July 6 we had our repeat ultrasound.
My heart stopped a second time. Why is this happening?
Ava's heart was no longer beating. We have two angel babies and zero living babies. Ava Theresa was born silently at 0936 p.m. July 7, 2012. She was 8.3 oz and 8.5" long. She was tiny and perfect. Ryan says she looks just like me--with my eyes and she definitely had my long fingers and toes.
We had a small service in our hospital room the next day before I was discharged from the hospital. It was perfect. My already fragile heart is broken once again. I was terribly scared that this would happen again, but I was optimistic that things would be ok. Lightening couldn't possibly strike twice.
I don't even know what to say, think or do. My heart hurts...so much.
Bear with me, it’s been a while.
8 years ago
