Wednesday, 31 December 2008

2008 highlights!!

January ~ Merdeka!
Pinkie completed her a-levels after 1.5 years finally and she's venturing into a higher level for her education level. Results were out and the fruit was a lovely and delighted one. At least nites of midnite oil burning, relapsed weight, accelerating pressure breeds desirability.. At least pinkie had accomplished her mission for 2007 and is able to face the crowd. Although ALE is quite hectic, it was a reminiscent too, formed close knits with a great bunch of friends esp like crystal and farmine ^-^



February ~ Valentine
An impulsively romantic month i would say.. :D



March ~ The political tsunami
March 8 general election was the defining moment in Msian history. The long-leading BN resulted in great loss of 5 states and this is out of expectation. The avalanche showed msians to the light of an alternative government and brought msia a step closer to a fairer system. Hopefully, citizens are the category who benefits. Dear voter, the incoming election determine Msian's political landscape in the nx decade. And me, is going to implement my responsibility and right to vote, for the first time ^-^

April ~
Daddy had finally fulfilled his promise n got us a new house in BBT. Finally hmm.. Showhouse-travelling-weekends had come to an end finally.. I can now start to plan how my new room should look like.. Pink? PUrple? Green? White?

May ~ A taste of teacher's day
Stepped into the compound of Acmar Primary in the beginning of the year and pinkie is back to school again. But tis time, taking the role of a mandarin teacher instead of student. Time to take revenge, keke.. Since mandarin is not a core subject, students are learning the language for fun and interest. Subsequently, pressure was less but preparation is definitely compulsory. The greatest thing was to get to know a great bunch of kids who are happy, simple and kind. FOr instance, sherry ann and my 3 charlie angels. Had great fun sharing cultural stories, myths and legends, jokes, art skills, experience and games... Used to givin gifts during teachers' day, n now it's the first time receiving gifts.. THanx to all the lovely students..



June ~ THe making of Global turmoil
The announcement of increase of petrol and diesel price by 78 cents to RM2.7 and by RM1 to Rm2.58 respectively had hit the msians extremely hard. People suddenly found themselves in hot water coping with inflation with the sudden boost. Vehicles are in long queues in every petrol stations one night before the announcement took effect. Consequently, prices of other items such as foodstuffs and others also toppled up. Fortunately, price of crude oil slowly return to its initial state and thanks, as if relieves burden of consumers. The effect of global financial crisis is here to come and people should be starting to tighten their bellies to save for the rain.



July ~ ANother teaching sensation
from my alma matter. Taken the role as a replacement teacher for a standard 6 class. This is the first time having a taste of form teacher, taking attendance, dealing with documentation, upsr registration, n having closer friendships i would say with the students. Students here are very disciplined, polite and smart. But there r few naught ones that i could remember too. One of the most significant one is how i beat Sheng Jin until my wooden ruler broke into two. N got to teach new subjects like Mathematics, which i m more confident in, bcuz maths is utterly objective. N of course not forgetting lovely gifts from caring students and bunch of letter from the usually-naughty-and-playful students that are very very touching.. Im glad that my effort and sharings did touch into their hearts n they r willing to change to improve themselves.. Critically, i rmb each n every of their's names..




August ~ Vibrant scene
People around the globe were fascinated and amazed by the official opening of Beijing Oympics 2008. China had used to occassion to showcase its rich culture and dazzling display which lit up the sky. Images of the Bird's Nest stadium, the fireworks, the cultural dances, the Chinese gymnasts and divers are stil in mind. Not forgetting Michael Phelps who bagged the record of 8 golds in his events. Most importantly, is the precious and 'heavy' silver medal delivered by our Dato Lee Chong Wei. Although his defeat was not a memorable one, but it was still the first medal for msia, and hopefully, there will be more.


September ~ Hello to UK
This is the most dramatic turn in my life-- overseas study. All the while, UK is such a faraway place to me. Initially, i really cant believe im heading to uk for studies. A 12-hour journey took my all the way home to this new, exciting place. I got a very pretty n cosy room, which i always indulge myselves in. In addition to this, I ve slowly grow to be more independent and strong, i can cook, i can handle my own daily life, i started doing simple house chores, but simultaneously, i miss home dearly.




