to cough, that would keep my blood circulating. Really? But coughing actually did help. Hmmm, never knew that before. But I was still shivering, I think mostly from my nerves.
Before I knew it, however, my machine was beeping, my bag was full. I was mostly done! I really did it! I didn't pass out, I didn't throw up, my blood wasn't rejected (yet, at least. There are still more tests to be done on it, but I'm pretty sure they will pass with flying colors) and there is one more pint of A+ blood on the shelves for a few weeks in case someone needs it.
I cannot describe the joy I felt at being successful at this. Nobody can even imagine how scary this was for me! (Except maybe Brent. Notice he did not donate - that was because he was worried I would have to drive
him home if he did. That's okay. Maybe next time he'll try it, again, too. He had a bad experience last time he tried it.) I feel like I can do anything right now. Amazing!
And today I posted on Facebook that I am really grateful my blood is healthy enough to donate. What a sweet blessing that is! I will be back.