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"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 71 million, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good..
struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls --
and sometimes.. all you need is 1."
[ about me ]
. Vanessa . 18 yrs old
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. loves to walk..why? problem of car sickness..lol . D.O.B05/10/89
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. slacker
. chubbby..lol
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[ currently ]
MOOD : happily slacking
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READING : 5 people i met in heaven - Mitch Albom
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LISTENING : all music except technos
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[ loves ]
. myself . everyone who loves me . chocolates
. teh ice
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. stay out and dream . jigsaw puzzle
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.watching soccer CHELSEA!!! . Without a trace
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.Phantom of the oprea
. movies
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. CSI
. amazing race . My ChubX
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[ wishlist ]
. found happiness . peace . everyone finds their loves one .
.and pp they loves decides to love them back
. able to dream dare do..
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Everyone wants to be free, everyone demands freedom. The freedom to love, to dream, to be happy, to be sad and to live without wearing a mask. There are six billion people in the world, six billion souls, how many of them are leading the life they yearn for? How many of them can shed their mask?
I want to be free.
To be free from darkness, free from my mask. As a person grows older, it seems to be natural that you no longer has the right to cry, having a shoulder to depend on or make stupid mistakes in life. We are told not to bring unhappy emotions to work, must be able to stand up on your own, having the ability to always make the right choice and choosing the right path.
If you ask me what kind of freedom I want. It is a no-brainer question, I want to be me. I want to cry like a baby when I am sad, I want to ask for help when I am clueless, I want to have someone to tell me is okay when I make mistakes. All these seems easy, but truthfully, it is the hardest thing to do. Nobody can live how they want to be, nobody can contol whether to be hate or to like by someone, no one can stops a person from leaving or appearing in your life. Maybe, freedom is juat a wishful thought, no one can be really free and control how they want their life turns out to be.
Someone once told me one can only be really free when no longer having any desires. I will not need to study the subject I hate most if I do not want to have a job, I can choose to do anything I want if I can not care what other people think of me. I can say I am willing to give up anything to be me but with so many temptation and judgements in this world, maybe I will never be ready to be free. There are countless people that can be on the top of the world, there may not be a single person that is lucky enough to achieved the freedom in being the person they want.
I figured the question is never what kind of freedom or how much freedom I want, is how much I am willing to give up to achieved that kind of freedom. Will this day ever come?
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flying towards my dreams
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Bloomingdale's
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Enjoy! (^.^)
[ i quote ]
"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 71 million, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good..
struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls --
and sometimes.. all you need is 1."
[ about me ]
. Vanessa . 18 yrs old
.
. loves to walk..why? problem of car sickness..lol . D.O.B05/10/89
.
. slacker
. chubbby..lol
..
[ currently ]
MOOD : happily slacking
.
READING : 5 people i met in heaven - Mitch Albom
.
LISTENING : all music except technos
.
[ loves ]
. myself . everyone who loves me . chocolates
. teh ice
.
. stay out and dream . jigsaw puzzle
.
.watching soccer CHELSEA!!! . Without a trace
.
.Phantom of the oprea
. movies
.
. CSI
. amazing race . My ChubX
.
[ wishlist ]
. found happiness . peace . everyone finds their loves one .
.and pp they loves decides to love them back
. able to dream dare do..
.
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