October ~ Blending in
Lessons had started n pinkie is back to a student again. UK is very pretty and clean. But weather is extremely cold.. Study culture is slightly different, where self-study has gradually played a pivotal role and general knowledge esp on current issues has become more n more vital. It's really time to keep ur minds down n start studyin seriously. Gambate!


People around are very helpful and friendly.



My first halloween..





November ~ Fresh hope
Barack Obama swept a historic election victory that made him America's first black president. His victory brought new hopes has not only given hope to the americans but also to minority communities in the nation. America's Obama stood out in 2008, what about malaysia's? 2080? or 2800?



December ~ Home Sweet Home
After 2.5 months of homesickness, pinkie is back to home again. I began to realise that u ll onli really appreciate sthing after losing it. Spend lots of happy n sweet moments with my family. I noe i willl miss them a lot when i go back to UK, daddy's cuddly jokes, mummy's dishes, playing n tackling with sisters etc, etc.

End note:
2008 is supposed to be a very prosperous year, since figure '8' is considered as sthing good to the CHinese. However, it ended up as a year full of war, natural disasters n the global downturn which actually deteriorates the overall outlook for the year. I have a very big wish for this year:

"I yearn for peace and safety. "

Saturday, 27 December 2008

leading the bloggers

Apparently my sisters read this blog.. N now they are setting up their own.. Adding gadgets, hunting for lovely backgrounds and templates.. Imagine a 12 year old gal is doing these..

I felt bit upset and embarrassed.. I duno if this is a good thing or otherwise.. I duno what to write and what i can write anymore.. It that the end to pinkie secrets??

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

the best is home

It's so nice to be at home, n doing things that i ve not done for two and a half months, there's complete satisfaction.. Seeing everybody at home, yummy food, shopping, christmas, astro, driving, vacation.. What with cousins n relatives coming all the way to spend a few days with me.. I feel im a princess again..

:D

Thursday, 11 December 2008

happy christmas birmingham

Im utterly glad and grateful that im sitting in my room, ranting about the delightful journey in birmingham on friday. So that drew a beautiful ending to the fall term..



I would describe birmingham as a beautiful and more advanced compared to little coventry, with greater sense of city life and modernisation. But at the same time, culture is preserved and the overall balance is good.

Had my first train journey in uk and honestly, that's nthing much different from msia trains. The first place we explored was chinatown. Was rather disappointed bcuz it was simpler than wat i expected. It's onli few streets with most of the chinese restaurants rather than groceries or sthing being more cultural.

Forget about chinatown for the time being, i heard manchester and london have better ones. Wil test the hypothesis some day. Anyway, headed over to bullring after that. Bullring is a renowned shopping complex in birm and it got its name due to its structure. Couldnt snap the impressive 'bullring' thou, but sum panoroma of it as return..


The climax of the day was in the german christmas market. As the name appeals, it was onli available during dec hence im proud that we visited birm at the right and best time.. Christmas decorative elements were ubiquitous, n everyone could feel the excitement of christmas..


Busy streets were thronged with people indulging themselves in the christmas atmosphere..



Hehe.. food was the greatest temptation thou.. Had a potpourri of german food with royce, leaving behind the warning of fat and excessive carbohydrate.. First had a taste of deep fried cheese strongly recommended by some of them.. Fantastic!!


Supposely with the heart shape it shud taste sweet, but it's salty indeed.. Tat's pretzel..




Thirdly was german sausage, which is the pride of germans.. U can imagine how delicious it was :D

We also tried the fruit coated chocolate.. Forget the specific term of it.. Tis is very special n i really enjoyed it..


Had the juicy strawberry and banana brown choc..


And more!! Waffles, nuts, fried mushrooms as well as fried potatoes.. (More pictures with explanation could be found in pinkiecloud's facebook) .Food was fabulous and pockets are burnt with holes at the same time.. Fortunately, royce and me decided to share everything, hence that's minimal cost with maximum utilisation and almost full satisfaction =)
Of course other than food, there are other attractions in the german market. For instance, crafts, decorative elements, toys, keychains, paintings, ornaments, accessories, chocolates, candies etc etc. Speaking of these, i bought a pinkie scarf from a lady in one of the stalls there.. Generally, it resembles our 'pasar malam'.. We had great fun n our digestive systems were to suffer from it.. Ello, I promise that it's just going to be once in a while k..

The 'goodbye' german speciality: The garlic bread.. Decided not to take the one with salami bcuz royce said that salami is the most unhealthy meat.. Sorry salami.. But it was great albeit it's just bread with garlic and cheese..


