Infertility: The diminished ability or the inability to conceive and have offspring. Infertility is also defined in specific terms as the failure to conceive after a year of regular intercourse without contraception.

Infertile. Its not a word I can honestly say I have come to terms with. I don't feel infertile. On the contrary, I feel as though I should be quite fertile. I'm young, healthy, and ready. Furthermore, all tests thus far indicate that we should be fertile, so am I really considered "infertile". According to the definition above, apparently yes. And although I have been dutifully trudging toward the RE, which will in my mind solidly my infertility status, I can honestly say I don't really believe this is happening. (or more appropriately put, not happening).

I am increasingly more hopeful that we will be able to get pregnant on our own. Why? No idea. After hearing stories of people getting pregnant after their HSG, or right after they made their RE appointment, I feel like  we should get pregnant. right? I mean if the stars were going to align, it should be this post-HSG-RE-appt-made-cycle. Its got to happen eventually. Why not this cycle?

And as my hopes get increasingly higher, I try to prepare myself for the possibility of another BFN cycle. For my hopes to get crushed by my own bodies inability to cooperate. Simply put... Hope Sucks. But where would we be with out it?

I just wanted to share some picts we got from the photographer who shot my sister's rehearsal dinner. The rehearsal dinner was held at the top of Aspen Mountain and was absolutely stunning.

So this week I read Midnight Sun which of course reignited my love for all things Twilight. So on that note I thought I would share this with you all!



I am rediculously excited! Hope everyone had a great weekend!

October 7th @ 9:30. Me and Dr. D have an appointment to discuss my infertility! Very exciting.

I have some forms that I have to fill out and I need to get my medical records from my OB. Seems like we're moving forward!!

Today I got out of bed at 5:45 and went to Jazzercise. Its a start. Now I just need to keep going. :-) A friend of mine from my MBA program teaches the 6am class at the Jazzercise studio down the street, so I thought I'd give it a try. I must say it was really fun! I've always loved classes, over the gym. Something about having other people around me, makes me more committed to actually doing the whole work out. I mean who wants to be the girl who leaves half way through a class?!? So I think I'm going to sign up for the monthly pass. I really liked it and feel great this morning (and a little sore).

The above picture closely resembles where I work. Cube-land as I like to call it. And the problem with cube-land is it makes it very hard to get anything of a personal nature done. We sometimes pretend like we can't hear everything our neighbor is saying, but the truth is if you are having a conversation with in a two cube radius of me I probably know exactly what you're saying.

My mom is a Dr, and has a friend/colleague who is an RE at our local fertility clinic. I looked up his information and was happy to see that their clinic had email contact info. Living in cube-land, email communication is key to getting personal things done. So last Friday, I sent in a "information request" from their clinic website. Within 2 minutes I got a response back from the clinic asking if this was a appointment for infertility and telling me that the Dr was in my preferred office location on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. So I quickly responded back that yes this is for infertility and Tuesday or Wednesday would be good (I asked for a mid October appt). Then nothing... no response. I emailed her yesterday to check in. Still no answer. So I guess I am going to have to take to my cell phone and the hallway in another attempt to make a appointment. Hopefully I will have good news to report soon!

Because if you had walked into my house today, you would have thought it was the 1800's. I spent about 3 hours this afternoon polishing silver. My aunt recently handed down our family silver to me. It hadn't been cleaned in quite a while, so today I decided to devote some serious time and elbow grease to get it back into shape. I will now subject you all to pictures of my newly polished silver because someone needs to admire it, and my husband was less then enthusiastic.





The pattern is Royal Danish:


Hope everyone had a great weekend!

So I am home from my HSG. It went well, but was bit more painful than I anticpated (I couldn't take Advil/Tylenol before hand because of blood work I had today). Both tubes are totally clear which is the good news. My OB thinks I should try a few more cycles (until the end of this year) because the HSG might do the trick. If I'm not KU by then she suggest putting me on clomid which she does not do monitoring with (I asked at my last appt).

So basically I know I won't do clomid with her b/c I won't take it without monitoring. So my question to my faithful blog readers is should I go ahead and schedule an appt with a RE or wait it out a few more cycles. One part of me feels like just skip to the RE now since that's where I'm going to end up either way. The other part of me feels like she is the Dr. so I should listen to her and wait it out a few more cycles. Thoughts/opinions?

On a side note I finally got my clotting blood work done so hopefully they can figure out why I am bruising so much. YAY!

I started spotting over the weekend and right on time Today CD1 has arrived. I'm trying really hard to focus on the positive. I have my HSG Thursday, and really hope to get some answers from that. If nothing shows up on that I will schedule my RE appointment. At the end of that day at least that's some progress, right?

And by it I mean SEC football. And so begins the 4 month struggle in our household for control of the television. Since its opening weekend and we are out of town with my sister and her husband, I gave in with out a fight. (I'm such a good wife!)

She and I played tennis and worked out, and the boys have been in front of the TV all day. The good new is our alma mater, UK, did well. The bad news is we have to get home from dinner in time to catch the LSU... on that note I better RUN!!

Hope everyone is having a great labor day vacation!!

I had to scroll back A LOT of post to find my last weigh in...

Weigh In Week 11
Previous Weight: 156.6 (August 13th)
Current Weight: 157.4
Lost this Week: +0.8
Total Lost: 7.6

I was really bad at my sisters wedding, and have been off the wagon since. But I got back on it this week, so here we go again!! If I can't get pregnant, I should at least look fabulous, right?

I saw this on another blog recently and it literally made me cry in my cubicle. So I thought I would share it with all of you. Get your tissues ready :-)



In other news I am in my 2WW. Not feeling at all optimistic about the cycle even though we had good timing, ect. I am looking forward to my HSG which is just over a week away.