I guess there's more than enuf for a post, or else both u n me will have our salivas all over the table.. Haaa.. Anyway sorry for the late update. The reason for this is that i tend to be deprived from online ever since im home bcuz there too many action plans to do be done, too much wants to be satisfied while being abroad, too much lv for my family n friends, but too little time to fulfill all of it. Oh no, those who r away home wil definitely hate me now. Anyway, wil strive to keep u guys informed of happenings around. Gotta 'meet' my roti canai ade.. =P

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

welcome home

Thanks to mr pilot who brought me all the way home..
Im here finally..
Wil continue to update asap..
But for the time being, let me hv these smileys to capture my happiness and pleasure..
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Friday, 5 December 2008

a week enriched with hope 'n pleasure

So it's 10 at nite and I ve finally survived the rather long and stressful thursday. Albeit 6 hours lecture, all the rushing n running around (in the zero plus minus two temperature).. The wind was extremely cruel, i could hear my ears, fingers and nose shouting and complaining about the cold. Oh ya, it snowed a bit on tue morning.

But on the brighter note, it's such a relief that mcq test was dealt with. Haven been examined for bt a year ade.. It turned out not too bad either.

I would say this week is my happiest week ever since. I enjoy reminding myself that it's just one more week from home. How much i hope that time stops here so that time to go home is not approaching, hence time to come back is not so soon too..

Funny though, I thought that with the end of the test, my brain will be relatively empty and carefree. But new thoughts seem to be swirling in my mind: my essays-to-be-done, my packings, my groceries-to-be-finished...

Leaving these alone, i shud be on the lovely holiday mood now! Get ready for packing n dancing home with glee =)

Monday, 1 December 2008

aspirations

A msn conversation with yong tonight made me realise that im losing the momentum that saw me through before i came up warwick. Absolutely absent from high expectations and ambitious dreams.. Guilt is growing intensely in my body when i see everyone puttin their hard (extremely hard) toils in pursuing their studies upon achieving their desired ambitions.

There's no drive or motivation to keep going. Have been just thinkin for time to pass, and time to go home to arrive. Waiting for lectures to end, exams to pass (jz to pass..).. I wonder what's wrong with me..

Initially i would say tat it appeared to be a positive thing, where i can jz enjoy my learning process n uni life here. No pressure to do well, no more burning of midnight's oil, no more cryins at nite while tryin to memorize the lines in the textbooks during exam period..

But in reality, it's not. It's not.

It's time to have a good talk to myself n find out the root of the problem now. I know, i know, the study culture is different here. Jz try to pick up with it asap n make the best out of it.. U would definitely like to be a successful career lady, wouldnt u?


Got to keep reminding myself that excellence was one of the goals i set out to achieve by going overseas to study. This is a golden opportunity given to me n i shud grab it tightly..

Stop procrastinatin my dear. Stay focus and dont walk off the track..

devil: But it's last week for the term already =(

angel: But dont u forget that u r having a mcq exam tis week???!! Start working now!!

devil: But it's just mcq, n consists of onli 20 questions..

angel: It's stil an exam, n it's counted towards ur module marks..

devil: Yes i know. But it's just 15%..

angel: Dont u want the 15%?? Fine, if u dont want it, just carry on procrastinatin, dreaming n wanderin around..

devil:(speechless)

The angel won n pinkiecloud is taking out her lecture notes..

endless

So i had another skype call fraught with tears, which made me think about how i came all the way overseas, and how the clutches can still stretch so far. i don't know. i guess it's the ties that bind, and you really can't run away from it. neither do i think i really want to, deep down inside. after all, heartstrings can't be cut that easily.

I always thought skype was invented to be a happy thing.
And that if there are tears involved, they are tears of joy.

Funny how I keep getting proven wrong;
Time and time again.

I'm tired of this.

Saturday, 29 November 2008

the new record

For the first time this week, I actually have a straight record of zero days of cryins.. Tis is largely due to the reason that i ll be home soon. On a very happy note, im very glad to remind myself that it's just one more week to go.. :D

Another pivotal reason -- all my lovely friends. Thank you to everyone who cheered me up in their own little way these two weeks. That's very very sweet n kind of u.. Esp tat u either hv to stay awake late at nite o made the effort to wake up from ur dreams early in the morning to skype with pinkiecloud. Thank you very, very much.

After all these, i decided to reward myself giddily with a better n more luxurious meal. This is also in corporation with the 20% discount from xanana (esp if u study economics, u should be aware that tis a good deal that u shudnt have missed, esp when u perform calculations on currecy conversions)..

My supreme of salmon..


Stir fried ciabatta..


Burger special..


Actually we also had the very nice banoffee waffle as dessert.. One of the very famous desserts here.. It's a Belgian waffle topped with sliced banana, vanilla ice cream and drizzled with toffee sauce.. One of the best dessert i ve ever had. Sorry that i couldnt show u an image of it, i forgot to take a snap of it.. ): Sorry..

Honestly speaking, tis was my second meal in xanana ever since i came to warwick. I shud admit that im quite reluctant to spend on outside food. Jz bcuz pinkiecloud rather spend it on somewhere else n pinkiecloud thinks that her cookin is stil not too bad yet =P

Guess these pictures attribute to good eyecandy for my blog.. Wil take more (meaning hv to eat at outside more??) nx time..
Take care =)

Monday, 24 November 2008

supper-supper

Have been updatin n replyin to emails today. Think i ve gained weight now.. Duno.. Perhaps anyone could tell me if im more chubby n fat now?



Haha.. I think late-nite suppers are my soulmate now.. Chocolates, cookies, cereals, muffins, bread, candies, tidbits, fruits, yoghurt, wedges, fries etc etc... Have been happily enjoyin suppers almost every nite.. Tats y i gained weight i think.. But it's very pleasurable to have supper, esp when i was watching drama, sittin on the chair with my legs tugged in, it was like the best time for the day (other than skype).. But i should really stop eatin junk, sum day, for health purposes, n otherwise im going to be fattie yunyun :)

Thx to joanna who came over to hv dinner n chit-chat with me.. N brought me delicious muffins from BB's. Well, I hope my black pepper chicken was not too bad..

Was expecting snow today.. According the forecasts, strong winds from the north MIGHT bring snow.. Oh yeah, 'might', so it's not sthing wrong when in the end there was no snow.. Hopefully i ll have snow days again nx term..

Drawing close to the end of the weekend, the unproductive weekend i shud say.. But im glad at least im not cryin again tis time, im ramblin about little things but that brought me SUPER happiness.. I ve been refraining myself from talkin about the perils, frustrative, n emos..

Guess this more or less sums up tis week. Wil be steppin on the grounds of msia in two weeks time.. Oh I just cant wait for the day to come :D

Sunday, 23 November 2008

a pot of warmth

Im sorry that tis would be a long post again, but a couple of things cheered me up these few days. First of all, my hat goes to crystal and wendy who made the effort to wake up early in the morning to chat with me. Was motivated a lot. N cryin reduced drastically. Thx gals, they meant a lot to me. But im sorry if i ve made ur day started with unhappiness to see a hampau cryin in the screen while having ur breakfasts..

Drama was good. Initially my heart was teared to pieces when i was informed that the website i used to stream dramas was shut down. Couldnt get any alternatives thou. Finally resorted to another blogspot n everything went off well. Managed to catch up with 'Moonlight Resonance' which was stuck half way. Im at epi 22 now.. I must say, drama really enlightened my life over here a lot. I rarely cry when i watch drama, but eversince buckets n buckets of tears ensued while watching 'Moonlight Resonance', seeing the family of 'joe bao' so happy n so close.. but me being away from daddy, mummy, and my two sisters whom i miss a lot a lot..

One of my fav is epi 14, where 'jo bao' disguised himself to cheer her daughter 'ah hing' up, singing the warm n fuzzy 'fen fen zhong sui you nei', one of my fav songs.. It made me tot of daddy who always tell us super funny bed time stories.. I watched the scene for at least 10 times ade.. But of course, dramas really helped to drive my sorrows away. Sometimes i was hesitatin whether to sacrifice one hour for drama, but it proves to be really worthwhile. At least after tat i can study better, have a better mood, n head to bed sweetly, grinning in glee.. ^-^

Also, caught a glimpse of klang wonderland from the pics on the online paper. This is the place that i love n miss very very much.. My homeland =)Please dun misunderstood that klang is so dirty o doesnt look like a city. It is indeed a very lively n happy city, jz that due to construction that had gone on for more than a year, traffic is gettin worse n worst.. But rainbow after rain, im sure klang wil turn to an even beautiful place after all these upgrades.. Nevertheless, im Definitely proud to be klangites =P


So much of feelins came up when i saw tis pic. This is the road i used to drive on almost everyday. How much i wish tat im jamming there with the other motorists now..


Got the fantastic idea of motivation from wendy, i wrote about ten messages n hung them around my room.. In mandarin though.. SO that not everyone, esp the cleaners can read them?? Keke.. But the genuine reason underlyin shud be i love expressin myself in mandarin more, it's very romantic n expressive to me. Half way thru writin i did cry, but now i keep on reminding myself to be strong n tough.. TO be aware that im very blessed indeed as i can cum to uk, n oso go home so often..

Another cheerup: My first taste of hotpot in uk. Blindly joined the china in focus for a hotpot dinner in coventry yesterday. Tell u wat, i expected lots of chinese to join the event, yet it ended with all the caucasians.. N the best part is, they could speak mandarin.. Omg.. I was utterly stunned n impressed.. Their mandarin were fluent n they could share stories bout themselves in mandarin! N they loved the Chinese culture. Im so glad. So for the whole night, we converse in mandarin n it was really cool..

However, the hotpot wasnt really nice though.. These pictures shall tel u the stories..

That's the 'pot', made up of two soups, one is herbal soup, n another is a spicy soup, but it seems its just some chilly oil.. Very different from the one we usually have in msia..


N when they add the soup, they add purely hot water instead of the real soup like in msia.. So the soup actually ended up getting tasteless-er and tasteless-er..


Secondly, the 'ingredients' to be put into the hotpot. There were mussles, fishballs, sausages, seaweeds, 'dong fen', 'dou gan' etc.. But stil different from ours..



Sum prawns, n beef.. Din eat much prawns thou, cuz i was thinkin that it's quite troublesome n i dun hv the magic skills of peeling of the prawn skins with the chopsticks..


The sauces available.. Tis was the onli one i really enjoyed, without them, the soup was almost tasteless..


The hotpot din end up tasty nor delicious anyway. It was quite bad actually, to me. Wat we have in msia is definitely a lot better i would say. It's a buffet hotpot, so there was actually a free flow of food n drinks. So i ate a lot of 'dong fun' and sausages through out as onli them seemed to be of my taste.. Each country has their own taste preference i guess..


Despite the somehow rather tasteless hotpot (actually im pretty regret tat i shud jz order a simple chinese dish instead), but it was good experience though.. N got to know a lot of new frens, who can speak mandarin.. This is julie, n spain, n her mandarin was the best amongst all.. A very friendly n jovial lady..She has a twin sister who went along tat nite too..


Me n shin li..


That's ding, from china, doing acc n finance too..Blurred by the steam.. hehe..


The atmosphere of the restaurant is pretty well.. With all the chinese paintings n decorative styles.. N the tv was showing a show of 'A date with Lu Yu' from the phoenix channel..


As u can see, everythin was quite 'chinese-styled'..


It was very kind of the driver of the restaurant to send us back (fee shall be included in our meal already), n he stopped me right in front of my flat. So i ve successfully prevented from walking back alone. N on the way, we heard the song 'tong hua' by Micheal Guang Liang. Few of us (me at least) were singing out along, n yeah.. Feelin very warm n sweet tat nite. Reached comfie heronbank at around 11. But im was an impulsive and wonderful nite =P

Sunday, 16 November 2008

Announcement:

Have really nthing much to update tis week. It was really crying, crying n crying.

I shud annouce crying as part n parcel of my life in uk. It has been sthing that i ll definitely do everyday. Sthing that i ll do very much. Omg, i dun even wash my hair everyday...

This announcement wasnt to indicate tat im very negative. Jz tat i ve been contemplatin very seriously, n i jz wont force myself to suppress my homesicknesses as i did. I ll jz let it bursts whenever it likes, 'let it be, let it be...', here sounds the song. I ll happily accept it whenever it comes n i noe time wil help me to send it off one day.

I feel like i'm turning dull from the lack of the great outdoors. Probably, probably, i ll head to london to meet up with amanda n jl nx week.

N thank you for all the support n encouragement. They meant a lot to me. I ve been reading them few times a day. I noe everyone out there wants yunyun to be cheerful n 'siao siao' again.. I ll learn to be strong..

Oh ya, Joy got straight A's for her upsr n was chosen as the model student for her batch. Im so glad.. N jane is going on full power for her spm now. Wishin jane all the best n congrats to joy.



I miss my two lovely sisters..

Wednesday, 12 November 2008

s.t.o.p

Okay, i want today's post to be a happy one. Im tired of crying to the screen. My eyes r gettin smaller n smaller, n my nose r getting redder and redder.

Apart from going lectures, these few days were entirely spent indoors. The extremely cold weather r shunning me away from steppin outdoors. I started to appreciate the warmth that little sunshine brings. It is very uncomfortable here n im finding it very difficult to survive in this weather. Of course, wasnt being very cheerful due to sickness, stressful workload n also homesickness.

Although im sad when pizza chow scolded me, but he was right thou. He reminded me that the worst experience i ve ever had shud be during my ns, though it's just for one month. Where i cant even skype with my family, where mobile phones r onli available for use during weekends, where there's no entertainment at all...... I ve overcomed the worst one, n now, im few times enjoyable n comfortable than when i was in ns, y shud i be so afraid..

These few days i ve been seriously thinking that i want to quit, but these 5 words of "I want to go home" was swallowed times after times whenever i felt like saying it. I noe i cant be so pampered anymore. N tis time dad n mum wont spoilt their daughter for the second time.

I guess one of the biggest challenges of coming overseas is to learn how to deal with all the pressures of living and studying alone. It's not as easy as it sounds. THere is no more kakak. You've got to learn how to take care of yourself properly, eat properly, sleep properly, manage ur time properly, used of being alone n lonely, take your medication on time if u r sick. No one is there to guide u, to advise u, to remind u or even to nag u.. Everything is 'DIY'.

But I suppose we all learn.



I want u all to be happy to see hampau yunyun regain happiness bit by bit. Im getting better, even the flu is gradually leaving me alone. Im sorry to lin that i couldnt get u pictures of nott. But i might stil be able to 'smuggle' into the singaporeans group n head to nott tis sat. I noe u r eagerly looking forward to hear about Nottingham and see the pretty pictures. I ll try my best.. :D

Goodbye.

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

only lonely

It's cryin day today. Im crying most of the time. Starting from i went to bed last nite, i cried, when i woke up, i cried, when i walked my way to lecture, when i had my lecture, when i walked my way back to lecture, when i cooked my lunch, when i chatted on phone, when i skype-d with jane, when i went for seminar, when i cooked my dinner, eating my fried mihun, when i washed my dishes, when i was taking shower, when i was doing my assignments, when i was arranging my clothes in my wardrobe. I never fail to cry today. I guess i ll be blind very soon.

I duno y. I shall push the blame to my PMS. Plus the very very very weather tat made me freaking cold.

Next, good if u noe mandarin, im bringin u tis song for sharing. It's jolin's 'yi ge ren'.. Yea correct, wat can one person do?



03.一个人
作曲:黄韵仁 作词:阿管

从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多尝几口想念
已经没有什么人 会埋怨

一个人 到底应该选右边或左边 (Although my bed is small..
两个人 每一次争吵都值得纪念 and i always sleep alone..)
一个人 偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人 我重新适应一切不方便 (This is 100% accurate!!)
两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
一个人 关灯看见记忆的横切面 (I opened the light, n my diary is my blog)
没有光线 过去那些情节 更明显

晴天 阴天 今天又是星期天 (Sorry, today is monday ya..)
唯一的打算是 心更乱一些 (But all the following fits me..)
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门 没差别



I noe i bore u if i jz 'pap' a video o lyrics jz like tat.. Hence hope this little bit could cheer u up, or me at least. Stay tuned!

Monday, 10 November 2008

emos and downs

Making sick is making my mood worse. I jz feel so unhappy today. I dont know y.

Jane has been accompanyin me til 2am of her time these two days. Im so touched. But once she said that she's heading to bed, i felt so reluctant. But i noe i cant be selfish to make her stay til late nite, esp when she's having her spm on tues.

K then, thx to the cold compression, fever has slipped away but flu is here to come. I couldnt hv a nice sleep last nite due to my 'stucked' nose.. Forced to breathe with my mouth when my throat was very dry too. It was terrible.

Dad n mum were 'beggin' me to approach the doctor on mon. But i dun feel like going. Other than bcuz it's troublesome, also bcuz i quite enjoy being sick. Im not going to tel u why, shall u guess?



Lectures wil begin tmr again. It's going to be week 7. ANother 3 more weeks for the day for home. I jz cant wait for the day to come. Til now, I havent like 100% like this place, although the trees r pretty, the roads r clean, the ppl r helpful, the gardens r green, n oso, my cosy little room. Pinkiecloud's sunshine n spirit r not working here. I just feel like waitin for every single day to pass.

I dont think anyone else who went overseas regretted izit.. But im kind of. To me, i really think that family plays the most pivotal part in my life.

I think im jz crappin. Despite my flu n headache. Dun worry bout me. I noe i shud stop. Hopefully the rain is going n the sun n clouds r here to cheer me up again.

Saturday, 8 November 2008

high temperature

Haha. wat a funny title for tonite's post. N even funny when i can sit here n blog whilst having fever. Im sick! Just had my first porridge in uk. =(

A million thank you to royce for taking care of me today. She lent me her thermometer, then onli i realised that my temperature was 38.8C! Is it considered very severe, i dun know, but definitely im feeling very uncomfortable now. I noe i noe, i shud have gone to rest, but i just dun feel like resting yet, i wan2 watch drama. Oh dear..

Besides that, i hv terrible cough n itchy throat. Dehydration probably? ROyce has been 'monitoring' my meals n my rest. I muz really really thank her. She has been giving me a lot of lifting hand since i came here. I feel so lucky to hv her staying nx to me.

Ya, so i wont be able to attend Nott Games tmr, wont be able to enjoy lots of lots of Msian delights that i miss a lot, wont be able to grab a picture of Nott Campus, wont be able to travel.. My opportunity cost is extremely big for being sick.

Actually i dont know how did i get sick. As i mentioned yesterday, it was quite out of sudden. Dad n mum were very worried too. Being sick at ur non-country is really painful rite, how much i wish that my mum is here to take care of me now.

Friday, 7 November 2008

Happpyy Halloweeen

Well, as the title suggests, i had my first halloween in uk on tues nite. It was proudly presented by our MSA (Malaysian Students Assocation). Initially, there r sum circumstances where we had to amend our plans at the eleventh hour bcuz it seems all the materials posted up must be fire resistant o fire proof. Moreover u cannot block all the entrances n fire exits. Of course it's perceptible tat these r for safety reasons. But luckily everything turned out quite well in the end.

Tat's michelle.. Hehe.. La la la la la.. Im not scared =P


It was a night of chills and screams and drinks and partying, supposedly, but I spent most of my time tottering around. ANyway, i didn go thru the 'ghost tunnel', as u noe, i ll definitely be horrified n make myself ashamed.. Esp when i have to walk back to my little heronbank at nite.. So i was there having a good good time watching ppl being scared..
Royce n me again..

The future lawyers (except me)..

The 'ghosts'..


Im sorry i dun hv time to upload massive photos here. But most of the guests, i would say, really took their time to dress up for the event. U can see a large spectrum of images everywhere. I shall get a costume for halloween nx time..

Okay, right now im happily sittin here bloggin. Where else i shud be studyin o completing my assignments at least. Nvm, i love bloggin bcuz it gives me time n space to 'communicate' with myself, recall my experiences n at least, hv a breather for myself.

Im sick le.. Jz started coughin n lost my voice without warning today. Tat's very bad. How could i skype without my high-pitched chickie voice. In other words, i shud even beware of my meals for these few days. I dowan it to deteriote n worsen my mood. Being sick without comfort n care of home is very very very very sorrowful..

N i have a confession to make tonite. Im feeling extremely guilty for 'fishing' during lectures. I tried to control n make myself awake but my eyes were really droppin.. THey just dont listen to me. Speaking bout this, im not certain if im pickin up with my studies now. Esp for political n philosophical modules, im kinda strugglin. Everythin is so abstract n i noe im seriously lack of general knowledge. I dun even noe where Africa, Greece, Germany etc etc r located in. N seminar readings has been giving me a huge headache bcuz i cant understand them. I went thru sentence by sentence, word by word, n try to explain it to myself. But.. the sentences jz dun make sense! N tat's y i cant participate actively n indulge myself in the debates o discussions as i myself r unsure of what am i reading. It's pretty sad. Can anyone help me plz?

Okay, it's time to 'pen off' now. Hv a nice day =)